research hall trophy husband
this is my main & equally embarrassing Bloodborne blog. my own art is under βart tagβ
purely aesthetic 18+ sideblog > researchhall
Mercy for the poor, wizened child...
Let the pungence of Kos cling, like a mother's devotion...
is what iβm saying.
The thing is, do i even have to come up with an entire essay on disability and substance abuse? And the way they can be linked both as self treatment when nothing else ever worked but also as a forced inevitability of institutional treatment itself? It’s both a way to escape and deal with constant pain as well as something enforced upon people in order for them to be “easier to deal with”. Bloodborne i think is a Lot about substance abuse and the research hall very much ties into that with another aspect of it. Even disability and chronic pain and the medical institution aside, theres something to be said about relying on any kind of substance in order to “ascend” and receive visions, and the agony that comes with being deprived of it and being “sent back to [your] lesser years”
About Adeline’s “selfishness” also, i call it that because i don’t really know what word would fit better but anyway i think the most obvious way in which it shows through is the urgency in her voice when she says “yes, that’s it, let me have it!” as well as the unconscious use of “Must” in “i must have it”, i think it’s something that is so genuine and life wrecking and comes from so deep that she cannot contain it anymore or be proper about it compared to everything else she says. It’s too much to feel and hold
Today i spent my afternoon making a physical map of the research hall for no reason other than i thought it would be fun
