Letting Go

It used to be just you and me
Nothing else mattered but our world
I could stare into your eyes all day and see love
You could stare into mine and see love
I could kiss you all day
And you could hold me all day if I let you
I would smile when I realize I’m in your arms
And I will find you staring at me early at dawn
Now I stare into your eyes and I see ignorance
If you did stare into mine you will see fear and sadness
But you will never know for you never look at me
I could still kiss you all day, but you never let me
Your hold that I yearn has become so distant
And when I’m in your arms, I become a burden to you
The more I reach out to you the more you push me away
I don’t want to remember us like this
I know we will never get back to what we were
I honestly don’t think I want to get back to what we were because there never was
I’m finally letting you be by self in peace

Hello and bye seem to be taken for granted
We see each other and say hello without really caring
Or say bye absent mindedly
Even go out of our way to ask the civil “how are you” or “what’s up”
When the only thing we want to hear is what they have been up to
Or see what they are wearing
Sometimes even thinking of something random while they are talking to us
Forgetting that might be the first or last time we talk to them
Check out what they are wearing,or even hear what they have been up to
Well truth is nobody knows the future
So next time when you say hello try to really mean it
Yes not everyone in your life matters
Unless it’s the last time you said hello, bye or see you later
Then they start to matter to you
Because that will be the last time you saw them
Checked them out or find out what they are up to
Why wait till It’s too late

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Yes I know what love is
Or at least I like to think I know
They say if you love someone their happiness is what you want
But what if their happiness isn’t with you?
Are you supposed to still be happy for them?
Because them not being happy around you won’t make you happy
In fact that’s quite depressing.
But what if their happiness lies with another woman or man
That will only be fair to let them be happy
But dumb to still pretend when you not
Unless…their happiness isn’t what you are truly after..right?
So yes I will pretend to be happy for you
While you are with another woman/ man
I will pretend that woman/man is a better person to you than me
I shall smile when I see you
And act like all is well
When deep down my world is crashing
Just knowing what makes me truly happy is in pursuit of their own happiness
Other than me…
Oh yes I will try and understand that while I want you to be happy
I will let my own happiness which is you drift away from me to someone else
After all since I want you to be happy
And you after something else that you don’t find in me, unless..
You don’t really care about my own happiness..
Which is you

Omg feels like I havnt blogged in forever!And thats because i have not. This week I promise myself to blog as much as I can.Now that I'm done with exams and I'm as Idle as anything..Arrgh! And I hate it.I've been praying for vacation and now that its here I dunno what to do! Anyway I decided to cut my hair..not that I had the slightest of ideas on what I wanted to do to my hair..I went into the salon and told the stylist to cut my hair until I ended up with this..and I love it.Wonder Why it took me forever to get over my hair..Because i was attached.lol.Anyway here is a Pic.And i'm gonna divide my blogs so i can write more on the things i love.Art,history,music,politics,and humanity :) God bless. ummy xoxo

Happy Birthday to the bestest supermum in the world! Wish I was there to celebrate with U even though I know U will be working! I love U so much, actually we love U! Muah! Xoxo

Free Pass..Lol

I have been told I hardly say much about myself over and over again. Well reality is I do not have the slightest idea how to "describe" myself.Truth is I surprise myself all the time..and labeling yourself with terminologies is actually limiting urself. I never make myself the center of a conversation or topic unless its a direct question.But apart from that I'm very private with my life..not secretive but private.I dont like putting myself or feelings out there..What goes on in my life is left for me to share or keep.But yal can ask me what U wanna know and be specific.Dont ask stuff like tell me "about yourself" because U wont get anything.Be specificic about what U wanna know Kapish.? Lots Of Love Ummy xoxo

Guess Whos Back

Happy New Year People.Kindda Late huh?Yeah Yeah.So I havnt Updated My Blog in What seems Like Forever! And when I decide I need to stop Procastinating something always comes up..anyway I'm alive and great! Couldnt be much better actually..Matter of fact watching Cartoon with a bunch of adults..Not that its a daily habit.Even though I still adore my disney Princesses and Tinkerbell..Classic times.lol.Its a distraction from movies,music videos,horrible scenes and news from the media. Now that I have less hectic hours and time for bloging I shall Update and Keep yal posted!Gotta get back to watching Dexters Lab.Dont Yal just love DD?Haha. Lots of Love Ummy xoxo