Do you think makers of porn junk should be sued? Do you think it would be successful venture such as those suits against cigarette makers?

http://www.komonews.com/news/offbeat/-Should-pornographers-be-sued-for-damaging-society-marriages-216099541.html

"An Emotional Time" by Hothouse Flowers

It came in a dream you and I were there
You found me while I was frightened
You said change should not be difficult
You said change should lead us home
To an emotional time
Songs from the rain
Falling on our faces
And lifting the pain
To see us home

Is there a voice
To soothe the storm
I'm still learning
And you're still there

Forever beautiful

There to lead us home to an emotional time
Songs from the rain
Falling on our faces
And healing the pain
An emotional time
Songs from the rain
Calling on listeners to listen again
To see us home

An emotional time
Songs from the rain
Falling on our faces
And healing the pain

It's an emotional time
Songs from the rain
Calling on listeners
To listen again
To see us home


My brother...He will always be, "forever beautiful."

You know, when somebody is diagnosed with a terminal disease... not only do they have to go through a grieving process of their own, they then have to see it played out on each individual they face. Over and over. How wearying that must be. I wonder if they become numb to it? Or do they reconcile themselves so they're in a place of peace, coming to terms with things.

Hero and I have been asked by our new Bishop to speak in church this coming Sunday. Topics? Repentance through the Atonement and the Law of Chastity.

Anybody see the irony here for Hero & I?

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My beloved brother is in the hospital again. Major setbacks.

All night I kept having dreams with my daddy in them. I can't remember any of them but I awoke after each one. The general feeling, the general impression is that my daddy is anxiously waiting.

I don't want to analyze that because I'm not willing at this time to acknowledge... anything.

See. I'm living in denial for now.

Ugh.

My heart hurts.

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Hard to focus on writing my talk. I'm afraid that I will just blubber.

Sigh.

This blog is gloomy. I'm sorry.

Well... my husband lost his job yesterday.

We have 2 weeks left on our health insurance.

We can't file for unemployment or state benefits until 30 days are up.

While I'm a little freaked about everything, what really hurts is seeing my husband hurt.

He feels like a failure because he's unable to (in his mind) support his family.

He so isn't. But it's hard to make someone see that when they're in the midst of grief.

Father's Day is coming up and the kids and I are focusing on what makes him a 'hero' because that is what he is to our family.

I'll keep you posted as to how the day turns out. Hopefully it'll be a success. :)

Love/Hate

LOVE sunny blue skies and having a pool in the backyard.
hate kids wanting to be in the pool at least 12 hours a day.
LOVE a/c.
hate that it's expensive to run.
LOVE my daughter practices piano every day on her own.
hate that if she's not willing to do her chores, she says she has to practice and then disappears and practices. I know I shouldn't knock it because at least she's practicing but still!
LOVE that my 3y Little Man tells me, "Yer pwetty Mom" at least 5 times a day.
hate that I don't see myself that way but who am I to verbally disagree?
LOVE that we can hear coyotes at night.
hate that they congregate outside of our fence in our backyard. At least we're all in bed at that point.
LOVE that our dog, George, likes to sit at my feet under the piano bench every time I play.
hate that it has to bark when it sees someone coming up to the front door. (My studio is in the front of the house.) The dog, a mixed yellow lab & beagle, has the baying beagle voice. LOUD.
LOVE that we have such a pretty dog who is protective.
hate that we're still having to work on not barking wildly at the front door when people come over. (Ooh, a repeat. Sorry.)
LOVE that Boo becomes Dr. Boo in helping her brothers and mom be comfortable when we're sick. She's so serious about this.
hate that sometimes she gets a little bossy. haha
LOVE that my husband was able to administer a blessing to me last night and was inspired to give me a certain pain-med that typically has no effect on me. Within 20 minutes, my fever broke and my body pain went away.
hate that I still have a dehydration headache but that'll go away.
LOVE pinterest.
hate pinterest. Really, do I need to expound? ;)

Now time for the latest blessings. Our new Bishop. He's an inspired man. Our Relief Society president. She's a serious give-it-her-all type woman. A friend who is in the midst of unemployment and moving, sending money for me and another mutual friend when she knew we were both in dire straits. The mutual friend who held a yard sale to raise funds to see her ailing mother out of state giving me money from sales of my baked goods that I donated to her yard sale although I never asked for it. My ward for rallying around this mutual friend to donate yard-sale items so she could raise funds for aforesaid trip. Neighbor who provided transport for me to get my sick child at a friend's house. Same neighbor who always happily takes my 3 kids when I need a break to get rest. My calling as a Primary teacher - I was able to "move up" with my class from last year and I just love them. The parents of my piano students who are actively engaged with their kids' practicing. Truly makes a difference. People around the world who prayed for my brother who was facing a life-threatening disease. That story will be shared another time because it truly is amazing. Friends who let everyone know that somebody they know needs prayers. It is always a blessing to be able to provide service that way. Friends who comment on my blog and yes, I know that sounds selfish. Do you have any idea though how much it means to read, "I hear you and I understand."? That is pretty much all we want, is to be heard.

Love you guys.