Yeah, I unironically made my tumblr layout based on a BL porn game from 2018. So what? Boy cute, and boy is me, because kins. Now go away!!
Through daytime, & nighttime, the spring days, & fall nights, somewhere in the world somebody dies every day!
I'm dreamless & lifeless, but really that's okay
To see you still alive makes everything worth the wait
Well, you know what? That's what I really wanna s i n g of!
yo!! i’m hunter (im 21 yej), i’m also known as wolf, revolver / rev, uzi, and reshiram / reshi. im sollunarclipsic and/or transmascnonbinary(he/they/xe/astra/zap) and i like guys /ref, see my pronouns page for my neopronouns, xenogenders, and all the other names i use!!!
im also experimenting with the names dusk and tranquil, so if you want to refer to me with those names i don’t mind!!
this post is way too long but honestly i just wrote all this shit for me anyways (/hj) so you don’t have to care abt whats under the cut lol, but keep reading at your own discretion i guess (im serious whats under the cut is way too fucking long, so yeah, discretion advised)
if anyone ever tries to body-shame you, remember that there was a whole span of at least 20 years when the most popular Beautiful Lady DollsTM in Europe and the US had double-chins and cheeks that look like they had buccal fat augmentation:
this is Barbie, 1860s-1880s
and she may not have a realistic body either, but she is a stylized rendition of Plump Lady Wearing Normally-Laced Corset
and everyone looked at these dolls and thought “wow, that is depicting a beautiful woman!”
and they were right, as are all appreciators of any women
and they were right, as
are all appreciators
of any women
Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.
jesus christ i wrote 37 pages worth of venting in google docs, i wrote for like 4 hours
it was like 12.3k words or something when i finished
if i could write like that i could finish my novel in like 4 hours dude, that’s about 4 chapters worth of shit according to my bare minimum word count im shooting for
So earlier in art class today, someone drew a characters hands in their pockets and mentioned that hands are really like the ultimate end boss of art, and most of us wholeheartedly agreed. So then, our teacher went ahead and free handed like a handful of hands on the board, earning a woah from a couple of students. So the one from earlier mentioned how it barely took the teacher ten seconds to do what I can’t do in three hours. And you know what he responded?
“It didn’t take me ten seconds, it took me forty years.”
And you know, that stuck with me somehow. Because yeah. Drawing a hand didn’t take him fourth years. But learning and practicing to draw a hand in ten seconds did. And I think there’s something to learn there but it’s so warm and my brain is fried so I can’t formulate the actual morale of the lesson.
Saying “I’m not going to draw this thing because I don’t know how to draw this thing” is really shooting yourself in the foot, because you’ve now cut yourself off from an opportunity to grow.
I had a friend in college who was an absolutely amazing artist. I loved seeing his work! One time I said something to the effect of “I could never do that.”
He told me something that, as an artist, I resonate with. He said art isn’t about natural talent; it’s a learned skill. When you tell an artist their level of skill is impossible for you to reach, you’re assuming their level of skill is a natural gifting they have, and it discredits the hundreds to thousands of hours of hard work they’ve put into getting where they are today, and you’re cutting yourself off from trying to reach that point yourself.
I don’t remember where I heard this but I wish I could, because it stuck with me:
Talent is THE RATE at which you learn things, not whether or not you can learn certain skills at all.
And that suddenly clicked for me. I have been very talented with a lot of things in my life and once I realized that I had basically been getting XP multipliers on my normal life experiences, it suddenly felt so much less awful to realize that I did not have the same advantage with other skills I struggle with, and that’s okay. I might even have some debuffs on those, and that’s okay. It’s still all gaining as long as I keep working on it!!
This also holds true for writing: the best way to never be good at writing something is to never write it.
I see people say that they don’t write fight scenes, for example, because they’re bad at writing them, but the reality is that the way you get good is to write them.
And maybe you write one badly, but then you look at it and figure out what makes it bad. And then you write another one, and it’s a little better, or it’s bad in a different way, and you repeat the cycle until a lot of “a little better"s get you to "good”.
ALT
