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GET THAT AWAYYYYY FROOOMMM MEEEE

.☘︎ ݁˖ forget me, not

fem!reader, angsty, part 3 of this but can be read seperately (highly suggest reading 1 and 2 first though!) // tw: none

itoshi rin likes silence. or, so he thought.

it turns out he doesn’t like silence from you. suddenly, he feels empty. it’s strange, he’s never noticed how you filled a void inside of him until you were gone, and he’s left with an odd feeling of cold, even in the summer.

he also thinks it’s unlike you to just cut all contact. surely, you must still be watching him silently from afar? but you’re absent from all of his social media accounts, no likes or story views to be found.

he wonders if you’d take him back if he begged you. he wonders why, although he’s in an otherwise happy relationship, he cannot expel the bittersweet thought of your name.

for now, he’ll try to forget. he’ll assume that you’re receiving all the love and care that you deserve, that he was unable to give to you. he’ll focus on his new life, and forget it. forget you.

but it all falls apart too soon, this new calm that rin had found.

rin’s playing re al today, and that means seeing sae again. that much was expected, and he had thought he’d be able to deal with it. the last face he expects to see in the crowd of fans is yours, beaming brighter than a star on a lonely night.

he wonders who the smile is for; certainly you weren’t here for him, you’re standing on the wrong side. re al’s side.

it’s whatever, rin thinks. he’s supposed to forget it, right? your cheering for the enemy or not, it doesn’t, shouldn’t matter to rin. you two were done, broken up—until he catches the number of the jersey you’re wearing, and his vision involuntarily blurs, the hot sting of tears threatening to escape. it looks like his uniform, the #10 itoshi, except it’s not for his team. and that could only mean one thing.

as if that weren’t hell enough, sae chooses that moment to walk out onto the field, and rin swears you light up the second he appears. sae doesn’t even look at rin, his eyes are calmly scanning the stadium as well, coming to a stop on you. and itoshi sae, ever so stoic, cracks a smile resemblant to a school-boy’s when you wave at him. he waves back.

rin stands, frozen in horror as his teammates surround him, ready for the match to start. he’s right next to twenty or more players, but he feels so utterly alone. he’s never wanted to be his brother more than right now, and what’s worse is that he can’t honestly say he’d be a better choice than sae.

because he wasn’t. he’d left you high and dry when you had loved him, so it was only deserving for you to be with the better itoshi brother.

so again, itoshi rin will try to forget. try and fail to erase those memories of when you’d thought you loved him, and he had tried to love you back.

a/n: hi anon! thank u for liking my work so much! this is a bit short since i wasn’t planning on making this story any longer LOL but i thought i’d give it some definitive closure. if u want any more details on what happened leave a comment or ask + OTHER ANONS I SWEAR I’M WRITING

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