Okay you know what? Schizophrenia is way too demonized and, as someone who has had it for ten freaking years, I want to dispel some myths about hallucinations.
Aka talking about hallucinations using my own personal examples because I had an actual fucking THERAPIST tell me I was the ONLY person in the world who experienced hallucinations that were not solely visual or auditory. Warning for…hallucinations obviously.
Visual hallucinations - These are hallucinations you see. I usually experience these by way of inanimate objects moving (like dolls or mannequins moving on their own, before you ask yes I do hate clothing stores). Sometimes these can be scary and sometimes they’re mundane! I’ve hallucinated monsters and I’ve hallucinated pretty birds. Hallucinations don’t always have to be scary.
Auditory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you hear. I commonly hear crying, talking, music, and video game noises. If I play a video game for too long and it has a repetitive sound in it, I WILL be hearing that sound for minimum three hours. You think the sound that plays in LoZ when you’re low on hearts is annoying? Try having to listen to it on loop when you’re not even playing the game. Like with visual hallucinations, they’re not always scary! Contrary to popular belief, they can be totally mundane. Hearing voices is not always scary either. Sometimes they just say random stuff, sometimes they give me little pep talks, most of the time they just all talk over each other at once and I’m like GUYS ONE AT A TIME PLEASE jeezy cheez-it’s.
Tactile hallucinations - These are hallucinations you feel. I hear common tactile hallucinations are feelings of bugs on you and fur but I don’t usually have these, I mostly have tactile hallucinations of being choked which is…not fun.
Olfactory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you smell. Yeah I thought of farts first too. So far I haven’t heard of that being a common hallucination though. I hear a common olfactory hallucination is burning? But I just smell wet metal. I…don’t know why.
Gustatory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you taste. I don’t know how to pronounce gustatory either. I often taste blood or metal. I hear those are pretty common gustatory hallucinations.
None of these hallucinations are inherently scary! As a child, I thought hallucinations were a super power. After living with them for over ten years, they just don’t phase me that much. Remember: you don’t have to be schizophrenic to experience hallucinations! There are many things that cause hallucinations including and not limited to trauma, PTSD, psychotic depression, etc. (sometimes even stress!)
But please please please be kind to people who hallucinate. I’ve lived with it for over ten years and (rarely) it can still be terrifying to me sometimes. People say “But there’s nothing there and you know that-“ yes I know that! But it’s still very very real to me and very terrifying! Minimizing what people experience with their hallucinations is not helpful and will only make them feel worse.
Thank you for reading!
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Jeesus sanoi ”se on täytetty”
Tiellä Jerusalemiin, opetuslapset säikähtivät tien reunalla olevaa leijonaa
Jeesus sanoi “se on täytetty”
Nuorena miehenä Jeesus vietti aikaa temppelissä väitellen vanhempien uskonoppineiden kanssa. Kerran yksi heistä totesi “oletko sinä edes vielä nähnyt kolmattatoista syntymäpäivääsi”
Jeesus vastasi “se on täytetty”
Jeesus ja opetuslapset olivat festareilla. Jeesus kävi bajamajassa. Tullessaan ulos, Pietari liikkui kohti vessaa menäkseen itse sisälle, mutta Jeesus pysäytti hänet.
Jeesus sanoi “se on täytetty”
Nuori Fariseus lähestyi Jeesusta ja sanoi, että oli kuullut että hänen laumassaan olisi vielä yksi vapaa paikka opetuslapselle.
Jeesus sanoi “se on täytetty”
Veronkantaja tuli saarnaavan Jeesuksen luo ja heittäytyi tämän jalkoihin. “nouse, lapseni” sanoi Jeesus. Veronkantajan nostettua päänsä, Jeesus otti kaavustaan veroilmoituksen.
Jeesus sanoi “se on täytetty”
Jeesus otti leivän, siunasi, antoi sen opetuslapsilleen ja sanoi “tämä on lihani, kun syötte sen, tehkää se minun muistokseni.”
Jeesus otti viinin, siunasi, antoi sen opetuslapsilleen ja sanoi “tämä on vereni, kun juotte sen, tehkää se minun muistokseni”
Jeesus otti paistetun kalkkunan, ja sanoi “se on täytetty”
Fariseus lähestyi lehmän kanssa hääräävää Jeesusta ja kysyi “kuinka kauan tätä juttua voi vielä lypsää?”
Jeesus ojensi Fariseukselle maitoämpärin ja sanoi “se on täytetty”
DESPITE IT ALL, WE HAVE EACH OTHER
no matter how much hopelessness they corner us into, they cannot stop us from taking care of each other.
somewhere to start today is by helping nada, who is less than 40% of the way towards her goal.
please continue to share mutual aid, whether its in your own neighborhood or across the sea. please continue to find both what's urgent and what's beautiful in the world.
thank you always, take care.