soperwoman

assalamualaikum

ececeh. sudah mengaku woman sekarang. kahkahkah. padahal lebih kepada sedar diri.

ahmad iyyad demam. lagi.. but this entry is not about that.

perempuan. setinggi mana pun pendidikan, jawatan atau tagga gaji, she is expected to be suri rumah. at least i am still revolve around that community with such mentality.

susah padahal, to maintain such thing. especially with the in laws. oh my gaaawwwwdddd. oooppps. ok. need to stop there.

moral of the story. i am tired. i work 70-80hours per week. and you expect what?

sekian.. will blog later apabila kurang emosi.

terima kasih.

Assalamualaikum wrt wbt..

it has been a while. a very looooonnngggg while in fact. last i wrote here was nearly 2 years back. well, what to say. been busy with life. thought of just shutting this blog down tapi macam sayang plak. banyak kenangan zaman muda-mudi. ececeh..

time flies. alhamdulillah currently blessed with wonderful life. great life.

blogging sambil temankan ahmad iyyad makan. funny. feels weird to mention ahmad iyyad's life here. 1st time his name kat sini. as if he just appears out of thin air.

okay. time's up. cannot control him from throwing food around when my fingers are on this keyboard.

nanti2 blogging lagi.

time for a shopping spree. bcs none of them fits anymore =.=

i know. have been putting off buying maternity wear sampai la la ni da x de decent baju n sua yg bole pakai other than my pj's n sweatpants.. huhu.

i just realised this fact this morning bile sibuk menggeledah gerobok utk cari baju2 utk dibawak ke kursus induksi mgu depan. heh, i know some of them may be tight but omaigod terkejut sebab none of my good clothes fits anymore. totally unwearable =.=

for the past month, being a stay at home, full-time housewife, i was able to get away with wearing pj's and sweatpants all the time. yeah, even when we eat out. i know, selekeh, kan? but who cares. then, i was busy with ways to cope with my morning sickness and methods to shove food down my throat without hurting me so much. yg penting pakai baju n comfortable, nothing else matters. and i was too tired and constantly not well enough to spend my time on shopping malls to buy maternity clothes.

so that's it. have to buy something this weekend. it's a must. i cant possibly go to work in my sweatpants and pj's, can i?

our bundle of joy

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

currently on cloud 9. we went to the gp for routine antenatal visit. this time we got to see our little bean on the ultrasound scan. subhanallah, how much has it grows!

dlu ms scan bru 6weeks. cenonet je. but td, the head, the trunk, the limbs, all very apparent. i cant believe i'm growing a life inside of my body.

hubby pn ape lg excited ehehe. may be now it struck him that we really are pregnant.

despite all the sickness i went thru, the hospitalisations, the a&e referrals, all the medications, the misery and the trouble i caused, finally this is the best and most wonderful thing that happened to us so far in the pregnancy.

the baby has started kicking since 2 weeks ago, when it was just 17 weeks. i know, quite early for a primigravida. but i think it's a good thing since i can now focus on feeling the little thumps our baby is sending me every now and then, instead of all the nausea, fatigue and misery..

i have nothing to say but subhanallah, alhamdulillah, allahuakbar..

may He ease our journey thru n thru.

because growing a baby is definitely not an easy thing to do

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

pagi yang mendung, semuram dan sesuram hati ini. eceh. but true. somehow the weather pictures my current state of emotion.

xtau lah, may be it's the pregnancy, may be it's the homesickness, may be it's the loneliness.

yes, pregnant women are more sensitive. plus, i miss home so much. dah over a month x blk johor to see the beloveds. and to be honest, i feel so left out skrg. my friends, most of them has already start serving the hospitals, fulfilling our mutual dreams to become doctors, to help people. but i'm still stuck home.

i dont wanna say this pregnancy is a burden. may be it's my rezeki to have it this bad. earlier, i was so happy sb i dont have any morning sickness. but later, just name every single one of them, i definitely experience each.

skrg da msuk bln ke-4. things has gotten better, but still hasnt fully subsided. i'm still sick most days than not.

i know i am whining. but i am trying my best to not be ungrateful. may be i just want this to be over as soon as possible so hard and be able to be myself again.

baby, i love you so much. please grow well inside me despite my sickness. i pray to Allah everyday that you will be perfect and not affected by all the crappy drugs i am taking..

oh dear, everything is so tasteless!!

i am 16 weeks pregnant. i am hungry all the time. i crave lots and lots of food but why everything is so tasteless? the fact the i am a good cook does nothing to help. cant eat in, cant eat out. everything just taste like rubbish.

been sick since the start of this pregnancy. at times, very sick. you name it.

havent gain any weight for the pregnancy even i've passed my first trimester. in fact i lost a few kilos and they havent come back.

sangat low energy i dont know if i can do this anymore.

i have to force food down my throat most days of the week. and it has been 16 weeks now. i know i have to eat for the baby. but still, this is so hard...

hungry but cant eat, tired even though i do nothing all day, sleepy but cant sleep. even if i sleep, my body seems to be more tired.

who ever said this misery will end with first trimester, lied. because i am still miserable.

cant wait for this to pass. cant wait to give birth.

i'm hungry and i'm very tired.

i know i'm whining a lot. but if only i knew being pregnant is this hard..

i apologise for behaving like i am ungrateful. but truly, there are times when i think i cant take this anymore, even with all the support i have surrounding me. may be this is the pregnant hormones that is talking, may be this is just me, who cant tolerate such things any longer.

oh dear, everything is so tasteless!!

i am 16 weeks pregnant. i am hungry all the time. i crave lots and lots of food but why everything is so tasteless?

been sick since the start of this pregnancy. at times, very sick.

hungry but cant eat, tired even though i do nothing all day, sleepy but cant sleep.

cant wait for this to pass. cant wait to give birth.

i'm hungry and i'm very tired.

i miss me

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

mem-blogging di kala panas terik kat luar. sumpah panas gile kt cni. dah la org pregnant mmg badan panas akibat spiking level hormon2 yg ntahapape utk maintainkn pregnancy. silap haribulan boleh mati akibat heatstroke. betul, tak tipu!

dah nak 12 noon. xpe ade masa lagi sebelum nak masak. tgh hari hubby balik nak makan. hari2 hubby pesan takyah masak, kite beli je. tp masalahnye, tekak yg cerewet ni tak nak pn makan masakan luar. hubby masak pn tak lalu. hujung2 sendiri lah perlu memasak walau kadangkala badan dan perut dan tekak dan seluruh anggota tak terlarat.

okay. i'm whining. a lot. tak baik. but really, since i got pregnant, i havent feel like myself. i miss me. kdg2 jd frustrated sangat sebab jadik cmni. penat n hari2 tak sedap badan. may be this is why ibu mengandung banyak pahala. sebab memang susah sgt. so to you people yg slalu lupekan mak2 korang, insaflah. betapa susahnye mak2 korang mengandungkan korang dulu.

dah abes first trimester. but the sickness is still lingering secara hebat. i just wish i could do something about this. i want to feel me again. hari2 tak larat. hubby ajak jalan2 pn tak larat. sudahnye memeruk aje kat dlm rumah. and weekend plak buang2 tenaga mengukur highway utara-selatan to fulfill hobi kami laki-bini: balik kampung secara konsisten.

i hope time flies, nak cepat2 hilang this sickening nausea and lethargy.

Allah, give me strength.

sekian. nak masak.

greater than a roller-coaster ride

bismillahirrahmairrahim.

kembali ke blog yg dah berbulan2 ditinggalkn. kembali menulis repekan setelah lama berehat dari membebel tanpa arah tujuan di sini.

4 bulan. june-july-august-sept. 4 bulan yg macam menaiki space shuttle on its launch. why? well, setelah 5 tahun merengek2 cakap trapped in dublin, life so stagnant, yada yada yada... suddenly in the last 4 months everything speeds up dgn kelajuan berjuta2 tahun cahaya sehari. eceh, macam tipu. but true to a certain extent. setelah 5 tahun yg bgerak macam siput, in the last 4 months i was conferred and finally became a doctor, i got married to a wonderful husband, and currently i am expecting a baby. memang whooooaaaa!! this is even greater than a roller-coaster.

syukur atas nikmatNya yg tak terhitung.

sekarang? hidup bersama husband tercinta. di bumi malaysia tanah airku.

but there are some things that still havent changed; i am still a crybaby (thank God i got the right person as a husband), still homesick, still fussy on most things that seems to be aggravated by this pregnancy, still miss my buchuks and still pray everyday that one day i'll be able to keep all of them at an arm's length.

sekian.

will come back soon, i hope.

siapa lagi,

hanfabulous

salam syawal, salam kemaafan.

nak kawin esok!

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan yg telah menjadikan ku dan tidak pernah berhenti mencurahkan nikmat dan anugerah kepadaku.

eceh, intro.

macam dah lame gile x update blog. macam dah lame gile balik msia padahal baru 2 mgu. oh, yeah people. im home in malaysia for good.

anyway, seperti yang telah diwar-warkan earlier, im getting married this 2nd on july. that's less than a fortnight. but how i wish im getting married tomorrow.

amboi, macam gatal je kan nak kawen sangat x sesabar tgu hari. yes, that's a part of it. tapi bahagian yg lebih penting as to why i wish 2nd of july is tomorrow, is sebab dah x larat dah membawak badan ke hulu hilir menguruskan perkara2 merepek berkaitan the wedding seperti listing guests names dan menghantar kad kahwin yg macam x ckup je sambil memerah otak memastikan takde sesape yg tertinggal tapi ade jugak yg tlepas pandang, menempah kek kahwin dan asyik argue dgn pembuat kek tersebut, fitting baju yg mcm ok tak ok, door giftssssss, baju nikah yg tak siap2 dan kakak tailor yg slalu missing in action, mengemas rumah yg bserabut mcm kapal karam, berebut kumpulan kompang dengan kawan baik sendiri yg kawin pada hari yg sama, susun lagu2 dan skrip utk pengacara majlis to make sure everything goes according to plan, mengira bunga telur yg kejap cukup kejap x cukup, dan macam2 lagi yg x larat disenaraikan di sini.

keadaan 2 mgu sebelum berkahwin yg layu lembik lantaran tak berehat langsung sejak touch down klia 2 weeks ago. org cakap makin nak kawin shud be makin berseri but me? haih, sendiri faham la.

anyway, i just wish that semuanya akan berjalan lancar dan berada dalam lingkungan redha dan rahmat kasih sayangNya.

sekian.

-han yg currently tak fabulous-