Note: Most of these were not written in any sense of an order but I do attempt to give them some organization below.

Summary: At the very beginning of his life, a young man and artist of 25 in the year 1954, Alfred Finch has more than he previously thought he could ever hope for, people he can call family and a path for his life. But it all quickly dissolves away once his best friend, Delano Sullivan is murdered and Alfie is the one they pin it on. It’s easy after all, “the boy has a documented history of an unwell mind”. He gets committed to a psychiatric hospital for the criminally insane. Alone in the world and looking down a bleak future is when he meets Dr. Harris, a particularly invested pysychiatrist who takes a special interest in the new patient.

Themes: Psychiatric whump, possessive whumper, forced treatment, mental hospital, forced restraints

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“He won’t respond, we gave him haldol first to keep him quiet.”

Scientists that drug their unwilling subjects so that they don’t have to put up with bad behavior while they work!!

The subject blearily watching them.. unable to voice protest or resist but still flinching in pain when needles pierce their skin and other unpleasant things are done to them!!!

Then practically melting off the table when their restraints are undone and the guards walk/ carry them back to their cell to sleep the nightmare off !!!!

I’m working on a test subject/ lab whump video… here are the first few seconds… I am actually nearly done but feel like I want a little more footage to perfect it.

If you have any test subject movie or show whump ideas, PLEASE comment!!

Arthritis Pain-a primer

Most of us are young and haven’t experienced this yet so in case any one else hasn’t given a primer on this kind of pain for whump writing, here we are, feel free to add

When can it occur- most commonly after decades of use of a joint (old age), or injury that compromises joints and/or connective tissue, or illness that brings on arthritis at any age-there are a variety of diseases like rheumatoid arthritis, ankylosing spondylitis, Lyme disease, etc.

How it goes: for most it starts with abnormal stiffness. So stiff in fact that it’s hard to guide your legs down stairs, or your fingers seem to be stuck in place (usually curling in on themselves). In the mornings finger joints have to be individually moved and then “warmed up” to get the flexible enough to move on command. Sometimes you literally feel stuck in positions if you stay in one place long enough.

Stiffness is usually first but soon behind becomes the excruciating pain. Arthritis pain- especially if it is inflammatory arthritis (basically any arthritis not from old age) is the inflammation rushing to the joint, it makes it warm to the touch and can swell. The pain while dull ( not sharp) can be so intense it is overpowering to the senses. It is throbbing, pulsating, heavy, debilitating agony that makes sharp sudden moments of pain seem like a welcome relief in comparison. Bc so often arthritis pain can go on at its worst for long long periods. A few years ago I shattered my wrist, got ibuprofen for it for a week while I waited for surgery and then got only tylonel and ibuprofen afterwards (hospital in rough neighborhood, no opioids or anything), and the pain of the shatter and then of 8 new screws imbedded into my bone felt like ½ of arthritis on a bad day.

You get used to arthritis pain, at least you think you do, until you have a bad day and you are not sure you can move your body to get up for the bathroom or get into a warm tub. It’s eternally shocking how excruciating it can be and how overwhelming the pain is.

Extra side effects: you drop things all the time, stairs are very slow, sometimes you can’t chew food (arthritis in jaw), you get an odd sleep schedule (often times waking up like clockwork the second your pain overrides exhaustion every night- go to bed at 10 sleep till 12:30, get into warm bath till 2, sleep till 5, get into warm bath- so on), hard to keep good posture, you try to limit your movements and plan your schedule that way.

Things that help: warm baths with epsom salts (the salts open your blood vessels which relieve the inflammation)- literally instant relief. Heating pads- same thing about the blood vessels, normal pain relievers do NOTHING. Light massage, distraction, And then medical treatments like chemo and Biologics. Creams don’t do anything

We talk about aching of old wounds and breaks that pulsate in throbing unrelenting anguish years after…

But I’m here to posit that the worst kind of haunting wound is nerve damage. Nerve damage spasms in electric like stabs that feel raw from the very first shock. Nerve damage feels like you’re being electrocuted at any given moment and the pain receptors are eternally sharp and much too sensitive, unlike the throbbing that eventually dulls into bluntness of the aforementioned aches.

Nerve damage makes your whole body twitch if it is unexpected and significant enough, even if you’ve had a thousand before that should have primed you to hide it.

Nerve damage feels like glass is embedded inches into your skin, waiting like shrapnel to cut in afresh at every movement.

Nerve damage doesn’t just remind you of your past but haunts you with shocking clarity like the first time every time.

“They think I’m going to break.”

“…well, are you?” Inquisitive with just a touch of derisive.

They let their gaze fall away, “Yes. Probably.”

The opponent’s messenger scoffed, “I didn’t think you’d admit to that eventuality.”

“I’m smart enough to know my own limits…” they replied flatly, their voice thin, “And frankly, I’m just not that strong.”

The messenger shrugged, a smirk tugging at the corner of their mouth, “Could’ve fooled me.”

With a resigned nod, they held out their wrists, accepting the shackles. Without a word, they were led away, their dragging footsteps echoing in the wilting silence that followed.

I was telling my therapist about whump (in the broadest of terms to not embarrass myself too badly) and he responded with “yeah… I’m not going to touch that, you can have this one to yourself…” 😭

So I’m on a treatment that’s whole point is to knock my immune system down a few pegs, it’s literally chemo plus a biologic… but it has whump-y implications because… the slightest paper cut or split in the finger will always get infected… every single time.

It also slows down healing so while you’re waiting 2 weeks for that tiny paper cut to heal, surprise surprise, infection. Something stays open long enough, of course infection will take over. Infection is everywhere all the time.

I can imagine a tough whumpee who is used to soldiering on being just completely astonished and irritated at healing times let alone how inevitable infection is.

I think a lot about tragic whump where The Character’s character is taken out of the story too early. Their other half, romantic or not, is gone and so they lose their inertia. They no longer care and everything they go through is so much lonelier.

And it promises to be for decades to come if they keep surviving because their partner isn’t coming back.

What a crushing daily existence for them without their person.