You possess the rare gift to see and talk to dead people, and have kept this hidden from everyone your entire life, including your spouse. Now your spouse dies and is quite surprised.
It didn’t take much.
One stranger in millions had considered sixty seconds of their time to be more valuable than his entire life, and now he’s bleeding to death in the wreckage of his crumpled vehicle.
I’m bleeding to death, he thinks to himself, I’m dying.
I can’t die. Not yet.
Please God, not now, I need more time, so much I need to do…
…Sara, I have to…
No.
No.
In the distance, he hears sirens approaching and wills himself to hold on.
The first responder runs to his car, somehow managing to force the door open. “Sir? Can you hear me?”
I can hear you, please, help-
“Sir?”
The EMT is reaching for his face, and then her hands are moving through him. The man shrinks back in surprise and finds himself in the backseat of his car. The EMT was calling over her shoulder.
“I’ve got a nonresponsive man over here…”
What the hell?
Another EMT joins the first, and together they pull the man’s unresponsive body out of the car. The man watches in panic as they try to resuscitate his body.
“Time of death, 2:23 pm…”
The man stands on the side of the road as they drive off with his body.
I’m dead.
Now what?
Hours later, he finds himself on the steps of his apartment. He’d walked home from the crash. It doesn’t seem fair to him that ghosts have to walk - shouldn’t he be able to fly or something? But he didn’t know what else to do. All he knew was that he wanted to be near Sara right now.
But looking at the door to his apartment, he is overcome with a wave of panic and sorrow. He’s dead, he’s dead, he’s about to go see his wife who can’t even see him because he’s dead, oh God, what’s he supposed to do?
He fights back tears. Can ghosts even cry? At least he can go and see Sara again. Maybe she didn’t know he was dead yet. Maybe he could see her smile, see her happy before she learned. Maybe this was a gift to him, to see her one last time.
He steels himself and reaches for the door, only to find himself melting through it. Right, ghost, he reminds himself.
He moves through the hall, resisting the urge to yell, Honey, I’m home and kick off his shoes. She hated how he was always leaving his shoes in the hall, why did he do that? Why couldn’t he just put his shoes away like she asked, it would have been so easy. That one board that always squeaked is silent as he moves over it.
Sara isn’t in the kitchen, and she isn’t in the tiny office they had wanted to turn into a nursery one day. But there is singing coming from the bedroom.
She’s laying on her back on the bed, singing to the cat perched on her tummy. He watches her, studying the way the light shines on her hair, how her hands stroke the cat’s fur, the curve of her lips as she sings. Little things he missed so often.
God, I love you.
Sarah jumps, startling the cat and sending it fleeing under the bed.
“Crap! Peter, for goodness sake, don’t do that to me!”
I…you can see me?
“Yes I can see you! You may be sneaky, but you’re not exactly hiding!”
Sorry, I…I didn’t mean to scare you.
“I almost threw the cat at you. Just picked him and chunked him.” She mimes scooping the cat off her stomach and throwing him. Peter finds himself smiling despite everything.
I don’t think that would’ve turned out well for either of you; I doubt cats make effective ranged weapons.
“Are you kidding? I’m going to draw up a patent for it right now. It’ll be the ultimate anti-intruder device. Let me show you…” She grabbs a pen and a pad of paper from the bedside table and starts to sketch out what appears to be a combination between a catapult and a slingshot.
“See?” She holds it out to him, clearly expecting him to take it from her. He half reaches for it before catching himself. He hesitates for a moment before withdrawing his hand.
Sara looks confused for a moment, then her breath hitches in her throat. Before Peter can react, her arm shoots out, reaching for his chest and going straight through it.
The two sit in shock for a moment.
Sara, I…
“So, you’re dead, then?”
Yes, I think so.
“How?”
Car crash. Some idiot ran a red light.
“Oh.”
They stare at each other for another moment. Finally, Peter asks,
How can you see me? And how did you know that I’m…that I’m dead?
Sara shifts awkwardly. “Oh, that…”
He doesn’t know what to say. It’s obvious why she never told him; he would have thought she was crazy or joking. He doesn’t have to ask what that was like, either. He can tell that it’s been a lonely burden to bear. She spoke in starts and stops, stumbling over words she had never shared before.
And as for what happens next, that was the last thing he wanted to ask.
Sara hangs up the phone. “That was the hospital,” she says, “They said that you were in an accident.” Her eyes are vacant.
How many years had she lived like this? Knowing so much more than the rest of the world, haunted by the dead and cut off from the living?
Peter reaches out his hand and awkwardly tries hover rest it on her shoulder. Sara shivers a bit but leans into the ghostly ‘touch’ anyway. And now he knows what to say.
I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you while I was alive, he whispers, I’m sorry that I can’t be here to hold you properly now. I wish, dear God, I wish I could go back and be a better husband. Love you better. Treat you better. Give you the world like I always promised. But I swear, anything I can do, I will do. I promise, Sara, that I’ll be there for you forever.
Sara holds her hand over his, and he can feel her warmth.
“I know, my love.”
The whole world is warm. Sara smiles at him bravely.
“You gave me everything I ever wanted. You can rest now.”
Her words are so soft, softer than she ever speaks. He can barely hear her.
“I will always love you, my dear. My darling.”
Slowly, he fades away and is gone.
Sara looks at the place her husband once occupied, the only trace a lingering coldness. Finally, she allows herself to cry.
When she finishes, she texts a friend asking them to take care of the cat tonight. As she leaves the apartment to identify her husband’s body, she looks fondly at the shoes tossed idly in the hallway.
And then she shakes her head and leaves, locking the door behind her.