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The "numdar335 Awards" (2021)

2023 update/disclaimer: apparently there are multiple definitions of the word "tweep" out there, so lemme clarify I meant it as "twitter peeps" (as in "people of twitter"). I should also clarify that the current version of myself largely disagrees with this list, not necessarily because I have "changed as a person" but because of information I simply didn't know back when I made this list. BTW the usernames & "brand" names mentioned on the list were accurate as of early 2022, but they might have changed or gotten stolen since then.

[CRINGE WARNING] Welcome to 2021's "numdar335 Awards", the most prestigious awards in the world of terminally online "people"

Category 1: Best Subreddit

1st place: r/politicalcompassmemes

2nd place: r/2balkan4you

3rd place: r/2me4meirl

Honorable mention: r/mapswithnewzealand

Category 2: Best Youtube Page

1st place: TomDark

2nd place: Chass

3rd place: MeatCanyon

Honorable mention: Earth Sound Walks

Category 3: Best Gimmick Account

1st place: @weirdrealitymp4

2nd place: @polydepression

3rd place: @schizobased

Honorable mention: @fckueverything

Category 4: Best Tweep

1st place: @emmalangevin

2nd place: ???

3rd place: ??? (2021 didn't have many memorable tweeps tbh)

Honorable mention: @s4m31p4n

Category 5: Best Memes

1st place: lots of high effort memes, for example on r/dankvideos

2nd place: lots of sigma male grindset memes, similar to 2020 but better

3rd place: lots of new trollface/trollge memes, similar to 2020 but better

Honorable mention: the "Invincible" memes. The whole craze surrounding "Invincible" was definitely better than the "Euphoria" trend of 2022

Cracks in the Armor

Days go by, I’m losing my grip

Fixing my mess, a losing game

Eyes are dry as the hours slip

I wear the weight of my own shame

Energy drinks fuel a restless night

A haze of dreams blurs reality

Asleep or awake, I can’t tell the difference

In this twisted world of duality

The clock keeps ticking, time’s running out

A relentless race against my fate

Failing to mend the damage done

As I crumble beneath the weight

Eyes wide open, yet lost in a dream

A never-ending struggle within

The world stands ready to judge my fall

A consequence of my own sin

They cast their stones, their words, like knives

But the truth is, it’s my battle to face

No horrible sin, just a part of my life

A reminder that I, too, can find grace

I speak my truth but the words fall on deaf ears

My world, my reality, a foreign land to theirs

Isolated and questioned, I’m left to wonder why

Inaudible echoes, lost in an endless sky

my first ever post on tumblr

bleh.

i’ve always thought that tumblr is a really cool platform. now that i finally started using it, i don’t even know who to follow!

  • i don’t know if any of my friends/acquaintances use tumblr
  • very few famous people (publicly) use tumblr, and their pages don’t even have a verified checkmark, so it’s not easy to find them ;(
  • discovering interesting pages from scratch seems kinda hard (tumblr’s personalized recommendations don’t really help much)

dang it, i really wanna find people to followw. people look like they’re having so much fun here, hahaha :’(

(ok lemme take a quick break from complaining)

(ok it’s been a minute, time to get back at it)

now i kinda have to add a bunch of tagss & i don’t want to. *sigh*

F.A.Q.

Do you like anime.

Yea. Some of my favorites are Steins Gate, Tokyo Ghoul (the uncensored version), Future Diary, and No Game No Life

Wanna play Fortnite/Apex/Warzone?

I've tried those three games but I wasn't too good at them, neither was I willing to put in the hours to improve. I kinda prefer single-player games tbh. The only multiplayer ones I sometimes play are Overwatch (D.Va) and TF2 (Pyro)

Favorite band?

Paramore is easily my all-time fav band, but in my friend-circles I'm mostly known for liking Nirvana and Linkin Park. I also looove MBV (Kevin Shields is a genius and actually not overrated at all) and Failure. Also, Softcult is my favorite new band, and Sugar for the Pill is my favorite local new band

Are you far left or far right?

Far center :D

50 random facts:

  1. I like cats & I'm a proud cat-parent
  2. I used to be really good at ice-skating (but I haven't skated on ice since 2014)
  3. I'm an audio nerd & I'm not exactly an expert but I know how to do a good mix (just ask my musician friends, haha) even if I often prefer a somewhat raw production in music
  4. I'm somewhat critical of the EU but not at all against it
  5. I wanted to vote for ALDE/Renew in 2019's European Parliament election but I couldn't, because (unlike in previous elections) ALDE didn't have any MEP candidates from my country :(
  6. on the left/right spectrum I'm a radical centrist
  7. on the compass I'm right-libertarian (my SapplyValues coordinates are (+6.67,−8.33,+8.75))
  8. "the political compass is basically astrology for men" well yeah I don't care if it's true or not. It's really entertaining
  9. I'm not sure how to describe myself politically, because of a lack of sufficient terminology (both "liberalism" and "libertarianism" have completely lost their meaning nowadays). I could specify I'm a "(neo)classical" liberal or a "Cato" libertarian but nobody knows what these specifications mean. Maybe I could say I'm a voluntaryist (voluntaryism is when people participate only in what they willingly agree to) or an anarcho-individualist (the term "anarcho-capitalist" is waaay too misunderstood + takes the focus further away from non-capitalist free-market systems such as mutualism), or even use occultish terms like "thelemite" and "TST satanist". All thanks to ridiculous numbers of paleocons falsely self-identifying as libertarians, and similarly ridiculous numbers of anti-caps who somehow think a "free-market economy" is not entirely different from the illiberal overregulated oligarchic corporatist cronyist economy which has been the conserved status quo throughout all of modern history
  10. my liberty-mindedness doesn't end at politics: I reject all collective identity and heavily relate to nationlessness, racelessness (race is a social construct), irreligion, agenderism, asexuality/demisexuality (libertinism is only fine if it's voluntary and not dictated by biological programming -- which is the most underrated threat to individual liberty) and moar
  11. I was born in Athens (Greece), specifically in Cholargos (which is btw one of those Athenian neighborhoods which actually look fairly good, despite all the ridiculous trash-talking against Athens)
  12. Poros is my favorite Greek island (lots of awesome memories). But I uhh don't want to ever go there again (I eventually ruined some of my favorite friendships so I managed to create hella bad memories too -_-)
  13. I have a BADASS long-term memory (I have lots of memories from my toddlerhood, and I remember almost all of my childhood very clearly)
  14. I think about the past A WHOLE FKING LOT. I'm basically that annoying guy who constantly rambles about the past & just won't shut the fuck up about it
  15. I'm culturally obsessed with the late 2000s & the early 2010s, even though they weren't my best years personally (but they were still good enough for me to feel extremely nostalgic about)
  16. 2016 was probably my best year because everything just felt right, y'know??
  17. as much as I miss my past, I definitely don't miss the person I used to be. (Just like lots of other kids from my generation) I had trouble socializing (people still respected me because I was polite and responsible, but I lost some friends whom I could've very easily not pushed away if only I wasn't such a mess socially) and I also didn't know almost anything at all about the world but of course I totally thought I did, so when I graduated HS and started uni and got "out there in the real world" I was EXTREMELY unprepared, it was a disaster
  18. got my first place when I was 16
  19. wrote my first ever line of code when I was 11, and my first line of "real" code when I was 13 (and at first I thought that was kinda cool, but then I found out that seemingly everyone around me claims to have written their first line when they were in kindergarten or something, sheesh)
  20. my favorite programming language is Haskell, and my second favorite one is... Lolcode. Yeah.
  21. I used to use Arch Linux, and yes I was very proud about it. But after almost a decade of being a Linux freak I finally switched to Mac like a normie normal fucking person
  22. speaking of being proud because of an operating system, in 2012 I jailbroke my 4th generation iPod Touch & I was super proud of that. Everyone else had vanilla devices, meanwhile I had tons of tweaks and downloaders and emulators & whatnot. It was epic, but I kinda wish I had never gotten so addicted to it because it seriously distanced me from some of my bestest friends, smh
  23. I'm a total night-owl (I've been called a vampire about a million times), but I kinda hate night-life activities (clubbing etc)
  24. never learned how to play an instrument, and I really regret it. But I guess it’s not at all too late
  25. South Park is my guilty pleasure. I've watched all episodes & movies multiple times each. When I first played the Stick of Truth, I appreciated the references and inside-jokes more than the actual gameplay, haha
  26. Daria is by far my favorite TV show of all time (including anime). I used to watch it on MTV when I was little, so I recently decided to revisit it & I was super surprised to find out that it seriously blows everything else out of the water
  27. my favorite TV show as a kid was the Looney Tunes (as well as all sorts of other stuff from the Golden Age of American Animation). At first I used to watch it on rented videocassettes, but in 2005 my family finally bought a DVD player, so I got some DVDs (mostly Duffy and Porky) that were all-mine! On a semi-unrelated note, I also owned a bunch of Digimon DVDs (the early episodes were AMAZING)
  28. I was primarily raised by my grandma, and she actually used to maintain a diary where she'd document my life until the age of five! Lately I've been reading that diary, it's really awesome
  29. I'm an agnostic & I despise organized religion, but I'm not one of the many many annoying cocky atheists who think they're awesome & look down on religious people (also I think being an atheist can be a very sad thing, whereas the people who think they can communicate with a god are probably having a blast even if they sometimes sound like lunatics)
  30. I've dealt with arrogant people my entire life, and I really dislike them. The funny thing about arrogant people, is that oftentimes they seriously think that they're actually well-respected, but they ALWAYS belong in SOME group of people that happens to be very looked down upon by other arrogant people (I know this sounds very vague, but I can think of COUNTLESS real-life examples of this). No one is safe from arrogrant people's judgement, not even the most confident arrogant dipshits out there
  31. I drink a ton of coffee because I need the caffeine, but I hate coffee. It tastes like poison, unless I add crazy amounts of sugar (in which case it tastes less bitter but still not good)!
  32. which is why energy drinks are better! They're delicious, they kinda taste like bubblegum
    ice cream
  33. speaking of drinks, I'm not a fan of alcohol, except for beer. Beer is awesome (most types of beer are bitter-ish, but they're also sour and this really adds a lot to their taste)
  34. never really done any psychedelics, because voluntarily having a false perception of reality sounds like a little too much of a bad idea. But I guess they’d be kinda awesome in microdosages, or in a hypothetically controlled environment
  35. I was (legally) given opioids a few times, but I avoided them as much as possible. They are happy/sleepy pills, but they also make me unproductive (morphine also made me REALLY ITCHY, but codeine thankfully didn't). I’m also not a big fan of weed and benzos for the same reason (I still think they should be more legalized commercialized though)
  36. anyway, the only actual drug I like is Adderall (and stuff like Ritalin/Vyvanse etc. Not coke though: it's a complete waste of money unless you turn it into cocaethylene in which case it's a complete waste of health), because it makes me feel even more sober than I normally am, if that makes sense
  37. I think all drugs (regardless of how extreme) should serve as a utility, for when you actually need to calm down or sleep or stay awake or achieve whatever neural effect for a useful purpose (instead of just getting fucked up and goofing around)
  38. I'm starting to seriously run out of things to add to this list
  39. Hayley Williams is my only uhh celebrity crush (and used to be one of my childhood's heroes)
  40. my videogame crushes are Aerith from Final Fantasy, Morrigan from Dragon Age, Kawakami from Persona 5, GLaDOS from Portal, and Athena from God of War
  41. Mikasa Ackerman is uhhh my anime waifu (cringe, I know), not only because she is a super badass soldier, but also because she is a mix of yandere and kuudere (yandere and kuudere characters are awesoooooome, let alone a mix of the two), and most importantly because I used to watch AoT during some of the most nostalgic days of my life (the most guaranteed way for me to really like stuff is to feel nostalgic about it)
  42. I'm not a nihilist (definitely not like the Frowning Friends, haha) but I agree that, one day, everything that has ever felt important will retroactively have been meaningless
  43. I was 17 when I entered a university (which, according to ARWU, was once in the top 100 worldwide for computer science, and according to QS, is currently in the top 90 in Europe for computer science), so I could have graduated at 21 but didn’t do it in time because I’m a fucking disgrace & I hate myself (but the pandemic didn’t help too much, and neither did all the other unprecedented shit I had to deal with during my early uni years)
  44. I started playing Minecraft (the Beta versions) in early 2011 (almost a year before Minecraft went mainstream), and started using Reddit in late 2011 (7 years before it went mainstream) back when it was beefing with 9Gag I know no one will ever read this but wtf was I thinking while writing this shit
  45. started playing games from the CoD franchise in late 2006 (almost a year before the franchise went mainstream) and games from the Persona franchise in late 2015 (almost 2 years before the franchise went mainstream) can I sound any more obnoxious at this point? Damn
  46. discovered Logic (the rapper) and MGK before either of them dropped their first album they had already released a ton of mixtapes though
  47. somehow randomly read about Martin Shkreli on some random Greek news website years before the Daraprim controversy
  48. discovered Mastodon (the social network, not the band) almost a month before it blew up but didn't join until after it blew up (very uncool, I know) turns out it didn't truly blow up until months later. Anyway, no one cares
  49. been a fan of a bunch of 2016 soundcloud rappers before they blew up "yay I'm such a special snowflake wow"
  50. also discovered a bunch of underground music from Greece that blew up later on. I’m really proud of this stuff tbh but of course I managed to completely screw up both of my two opportunities to work as an A&R :D
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