sivavakkiyar:

““Democracy in India is only a top-dressing on Indian soil, which is essentially undemocratic. Constitutional morality is not a natural sentiment. It has to be cultivated. We must realise that our people have yet to learn it.””

— Ambedkar

back in India for a month and already don’t want to go back to Boston. So much familiarity and stillness and comfort to leave for what…. Grad school? Devastating and heartbreaking. Personally even gay life is better here because I remain desirable as a brown man. But fuck is it awful to imagine a future in this country. Fuck is it awful to imagine a possibility that I won’t be able to run away to Boston.