I’m sorry for letting this sit in my inbox for so long; I wanted to do it justice but I am just. So bad at writing Lucy. I don’t know what it is. I just have trouble getting inside her head. But! I will try. Sorry if this is a bit rambling ^_^’

There’s a line in the Prince Caspian book where Lucy wakes “with the feeling that the voice she liked best in the world had been calling her name.” It’s Aslan, but her first guesses are her father or Peter. So Peter is probably Lucy’s favorite sibling, too! And one of her all-around favorite people.

It also says a lot about how she sees him: an older, protective, guiding figure. Even so, I sort of feel she doesn’t really feel the age gap between them as much as he does. Like, to Peter, Lucy is his baby sister who needs to be protected and spoiled, but Lucy sees them a lot closer to equals. I’m thinking about the way she talks with him about his doubts in the Prince Caspian movie, and also questions his war plans. Actually she argues against his plans in LWW, too, when he wants his siblings to go back, she insists all four of them need to stay. And of course they ruled and debated in council and went to battle together in the Golden Age.

After Narnia she’s sad and lonely and frustrated, because it’s just so obvious that she (and Susan and Edmund) should be right beside Peter. And they have to go to different schools and he’s growing up way faster than she is, because he’s a teen and also a boy in a society that sees boys as more capable and she’s like ten and a girl. And they grew up in the Golden Age but it wasn’t the same, because they all had the same job and lived in the same castle. It’s strange, more than anything else, strange not having Peter there. She’d write him letters, often, filled with the hundred random things she’d wanted to tell him that day but couldn’t, with feathers, pressed flowers, funny-looking seeds she’d found, tucked into the folds of the paper, notes scribbled in the margins when she’d thought of one more thing to say, books to recommend, jokes she’s heard. I can see her saving her pocket money for train tickets to visit him, and Susan having to talk her out of that because it doesn’t matter that the war’s over and you’re fourteen now and used to be older; you’re still a child and the school will panic if you go tearing off on your own for weekend visits. No I’m not coming with you that won’t actually help.

Uhhh where was I going with this.

Anyway Peter is safety and laughter and familiarity and comfort to Lucy. Even if he can’t actually fix whatever’s going on, just having him there makes things better instantly. After they leave school they’d get places near each other and be visiting all the time. (We’re ignoring The Last Battle today.) I don’t know how to end this, so just imagine Lucy still sending him long, chaotic letters, and Peter teasing her, because he just saw her yesterday! But she’s in the habit now, and really he loves it.