Life Ain't Fair "But" The Game Is Cold

Life Ain’t Fair

But

The Game Is Cold

Shavonda King

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Copyright 2016 By: Shavonda King

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Acknowledgements

First and for most, I would like to thank my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for dying for all my sins. Thank you father for blessing me and allowing me to borrow your daughter Briana Brooks. Whom I claim as my own She is the most beautiful, amazing, smart, funny and talented kid any mother could dream of asking for. I thank you father for allowing me to take ownership over her while we’re on earth, believing in me and trusting me with her life. I promise to nurture her until the death of me.

To my entire family I love each and every one of you dearly. Thanks for your continued support.

To my daughter’s father: Brian Brooks thank you for being a friend to me and a father to our child.

To my friends I love each and every one of you like sisters. We all have some great memories that we will forever cherish.

To my God-kids I love each and every one of you unconditionally

To my Co-Workers: Zoe Benyoun, Diane Fossett, and De’Angelo Nelson. I have had some great moments with the three of you. It was nobody but God that brought all of us close. I love all of you.

All my extended family member I love you all deeply.

I would like to thank my make-up artist Danielle Carter for going above and beyond to keep my face looking phenomenal.

I would like to thank Tiffany Woods for my lovely hair style.

I would like to thank my stylist Nicole Harmon Matthews

Special thank you to Mita Vain from Vain Entertainment & Productions. You are my manager, my friend, and my sister. I love you past death. I have come a long way because of your advice, help and support. There’s nothing in this world that I could trade you for. I have learned so much from watching you and talking to you.

Special thank you to Chicago’s own Actor and Model Twon Cruz for assisting me on this project. I must say we brought nothing but sexiness to the cover together. I really appreciate you and working with you.

I can’t close this out without acknowledging two of my favorite men and my Angels in heaven. My grandfather, Miller P. King. No matter what I know you are always watching over me. I miss and love you so much. I think about you so much but as long as I know you are resting peacefully then I’m at peace. Look after the rest of the family and close friends for us. I love you daddy!!!

Monta’ Henry you will always hold a special place in my heart. I have learned so much from you and you was nothing but a gift from GOD to me. I miss you ever day and I love you so much. Give Dad and Gank a kiss for me.

Sincerely,

Shavonda King

My’an Mack

I would like to acknowledge a very special young lady by the name of My’an Mack. She is from my hometown and is battling Lymphoma Cancer at the age of 8. She is a beautiful and sweet young lady and I would like for everyone to keep her uplifted in Prayer.

Chapter 1

After seeing all the killings in the hood Talonda never wanted her boys to grow up victims of society. She always wanted the best for all her kids, but she had to work on herself first. She had personal issues going on in her life that she never dealt with. She always felt like that’s why she was never good at choosing the right men to bring in her kids’ lives. She always wanted to move her kids out of the hood but she never could get her money together to do that.

The block she lived on had shootouts, dope spots getting raided, and in sum cases she even seen people get killed. A lot of people Talonda knew as a child ended up getting on drugs. Sum of her friends from school fell victim to the drug game as well. The temptation of dating a drug dealer was at its all-time high. It seem like those were the only dudes to date now days.

She was into older men though. All she wanted to do was find herself a good man that was willing to help her raise her seven kids and love just her. She didn’t realize her kids were feeling like victims already. They wanted to live like normal kids and have fun. They was never able to do things other kids could do. They couldn’t go to parties, school dances or even get involved in outside activities. D.J. was an ordinary kid who wanted to have a normal life. He didn’t have the best clothes and shoes, because his mom had six other kids by five different men. D.J. was the oldest of seven kids. None of their fathers were in any of their lives. The youngest three dad was around for quite some time until they decided to leave for other women. The oldest four didn’t know their dads or anything about their families.

For the most part their mother Talonda worked as a Medical Assistant and took damn good care of them as much as she could as a single parent. The only problem Talonda had was, she needed a man at all times in her life to validate who she was as a woman. She was never good at choosing the right men. She started messing with this one cat named Dre. Dre was a tall man who stood about 6ft. tall, slender built and a clean shaved head. He had a very deep intimidating voice when he talked. He didn’t work all he did was leach off D.J’s mom Talonda. D.J. didn’t care for him because he didn’t do shit but drink and eat up their food, sleep or either hangout in the streets. Talonda didn’t care what Dre did as long as he came back home to her. One day D.J. asked Dre why he had so many scars on his arm. Dre spatted back at D.J. these are war wounds; you wouldn’t know anything about that Lil’ Chump. D.J. cut his eyes at Dre while whispering to himself yeah ok.

While Talonda would be at work she would leave Dre at the crib to watch the kids. He felt like they wasn’t his kids so he would leave them at home by themselves for D.J to look after them. Since he was the oldest of the seven kids. D.J. couldn’t do what the average twelve year olds could do. He could never go outside and play with the other kids. He was too busy being a father figure to his siblings. D.J. decided to ask his mom when she came in from work. Why we can’t go over Moma Tanya’s house anymore? She responded Why D.J.? (Moma Tanya is Talonda’s mother, but everyone called her Moma Tanya). D.J. responded to his mom, Because we could outside and play when we are over her house. Talonda turned to D.J. and said Well your granny don’t like and respect Dre, so until she can accepts him being the person I love and respect him we not going over there til she does."

D.J was too young to understand what she meant by that. He walked off saying under his breath All I want to do is be a real kid. Talonda yelled out to D.J. What the fuck did you just say? D.J kept walking and yelled back Nothing mom nothing! Talonda yelled back at D.J You better watch who the fuck you talking to before yo ass get slapped! Talonda had never spoken to D.J. like that before. D.J. went into the other room with his siblings and watched TV to avoid his mom. Dre had been gone most of the day he never checked on kids or anything. D.J. didn’t know how cook so all he could feed them was cereal and noodles, until his mom came home to cook for them. D.J. would sit in the room thinking of a way out. He didn’t like living with his mom anymore she was starting to change. All of a sudden she was too tired to do anything for them.

She started calling off work, because she couldn’t get out of bed. She was always sick and tired. The phone rang D.J. answered it was his moms boss Mr. Thomas. D.J. tried waking her up, all she did was moan roll over and went back to sleep. D.J told her boss she was asleep and wouldn’t wake up to get the phone. Her boss was furious, he told D.J. to tell her she didn’t have to come back to work anymore. D.J. knocked on his mother’s door and told her what Mr. Thomas said and she replied Okay and stayed asleep. D.J. being an average kid he didn’t think anything of it. He went on bout his business and watching his siblings. DJ didn’t know what to do he was only twelve years old, and the youngest was seven months old. DJ would stare out the window looking at the other kids play. Til one day he got tired of sitting in the house. He got himself dressed; found his eleven-year-old brother Desmond some clothes. His nine year old sister Shelly some clothes, his eight year old sister Destiney clothes, his six year old brother Aseanti clothes, His three year old sister Kelley clothes, and seven month old brother Devin some clothes and make him some bottles.

He packed as much as he could in him and Desmond book bags. He packed what he could in the baby’s diaper bag. He put Devin and in the stroller and they all left the house walking to their grandmother’s house. Talonda was out of it she didn’t know they were gone. While the kids were on their way walking to their grandmothers house they spotted Dre sitting at an abandoned building looking like he was in the daze. DJ was trying to talk to him, and he was looking as if he didn’t know who in the hell they were. He didn’t ask the kids were they were headed or anything. DJ tried talking to Dre for about five more minutes, but all Dre would do was nod his head and doze off. DJ told the kids come on yall he don’t care about us. We not his kids anyways. All seven kids continued trucking on down the street, headed to their grandmother’s house. The kids were about six blocks away from the crib, and their aunt Tracey sees them. She pulled over and called out DJ’s name. DJ stopped because the voice sounded familiar to him. Where are yall going? Asked Aunt Tracey. DJ replied To Moma Tanya’s house. Where is yo moma? Asked Aunt Tracey. She’s at home in the bed, where she’s been for the last three days. Replied DJ. Aunt Tracey was pissed off because the kids were out there walking by themselves. Where in the hell is her so called man at? Asked Aunt Tracey. DJ said he over sitting by the candy store at an abandoned building drunk or something.

Aunt Tracey piled the kids into her SUV to take them back home. She rolled pass Dre stretched out sleep at the abandoned building. She just shook her head and mumbled to herself no good ass mother fucker! When they made it back to Talonda’s house, she was still passed out in the bed. Tracey woke Talonda up yelling at her Why the fuck is you sleep and these kids out here walking across town by themselves? Talonda mumbled something, but Tracey couldn’t make out what she had said. Tracey snatched the covers off Talonda yelling at her. Get yo ass up and take care of your kids! Talonda kept mumbling and swinging her hands at Tracey to get her to leave her alone. Tracey knew something wasn’t right; she piled the kids back into her SUV and took them to her mother’s house. Moma Tanya was so happy to see all her grandbabies, she started hugging and kissing them.

Tracy barged in behind them yelling Moma you need to find out what’s going on with your daughter! What do you mean Tracey? Asked Moma Tanya. Tracey replied she at home drunk or something. She passed out sleep and I see the kids walking on their way walking to your house. Moma Tanya told Tracey calm down before you wake up Daddy. He went to dialysis today and now he’s resting. Moma Tanya told Tracey she will talk to Talonda and see what’s going on. Tracey looked at her mom with a pissed off look and told her well you need to hurry up because I wanna know too. Mama Tanya tried calling Talonda but she didn’t answer. She told Tracey to sit with the kids and her dad while she went over there. Moma Tanya proceeded to go over to Talonda’s house. When moma Tanya walked in Talonda was in the bathroom over the toilet throwing up, with her body drippin in sweat. Moma Tanya asked Talonda, Are you okay?" She was too busy throwing up her guts, she couldn’t answer. She would say she was cold in between throwing up, but that was it.

Moma Tanya called the ambulance for Talonda. When the ambulance arrived Talonda refused to go to the hospital. One of the technicians checked her vitals, she had a slight temp and her respirations were very fast. Her blood pressure was a little high, but not too much. While checking her vital signs they noticed bruises on Talonda. They asked Moma Tanya if Talonda was a drug user. Moma Tanys told them NO! She never used drugs a day in her life. She has seven kids to support, and a good job. They offended Moma Tanya when they asked her that. The technicians showed Moma Tanya the bruises, she told them it’s probably that no good nigga she’s with abusing her. She knew one thing her daughter wasn’t on no drugs. Talonda all of a sudden spazzed out on them. She started yelling and hollering for everybody to get the hell out her house. Not one time did she ask where her kids were? She didn’t even realize they were gone.

The Emergency Technicians gathered their things and informed Moma Tanya that if Talonda refused their help its nothing they can do, because she’s conscious and competent. Moma Tanya didn’t want to hear that she wanted help for her daughter. She told them look at her, you can clearly see she’s sick. Once again they tried to explain it was nothing they could do if she refuse their help. Moma Tanya helped Talonda into the bathroom so she could clean herself up. She was too weak to bathe herself, so her moma helped her bathe. Moma Tanya helped her into her pajamas and back to bed. She fixed her a bowl of chicken noodle soup and crackers so she would have something on her stomach. Moma Tanya sat there a lil while longer to keep an eye on her. She decided to do a lil cleaning while Talonda rested. The only thing was running through Moma Tanya’s head was, she hoped she wasn’t pregnant again. Moma Tanya noticed Talonda didn’t keep her house clean like she normally does.

She cleaned as much as she could without wearing her own self out. She still had to deal with the grandkids and Dad when she got back. After Talonda ate the soup she started to feel a lil bit better. Talonda called out and asked her mom where are the kids? They were walking to my house and Tracey saw them. She brought them back but you was so out of it, she just brought them to me. In the midst of their conversation Tracey called to tell her mother to bring the baby some more milk, because DJ brought what he could. Moma Tanya asked Talonda where was all the baby milk and cereal. Talonda said, she hasn’t gotten a chance to go to the store because she’s been working a lot of hours. Moma Tanya just shook her head, grabbed the one can of formula that was there and left. Moma Tanya wanted to ask the kids what was going on so bad, but she didn’t want to question them.

When she got back to the house, she had Tracey to take DJ to the store with her to get the baby some more formula, purified water and some cereal. Moma Tanya whispered to Tracey ask DJ if he knew what was going on with his mom. Tracey said I sure will because I would like to know also. Tracey and DJ went to the store. While they were in the car Aunt Tracey asked DJ what is going on at home? DJ replied, What you mean Aunt Tracey? Have you noticed a change in yo mom? Tracey asked DJ. DJ hunched up his shoulder and replied, I don’t know, all I know is, I want to be able to go out and play with other kids. Tracey asked DJ why you all can’t go outside? DJ said, Because I have to babysit while she’s at work. Tracey frowned her face and said to DJ I can’t understand why you would be babysitting and she has childcare. We don’t go to anymore. Replied DJ

When they came to a red light, DJ was staring out the window at the kids playing and enjoying their summer vacation. He was looking at their nice shoes and clothes. His shoes and clothes were decent, but they weren’t name brand like most of the kids his age. He and his siblings passed clothes down to one another. DJ was in a deep daze staring out the window that he blocked out him and Aunt Tracey’s entire conversation. He was thinking real hard about what their lives would be like if they all had gear and toys to play with like the other kids on the block. Sometimes the kids would jive on them for wearing buddies, but it wasn’t anything they could do. They couldn’t call their fathers, because they didn’t know them. Tracey noticed the blank stare on DJ’s face as he was staring out the window. She just didn’t know why. She didn’t want to keep questioning him in case he shut totally down and don’t want to talk anymore. DJ turned and looked at his Aunt Tracey and told her one day imma make a lot of money, and buy my brothers and sisters everything. Tracey jokingly said to DJ well I hope you have a good job, because it’s a lot of you lil motherfuckers running around here."

Tracey noticed DJ didn’t find that too funny. She asked DJ what was wrong. C’mon DJ talk to me. Replied Tracey. "She