Life after stillbirth

Early grief is terrible. No words can describe that trauma and despair that drown like a wave. Today is the first day I can even begin to express myself through anything other than tears and poetry. Today I wanted to write about grief as it is. A nightmare that apparently does not end, as it continues to haunt you like a recurring nightmare.Only 6 short weeks ago (it feels like a few days), I was loving a sweet squirmy baby in my womb. Coming home without our sweet baby as we expected was…

My first and only pregnancy ended when my son Miles died during an emergency transfer.But let’s back up. At 37 years old I realized that fertility is not a given. The doctors told me I should have no trouble getting pregnant, but we kept trying with no results. I finally got lucky after 18 months of trying.My labor and deliveryFast forward to April of 2019. My due date came and went. My midwife team allowed me to go to 42 weeks. I went into labor naturally and had the perfect home water…

Another factor you consider in planning a pregnancy after loss is timing. And as I said, I wanted to become pregnant again almost immediately. The thought of a living, breathing child is a powerful motivator, and many families go on to get pregnant with the very next cycle.

We need to remember that even when our babies are stillborn they are still loved. But, there is something else that needs to be remembered. There is a conversation that is discussed far too seldom, even among the women who have experienced it. Maybe this conversation isn’t happening because we’re uncomfortable or because we’re unaware.

"I'm not sure I would have lived to see my daughter..."

January 3, 2016 was his due date and I could hardly wait. He was conceived purposefully and we wanted him deeply. He was to be our second boy and we were all excited to welcome him in to our world. What most people don't think about is how much a

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After pregnancy & infant loss life can be extremely disorienting, especially when it comes to faith. For some of us, we ask questions about faith and God for the first time, or we want to come back to a faith that we once held onto but now have done so less and less. For others, our strong f

Before I let go of my little boy, I needed to spend time with him. So I brought him home, and our journey began