I think its the burnout/depression/etc but lately ive been having a hard time doing my injections and idk what to do about it to make it easier for myself…
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what the “eff” is Homestruck? o.O;; is it a anime? or is it a yaoi? I could totally get into it if it was yaoi xD;; >//w//>
Spouse is potting a few small plants for the windowsill and the dog is following them around like "please sir may I have some dirt?"
grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.
i talked ab this feeling in therapy yday and my therapist asked me, “would it really be so bad if your memories changed? if they softened and faded or looked different over time? why does that frighten you so much?” and i said, “i don’t want the love to disappear.” and she looked at me for a long moment and then she said, “it won’t. it doesn’t work that way. even if the memories soften or change, it doesn’t mean the love does. that love keeps going backward in time, forever, because you love her still. all is not lost.” i just thought i would share that in case it resonated w anyone else too.
prompts-in-a-barrel
"You don't know me. I'm not the same person anymore."
"That's okay. I'll get to know you again."
