It’s been so long I’m not even sure I know what I want anymore. Also not even that sure I’m me… or actually who me is. Also kinda confused these days in case that wasn’t clear.
Strange realization after a few years of being alone… it’s easier being lonely and having no sex now than the years of frustration and disappointment … it’s easier being lonely alone than being lonely with someone. Maybe my perspective is all wonky. Maybe I’ll see it more clearly one day but that’s what’s real for me today. I’m learning to be ok alone.
Life has been really really difficult for me these past few years. I’ve been mostly absent from this virtual space for quite some time but I miss it. Trying to focus on understanding what went wrong and what my future looks like. Taking things one day at a time and putting one foot in front of the other… struggling but I’m growing. Thank you for the messages while I’ve been gone. I’ll try to reply soon.
