Pen’s Unorthodox Tag List For Some Of My More Unorthodox tags
🦇 - Aesthetic tag for my vampire-crow-demon OC, Crow Locke.
crow locke - Self-explanatory tag containing everything you’d want to know about my feral little girlie (affectionate).
🌻 - Aesthetic tag for Crow Locke’s precursor, Locke Savannah Kingsley, from Recollect: Faterunners.
🤍 - Aesthetic tag for Crow Locke’s rival, the static magic user by the name of Locke Casey.
📺 - Tag for stuff that reminds me of my spirituality and my system.
citytalk - Tag for talking about my system.
recollect - Tag for my friend’s series, Recollect: Records of the Other Side.
smt: the goetic - Tag for my tabletop campaign I haven’t been able to shut up about recently, Shin Megami Tensei: The Goetic.
these hymns aren’t for the holy - Tag for the unfiction project I’m running, on the rare occasions I discuss it here.
holy frick - Tag for funny things.
LOOK AT THE PRETTY ART - Tag for art I want to put on my eyeballs.
stories - Tag for posts that just tell a story.
reflection - Tag for posts that make me sit in silence for a little bit.
references/reference/ref/writing ref - Tag for useful posts to save for later.
music - Tag for tunes I want to put into my mouth.
i cant believe its me - damn i can’t believe that’s me
pokémon/pokemon - look i use both tags and now i just have to live with this i suppose
ffxv + ffx + ffviii + ffxiii + ffxiv - FAVORITE Final Fantasy games tags
liscanon - the tag for my FFXIV player character/Warrior of Light, Qlisaiah ‘Lis’ Amaranth, and her canon’s content
I remember someone saying "mad scientists in fiction aren't scientists because there's never a control group"
I think if you've created an elixir that turns people into goat men you have sort have gone past the need for a control group. The control group is not going to placebo themselves into goat men. You can probably not run the control group, and safely assume that none of them would have turned into goat men. That said, having a control group for that would make the mad scientist seem extra crazy and be really really funny, especially if he was carefully testing them for goat like features from the dyed water they drank instead of the elixir
ive been trying to let evil into my life
i like that the name nuzlocke stuck. like the original thing was just called hard mode but it featured a nuzleaf named after locke from lost and to this day its still called a nuzlocke. theres even variations like wonderlocke. like the locke part became a suffix. i like that. i really like how words happen
if you're on instagram get off that thing and go outside
if you're on tumblr hold fast and keep scrolling soldier
"the early 2010s were better" no they weren't. "hey soul sister" was on the radio.
stereo. The way you move ain’t fair you know.
dear universe give me ten billion dollars and infinite free time and indestructible hands so i can do every hobby ever
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Rough transcription of my reactions to this:
"WHAT THE FUoh it's art WAIT, THAT'S ART? HOLY SHIT THAT IS GOOD and the political themes are great"
executive dysfunction is telling yourself for two and a half hours that you need to shower bc you smell like your workplace and you absolutely Cannot do Anything Else until you shower, doing Any Other Thing before showering is illegal!!! but you still haven’t for some reason??? you’ve just been sitting on your bed in a towel scrolling tumblr for 2+ hours thinking “I need to shower right now immediately” and growing increasingly frustrated that you are still not clean and you haven’t eaten or done your laundry either
ok actually no I’m reblogging this because a) I am clean now (and I smell amazing, thank you), and b) I had a heckin Realize and I wanted to share it with y’all in the hopes it’ll help someone else with a brain like mine.
I figured something out about myself a long time ago– it’s only just now occurred to me that I was in fact solving a problem caused by executive dysfunction, and I haven’t been implementing this solution lately because my brain went “that’s a relatively new term to me and therefore a Different problem that requires a Different solution”. thanks a lot, brain.
anyway, long long ago, before I knew these fancy schmancy Official words, the problem, as I phrased it to myself, was such:
sometimes I get Stuck. I was doing something, or on my way to doing something, and then… I just. got stuck.
“Stuck” looks like refreshing my feed or dashboard repeatedly. or it looks like staring at a spot on the wall. or chewing my fingernails. or picking at a stubborn sticker. all the while, my brain drifts through various unrelated topics I wouldn’t be able to recall if asked. sometimes I can get Stuck for hours before realizing I am Stuck. sometimes I get so Stuck that I go to bed that way (feeling especially bad for being unproductive) and I have to just reset everything by sleeping.
one day I asked myself, “why is this happening? why am I stuck, right now, at this moment in time?” the answer, as it turns out, was pretty simple: I was trying to make a decision, and I got distracted. I haven’t moved forward because I haven’t answered that one question or made up my mind.
let me rephrase this in terms of executive dysfunction: many people have expressed that it feels like knowing you need to do a thing but not feeling “ready” to do it. many with ADHD may also be familiar with the feeling of needing things to be “just so” before you embark on a task- you need your setup to look a certain way, or you need to set a timer, or have the right music playing, etc.
when I get Stuck it’s often because I got lost somewhere in that setting-up process, and my brain took the opportunity to nyoom off into Distraction Town.
getting myself Unstuck is solved, 95% of the time, by tracing my steps back to the original decision I was trying to make- often something small and inane- and then troubleshooting from there. (out loud! verbal processing is totally punk.)
- “what was I trying to do?”
- “was I trying to decide between two things?”
- (the answer’s usually yes.)
- “what were they?”
- “okay, let’s decide.
- “okay, that’s settled. let’s move on.”
- and then I am free as a bird to nyoom in the direction of The Thing I Wanted To Do All Along, in the amazingly disorganized, scattered, yet rapid-fire way that I do many things.
so!!! in the case of my first post, where I hadn’t showered for 2 hours? turns out I had been trying to decide what music to listen to in the shower. (another hack: my chances of getting Stuck while showering decrease by 75% if I have music playing to help me keep track of time.) I couldn’t immediately make up my mind, got lost in thought, got distracted, and drifted. once I stopped and asked- “why am I stuck?”- then I remembered- “oh yeah! I wanted to listen to music”- and then decided- “I want to listen to Daft Punk’s Discovery album”- I was finally heckin able to shower. and also eat, and also throw my clothes in the dryer.
and may I add I only zoned out once, during the slow part of “One More Time.” :P
I’m not saying this is a foolproof method. sometimes I don’t have a reason for being stuck, and that’s okay! I’m also not saying this is how every adhd brain works. it’s just how my brain works, and I’m sure there’s at least a few who can relate. for those few, I hope this helps!!
a lot of people are reblogging the original post without the update and leaving frustrated comments and that makes me sad! if I can find ways to hack my brain than so can you! executive dysfunction is a real and frustrating challenge, but don’t buy the lie that there’s no way to work with it or around it!!!