Forwards Beckon Rebound

Warnings: childhood friends to lovers, escaping responsibility, reader is second in line , arrange marriage, descriptions of sex in forest, virginity loss, never seeing each other again

Genre: fluff, angst, smut kinda cause it’s all description

A/n: The fact they don’t end up together hurts but that’s the vibe the lyrics gave me so enjoy!! The cherishing of looking back but understanding that it’s over is coming from me reeling over my first lesbian heartbreak that is still haunting me…10 months later😀 but it’s mainly all based on the song because she was no violet and I don’t want to see her again🙏🏿

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Violets. They’re my favorite flower, they have been since I was a little girl.

I adored seeing them in my hand, safe in my palm. Violets loved me as much as I loved them, but as we grew older we’re told our taste has to change; develop.

Violets were safe but maybe they weren’t the right choice. I knew that was a lie but duty made me pick roses. Sure they’re pretty but I always end up pricking my finger or the smell made my head hurt.

This isn’t as simple as preferences, I don’t have the luxury of that. I had the luxury of loving her.

She was the strongest woman I knew! Her brawn couldn’t compare to her will or mind. We’d read in our spared time, stealing glances in-between soaking in literature. She was a true leader and I’d follow her if I could.

Violet was my knight, best friend, protector; my one true love. So much so that she let me go.

I often look back onto my life then especially when we first met.

She was a scrawny try hard in the knight academy and me of course a princess. I couldn’t keep my eyes off her and she couldn’t keep hers off me. She would show off when I was around and it worked in her favor. I’d honor her with flowers when I’d get the chance.

During our teen years we got even closer, sneaking off anywhere we could! Libraries, gardens, mess halls, the town, you name it! She even taught me how to “truly” ride a horse because princesses are “taught incorrectly.” I taught her how to shoot a bow and arrow and I snuck her my notes from my lessons.

No matter how hard everyone tried there was no separating us especially once I got closer to her siblings. However childhood ends, teenhood transitions you into being a woman at this point one without much options.

Soon everything was about marriage and she was off becoming a decorated knight. I wanted to be married, truly just to her. My parents had my eldest sisters marriage on lock so they had to turn to me. The women were nice just not my Violet and I heavily expressed that!

The problem wasn’t her position to them it was mine. What’s a princess when you could be a queen of another nation! That’s when I met my rose, we were only twenty years of age and were to be wed as soon as possible. She isn’t a horrible person, she can be quite lovely and I understand I’m lucky in that department but I deserve what I want!

When vi returned and was informed of the news she was heartbroken. With her new victories it felt she’d be able to prove herself to my parents but nothing could change they’re minds.

So we hatched a plan, to keep a piece of each other in a way no one else could.

The grass in the forest was the softest it’s ever been. We grew up under these trees and this would be the last time we wouldn’t be compelled to duty under here.

The kisses were slow and the touches were slower. Unsure almost, like we were slipping from the other. We weren’t, no one could take this from us.

The feelings of our souls mingling, attaching in a way that no one could shake made it feel more permanent.

That was the last night I truly slept. I could still see her, laid on her side staring at me. Fighting sleep so this moment wouldn’t end.

Alas everything comes to an end and opens a door for new beginnings. She was there at the wedding, we danced when no one was looking.

When it was time to bid my goodbyes, I held onto her and her family the longest. My family had reason and opportunity to visit me and they didn’t.

Family is who you choose, I choose the people I was born with big I chose the people who came along. I just couldn’t keep them…

So I now I rule, and tend to my rose but my garden will always be filled with violets.

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A/n: i had to describe the lying down part like how catvi looked at each other in season one cause me and the heartbreak fell asleep like that and I needed to express my pain somehow😭 sorry y’all if this is ass I related but not because they have different personalities but I wanted to express myself so yeah, hope y’all enjoyed

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