Lenten
Mission
Fr.
Philip Neri Powell OP
Church
of the Incarnation, UD
We
find ourselves at the foot of the Cross. With John and the three
Marys. Looking up from the ground, all we see are the soles of his
feet. Bloody. Ruined. A single iron spike driven through both into
the wood. The flesh is torn. And bruised. We can hear him breathing.
Barely. Mary, his mother, weeps. John and the other Marys weep. Their
sorrow like a millstone in the chest. Looking down, he sees his
mother and his beloved disciple. He calls, whispers to his mother:
“Woman,
behold, your son.”
Looking at John, he says, “Behold,
your mother.” Hearing this, we glance at the two and see that they
see how they are now bound together in suffering. If we could start
at the beginning, we might see her freed from the burden of Adam's
sin in the womb. We might witness Gabriel's visit to the adolescent
Mary. We might see her freed determination, her surrender to the
divine will. Her Yes. We might see her as a Young Mother – her
love, her protection, her maternal care for the baby and the boy,
Jesus. We might see her knowing looks at his precocious questions. We
might hear her occasional gasp at some boyish stunt. We might see her
smile at his filial obedience and her frustration at his apparent
willfulness. We would see – as his public ministry drew to a close
– her surrender to the sorrow that she knew would be his suffering.
At the foot of the Cross, we bear witness to her sorrow, her
suffering, and her surrender.
If
the BVM is to be our model for taking on the challenges of Lent, we
need to make sure we know what Lent is about. We can start with the
via
negativa
– what Lent is NOT about. Lent is not about sin. Lent is not about
fasting, praying, or giving alms. Lent is not about making sure that
all our family and friends see
us doing Lenten things. Our Lord couldn't be clearer in the Gospels
that what we do during Lent cannot be about the veneer of repentance
– faux
religiosity, playing with the deadly serious weapons we are given for
growing in holiness. Just last Sunday, the first Sunday of Lent,
Jesus is led/driven into the wilderness by the HS. Why – precisely
– is he in that desert? To pray? Yes. To fast? Yes. He does both
for 40 days. But he's not there to pray and fast. When he is beyond
hunger and exhaustion, the purpose for his time away appears. Luke
tells us that Jesus is led into the desert “to be tempted by the
devil.” Christ Jesus, the Son of God, the Messiah is to be tested.
Like newly pressed steel, his strength and endurance must be proven.
That
word “proven,” is telling. He is baptized in the Jordan by John.
And confirmed in his mission by God Himself – “this is My Beloved
Son; listen to him.” But he has yet to be proven b/c he has yet to
be tempted. It's the Enemy's job to probe for weakness; to
authenticate his identity by showing him everything and anything a
man could want or need. And then, to challenge him to love these
things of the world more than he loves his own Father. Hungry,
exhausted, weak from exposure, Jesus – in his human nature – is
dared to abandoned everything he has been sent to accomplish and make
the things of the world his god. Despite his hunger, exhaustion, and
weakness – or maybe b/c of them? – he
refuses.
Luke closes the scene: “When the devil had finished every
temptation, he departed from him for
a time.”
That “for a time” is right now. Right now, the devil is here to
probe, test, and dare us. Forty days before Easter, we follow the
pattern of Christ's time in the desert to set ourselves against
the Enemy and for
God. Lent is when we are to be tempted. Fasting, praying, and alms
giving are our weapons. Lent is not a time for playing religious
games. It's a time to prove ourselves heirs of the Kingdom.
One
last thing before we attend to our Marian strategy for proving
ourselves. Who is the Enemy? We will likely say, “the Devil!”
Yes. But here's the problem: he
is already, always defeated.
From the moment he was cast into Hell, he has been the loser. Christ
won the victory on the Cross and that victory reverberates through
eternity – from the first syllable of Creation to the last breath
of the age. Christ won, is winning, and will always win. And so do we
as heirs to the Kingdom. We've been baptized into his life, death,
and resurrection. When we deny ourselves; take our crosses; and
follow him, we follow him into an eternal victory that the Enemy
cannot deny or undo. He has no power over us. We are in Christ Jesus,
hidden in him, waiting to go to the Father. So, yes, the devil is
your Enemy, but the only way he wins is for you to succumb to his
temptations and permit him to rule you. The true enemy we face during
Lent is ourselves. The battle between Eternal Life and Eternal Death
is fought in the divided human heart. And our Marian strategy places
us in a position to fully cooperate with every grace God the Father
has to give us.
Our
BMM weeps at the foot of the Cross. From the moment Gabriel speaks to
her to her tears at his death, she has known that her son would die
for the sins for the world. She carries this sorrow daily. Until her
deathless assumption into heaven, she carries the deep loss of her
child. Any mother would grieve but the BM shared in her son's
suffering, surrendering to his sacrifice and accepting his death as
the price to redeem human nature. There is his sacrifice on the
Cross. And then there is hers at the foot of the Cross. He learned
obedience through suffering. She accepted suffering b/c she was
obedient. From the moment of his conception, Mary hears God's Word
and follows her freedom to Golgotha. None of this
lessens her sorrow. None of this eases her grief. None of this makes
her mourning any less painful. She lives with sorrow like it's
another child. Always there. Always needing. Her sorrow abides. But
she never succumbs to despair. She never gives up on the Father's
plan for our redemption. Even as she weeps at his bloodied feet, she
is steadfast in her trust that her son's suffering and death will
culminate in the transfiguration of the world. Imagine living day in
and day out with nearly unbearable sorrow AND the knowledge that your
sorrow will be vindicated. Imagine your grief living with near
beatific joy!
For
us, during our Lenten testing, the BM's sorrow establishes a pattern,
a model for approaching the Cross. There's no disputing the truth
that sin – the willful, deliberate choice to disobey God – that
sin prevents us from participating fully in the divine life of the
Blessed Trinity. When we sin, we choose to say to God, “No, thank
you. I don't want your help. I don't want to be a part of your holy
family! I can do this on my own.” In effect, we say, “I can be
good w/o God. I can be god w/o God.” This is the First Temptation.
The temptation of the serpent in the Garden. Knowing the Father's
plan to bring Adam and Eve into the divine family, the Enemy dangles
before our first parents the possibility of being divine w/o the help
of the Divine. NB. the Enemy does not force or coerce their
disobedience. He merely suggests an alternative plan, a plan built on
a truth and twisted ever so slightly away from obedience. They bite.
And their sorrow begins. But this is the sorrow of regret. Not the
sorrow of loving-absence. Mary – sinless from conception –
sorrows in love. Her sorrow abides in trust and ends in joy.
How
does the serpent tempts us in our testing? First, he tempts us to
choose to believe that God is merely our occasional rescuer from sin
and not our sustaining Father in love. This temptation requires that
we adopt a self-sufficient attitude toward growing in holiness: “I
can do this on my own. I'll call on God when I get in trouble.”
Rather than seeing our lives as fully immersed in the divine life, we
see ourselves struggling to achieve some sort of Goodness Goal, a
sort of measurable level of Moral Cleanliness. When we fail – and
we always do! – we run to God in shame and ask for forgiveness.
That's regret. Sure, we're sorry – we sorrow – but it's more of a
disappointment in our own strength than it is a sorrow with our
failure to love God. The Enemy's next move is to tempt us into
believing that our disobedience is inevitable b/c we are
fundamentally wicked. If we sin b/c we are weak, then we just have to
be stronger! Stronger than what? Stronger than ourselves? Than sin?
Stronger than the Enemy? NB. how the devil is keeping us focused on
our immediate choices. What about the choices we make to follow
Christ? The choice we make daily to live in the divine life? What
about the sorrow we feel b/c we have chosen not to love God? Can you
live with both your sorrow at sin AND the joy of knowing you are an
heir to the Kingdom? A full participant in the victory of the Cross?
Do not let the Enemy convince you that you are irredeemably sinful.
Our sinless Mother felt sorrow in love daily. She's your weapon
against the pride of Eve! Joy in being a child of the Father sends
the Enemy packing.
Along
with that joy comes suffering. Here we have to be very careful b/c
the Enemy knows how to tempt us even when we are being consistently
obedient. We cannot doubt that the BM suffers at the foot of the
Cross. Hers is not a physical pain due to injury but a spiritual
pain, a loss. She grieves. Even knowing all along that the Cross was
her son's end, she grieves. And she lets herself grieve. She suffers
well. That is, with full knowledge and the consent of her perfectly
freed will, she permits/allows herself to mourn the loss of her son.
She doesn't try to mitigate her grief. She doesn't beg God to bring
him back. To the fullest extent possible, she suffers with our
Lord. An arrow piercing her heart as the lance pierced his side. What
is this suffering? It is not merely the physical experience of pain
or the emotional experience of radical loss. Her suffering is
permissive; she allows her pain to be exactly what it is and...still
she loves. John is now her son and she his mother. Without
diminishing her grief for even a second, BM joyfully receives John as
a filial gift, thus receiving all of us as her beloved children.
Here's
where the Enemy will tempt us: suffering is to be avoided; it is to
be alleviated; or, at best, apathetically endured. Addressing
Beelzebub, Satan says, “Fallen cherub, to be weak is
miserable,/Doing or suffering. . .” The proper demonic response, he
argues, is to fight back! Show your resolve not to be pitied! Defy
accepting any defeat! Never kneel! No, non serviam. I will not
serve. But Christ says, “Deny yourself; take up your cross, and
follow me.” If we follow Christ, we follow him to the Cross; and we
suffer as he suffered. We permit the pain of sin and death and defeat
it in sacrifice. By giving it all to God so that he can remake it
holy. The BM does exactly that at the foot of her son's Cross. By
saying Yes to His will; by tending to his Word through the years; by
her patient permission when he goes to Pilate; by everything she does
for 33 years, she suffers – allows – knowing how he will end on
Golgotha. For us, the BM show us how to not only endure the burden of
mortality but also how to find joy in its limits: sacrifice in love
when the sacrifice is everything you love most. This is why Jesus
teaches us that we must love him first and most to be his disciples.
Our test is no small thing. It is everything, everyday. It's Abraham
and Isaac on the mountain. It's Christ on the Cross.
And
here is where the BM's surrender enters our arsenal. We can surrender
in the face of a superior enemy, or we can surrender before the war.
If there is no war, or the war is already won, then there is no shame
in surrender. Especially if we are surrendering to divine providence.
Remember: Christ has won. Already, always won. The devil is defeated.
He is allowed to test us, but he can never win. . .unless we give him
our victory through sin. Our principal opponent in our Lenten testing
is ourselves, our divided hearts. If we sorrow in love for our
disobedience and allow ourselves to mourn the death of the Old Self,
always giving over to God so that He can make all we are and have
holy, then there is no war to fight. Temptations are only reminders
of who we used to be, memories, at best, of how we used to believe
that we could be gods w/o God. When the BM gave her fiat to
Gabriel, she gave her perfectly freed will to the plan for our
salvation. When we were baptized, we gave ourselves to that same plan
and for the same reason: we could see the wisdom of providence at
work, and we believed in the promises of the Most High! Those
promises have not faded. They have been kept. So, what do we
surrender when everything we have and are already belongs to Christ?
We surrender our need to control. To control outcomes. To control
others. To control God. In the face of divine providence, and at the
foot of the Cross, we follow Mary's example: we weep for loss and we
love sacrificially, giving whatever is in us that we have not already
given to Christ. We did not create ourselves. We cannot re-create
ourselves. No amount of prayer, fasting, or good works will fix a
wounded soul on its own. God does not want our rent garments or ashen
heads or checks in the collection plate. He wants our contrite
hearts. Split open and burning on the altar. That's the only
sacrifice that matters when the time for testing comes. He wants us
to turn our lives around, face Him, do His will for our sake, and
love to the limits of our graced capacity. Lent is a long 40 days to
test our willingness to be sorrowful in our disobedience. To suffer
well, knowing we are heirs. And to surrender everything, everything
so that we are truly free!