i am but a humble closet gremlin

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See, that’s what the app is perfect for.

Sounds perfect Wahhhh, I don’t wanna

Welcome to my blog. I’ve been writing fanfics sine 2001. Many fics from my high school days are now lost to time and space, but you can find my surviving fics on my AO3 page. I also recommend checking out my AO3 bookmarks especially my AO3 recs.

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Saw that “are you ok son?” meme with the kid saying “I didn’t deserve what they put me through,” and I reflected momentarily on the worst years of my life and came to two conclusions:

  1. I did kind of instigate a portion of what happened to me so this meme is at least partially untrue
  2. What I did deserve however, was my fucking hypothyroid medication when I was eleven.

Like seriously how much could have been avoided if I got put on hypothyroid medication? That stuff is what keeps me from going full on detached from reality. How much admittedly psychotic behavior could I have avoided if I was on that medication at 11 instead of waiting until I was like 27? 28? Maybe I wouldn’t have tried to deal with the bullying by provocation (because then I understood why it was happening) if my brain wasn’t set to absolute clown town dysfunctional thyroid land?

Like I am a whole other person than I ever was at any point when I was in school. If you have not been around me since I turned 28, you technically have not seen me when I’m medicated. You have no idea how much better of a person I am right now. Like yeah I still get paranoid from time to time and such but at least I’m not staying up for 24 - 72 hours anymore? I’m not as uncontrollably loud anymore? I have actual impulse control now? I am a whole other person. I could have had this in middle and high school and university but noooooooo because my doctors were all using the old numbers and not the new numbers.

It’s a shame though. So much grief for nothing. So much preventable nonsense possibly.

Anyway, welcome to this thought train again

hypothyroidism talk bullying talk things i think about drug talk
jewel-shard
jewel-shard

Sooo….. Inuyasha is totes Kagome's first kiss right?

Yes. 100%

It was a second grade, Red Rover incident. She ran away. He cried.

Does kissing Hojo on the cheek to avoid an awkward confession count?

No. It was a game of spin the bottle. She blocked it out. Emotionally erased.

Koga was her first kiss actually

Technically, her first kiss was stolen by a demon. Doesn’t count

Does count.

She kissed Kikyo once. Don’t ask.

It was under the bleachers. No regrets.

Some regrets.

It was Inuyasha but he was human. She thought he’d die.

She kissed a frog spirit thinking it was Inuyasha. Look, it was foggy.

demon first kiss truther it was some sort of soul sucking through the mouth kind of demon kagome stabbed them with an arrow immediately upset that they stole her first kiss and then pretended it did not happen inyasha poll talk
bug-in-a-porchlight
bug-in-a-porchlight

hey. hey you, yes you

BOIL YOUR FUCKING MILK

i'm being so fr right now. they are getting rid of milk testing ENTIRELY. I have family members in living memory who died of tuberculosis caught from raw milk. Heat will kill the majority of pathogens that may be in it and we now have no way of guaranteeing that they aren't right now.

source

still can't believe they suspended milk testing honestly they are trying to kill as many people as possible that's the only way anything this administration does makes any fucking sense important fda food talk dairy talk

Redid P8 and La8 and feel better about those sections now. Still working on what Lo8 and W8 sections should be. The eighth set of plot points is about figuring stuff out and I do know what they need to figure out but how, who, etc…is eluding me still.

This of course will lead to the ninth set of plot points which relates back to the second set. If I go back to the second set of plot points, I am technically on the right track heading into the ninth set of plot points.

It’s frustrating because I want to be done with the outline but there’s always something going on making it take forever ;o;

adventures in fic writing

My poor little knee who has been through family predisposition to being shitty, multiple falls as a toddler who walked and ran late, grew too fast, and abuse in gym class because “no pain no gain” teachers is rebelling today and being a little pain in the ass and I am so over it.

not even sure what i did to it i'm just glad i won't have to do mandatory gym class knee things all week on it like i had to growing up at least it's not both knees simultaneously that one is always more difficult complaining
coolname2
amphibious-thing

I wish we could have a nuanced conversation about queer erasure without one side screaming all historians are homophobic and are trying to hide queer history from you and the other side screaming no historians are trying to hide anything from you and any critic of academia is anti-intellectualism.

Historians are people. Like any other kind of people they each have their own biases that affect their work. Some historians are queerphobic and will absolutely hide queer history from you intentionally. Some historians are not queerphobic but will perpetuate queer erasure by not actively questioning the research of the queerphobic historians who came before them. And some historians are not queerphobic and are actively trying to undo the damage of queer erasure.

i think also like the statements ''some historians will erase queer identities'' and ''sometimes we can't draw a definitive queer conclusion though there is circumstantial evidence'' are statements that can coexist too history lgbt ymmv
vintageandroid
socialistexan

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Uhhhhhhhh that seems bad

RFK Jr.'s autism study to amass medical records of many Americans
The autism study is planning to link confidential data "with broad coverage in the U.S. population" in one place for the first time.
cbsnews.com
socialistexan

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HELLO

vintageandroid

I did contact my legislative individuals about this. I don't know what they can do, but I figure I'd suggest that if anyone's seeing this and hoping for some suggestion of action. They need info to tally so they know what people are concerned about.

I don't have a script because I don't remember exactly what I said, but I know I specifically cited the comparisons to 1930s Germany, as well as mentioning HIPAA concerns, and I thanked my reps for stepping up for people in my state before encouraging them to do so for more vulnerable people.

insert that ralphie meme here yeah i also contacted my elected officials about this do not want them into my personal health data do not want everyone's health data in an easy hackable place do not want randos into everyone's health data do not want my worth to be determined by the doctor's giving my mom too much medicine when she was in labor with me rfk jr can fuck the fuck off political world war ii nazi talk roberty kennedy jr national institute of health

Welcome to this round of questioning the crossover fic. This time I’m debating if I really do need six narrators for this story. Maybe I can tell the same thing with only Eddie, Venom, and 616 Peter and let Laura, Logan, and Wade be secondary characters.

Do the DP3 group add to the narration? In some ways yes, in other ways not as much? I mean the main pairing is pretty much Eddie/Venom and then 616 Peter does have a friendship with Laura, but do we need both their perspectives?

Or maybe I’m just letting the fact I still don’t quite know what I’m doing with everyone except Eddie and Venom in the eighth section make me feel less confident about the fic plan in general. or I just need to sleep on it and then I’ll know what to do. That happens a lot.

Don’t really want to redo the outline again though. Kind of want to see how the current version could finish playing out and resolve. But I still wonder if maybe this fic is bigger than it should be. Although it’s a crossover so….

adventures in fic writing i need to like consult an oracle or something