HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEIL CODLING

after months of thinking about it and trying to convince my brain to make a portrait of him because I feared messing it up, I finally made it. And what’s a better occasion to make a portrait of Neil if not to celebrate him on his day. Happy birthday to my favourite and comfort person, I have a really soft spot for Neil and he’s one of the people I really look up to. He gives me so much strength, when I feel like giving up I always think about him and what he went through and managed to get better and get back with Suede, which I am really grateful for because I still have the chance to see him perform live and I am really looking forward to be able to meet him one day and tell him in person how much he means to me and how much he helped me to get through tough times. And one of the things that makes me happy, it might sound silly, is that my birthday is in exactly 10 days from now (on the 15th) so our birthdays are really close, he’s a fellow Sagittarius and it’s the first time that my favourite person was born on my same month, shares zodiac with me and our birthdays are actually really close, that’s a flex for me 💪🏻😌

I really miss him on social medias and I hope that wherever he is, that he’s having the amazing day he deserves 🖤

since 2021 is coming to a closure here is my art vs artist 2021 edition. Might be a long post, also face reveal 👀

I still plan to make a few more artworks before the end of the year but here’s what I did so far, I’m kinda proud of myself for managing to make enough artworks this year to be able to make this “challenge”. These last couple of years have been really rough, since 2018 probably they got increasingly worse due to personal reasons, my motivation started to lack and I couldn’t hold a pen for a very long time both for traditional and digital art, I went through a really long art block and it was painful because I always loved drawing but couldn’t do anything at all. Ever since I got into Suede I managed to get my motivation back because I finally found something that gives me enough dopamine to make me able to hold a pen and do something with it, I also managed to increase my drawing skills, if you asked me last year to make portraits like this they would have been awful trust me. The amount of support I get is also amazing, it gives me even more motivation every time people show their appreciation to my works, especially when Suede themselves like my works (so far Mat and Simon liked my portraits I did of them which made me incredibly happy, sadly I can’t show my portraits to the other members as they’re not on socials but I hope I’ll have the occasion to). Which is another reason why I am infinitely grateful to Suede and it’s probably one of the few good things that happened to me during this pandemic, I got into Suede and they brought so much positivity in my life I can’t imagine how I’d be doing right now without them, probably even worse because they became an anchor I hold on to when I feel like I’m drowning. I am still not doing great, mentally, physically, I am still going through many things and I’m struggling with a burnout and untreated clinical depression in fact I am not doing as much as I would love to, but slowly, one step at a time I will get out of it and I will do better better. We got still a few weeks before the end of 2021 but I wanted to thank you for your support, it means really a lot to me and I’m looking forward to bring you more contents in 2022 and to get more Suede contents as well to share with you all and go crazy after Neil’s hairstyles together again 🖤

just wanted to say that Suede fans are incredibly talented and make amazing art pieces every time and I love admiring your works they’re really inspiring. Don’t know if you need to hear this but keep it up, you’re doing amazing. Looking forward to see more stunning artworks from fellow Suede fans 🖤