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20 Feb 2025

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A Place of Silver Silence

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Had she been less, the stars would fall, / The skies would shatter in her cry. / Had she been less, the earth would burn, / And mercy wither, curled and dry.


Pairing: Nesta Archeron x Original Character

Rating: E for Explicit. Minors DNI

Warnings: This story contains themes of coercion, imprisonment, emotional and psychological manipulation, betrayal, war, and discussions of past violence, including implied persecution.

Prologue | Chapter one | Chapter two | Chapter three | Chapter four | Chapter five | Chapter six | Chapter seven | Chapter eight | Chapter nine | Chapter ten | Chapter eleven | Chapter twelve | Chapter thirteen | Chapter fourteen | Chapter fifteen | Chapter sixteen | Chapter seventeen | Chapter eighteen | Chapter nineteen | Chapter twenty


What Happened To You?

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I still reach for them in the dark. / I still wait for their voice in the silence. / I still forget, for just a moment, / that they are not coming back.


Pairing: Nesta Archeron x Elain Archeron x Feyre Archeron

Rating: E for Explicit. Minors DNI

Warnings: This story explores themes of suicide, depression, grief, and the struggle to keep going. While these topics are handled with care, they may be intensely emotional or triggering for some readers.

Prologue | Chapter one | Chapter two | Chapter three | Chapter four | Chapter five

06 Apr 2025

12:34 AM
Anonymoussent

Yum 🥰🥰 are single or talking to anyone right now?

As of right now, no… I did have a boyfriend, but we broke up two months ago. We were in different places in life.

05 Apr 2025

11:33 PM

serious question for y’all

do I come off as mean? someone said I did unintentionally and now I’m spiraling a little bit.

11:04 PM

Okay—when it comes to some messages, my inbox isn’t letting me answer directly, so I’m going to respond here instead!

“Do you think current Feyre looks down and hates humans? Why do you think she looks down on humans? Has she always had that way deep inside even before Turning fae or was the IC a major influence on that thinking?

How do you think Nesta views humans now that she is Fae? Do you think she views herself as better than them or she still loves and values her kind—humans—even though she is no longer human?

Do you think Elain views humans the same as Feyre and the IC? Or that one day she will start to view humans as they do? If given the chance, could you see both Elain or Nesta going back to being human if they could?

Do you believe even though unfortunate for the girls that them being changed and made was for the best or for the worse for them?

How would you feel if this was real life and faes existed, and you were turned fae—just like Nesta and Elain—had no say and was forced to be something you never wanted in the first place? Do you think you’d be angry and depressed for a long time? Do you think you’d eventually make do with it? Or would you be happy about the pros that comes with being Fae?”

Does Current Feyre Look Down on Humans? And Has She Always?

I think when it comes to Feyre, the most telling shift isn’t necessarily in what she says about humans—but in how she stops identifying with them entirely.

She doesn’t hate humans outright, but I truly believe she just doesn’t see herself in them anymore. That’s what makes her relationship with her former humanity so haunting. The girl who once starved and hunted and clawed for scraps has been slowly swallowed by power, privilege, and the ideological detachment of the Night Court.

The Feyre we meet in ACOTAR is sharp-edged, cynical, survival-driven—but grounded. She understands need. She understands what it means to be overlooked. But by the time we reach ACOWAR and beyond, Feyre’s entire sense of identity is shaped around the idea of transcending that past. She doesn’t want to return to it. She doesn’t want to look back. She doesn’t even really talk about her humanity anymore except to frame it as a burden she overcame.

And the IC reinforces that. They constantly equate mortality with weakness. So of course Feyre, who was once defined by her ability to protect others, would grow into someone who sees power—not empathy—as the only way to survive. In that context, mortals stop being familiar. They become fragile. Foreign. Less than. Not because she explicitly hates them—but because she no longer sees herself reflected in them.

She’s looking into a mirror and seeing a stranger—and that’s the scariest part.

How Does Nesta View Humans Now That She’s Fae?

This is where the contrast is stark.

Nesta does not see herself as better than humans. In fact, she still sees herself as human. That’s part of why she reacts so violently to her transformation—it’s not just about losing control. It’s about being forced to become something she never wanted to be, at the hands of fae who never valued her humanity to begin with.

Unlike Feyre, Nesta doesn’t idolize fae culture or power. She doesn’t take to it naturally. She doesn’t forget where she came from. Her interactions with mortals, her protectiveness over the priestesses in the library—all of it suggests that she continues to hold deep empathy for people who are overlooked and cast aside, especially those without physical power.

It’s what makes her the natural foil to Rhysand and his court, who think power justifies every action.

Elain’s Perspective: Present & Future

Elain’s perspective is murkier—but not without signs.

So far, Elain is the one sister who still physically clings to comforts: the garden, the quiet, the dresses, the softness. It’s easy to read that as a love for her old life—but it might also be a refusal to engage with her current one.

Elain doesn’t confront what’s been done to her. She doesn’t name her trauma. And while that doesn’t mean she hasn’t suffered, it means that she’s containing it in silence, letting others project onto her. So when it comes to humans, she doesn’t say much—she doesn’t say anything—but that silence is slowly becoming dangerous. The more she allows herself to be shaped by others (especially the IC), the more likely it is she’ll become like them.

Elain has always been about adapting for survival. She doesn’t challenge systems—she slips beneath them. And that includes internalizing the Fae way of thinking.

So yes, I think Elain is the most likely to one day view humans the way the IC does—with a quiet sort of pity, a disconnect. Unless something pulls her out of that trajectory, she’ll become one of them by default.

If Given the Chance, Would Elain or Nesta Go Back to Being Human?

Nesta: Yes. Without hesitation. If she could take the power and give it back, I think she would. Being made into something else was a theft of her will. She hates that. Even if being Fae comes with advantages, she values her humanity too much to accept what was done to her. Her trauma is tied not just to the war, but to transformation without consent.

Elain: I’m not sure. I think Elain would say yes. But when the time came, she might hesitate. Because now she’s in a system where her beauty and quietness are praised. As a human, she would have been married off and forgotten. As a fae, she’s still a pawn—but a valued one. There’s a dark allure to that.

Was Being Made Fae a Blessing or a Curse?

For all three sisters, I think the answer is the same: it depends who you ask—and who benefits.

From a survival standpoint, being fae kept them alive. But from a moral standpoint? From a trauma standpoint? It was a violation. They lost the right to choose what their bodies would become. Their lives were rewritten by violence. Their “salvation” came at the cost of identity, autonomy, and peace.

And the courts treat it like a gift.

That’s the insidious part.

What If This Were Real? If I Were Turned Fae?

This is where it becomes deeply personal.

If I were forced to become something I never asked to be—something that altered my body, my lifespan, my future—I’d be devastated. Furious. Grieving. Because what happened to the Archeron sisters is bodily violation, cloaked in beauty and power.

And grief doesn’t go away just because the new life looks prettier. I’d mourn everything I’d lost. My future. My humanity. My choice.

Eventually, maybe I’d make peace with it. Maybe I’d find community, and safety, and even joy. But it wouldn’t erase the betrayal. And I’d carry that scar forever.

10:25 PM

I love fics where Nesta ditches Velaris and the IC, choosing to carve out her own path. More so when Elain is willing to go with her, or at least otherwise support her in the decision. But whenever the IC roll up, treasure hunt b-plot in one hand, Elain threat in the other, I'm always rooting for Nesta to just... Wish Elain luck, or something. To call them out on their (imo) obvious bluff. She never does. It makes me wonder what her breaking point with Elain would be.

In A place of Silver Silence, Nesta is slowly pushed to her breaking point because she's finding new people to consider family, and start to love.

Nesta had always looked after Elain, doing everything for her, and while she wasn't quite as blatant about it, she cared for Feyre too. In ACOWAR, when talking in the library, Nesta tells Feyre that she knew she could 'always earn more' when discussing money and their life in the cabin. This line put a lot of Nesta's actions into perspective for me. She trusts Feyre, and respects her skills. She trusts Feyre can handle herself, in a way that I don't think she trusts Elain.

She was so convinced in her letter to Feyre, in APoSS that Elain's spine would break if the barest hint of pressure was applied to it. As an Elain hater, I personally believe that this is the outcome Elain wanted, and while she's absolutely a coward, she's a cunning coward who knows how to manipulate Nesta to protect her.

However, now, Nesta has Taryn, and their friends and Elain and Feyre seem well adjusted so she doesn't worry about them as much. Which is normal. Switching your priorities from your adult, well adjusted siblings to your current partner and relationships after committing to one, and starting your own life is... Normal. And healthy.

She was wiling to turn her back, and let Elain scry if the IC pushed her boundaries. She gave Elain one final chance by agreeing, maybe to ensure Elain herself also knew she was done? But, assuming this didn't go the way they did, perhaps agreeing at all would've just confirmed to Elain, and the IC, that she could still manipulate Nesta if she played her cards right.

But, if Nesta didn't have Taryn, or particularly close friends, would she succumb to the threat, even if she still had a job, and a life she was living? And if the threat would work, how far could they push her? Unfortunately, I don't think Nesta would reach that point unless she broke completely, resulting in either her attempting to take her own life, or going catatonic (which I've seen a couple takes on before).

At what point do you think Nesta would reach her breaking point, if she didn't have other people like Taryn in her life to help her see her self worth, and reevaluate her priorities?

This is an absolutely fantastic analysis, and the nuance you bring to Nesta’s relationship with Elain (and the IC as a whole) is so sharp, layered, and heartbreaking. The idea that Nesta’s “breaking point” is only ever delayed because of her capacity to love—even when it hurts her—is spot-on.

1. Nesta as Protector: The Eldest Daughter’s Curse

Nesta’s identity has always been tethered to the role of protector—especially in relation to Elain. Whether or not Elain actually needed that level of protection is debatable (we’ll get to that), but Nesta believed she did. And that belief, paired with Nesta’s immense guilt and trauma, meant that her default setting became: self-sacrifice for Elain’s comfort.

It’s classic eldest daughter syndrome: being made to feel responsible for everyone’s survival while receiving the least emotional care in return. In ACOWAR, Nesta’s quote about Feyre being able to “always earn more” is subtle but devastating—it suggests that even in the cabin, Nesta chose who she could neglect because she thought Feyre would survive it.

Feyre, in her eyes, was strong. Elain was not. So Nesta poured herself into shielding Elain from the world, and that habit became a form of love… but also a trauma bond.

2. “She’s a Coward—but a Cunning One”

This line in your post is so good, and such a compelling reading of Elain. It’s easy to view Elain as passive and fragile, but the canon doesn’t fully support that—she’s been making quiet choices in her own interest from the start. Elain’s silence is often interpreted as helplessness, but it could just as easily be manipulation. She weaponizes her fragility.

Elain doesn’t have to lie—she just has to not intervene. And when it comes to Nesta, that silence is an active betrayal. She lets Nesta burn so she can stay untouched.

And Nesta knows it.

In A Place of Silver Silence, that knowledge becomes more than just subconscious. Her anger hardens. She begins to see Elain not just as “delicate,” but as deliberately delicate—a woman who chooses comfort over justice, even if that comfort is built on her sister’s suffering.

3. The Impact of Found Family (Taryn, the Valkyries, etc.)

You absolutely nailed this point: the reason Nesta doesn’t break is because she starts building new relationships that don’t demand that she set herself on fire.

Taryn, Gwyn, Emerie, the Valkyries—they don’t expect her to parent them. They don’t manipulate her with silence or guilt. They accept her rage, her grief, her violence, and her desire to heal without strings attached. That’s why those relationships feel so healing. That’s why they matter.

So what happens if Nesta doesn’t have that?

4. Nesta’s Breaking Point Without a Support System

Without someone like Taryn to center her, or a support system outside the IC and her sisters, I truly believe Nesta’s breaking point would look catastrophic. She’s someone who internalizes everything—her failures, her anger, her guilt. If no one external tells her she’s allowed to walk away, that she doesn’t owe her family her life and body and soul… then she’ll just keep bending until she snaps.

And when she does snap, it wouldn’t be a fight. It would be withdrawal—complete emotional shutdown.

There are two paths here:

• Catatonia/Emotional collapse: Nesta loses the will to fight and fades from the world. Think: not eating, not bathing, not speaking. She shuts down and waits to disappear.

• Self-destruction masked as “sacrifice”: Nesta agrees to the IC’s demands, but each time, it chips away more of her. She becomes a ghost in service of their needs—scrying, apologizing, giving up her life piece by piece. Until she finally disappears metaphorically or literally. This mirrors her earlier downward spiral after the war, only more subtle—and more dangerous, because no one is watching anymore.

5. “She Gave Elain One Final Chance”

Yes. YES. That reading of the scrying scene in APoSS is so on point. That moment was not about obedience—it was about testing the final thread. Nesta was essentially saying: “Show me you won’t use me. Show me you’ll stand with me.

And Elain couldn’t.

That’s why Nesta was willing to walk away, even if reluctantly. The heartbreak wasn’t just in Elain’s decision—it was in the confirmation of what Nesta had feared all along: that she loved Elain more than Elain ever loved her. That she was always disposable.

So if she didn’t have Taryn, or the Valkyries, or anyone telling her that she is worthy of love without earning it, would she still be able to walk away? Or would she let herself believe she deserved to be used?

My answer is: she wouldn’t walk away alone. She wouldn’t see the worth in doing so. It would take a final, devastating betrayal—something big, something personal, something like Elain agreeing to let Nesta die “for the good of the court”—to push her over the edge. And by then, it might be too late.

Final Thought

Nesta’s journey is about reclaiming self-worth in a world that only values her pain. But the tragedy is that without others affirming that worth, even the strongest women can forget it. That’s why found family is not just a trope—it’s salvation. And it’s why characters like Taryn, Gwyn, and Emerie aren’t just side characters. They’re lifelines.

Nesta doesn’t need to be saved. But she does need someone to remind her that she’s allowed to choose herself.

And if Elain can’t do that? Then Nesta needs to walk—and never look back.

10:13 PM
Anonymoussent

Is it just me, or does Feyre give off boy mom vibes?

Girl… she kinda does…

She’s got that “he didn’t mean it” energy locked and loaded every time Rhys acts out. I swear to god, if Feyre hides an engagement ring in some ancient, cursed, death-trap like Rhysand’s mom did—and then turns to Nyx’s poor future wife like, “If you want to marry him, you have to go get it”—I’m throwing hands.

A woman does not need to risk her life to prove she loves a man. That’s not romantic, that’s insane. We are not doing this again. Let Nyx’s future partner have peace, a normal proposal, and maybe a ring that isn’t booby-trapped in the Hewn City. Please.

The whole “Rhysand’s mom wanted to make sure she was strong enough” thing is so exhausting. Like… there are so many different types of strength that aren’t about surviving a death trial for an engagement ring.

What about emotional strength? Compassion? Integrity? Wisdom? Patience? The ability to walk away from a bad situation, or to love someone without losing yourself in the process?

Reducing “worthiness” to whether or not you can survive a physical ordeal just reinforces this toxic fantasy logic that love has to be earned through suffering—and that a woman’s value lies in how much pain she can take.

If you want to test someone’s strength, maybe see how they handle real partnership. Not whether they can Indiana-Jones their way through a cursed vault.

8:32 PM
Anonymoussent

So I’m just going to say this as I hide behind the anonymous button🫣 can we get a quick Rhysand X Tamlin smut fix 🫣 one where Rhys just says fuck it and goes for his man Tamlin?! We know he be craving that man down bad! Tamlin of course is going to make Rhys beg for it just like he made him to to save feyre ferret ass. . . . . . . Can you see where I’m going with this . . . . . . .?

Two High Lords with zero impulse control and one very polished floor. You’ve been warned. You’re also welcome.

Keep reading

7:58 PM
Anonymoussent

I’m stuck in a fanfic bind rn, because I love the concept of girl-kisser Nesta. It’s just *chefs kiss* and I miss Claire Beddor for it.

But also, I really really want Nesta to have one damn positive male character actually treat her with respect and affection. Like I want a Dorian Havillard/Fenrys-coded OC to sweep her out from Cassian’s grubby bat mitts.

I’m at a loss of what to do xD

WRITE BOTH!!!

Girl-kisser Nesta? Absolutely essential. She deserves softness, desire, and joy in whatever form she finds it—give her the Claire Beddor moment she never got.

But also? A Fenrys-coded himbo who worships the ground she walks on, reads her poetry badly, and treats her like a goddess? Yes. She deserves that too. You’re not at a loss—you’ve got a rich buffet of narrative options. Let her have everything.

Nesta x girls AND Nesta x golden retriever men. Why choose?

7:56 PM
Anonymoussent

Everyone is talking about their gay crushes and their favorite priestesses. Are we just going to ignore how stunning canon Merrill is people?! We need a lesbo fic her and Gwyn? F*** Azzie lmbo I’m a girls girl over here!

“Merrill turned at that, and Nesta was greeted with a surprisingly young face—and a stunningly beautiful one. All the High Fae were beautiful, but Merrill made even Mor look drab. Hair white as fresh snow contrasted against the light brown of her skin, and eyes the color of a twilight sky blinked once, twice.”

Someone needs to write her and Gwyn falling in love IMMEDIATELY. It writes itself. Please. We deserve this.

7:53 PM

I’ve had this thought for a while and I was wondering what your take was:

Do you think that if the argument between Feyre and Nesta hadn't happened in AOCSF, Feyre would have discovered the truth in time? It’s one of the major things that bugged me about ACOSF. No one was going to tell Feyre about the danger her pregnancy was and that Nesta only told her out of anger to prove a point. Mind she did say something, definitely not in the best circumstances, but why not say anything sooner? Or even Elain for that matter.


On an unrelated note, I wish we had seen the conversation between Feyre and Rhysand afterward. I know she forgave him (heaven knows why), but it feels like there is something we aren't seeing there—missing context.

Would Feyre have discovered the truth about her pregnancy without the fight with Nesta?

Probably not—and that’s the most disturbing part.

By the time Nesta blurts it out during their argument, it’s already late in the pregnancy. Rhysand, Mor, Cassian, Azriel, and even Amren knew the pregnancy was dangerous. So did Madja, the healer. They all conspired to keep it from her, believing that they were “sparing her the stress,” which is frankly horrifying when the information is about her own body and the likelihood of her own death.

Nesta’s words weren’t planned or strategic—they were the result of months of pressure, neglect, and emotional abuse coming to a head. And yes, the delivery was cruel, but the truth was vital. Her intent was to make Feyre wake up—but the narrative makes it very clear that if she hadn’t, no one else would have.

And that leads us to something darker:

The Pregnancy Plotline Wasn’t Just Poorly Written—It Was About Control

This wasn’t just about love or concern—it was about control. Rhysand, as High Lord, felt entitled to withhold vital, life-threatening information from his wife. The others either agreed or stood silently by. That includes Elain, who also knew and said nothing. That silence is deeply unsettling when you consider that this is a woman’s agency over her body, her life, and her future.

Even if we set aside the ethics of it: Did no one think Feyre would find out eventually? Was the plan to… hope for the best and pray she didn’t die in childbirth before someone slipped up? That’s not care. That’s delusion and denial.

The Missing Conversation Between Rhys and Feyre

You’re absolutely right—we needed to see that moment between them. Because Rhysand lied, withheld the truth, and knowingly put Feyre in danger. But instead of any real fallout or reckoning, we get a skipped-over time jump and a soft-focus resolution. The text tells us Feyre “forgave” him, but… how? Why? What was the conversation that led to that forgiveness?

This feels like a massive narrative gap. It conveniently avoids accountability in favor of smoothing over the conflict—and that undermines the emotional gravity of what happened. Imagine if Nesta had done what Rhys did—do you think she would have been forgiven so easily?

It’s a perfect example of what frustrates many readers about Rhysand’s treatment in the later books: he’s not allowed to truly fail. He can make enormous, morally questionable decisions, and the narrative protects him from the consequences. That lack of accountability cheapens the depth of the relationships in the story.

Final Thought

Nesta is often condemned for how she told Feyre the truth—but the question we should be asking is why didn’t anyone else? And what does it say about the Inner Circle that they let a woman they supposedly love face death rather than trust her with the truth?

If Nesta hadn’t snapped in that moment, Feyre might never have known. That’s not just bad character writing—that’s deeply unsettling worldbuilding.

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