I'm glad it resonated with you so well, thank you for the lovely comment.
You'll hear this from everyone and everywhere, but it bears repeating: it will get better. We're all young, you'll find your people you actually love and not just tolerate out of fear of being alone, and in five years you'll be, hopefully, like I am and telling the next batch of transmascs that embracing being a monster is one of the most liberating things you can do for yourself.
I hope you enjoy (or. however you'd describe it) the rest of the game just as much.