cliji:

hellooooo ?

mohanssunshine:

just a girl with big brown eyes against the world (a shift at the pitt)

bartletslesbians:

One thing I’ve been playing around with in my head is CJ/Andy in a world where Andy got seriously injured in the Gaza episode instead of Donna. They switched cars, you know, simple as that.

One thing keeping me from writing it atm is that I really have to figure out the exact timeline, with regards to Toby/Andy’s divorce, the twins, and CJ/Andy having gotten (back) together. But that aside, it scratches my brain just right.

Because in this, CJ/Andy would be an established but recent-ish relationship. In a way. They dated for years in college, from their late teens to early-mid twenties, but broke up years ago for various reasons (including the simple fact that they wanted the careers they had, and that’s a lot easier to do if you’re not worried about people finding out you have a girlfriend.) But now, it’s been a few months at most. CJ’s spent time with the twins, she’s happily reconnected with Andy’s mom (who still pretends to believe they’re just Gal Pals), but if asked they wouldn’t classify it as anything serious yet. Mainly cause if they did, that would just make everything so much more complicated.

Toby knows, and that’s it.

And the image of CJ watching the screens after the explosion, as Josh gets a call from Donna that she’s okay, but that two congressmen are dead and Fitz is dead and Andy got carted off to a hospital and she doesn’t know if she’s okay or not. When no one except Toby can even guess what that news is doing to her. When she’s going to have to announce this in the briefing room like she’s not fucking terrified.

Some of the staff can tell she’s not okay but the explanation will just be “they were friends in college” and that’ll just have to be enough. CJ is the one to call Andy’s mom (who Toby famously does not get along with that well). The tension in even just bringing up “who between the two of us flies to Andy in Germany and who stays in DC with the twins” with her and Toby. But in that way, it’s the perfect awful situation that can be the push Toby needs to be a more involved dad; CJ can fly over, leave her deputy and Carol for the briefings, and Toby can be there for the twins while their mom’s in surgery.

But just the weight of seeing Andy again and having that moment of realisation that if Andy had died in that explosion, no one would even have known what CJ would’ve lost. No one would’ve understood her grief, the extend of their history and their love for each other. The understanding that they’ve been pretending this could just be casual when absolutely nothing about it is, not really, not when CJ dropped everything to sit by her bedside in Germany.

The difficult in that recovery process (and so much could have happened; Donna almost dies developing a blood clot in her lungs. You can give Andy the same exact injuries, or you can give her more burns, or a blood clot somewhere else, you can give her a head injury, you can have it be too much for her heart instead, you can take a limb if you want, and regardless of anything you can make it a much longer revalidation period than Donna got in the show bc that went FAST lmao). But that recovery process with roughly 12 month old twins?? And the opportunities for Toby to really step his game up and be there for them, and opportunities for CJ to be thrown into a step-parent-like position with just a few months of really knowing these babies. The opportunities for Andy’s absolute terror at almost having lost her chance to watch the twins grow up; her frustration in not being able to care for them by herself.

And there’s so much more but just !!! It’s all that’s on my mind atm

I now do actually want to plan this out as just like… maybe not a super long thing, but shorter chapters, or some serialised one-shots focusing on different relationships within this? Cause just the dynamic between Donna and Andy alone would be so interesting (Donna is not leaving Germany until someone is there to sit with Andy, or wait for her to wake up; she doesn’t want her to be alone.) CJ in Germany while Toby is at home, suddenly responsible for the twins by himself after a while of not being very involved? Andy not being in a state to fly home yet but so desperate just to hold the twins?

The way CJ and Andy’s relationship would be relatively new but rushed into this incredibly stressful and intense few months to a year? The pressure that puts on a relationship, while struggling with the decision to even tell anyone at all while it’d be so hard to provide the needed amount of support without telling people. Managing that recovery and eleven-month old babies? There is simply so much

thewritingrealm:

send me an ask with a fake title and ill tell you what that would prompt me to write!!

mityenka:

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend’s party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

kemonomimichiru:

How it feels to find a fanfic where your favorite character is going through literally the worst horrors you can imagine

burntblueberrywaffles:

[I.D. an edited pyramid graph of maslow’s hierarchy of needs where large text covering every section of basic, psychological and self-fulfillment needs read “people online telling me they like the thing i made”. end I.D.] (image description by @lemondoddle )