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Doris Lessing

Abstract

Cook Tayler was crippled during World War I, and he met her mother Emily McVeagh when she nursed him at the Royal Free Hospital in London. Emily and Alfred married in 1919 and had Doris the same year after they emigrated to Persia, were Alfred remained "not the only soldier never, ever, to forgive his country for what he saw as promises made but betrayed: for these soldiers were many, in Britain, in France and in Germany, Old Soldiers who kept that bitterness till they died" (Under My Skin 7). Alfred thus was to work for the Imperial bank of Persia, to get away the country which he now felt bitterness against. They stayed in Persia till 1925, when Alfred, Emily, Doris and her younger brother Harry moved to Southern Rhodesia (now Zimbabwe) where Alfred wanted to try his luck at maize farming. His attempts failed, as he knew very little about farming, and the family lived in poverty in a mud and thatch hut. Emily in a way managed to adapt to life on the farm, trying to reproduce the lifestyle which she was used to from her own upbringing, but she was often depressed, feeling deprived of the social middle-class she was accustomed to from England. Although happy living close to nature, Lessing was a lonely child, as the neighbours were miles away, and Lessing spent most of her free time reading and exploring the surroundings. Lessing's relationship with her mother was complicated, as Emily wanted and expected a boy rather than a girl, and Lessing was left feeling unloved: "What I remember is hard bundling hands, impatient arms and her voice telling me over and over again that she had not wanted a girl, shewanted a boy. I knew from the beginning she loved my little