Situations Before Heaven

Copyright © 2011 by Carl L. Johnson II.

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Contents

You’re Life Without Me

A Beautiful Sight

The Beginning of My Gain

A Change for Me

You’re Husband

Chasing After a Dream

A Different Result

A New Life Appeared

Unpredictable

A Promise

Been Looking for Me

A Whole Different Person

Actions Will Speak Out

You’re Chance at Me

Against the Wall

Isn’t Giving You Up

Always On My Mind

Near Failure

Always Prevail

You Still Fighting Me

Ambitious

Another Chance

My Love for Success

As My Wife

Another Hell of a Life

As Time Goes By

Ask and You Will Receive

At the Top

You Motivate Me

Back on My Feet

A Brand-new Man

Be Humble and Patient

Search No More

Be There for You

You Know Nothing About Me

Behind a Good Man Is a Good Woman

Believe What I Say

You Got My Heart

Both of Us Deserve It

Came Back

Came to the End

This Time

Came to Whatever

You Did Me Wrong

Can’t Judge Me

Brought Me Through

Can’t Last Forever

You isn’t Part of This

Comes into Play

Won’t Last Forever

Come On with Me

Not There Anymore

Come Take a Look

Will You Marry Me

Coming Home

Who I Let Through

Coming in Line

Where Would I Be

Coming My Way

Crazy Thoughts

Your Own Pride

Dangerous Mind

Following My Heart

Defense Mechanisms

Fulfill My Part

Delighted

Where We Are Going to Be

Did You Ever Think

Different Kind of Breed

Where I Should Be

Dim All the Lights

Where My Heart Is

Do My Part

Directions

Divaricate

Do What It Does

Trying to Get Back

Don’t Let Me Down

Who I Am Today

Dreamed of This Day

Each Other Relieve

Equal Opportunity

Wish You the Best

Exhale Impure Air

Failure Is Fatal

Experienced Enough

False Imprisonment

Father, I Know You Got Me

Father, Thank You

Feed Me

What You Do to Me

Find My Purpose

When Trouble Seems to Find You

Follow My Dreams

First, I Didn’t See

What You Do for Me

For My Future

From the Bottom to the Top

From This Point On

This Is the Place

Give and Take

Full Speed Ahead

Giving You the Praise

The Best I Can

Go and Get It

God Bonded

Until the End

God Is Blessing Me

We Willing

Going To Be Fine

Had to Pay a Price

Graceful I Have Been

Happy

Where We Belong

Harvest Time

We Will Have to Find Out

Have My Back

Haven’t Seen Nothing Yet

You Can Call on Me

Heaven Sent

Helpful

Here I Come

We Lifting Each Other to the Top

Here With Me

Hold My Grounds

You Are the Reason

House of Hope

Victoriously

How Good I’m Doing

I’ve Been Waiting

Hungry Like the Wolf

I Can Forgive But Never Forget

Hustle, Hustle

I Can See a Better Place

I Can’t Give Up

With You

I Do Miss You

I Don’t Feel Bad

Why You All Envy Me

I Don’t Know When

I Feel Real Good

What Dreams Are Made Of

I Finally Stopped and Listened

I Have Faith

Was a Mistake

I Have Had Enough

Want to Pull Me Back

I Hope That I Find

Discrimination

I Knew You Had Me

I Must Die

What Has Made Me

I Only Want You

I Overcame You All

Waiting for This Day

I Repent

I Still Believe

I Thought I Knew Your Past

Valuable Life Can Be

I Told You So

I Want to See

If I Could Leave This Place

What We Are Trying to Build

I’m Done Talking

Waited Long Enough

I’m Grateful for Your Love

I’m Highly Blessed

Victim of Reality

I’m Okay

What My Future Holds

I’m One Hundred

Love and Missing You

I’m Saying

I’m Seeing Progress

Visualize Me

I’m Still on My Feet

I’m Thinking About You

I’m Wide Open

This Family

In Every Thought

Uplift a Weary Mind

In My Head

In My Long Walk

In the Name of Jesus

In the Near Future

Into My Life

Untitled

Is It Them

It Isn’t No Secret

Underneath My Feet

It Grew Thin

It Wasn’t Mine

Underneath Me

It’s Time to Come Up

Just Something Simple

Trying to Make It Happen

Just Try Harder

Trying to Do Me

Keep Getting Right Back Up

Keep It Moving

Last Longer

Learned to Step Up

To Love and Be Loved

Let It All Be

Trouble Won’t Last

Life Begins

Living a Lie

What I Must Do

Living My Dream

Lord as My Foundation

I’m Seeing Different

Lord, Bless Our Love

Lord, This Is Me

Time Will Heal All

Love Me or Hate Me

Love of My Life

I’m Happy with You

Made Me Out of a Believer

Stripped

Turned All the Way Up

Means So Much

Meant for a Lot

The Way It Needs to Be

Modern-Day Delilah

My Baby

Truth Has Been Told

Mom and Dad

Time to Get It

My Body and Mind are Free

Through It All

My Faith Says So

This Whole Journey

My Haters Told Me

The Trouble Behind These Eyes

My Little Showstopper

The Way It’s Going to Be

My Roots Became Stronger

They’re Coming for Me

My Ship Has Come In

The Time I’ve Been Waiting On

My Shorty Here with Me

My Situations that I Face

The Right Time

Never Let Me Go

The Smile on My Face

Never Thought

The Love of My Life

No Intentions of Stopping

No More Raining

The Rest of My Life

Not Any Longer

The Time Has Came

Nothing Fake About You

The First Lady

Number One Contender

The Life that I Love

On This Road Before

On Track

One Accord

The Chances We Take

One Day

Outcast

The Best of Me

Overran with Envy

The Cost of Freedom

Patience and Faith

Passion

The Answer to My Way

Past Due

Picture You in My Arm

Still Look Down on Me

Please Understand

Protector

Something from Nothing

Prove Them Wrong

Put All My Dreams Into You

Situations Before Heaven

Rapture

Rare Treasure of Life

Shake the Disease

Ready to See

Rebellion

Self-determination

Reborn

Regaining It Back

Ride Until I Die

See the Sight

See This Life Through

Sensation

In the Name of Jesus

Show My True Self

Smile on Your Face

Tashara

So Much Foolish

Somewhere Out There

I Hoped

Son, Job Well Done

Special to Me

Spiritual Breathing

New Me

Still Watching Me

You’re Life Without Me

I gave you all I had

I felt that I was loved

But the result I became sad

Because things with us weren’t going right

Instead of your man, I was your son

I realize that our relationship was getting tight

But I know I can no longer live this life with you

Because I have become very unhappy

Behind the things I had to go through

I had turned my back on those that truly love me

To see you happy

And look where it got me somewhere I didn’t want to be

It might not at first be easy without you

But less drama

To have happiness I know what I got to do

Don’t have any regrets and move on

In due time, it will get sweeter

Because the love I had for you is now gone

In our past, I have done a few things that wasn’t good for me

But it released pressure from my mind and heart

Now I’m grateful for not being the person I used to be

No more losing my mind

Because I’m standing on my own two feet

Not affected of the things I can’t find

If there is Ms. Right out there for me

She better be ready for a real man

From everything I’ve been through with you, that’s what I became to be

I still don’t hate you

With you, I have learned so much

Through relationships or another marriage, I know what to do

Over all our years

We eventually came back together

But this last time, I couldn’t produce any tears

After this time that you told me to get out

Before I walked out, I made sure you’ve seen my face

So you will know for yourself what this was all about

This was the last time you were going to run me over your way

And let you stand there like a fool

My heart also have had enough that it can’t no longer stay

I loved you

That’s the reason I tried to give you my world

Your controlling spirit has torn it apart; I don’t know anything else to do

But let you go

And live your life without me

So you don’t have to worry about me no more

I had a need to become a man

But you were afraid of losing any strength

So you kept me down the best way you can

Hoping I would never have the strength to get up

And stand on a rocky foundation

So you have no problem controlling what goes in my cup

I don’t miss the fussing and fights

Because I was standing up for myself

That we slept alone on them disagreeable nights

We started having secrets away from each other

Because it wasn’t no happiness in the house

Wondering if all of this are worth the bother

To your family, you have made me look like the bad guy

Because I couldn’t stay there with your mess

And I came right back—I don’t know why

Maybe because I really cared

Wanted things to work out

Now you have made me scared

Of wasting my time on you

A few months down the line

It will become the same thing you know too

From you I took plenty

Now I have become sick and tired of it

No stress will overcome me now from any

Even this time, I can’t believe you dragged the preacher in this

Because you realized that I wasn’t no longer listening to you

Or your authority over me you started to miss

You tried to take away my family and friends away from me

And you have me to yourself

You became afraid they would influence me to become who I am now to be

Now your folks have nothing for me but hate

Because you haven’t told half of the story right

It’s okay because between us, you won’t win that debate

And you wondered why I really smoke

To leave the sane part of my life for a few minutes

I was grateful for that—that wasn’t a joke

Maybe it wasn’t enough

I surely don’t miss those nights that we slept apart

Because you were mad at me

For something I didn’t know what I did

We working out weren’t what I was starting to see

You can’t say I didn’t try all the times I came back

For the past six years, not we at the most important part

Farewell, I have got to the point I no longer want to lack

A Beautiful Sight

I can’t hesitate that you are my number one

It’s something different about you from the others

The love and the kindness is mainly what you got

You make me laugh and put a smile on my face

To reach the innermost of my heart

My most scarred place

I have no problem taking us slow

Just so it can last longer

Enjoy more of your glow

You asked to know the real me

So I gave you most of what I got

For the completion, the real you I need to see

My love for you won’t stop

As long as you are here for me

On the bottom or on the top

I will almost do anything for you

To make you happy

In what I do

I’m going to take away anything that makes you stress

You thrill me when you are happy

When I’m holding, I can’t be careless

I have to think about what you’re going through

And how can I make it better?

To comfort you

I’m willing to put you before me

So you will know that I’m really there

Instead of hearing it, I want you to see

You have hit the jackpot

Want you always wanted

A man that wants to bring you to the top

In our past we have experienced being done wrong

So it won’t be hard to know how to treat each other right

Our last painful tears weren’t that long

But I want you happy with me

As I want to be happy with you

And in my arms, if this is where you want to be

I’m going to keep you during the day and the night

So far the morning and the dusk

We’re still going to be a beautiful sight

The Beginning of My Gain

I’m still not going to let my adversity take my joy

When I have gone without for so long

And my enemies have me as their own personal toy

To say or think there’s no God, I have to be a fool

I might be many things but not that

Now things around me are starting to become cool

Lord, you used your precious time to come and save me

Out of the high and rough waters

Where I didn’t suppose to be

You can’t learn anything without going through it

I thank God, for the gates of hell are closing up behind me

This salvation that God has given me has

disgraced my enemies, so on me they spit

But it yet hasn’t stopped me from getting to what’s ahead

The Lord has put upon me more love and support

So I try to praise more over my daily bread

I encounter with familiar faces

Some wish the death of me

My life has become difficult for my life to be traced

You all are praying to your god of finding a way

To bring me back down

But I refuse to see that day

I cannot and will not

I’ve been down for too long

To keep me tied in a knot

My Lord has set me free

From any evil hold

That has ever been put upon me

I now can breathe on my own again

And that feeling feels so good

This is the beginning of my gain

A Change for Me

I have reached this far

Without a fatal breakdown

But my heart has its own personal scar

This lonely time is to see who I am

Learn more about me

So no one innocent don’t have to experience my past I be damn

The result of me looking in all the wrong places

So I paid a price

And my foes know because that’s why they have a smile on their faces

I try to continue to find forgiveness in my heart

Sometimes it gets difficult because my heart has reached its limits

Because it was nearly torn apart

I only asked for a woman to meet me halfway

Most of the ones I met I was asking too much

In their relationships, that’s why I wouldn’t stay

I can’t say that all women are the same

I just haven’t found the one I’m looking for

That’s not full of game

I noticed that I had a lack of trust for a woman

So I played the same games back

In the midst of my pain, I probably lost the best thing that God can give man—

A good and faithful one

That was untouched and as pure as it can get

After all my stupid acts, she finally left me alone

Everything after her has been immature and trash

What goes around comes back around

My stress and nerves have run the one-hundred-mile dash

I have seen and experienced a lot since that day

Lord, I’m asking for another chance from you

Because I have gotten tired of living this way

First, I know I have to get myself back right

Because the differences starts with me

I want better choices and decisions in my sight

Mrs. Right, I’m trying to prepare myself for you

Because I pray you will be the last one

For a change for me, anything I’m willing to do

You’re Husband

I want to be your husband, your protector

Away from any harm

My actions will not be of an actor

It will be my job to make sure your entire body’s secure

So I will hold down my post

When you’re sick, I want to be your cure

I’m going to be living to provide for you

All the things you need and some of what you want

I hope you’re satisfied with everything that I do

Forever find happiness with me

Especially if you’re giving it to me back

This is where I want you to be

You will never have to look for me to be there

That’s the least of your worries

I will come to you to everywhere

Just so you can see and touch my face

To show I will keep my word

Because I need you with me in this place

I pray that you stay at my side

So I will know I can always turn to you

I’m not afraid to ask my woman for advice; I don’t carry that kind of pride

We will become one when we unite together

I will embrace my arms around you

If you ever get caught in good or bad weather

I have started loving you

I have accepted you for who you are

And you have to accept me and what I do

My main job is to be the head

Of this God-given family

And I will serve it until I’m dead

Chasing After a Dream

I’m chasing after a dream

That I was told that I couldn’t have

It’s almost what it seemed

I thank the Lord and the world for what they taught me

How to overcome to defeat a hater

And all of these I see

Success over everything

So victory what it does

I want to know what you bring

I have always tried to play my cards right

But I always had less than twenty-one

So since I never had it, my game became tight

I see my haters wouldn’t stay back

And give me breathing room

Because of some success I already stack

Trying to stop my grind

I give you one finger with a smile on my face

I hope you ain’t blind

I have came too far to quit

When I got most of you in the opening

I ain’t going to let you rest because I love it

I have seen plenty fall

Behind trusting too many

I only serve a handful—that’s all

It’s so much I’m out to do

But it’s going to take patience and a stronghold

The hold that’s mainly for you

I know the streets is waiting for me to slip up

So they can rejoice over me

And steal everything I have in my cup

I have to be sucker-free

Because I don’t need them problems

It’s a place I need to be

It ain’t anything that I can’t do

So fuel my fire

To see me overcome you

A Different Result

I got to hold down my ground

Too much happiness and success ahead

But first, all this mess I’ve been through and

still going through I’ve got to turn around

I know I have done plenty of wrong

But I want a brand-new me

Because there are some things in this world

that I want with me where they belong

In this life, I have been in some jellified weather

And it almost broke me

I still have some trouble keeping some things together

Lord, for what I have done wrong, please forgive me

Now I’m really trying to get a lot better

The feelings are starting to really hurt that people can’t see

But I am not afraid of taking a stand

My life is slowly but surely getting better

Especially in areas that I had a hard time trying to understand

Why these people have cast stones down on me

But my Lord has showed me that I’m not alone

Because now I can look back some situations as what they are and will be

I refuse to continue to live this way

When now I have responsibilities as a father and a husband

That I’m accountable for in every way

In a way my past has made me

Who I’m today

Hopefully so better I can see

Lord, allow me to take your hand

To keep me out of these chains

Of this sinful land

I can’t let anybody or myself stop me anymore

From becoming what the Lord has asked of me

Because I want to see a different result than what I got before

A New Life Appeared

I won’t accept anything

Less than what God wants me to have

I’m surprised of the outcomes after a broken wing

Lord, I know you are the reason

Of the differences that my eyes are seeing

I hope it’s the beginning of my season

For a long time, I feel that I stayed away

But I’m glad to feel that I have you at my side again

And I’m blessed to see this day

Again, I began to chase my dream

Because nobody else is going to do it for me

But I’m blessed to now have my own team

I put myself on the grind

Because I know that’s what it’s going to take

And keep impossible thoughts out my mind

This is doable

Hard work and faith

Because physically I’m able

Positive people said it can be

As long as I put my heart and mind to it

And you would lead my way I will see

With everything I have, I trust you

Because I can’t do this on my own

I have had enough of what I’ve already been through

Now, I have people counting on me too

Through you I have to provide for them

I will tell them don’t thank me but praise you

I feel that everything is about to be all right

And all worries will pass away

Like it disappeared out of my sight

And a new life appeared

With desires at arm’s reach

That sure is near

Unpredictable

This world has built me up and cut me down

When it realizes that something more

Is seeking for my soul

It brought me down too weak to accept it

I used to think I can’t hold on for tomorrow

I’ve been like that since birth

Feeling demons playing in my soul

Living in a world that has no pity on the just

Minds are programmed to destroy

And they’re calling it trust

I can’t see that far

True I was spoiled rotten

Now I realize that it won’t take me far

Experience the acts of war

And it’s no fun game

When you have to watch every step you make

Just to see another day

Telling you how I see it through my eyes

Free from mental degree

In other words, let my mind free from this evil

The goodness has unlocked these shackles

No more holding me down

Opportunities knocking and I answered them

And it feels so good

To prepare myself for what’s before me

I know one day I will make it

And my eyes are clear that I can see

For all the pain and the suffering that wasn’t understood

It has set me free

A Promise

You are the only person I wanted

Never had to lie to kick it

Picturing you was the person I’ll settle down with

But I have to pray for us to keep this

Knowing that I’m about to go away

I already miss you

And I haven’t left yet

You were down to earth

With no questions about it

Me and you back to back striking at trouble

I hope we make it

You have your dreams and I have mine

I still remember your smile that lit up the room

I wish I could kiss you

The feeling that I have for you

Is so strong

I can wait no matter how long

As long as I will be with you

I ask God to protect and strengthen you

When the days seem long

The goals I have

Are to get myself to be with you

I and you bound to tie the knot

If we can wait on each other

On my part

I’m willing to do

For the sake of me and you

You are a real live lady

That has shown me that you are real

And that doesn’t come by easy and normal

This situation doesn’t do anything

But harden my will

To one day, we will be back together

I never trusted anybody this way

For you I don’t have second thoughts

Also I will be true

You can believe me

If you really know how