A Beautiful Blueprint: A Magnificent Mess! (trilogy), #2

Dedication

This memoir is dedicated to

my loving guides, my Dad & Karl,

both transitioned on August 30th,

one year apart. Also, dedication to

you, the reader, open

and ready to move 

forward in experiencing the

Great Awakening of 2020. 

To consciously wake up from

illusions and becoming aware

Of who you truly are

and all that is.

LOVE – LOVE – LOVE

Acknowledgements

Gratitude to All the

Courageous & Dedicated

Starseeds & Lightworkers

awakening people from the

Dark Ages ushering them

into the Golden Age,

expanding

Light, Love, & Joy.

Preface

Wait! If you haven’t read,  Two Heart Nuts to Crack!  the first memoir of this trilogy,  A Magnificent Mess,  I highly recommend that you capture the beginning, the backstory, the set-up before reading this second memoir,  A Beautiful Blueprint , to fully make sense and appreciate the entire trilogy in sequential order.  Read no further here because it will ruin the mysterious nature of the first memoir in which many readers don’t like spoilers.   

First, Karl and I thank you for your interest in our life journeys and for allowing us to share this with you. Memoirs are deeply personal, but both of us are grateful and appreciative of this opportunity to come together to tell our side of our exploration in hopes that you will experience multiple shifts in your consciousness. Thus, creating an expansion of your awareness regarding the big life questions set forth at the beginning of the first memoir. Questions like: What is the meaning and purpose of life? Why is there an array of life journeys where some people live immense difficult life struggles, whereas some people live a charmed life? What is the name of the game of life? What happens when we die, and what’s life after life like on the other side?  

In this second memoir, as in the first memoir, there are potential ideas that could challenge your existing belief system. If you wish to gain insights and go beyond where you are currently, be open to understanding alternative perspectives, rather than struggling with resistance. Leave your suitcase of beliefs and attitudes outside your front door before hopping onto the magical mystery tour to learn about the unknown.

Video: "Dean Radin:  The Future of Consciousness Research," YouTube post: Consciousness and Healing Initiative (CHI)

A Beautiful Blueprint continues with Karl's afterlife journey on the other side, back home as humans call it, heaven. This second memoir also reveals Mary's life journey on earth from 27 to 49 years old. Although our journeys appear to be separate lives, they are actually intertwined.  The mysterious happenings and synchronicities in the first memoir are revealed in this memoir and later in the last memoir. 

All aboard!  Thank you for your ticket. Thank you very much for hopping on this incredible Magical Mystery Tour.  

Song: "Magical Mystery Tour," YouTube post: Joe Simonetta OR Magical Mystery Tour, Paul McCartney: YouTube post: Simon Delorme

Both of us genuinely appreciate Michelle Gray for her warm friendship and her authentic competence as the primary spirit translator/medium/channeler in this memoir for 20 months. She is the bridge between Karl and me in lively communication exchanges. Also, a thanks goes to Emanuelle McIntosh for her friendship and gift of spirit translation in a few parts of this memoir before I worked with Michelle.

Special thanks to the magnificent spirits—Karl, my Dad, Denise, Catherine Peters, Nana, and two special guests: K.B. and G.F., for sharing your knowledge and wisdom about life, your transition and afterlife experiences, and meeting God. The spirit translation in wording, grammar, and sentence structure has been re-adapted in composition for an easier and more precise read that still maintains the accuracy and intent of Karl's message. Changes in wording were done when necessary, according to the Grammarly program that was used to check for grammar and sentence structure. A shout-out to the Grammarly program that saved me from an editing cost.

Another shout-out in designing the book cover, a photo I took on Thailand's beach in 2019, my footprints and all, not knowing that this would be the book cover, saving me from a graphic designer's expense. Designing the book title and words were creatively fun.

A Magnificent Mess! Trilogy's uniqueness is one of a kind, memoir that incorporates multi-media to educate the reader on concepts and current research via videos created by educators, researchers, and practitioners who impart their specialized knowledge and insights. A tremendous thank you goes to them to provide information, expand our awareness, and nourish our well-being. 

A gratitude shout-out to the incredible musicians, singers, songwriters, and composers for sharing their hearts and souls in their artistic songs from the 1960s to 2016.  It added a vibrant, aesthetic appeal, and at times nostalgic feelings—all adding to the storytelling.  Much appreciation for the YouTube video creators and photographers for their creative works sprinkled throughout this memoir. I recommend to the reader if they wish to have an uninterrupted and advertisement-free experience on YouTube, consider signing-up for Premium YouTube, and I understand there is typically a one-month free trial. 

Karl and I had fun creating 13 I-Movie videos synch with songs. The first created song video, Sweet Freedom, will require the reader to follow the instructions in synching the music and visual video due to copyright. Three song videos, On Top of the World, and Alive Again, and Goodbye My Friend, are partially blocked, in particular regions of the world. The rest of our song videos have been given the green light on YouTube and only require a simple click. If a video is removed, please feel free to do a title search to locate another.   

I have to say that Karl is a superb DJ or maestro when it comes to selecting the perfect songs for the various situations in our memoir. Sometimes, I'm not even familiar with a musical artist, and I come to enjoy their music when Karl presents them. Karl also helps me with some of the images in our created YouTube videos. Indeed, he is a creative technician.

In the final edits of this memoir, I changed the names, locations, and just a few aspects to maintain people's anonymity and respect their privacy and reputation. Otherwise, this memoir is true to the best of our recollection in capturing the events as realistic as they occurred without embellishment.

Finally, I am grateful for my students who registered for college credit to transcribe the recorded interview channeling sessions: April Garcia, Sonja Goodwin, Karalie Sevilla, and Viviana Esparza, who did a thorough job. I took a two-quarter leave from CSUSB, partially supported by the university.  I'm grateful for the time off to focus on this second memoir, which makes it possible to release in August 2020, instead of delaying it a year or two.  

This memoir, A Beautiful Blueprint, could never be possible without the primary collaborators in my life. First, my Mom and Dad, for their love and courage, immigrating and raising their family in the U.S. Also, thank you, Dad, for your support and contribution to this memoir. Both of my brothers for their love and being a part of my life experiences. 

Of course, Karl, for his friendship, his love, guidance, and supportive collaboration in the importance of this trilogy to open people's awareness in their journey of life. Great thanks to my spirit counsel and angels for their guidance and protection throughout my life. Much thanks and admiration to Erik Medhus for your guidance and participation in this memoir.  You and your Mom Elisa Medhus, MD are significant game-changers with Channeling Erik on YouTube, bringing light to people's awareness to assist in humanity's ascension.   

This memoir is only possible through all the valued collaborators who have truly made this memoir ROCK n' ROLL!  With much sincere gratitude to all.

Namästé,

Mary with Karl

July 11, 2023

Chapter 1:  Beam Karl Up!

I’m watching a mesmerizing beautiful sunset like time-lapse photography, recording it, and taking snapshots in my mind. Although many times before, I‘ve captured beautiful sunsets, this evening’s captivating sunset feels full of promise, full of tomorrows. It’s exceptionally vibrant stretching across the horizon, right outside my home, savoring the view moment by moment as the beautiful sunset slowly lingers and fades away.

As the sunrises, the sunlight peeks through the window curtains of my bedroom beginning like any other day in August. Sleeping in a bit after studying late last night, still feeling a little tired.  I have a list of things to do. August 30th, 1985, is not the day that any of us expected.

A lot is going on around me. Everybody is buzzing—life, the city, my family, and me—excitement and anticipation at home with families and friends gathering to celebrate.  I can't help but feel good. I can't help but be excited. 

I have a long list of errands—picking up parcels, dropping books and videos off, supplies for my Mom. Honestly, I don’t mind because I’m stepping away from all of the home activities. I enjoy cruising along with my music.

It’s the start of a long holiday weekend where traffic busier than usual. I enjoy driving my car, traveling, listening to music, and feeling free and calm and knowing that everything is going to be alright. I like singing Bob Marley’s song, Everything’s Gonna Be Alright.

"Everything’s Gonna Be Alright," Bob Marley, singer, songwriter, composer; YouTube post:  Mafdet Leon

My older brother and sister-in-law just had a baby late last night. My nephew is the first grandkid in our family. Intuitively, sensing, I’m not going to make it to the hospital in time to see the newborn this evening. I’m not usually concern about being right on time. 

I'm an uncle. Would I be the uncle that they would look up to someday? I sure hope so.  I'm going to be the uncle that makes them laugh, tickles them, play games, and teaches them everything they need to know.

I know that everything is going to be okay. No matter what's going on in anyone's life, a little music while driving is the perfect medicine for one's soul on a bad day, on a good day. Hey—on any day. I want everyone to feel happy. That's what I want to be remembered for.

Song: "Don’t Worry, Be Happy," Bob Marley, singer and composer; Vevo & YouTube post: The Real Bobby McFerrin

Feeling my stomach growling, thinking of stopping and grabbing a bite soon. I'm cruising along, no worries. Switching radio stations searching for another song. My soul also decides to switch and take my exit to a higher dimension.

SWISH! Everything moves fast. I don’t see it coming. Only feeling a shift of energy, a blow of air swishing passed me like a boxer swinging. There’s no feeling of contact. I feel no pain.

Everything closes to pitch dark. Pulled out of my body before the blow even hits me.  Everything opens to bright white. I'm floating a little above, trying to make sense of what's going on: bits and pieces of car wreckage everywhere. A broadside hit on my car smashed in the intersection. A female bystander witnessed the accident and runs over to check on me. She calls 911.

It doesn't look good. It’s really weird. I hear no sound. I’m confused. I’m shocked. I’m observing an injured motionless body that looks like me. I’m thinking, Although it looks like me, it doesn’t feel like me, because I’m here. I’m talking, I’m thinking, So, that’s not me, but it still looks like me. But my body, it’s not me. How could that be me?  

Right by my side, a man I instantly recognize as Walter, someone I trust, who is friendly—feeling a lot of light and warmth in his presence. Walter is one of my guides in life. There's never a moment of feeling fear or being scared or questioning anything. It's comforting to see Walter, who welcomes me. 

We're happy to see you, let me be with you. Let's talk about what just happened, Walter says. A chorus line of beings—relatives appear.

I refocus on my lifeless body in the wreck, thinking, It's weird seeing myself, feeling disconnected from my body, and everything that's going on. I don't feel bad for my body, nor do I feel panic or any interest. Isn't this a little early—leaving my body?  It doesn't look good. This is it.  I'm done.

Am I dead? Instantly, I receive a very clear yes that comes within my mind. Yes, resonates within me. I accept it easily. No questions. Immediately recognizing what I'm saying, what I'm feeling, and what I'm thinking is 100% true. No doubt attached to it.

Not a voice of God saying, Yes, you're dead. No angels or spiritual team around me, saying, Hey, you're dead come on home. No urge to go back to the life as Karl. I have complete acceptance of what happened, although it's early, but alright. 

Feelings of panic, shock, and fear escape me—instead, a sense of peace. My time is up. It's meant to be this way. Feeling weightless, not having a whole heavy body, adds to my feelings of peace, calm, and serenity.

Walter begins to disappear, along with the other beings.

A BIG BRIGHT LIGHT appears, the moment I realize I’m no longer a part of my body. Turning around, wondering what’s going on, I’m pulled naturally toward the bright light. I don’t hear the bright light say anything like, Hey, we’re here to collect you. 

A very bright, peaceful light, feels so loving and trustworthy. I’m being pulled toward it and feeling incredibly good. It’s like somebody waving candy or ice cream in my face coaxing me to come, come, come. Some people call it a light. Some people will see a hand reaching out, grabbing the person. 

I’m floating in slow motion gravitating somewhere. Swoosh! Jetting a million miles a minute in a fast, high-frequency tunnel. What’s going on? 

Everybody experiences their transition in different ways, depending on their beliefs. Some people will experience the same thing, like seeing darkness, scaring those who think they're going to hell or a hostile place. Some who experience a near-death experience (NDE) will report, Oh, I went into complete darkness, or I went into this dark place at first. It’s only their fear, that’s kicking in. 

I’m falling backward. Yeah, okay, what’s going on? Let’s see where we’re going. My awareness becomes multi-dimensional, rather than a linear perspective as I’m floating toward the bright light. I’m experiencing various situations, everything simultaneously. I sense timelessness.

I’m laying back, feeling my hands behind my head and legs crossed, moving incredibly fast like in a wormhole through the galaxy. I’m speeding a million miles a minute in a tunnel, but it feels like I’m going in slow motion. What’s going on? Let’s see where we’re going. I believe something’s out there, and it’s going to be incredible—a higher power. I don’t have a care in the world. I’m feeling freedom.

Stunning, very spectacular—the most beautiful sight I've ever seen. Fast, like a rollercoaster or a speed train, but I feel safe, no fear. Feelings of physical sensations because I'm still attached to the illusionary idea that I have a body, similar to feeling phantom pains when somebody loses a leg. Crossing over, feeling physical sensations like I still have a body.

Falling in these stars, laughing and loving it, floating with my arms wide open. Twinkling stars, all around. Touching star after star, sweeping my hand with a color trailing behind it.  Some are orange, green, and indescribable colors like an iridescent color. I'm painting in the galaxy sky.

Tapping star after star, sweeping my hand creating brilliant colors and swirly shapes trailing in this galaxy, hearing musical tones—I'm star struck.  It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. There's music, sounds like women singing, but they sound like vibrations, like chords—all very vivid. It's an incredibly creative experience, never felt so much love, so much purity. I feel childlike, no rules, no expectations. I could do no wrong. No judgment.

I'm flying through space, while another moment, floating through the universe—feeling divinely peaceful. No need to wear a spacesuit, and all the heavy material and equipment in this mind-blowing experience take my breath away.

[Instructions: To set up:  Click on Song: "Sweet Freedom," return to e-book window at 12 seconds of song, then click here: Visual Video to synch together.]

Michael McDonald, singer; Rod Temperton, songwriter; YouTube post: 1994Mads2; YouTube Creators:  Mary Fong and Karl

Song: (listening) "Sweet Freedom," Michael McDonald, singer & composer; YouTube post: Guilherme Otavio Pereira Santos. 

EVEREST APPEARS AND introduces himself as one of my guides. Although, I had the uncertainty of who Everest is, my soul feels comfort and safety. My experience does not show angels with wings because that is not my mindset. Instead, I see them for who they truly are. They look like beings of light.

Do you want to travel around the world? Everest asks.

Sure, says Karl with a smile.

Where would you like to go first?

Let’s go see Paris.  I’ve never been there, Karl responds

Okay, take me to Paris with you.

Still sensing having a body, I want to move my body to Paris. However, I don’t have a body anymore. I’m trying to get there physically. It’s not working. I’m learning how to use something that I’ve forgotten how to use.

Everest telepathically communicates, Release that thought of your body. Release the intention of physically trying to get there. Release that feeling of physically going there.

I’m focusing on the thought of where I want to be. There’s no traveling.

Touch your consciousness, your embodiment, your light that is stored within you to focus on where you want to be, Everest telepathically guides.

Do I imagine a light going around?

Around the world, a little ball of light going around, and around, and around, outside the world," Everest meditatively communicates.

Is that really what it is?

No, it’s not. Although that’s a great way to think of it, that’s how fast it can be. If we want to zoom around the earth like that, we can. As soon as your desire, like driving a car, push the clutch down, and then start to lift the clutch and push on the gas. Your desire pops you right into that experience. Put your focus on the Eiffel Tower, the top of the Eiffel Tower, Everest gently telepathically guides.

So, I visualize what I thought Paris looks like. Right as I focus my thought on the Eiffel Tower—Boom! We’re standing directly underneath the Eiffel Tower. That’s super quick. That’s easy and simple, Karl amazingly responds.

Traveling with the speed of thought is a lot easier than people think. At this moment, try this, think about Paris. Move your consciousness, your thought to Paris. Your physical body is not with you in Paris, because your body is at home or where you’re reading. But your consciousness is in Paris. That’s how we can travel.

Many people say one of the most romantic places in the world is Paris, France, where the Eiffel Tower stands. A consciousness or thoughts focused in that area emanates from people’s energetic life force of love and the energy left there like padlocks looped on the fence, love notes, and mementos. I’m consuming that powerful joyous energy. It’s a love shrine.

Video:  CBS This Morning: Paris removes "love locks" over weight fears. 

Feeling the passion and the life force of locations of the world invigorates me. In spirit, I continue experiencing all kinds of cool and amazing things. Other areas in the world are the depths of polar opposite feelings of great sadness or pain, energetically imprinted in those areas. My focus isn’t on that as much, but on Paris now. After that, we travel to South Africa. 

If you could go eye to eye with a lion, and the lion couldn't do anything to hurt you, wouldn't you want to try? Everest asks.

Sure, Karl says. 

So, I'm face to face with a lion. The big cat opens his mouth, and I hug him and stick my head in his mouth—what enormous teeth. Although, this big cat could use a dental cleaning and a filling.

In the vicinity, there's ceremonial tribal dancing with South African music and drumming.  The spirit world and the human world blending. They call upon spirits and invite us to come forward. As a spirit of the light, I'm dancing and moving all over the place, being very silly.

Arriving in Ireland, running through the green blades of grass, feeling the fresh, crisp texture and every dewdrop. I'm slowing down, watching the dew dropping off the blades of grass.  Experiencing this sensation, but not the same as a human being would explore it. More like watching a scene in a movie, and everything moves in slow motion. Zooming in and focusing on the details of drips in a puddle and sounds of water droplets like plunck, plunck, plunck. 

We thought, and popped to Bali where I recollect living a past life there. I was considered a spiritual master in very ancient times before Christ.

Other things I did out of pure exploration and excitement, like standing in the middle of the baseball field of the New York Yankees' game. I'm zooming around through locations where populations of people at concerts and events experiencing culture in many cities.

It's not from the desire of me as Karl.  It's more getting used to this spiritual part of me after transitioning. Although this expansive awareness all came to me fairly quickly, the truth is, it's a progression. I still have the experience of having a thought and understanding from a more in-depth, broader perspective. 

I'M PUTTING MY TRAINING wheels on, zipping around the world with a sense of wonder, knowing that I’ve done this before. I'm ready to do it now, and slowly understanding there's so much more to us. Many layers are involved in this experiential process.

My spiritual self joins with the South African tribes because spirits heard a call to participate in the dance ceremony. It's not only my soul itself in this experience. Leaving the physical body, I'm a part of so much more, and that so much more exists beyond the physical realm.  It's exciting. This is fascinating. It's incredible to see who we truly are and how everything is connected.

Zooming around the world exploring, I take pauses, sensing real gratitude in the experiences. I'm a part of this more significant whole. Realizing that I'm absolutely everything, a realization standing on the mountain top as Karl in spirit, and that we are all the same thing.

Song: "On Top of the World," Karen and Richard Carpenter, singers; John Bettis & Richard Lynn Carpenter, songwriters and composers; YouTube video creators: Mary Fong & Karl

When we transition, the processes of releasing our needs and healing them enable us to expand our consciousness and spirit. We don't all do it the same way, some resists or choose to focus in different ways. That's still a uniqueness we have.

I call myself a world traveler. I explore the world fantastically and uniquely. This tour around the world with Everest feels freeing. As spirits, we move with purpose toward expansion.  Imagine we are like sponges. We are souls absorbing life experiences. Traveling around the world lightens my vibration as I ascend as a soul.

Song: "Be Free," Loggins and Messina, YouTube post:  keepthebestalive; OR Be Free, (photos); YouTube post: scorchiebeanie

This is all happening at the same time as I am shedding my physicality, my thought that I am Karl. As I'm losing that humanness, my soul also remembers Everest, a soul, and I feel connected. A soul that I know I love, but yet I don't quite recognize. The human parts of me are still present, gradually releasing. Flying all over the earth also has the purpose of trust, expansion, and the realization of who Everest is. 

Metaphorically, I'm the sponge filled with humanness. As I squeeze it, some of the humanness squirts out, and the sponge expands, absorbing more of my higher-self. This process allows my memory to increase and expand. As I merge more of my higher-self by letting go of my humanness, I begin remembering who Everest is and who I am. 

Everything exists all at once. It's quite overwhelming to receive so much energy simultaneously coming at me. All of these events, not happening in a linear sequence. Instead, it's like several movie reels showing all at the same time. It's all for a bigger purpose. It's all free will.

To understand the greater part of my consciousness, as each experience occurs, observe the consciousness as a pie. Each slice of the pie is a different piece of memory of the experience of my consciousness. What I’m experiencing is how I’m slicing it into creating my experience. My consciousness has many pie slices, serving the dessert palate of pie eaters eating simultaneously like in a pie-eating contest. Similarly, my consciousness has infinite slices that serve various purposes. My consciousness experiences simultaneous multi-tasking.

IT FEELS LIKE I'VE been in heaven for months, as soon as I come back to 3-D earth, I realize I've transition for only a day. I feel the time difference that takes some adjustment. I'm readapting to the energies back home, remembering, and practicing how to connect.  Spirits often visit their loved ones after their physical death.

I feel that I need to stay for a little bit to check on my family until everything calms down, and the energy is good. I can come back any time after I recharge back home. The density of the earth's physical plane requires me to lower my higher vibrational frequency. It's like holding my breath underwater for an extended amount of time. I come up for air to recharge, and then I lower my frequency to the earth's dimension.  With progression, I will improve my abilities. 

I'm a time traveler returning to the occurrence of the day of the accident. Most spirits do this as a way of saying goodbye to our physical life and embracing the new relationship with our family members.

Archangel Michael and Archangel Raphael assists me in my return to the physical dimension, that dense energy. We have to lower our frequency to make an impact on my family. It's easy for both Archangels to lower their frequencies to denser dimensions because they have much more energetic power and capabilities than I do. 

When my family finds out about my accident, their energies drop dramatically to grieving and sadness. My Mom and Dad's energies fall tremendously when I return to check upon them.  My brother and sisters' energies are in a state of shock, and they don't know how to feel. 

I see my family in the living room mourning, where my spirit feels removed. My family and friends can't feel me. They feel I'm gone—a heavy grieving period. Sadness but a feeling of regret overcomes them.

I understand my family’s anxiety. Still having some degree of human characteristics, I feel a little bit of anxiety. Difficult, so much grief, and much pain. I feel their sorrow, pain, confusion, and anger.

Archangel Michael and Archangel Raphael help me with my grieving family to come to terms that I'm no longer here in the physical world. We work on them to feel that we love them, I'm around them, and to help raise their energy back up. We don't want them stuck in that negative frequency and grief and never come out of it. Some people get stuck.

One at a time, I'm helping each family member raise their energy, strong enough to deal with their emotions. Connecting to their minds, telepathically, to let them know that I'm okay.  Communicating with them in thoughts, and they hear me. Not allowing themselves to believe it's me. They want to, yet they dismiss hearing me.

If grieving people go too far down, they can lose control over their actions and even do unintentional things, for example, an unexpected suicide—not going to happen to them. I'm here to help my family recover energetically, not to heal them, not to take their grief away. Instead, to prevent them from going to a point where they will not recover from it. We do it because we love them. And to help them move on and learn from this death experience.

Energy consists of vibrating molecules and atoms. I approach each family member with my high energy vibration to get them to resonate and raise their energy with mine. The higher frequency or, the more dominant energy next to their low energetic frequencies involves the process of the lower vibration or frequency that has no other choice than to start vibrating at the higher energetic frequency. Eventually, the lower energetic frequency raises its vibration in sync with the higher or dominant energy frequency. This is energy healing.

Video: "Dr. Eric Pearl:  Energy Demo"; YouTube post: watkinsbooks

I'm pure energy, looking like a ball of light. Moving my energy, opening and creating a circle like an inner tube or donut that goes around each family member. I'm enclosing one-by-one with my pure energy, and that's how we hug. Embracing them, hugging them, and telepathically sending loving vibrations that influence their energy to start vibrating at my frequency and we connect. My pure energy surrounds them. 

Both Archangel Michael and Archangel Raphael hold or maintain the healing energies for some time. They have the angelic power to sustain the higher vibrations that help raise a collective group's lower energetic vibrations. I feel my family’s stagnate energy, raising to a more neutral emotion.  They feel better instantly at that moment and period of time. Their low vibrations will not entirely go away because their grieving minds hold their energy down. Basically, in the nonphysical dimension, the mind creates everything. It's just a thought away to create something. 

Spirits do have that human thought of hugging. Angels also hug; however, their energy, more powerful and expansive than spirits. Angelic energy emanates expansively around themselves, like butterfly wings. Their divine energy continuously vibrates, so they protect a person from being harmed, something spirits can't do. We can help with energy, but we can't physically protect human beings. Angels have flowing energy. That's why some people always see angels with wings.

When a person or a pet dies, there's this instant reaction, Oh my gosh, they're no longer around. They're gone. However, after 5 or 10 minutes later, the griever may accept it, but still feels very sad. However, a neutral feeling exists momentarily, and then the griever goes back into the emotion. It's a natural state of being, right after losing a loved one. Either your spirit team or the deceased love one comes to uplift the sad energies energetically. Your pets come and do the same to help their caretaker through the grieving process.

The evening of my memorial service, I don't stay long.  I'm in and out. It’s more essential to support my family and help them during their daily lives than to see my funeral. I'm not interested in who's there or what they're saying. I slip in to help my family get through the first moments before I slip out.

Very heavy density emitting from the mourners on the physical dimension. Not easy for me to stay long in that lower frequency. After my funeral service that evening, I'm here with my family. Both Archangel Michael and Archangel Raphael help me increase the energy frequencies of my family members, make them feel better, and connect with them.

Tough to give them some kind of clear signal that, Hey, I'm here, and I'm okay. However, trying my best to reach them on their subconscious level. Still adapting to the nonphysical world, I'm retraining to reconnect to manipulate energy again. That's why both Archangels assist me during my family visit.

I don't stay long.  Every now and then, peeking in and helping everybody with their energy.  A lot of people, still in shock. So unexpected that my family doesn't know how to deal with my departure.

When an older adult dies, people prepare themselves to an extent. Or when the time comes for a terminally ill person to cross over, family and friends have some preparation time. Many people mentally and emotionally prepare themselves to think, I'm going to be missing this person pretty soon,—much less shock. Nobody expected my death, not even me. I'm like, Surprise! A very devastating and unexpected loss for my family, indeed.

I want to express a few things to my family: No one is at fault for me being out and running errands.  Maybe some guilt carried by my family members, no need to. It was my time. I did not have fear at the end of my life—no suffering, no pain. Already disconnected and out of my body before impact, my higher-self didn't find it necessary for me to experience that pain and suffering.

Also, my new nephew is not a reincarnation of me. Our family in this transition is experiencing life and death, happiness, and sadness together. Although tragic, the new baby offered comfort for our family. Although I’m not a direct reincarnation, my family shares an aspect of our spirit and our DNA with one another. No meaning contributes to this synchronistic experience of life and death, other than renewal. This is my chosen exit point.

Our soul plans include three to five possible exit points when it is time to transition home, which is synchronized. If we look at numerology and vibrations, birth dates, birth signs, alignment of the planets and stars—a similarity exists. The universe turns the dial so many points this way, and the planets align this way, allowing an opening for my Karl’s soul to leave and my nephew’s soul to come in. Earthly time, an open 12-hour period.

A portal opening, and my nephew’s soul entered into the body of the baby shortly before the birth occurred. The soul didn’t reside inside his mother the entire time. I had communication with my nephew’s soul. There’s familiarity with my nephew’s soul in which we have incarnated at other lifetimes.

Song: "Bridge Over Troubled Waters," by Simon & Garfunkel; Art Garfunkel and Paul Simon; songwriter, Paul Simon; YouTube visual video creators:  Mary Fong and Karl OR Live: Bridge Over Troubled Waters, YouTube audio post: Zarastro1040;

FLASHING THROUGH THE tunnel incredibly fast, suddenly, I’m at a standstill. I’m in this bright white place that feels like a room, but I don’t see any walls. Crossing over, they want to give us that sense of security, Oh, we’re in a room, and people are here. They want to project that feeling of being in a safe place.

We’re used to rooms and locations as a human being. I see a few people going in different directions. Okay, I’m not alone here—other people arriving at this place. We don’t have to take a number like at the DMV.

Everything feels terrific and perfect. There’s no stress like, Oh my gosh, I got to make it to the next level. I got to get through this class so I can move on. No feelings of pressure and expectations to perform here. No rushing and thinking like, Oh my gosh, this guy still doesn’t seem to get it.  Nothing like that—only complete peace.

Although many people transition simultaneously, there’s never a feeling that we’re overcrowded—space is endless, so no reaction like, Oh my gosh, that room is full. You’ll have to take the other room, or we’ll call you from the waiting room. Everything is synchronized and perfect.

A blueprint exists. They know who’s coming in at what time. Everybody’s spiritual team, ready to receive that person, take them wherever, and help them. You’re never alone. Everything flows, everything’s natural—nothing forced. No stress. No one says, Oh my gosh, he just died, I forgot he’s coming home. I’m running late. I need to go there. Instead, a smooth process during transition to reintegrate back home. Upon arrival, someone tells me to go to a room.

Sensing, I’m opening a door. I’m in a room, but it doesn’t feel like a room. It doesn’t have walls. These entities, these beings, wear all white robes, greeting and welcoming me back. I don’t see their mouths move. Instead, they’re communicating telepathically. I can hear them as clear as day. They let me know that I’m okay and safe. 

At first, they don’t say much. But I still feel like I’m amongst friends, people I know.  However, somewhat feeling confused. On the one hand, I feel at ease with these entities, and at the same time, I’m thinking, Hmm, who are you?

This group of beings is my spiritual council, who keeps track of what I went through in all my life experiences. I’m here to learn and see if I fulfilled aspects of my life or not—no judgment.  I don’t feel judged, but they review everything I did.

While on earth, these entities come together regularly to discuss how I’m doing. They individually guide and protect me. They decide what’s best for me or what direction they should guide me at certain times in my life.

I feel complete freedom, no burdens, no worries, no fears or obligations or pressure anymore.  I feel entirely free and light. My spiritual counsel smiles at me. Okay, that’s a good sign.  They invite me to sit down, although there’s no chair. They try to make it familiar as possible because I just came from human life. I’m still a human in my mind.  I don’t entirely think I’m a spirit, yet. 

They telepathically communicate, You want to experience this?

They point at something, and I’m thinking, Okay, there’s nothing there. I don’t see anything where they point in a direction.

They project my consciousness back into my life. It’s a weird feeling that I’m sucked back into the earliest hours of my life.  They show me pictures. They give me flashes of parts of my life.

As soon as I sit down, I see myself in my mother’s womb. It starts right before birth. I feel the pain that my Mom goes through, and her love that comes with it. I see every minute of every day I’ve ever lived. All these memories and feelings, every minute, every day, remembering at that moment when I got a lollipop. Every emotion, every thought, every feeling, every experience.  Everything is stored and categorized in my consciousness.

The weird thing is, as a human, I’m still trying to hold on to the sense of time, but time does not exist. When I see my life review, I see all this time passing. I have a 360-degree view of me every minute. It’s like they switch this light inside of me, and everything I’ve forgotten, every emotion, is all there. This is who I was, and this is what I experienced.

I’m also fully aware of the consciousness of the people I’ve interacted with in the past. I’m going through my whole life from a multi-dimensional perspective. As humans, at times, we are curious about others, and we wonder, What are you thinking, what are you feeling? We finally see what that person felt and thought.

At first, I think it would be challenging, but it isn’t at all. I feel complete peace and harmony in it. It’s kind of weird as I’m watching my life go by every day.

I become a hundred percent aware of everyone’s emotions when interacting with me or the outcome of what I said to somebody. I’m aware of how other people experience me, how other people reacted to my decision-making, and what I said. Not only did I get a 360-degree view of my own experiences, feelings, and memories, I get this complete insight. This entails what my life was, what it led to, how it affected others and me, and how others grew because of me.

Primarily, I see a movie of my life from an objective point of view. Still, I see every person’s perspective I’ve ever met from family, relatives, friends, acquaintances, and strangers. I put myself into that person, experiencing what they're seeing, thinking, and feeling at that time.  How I might have hurt someone or made the person blush.

A few people I didn’t realize felt that way. I had absolutely no idea. Sometimes, it can be very illuminating.  I never thought that they thought that about me.  I had this different picture of that person, but it’s all-loving, and it’s all non-judgmental.

When I first see Mary, back in high school, immediately, I feel those little butterflies fluttering back up. At that moment, I’m thinking, I love her. I love her. I thought I was over her.  I love her.

Seeing it from her perspective, I’m thinking, what an idiot. I feel I was the idiot. I should have handled it differently. I should have just come up to her and said straight forward, This is the deal. I like you. I want to see if we can work something out. I should have been entirely blunt and spit it out and see how she would respond. In a way, I’m feeling and wishing that I would have done things differently. Wishing that I would have understood Mary better.

Song: "Cherish," The Associations, singing band; Songwriter: Terry Kirkman; Visual Video creators: Mary Fong and Karl

I see all the struggles that I went through with Mary in the life review. I tried so many times to get Mary’s attention and to talk to her. But the words just didn’t come out right. I was so nervous.

Song: "Ocean Eyes," Billie Eilish, singer; Finneas O’Connell, Songwriter; Visual video creators: Mary Fong and Karl, 2020.

The more I see myself struggle with Mary, and I’m thinking, What? I don’t understand why this is happening. I don’t understand why we can’t be together. Hey, I don’t understand this emotion. But, I get, Boink! Blueprint: This is what is supposed to happen for this and this reason. 

It’s weird, but I can see that the struggle had a purpose at the same time. Something that I couldn’t see when I was going through the struggle. In high school, I knew it, I felt it, that there was something about Mary. She seems very familiar to me. It was so confusing back then, and I couldn’t figure it out. The more I see myself struggling with Mary, the more I feel like this is right.  This is right. 

The moment I see her again as that young girl, I also feel and see the blueprint that our journey isn’t over. We’re not done. I can see the future. With other people, I know that we are done.  But with Mary, we aren’t done. I’m surprised because I’m thinking that the life review, it’s from the time we are born to the time that we die.

Song:  "Something About You," (Lyrics) by Level 42, singers; Songwriters: Mark King, Mike Lindup, Phil Gould, Boon Gould, and Wally Badarou; YouTube post: Jane Byfield OR Something About You, (Live) YouTube post: Level 42.

Immediately, I see that we are still going to be working together after my death. That is something I’m not expecting to see. This blows me away. This blows me off that little chair, that isn’t a chair, with the button on it, that isn’t a button. Instead, it shows what the past had to do to bring about the future. I see where it is leading us. I feel, Wow, it went great. I have the understanding that for me to get to where we need to go, we were supposed to experience what we did. We did great.

Song: "Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic," The Police, singing band; Sting, songwriter; YouTube creator: Jane Byfield; OR Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, YouTube post: The Police; OR Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, Sleeping At Last; YouTube post: DilegoMtz

I HAD THE LIFE LESSON of acceptance of self. I didn't accept who I was. I felt I had to live up to my father's expectations and felt pressured. I never felt like I was living up to the true potential or expectations that my Dad had for me. When I did well, there would be lingering thoughts in my mind that I could have done better. I had a hard time with that. As I became older, I like doing new activities like playing volleyball at the beach, hanging out, having fun with my colleagues. Still, my parents wanted me to study and do family activities.

My soul plan had more to do with experiencing adversity. I learned plenty about myself through my experiences. Expectations were put on me, which was a lesson of acceptance in what I wanted to do and to make my own choices in life.

These were my parents' choices for me, but I want to make choices that were best suited for me in how I felt and my interests. I was interested in music, movement, nature, photography.  I didn't understand that this is what I was working on navigating. I didn't understand or have an awareness that I needed to accept myself.

I had a lot of pressure. Some of it was cultural and family-related. My parents were not bad or wrong. Everything was out of love. I felt that maybe I'm not good enough. Perhaps I'm not loved enough. I can see my parents' perspective and to understand that they did not intend to put an expectation or cause pain for me. My parents' view was that they were guiding me, and they were thinking of my future. They wanted me to take the best advantage of my time and to be successful.

I had difficulty speaking with females. I couldn't talk, I didn't feel comfortable. I had some challenges in social situations at times, and I didn't understand my sensitivity. Men and women need to understand that we are emotional beings, that we have five physical senses, but we do have senses beyond that. I was an individual able to tune into my senses. I felt things around me, picking up frequencies of energy, but I didn't know what that was. Today, humans refer to people with these sensitivities as empaths. I thought something was wrong with me.

Various things run through my head. In my life review, I see multiple perspectives and understand a narrative running through many people's heads of the same feelings I was picking up.  Phew! Okay, that makes sense. I'm learning nothing is wrong with me. But more about what is right with me. I see that in my life, but I wasn't meant to understand that in my lifetime as Karl. I get it, that's how I'm made up. Oh, I see. 

Those feelings I had were because that's the way I'm built. Those feelings I picked up were frequencies of energy meant to help me see myself deeper. I understand why I thought the way I did, why I worked the way I did, my operating system of senses as a human being. What I was sensing was the truth.  

In spirit, I am all of those senses, those sensitivities in the highest version, in the highest vibrations.  I'm realizing and accepting this. I understand my blueprint. My puzzle pieces are connecting, and I feel it is right. I chose to be this way to experience life in the way that I did.

As humans, we look for answers to our life questions. When we transition into the spirit, we go through becoming our soul-self again and coming to an understanding. It's a feeling of fulfillment in understanding that I am perfect the way I'm meant to be.

I wanted to experience what I am is love.  I am the truth of love. I wanted to experience life as love as a real human being. Although, I wanted to experience the full expansion of love, which is the truth of my path, which is what I did transitioning into spirit. I didn't do this in the physical. I was not meant to understand my full truth in the physical, but I was also there to experience the truth of myself as pure love.

My contract was not only about my life, but it was embracing through this transition. It's being in spirit as part of my soul path, working with the physical.  My passing was part of my soul agreement, so I wasn't meant to understand all of this in the physical body. I was meant to understand this when I transitioned.

Video:  Our Soul’s Plan & Robert Schwartz’s Experience with Psychic Mediums, Part 1, hosted by Lilou Mace.

Much of my life review had to do with emotions. It had to do with how people truly felt. I learned the actual perceptions and real intentions of the feelings of the people around me. They didn't always express themselves to me, the way they felt inside. For example, I walk into a store and purchase something.  There was an interaction that I felt judged or somebody was angry with me—realizing in my life review that person had recently lost a loved one. That person not too long ago received a phone call. There were situations that I didn't comprehend because I didn't have the awareness.  I learned about understanding emotions.

A lot of preparation beforehand to do what I'm doing now in this lifetime. Understanding why people do what they do, why people feel the way they feel, and knowing that I could genuinely accept and heal myself. My crossing over, very sudden. Although it is in my soul agreement, I still went through a period of being shocked and jarred a little bit.

Different layers exist in my life review. Concerning my family, it goes deeper into other lifetimes of experiencing not feeling accepted. These things might sound like they're not big things to work through but ask yourself honestly about any self-hang-ups. If I'm genuinely looking to accept myself in a lifetime, I have to know myself honestly. An opportunity to discover that consciously and to try to understand me consciously. A lot of preparation to do what I'm doing now in this lifetime.

My passing gave valuable lessons and meaningful purpose to so many people. For example, I had an agreement with the woman bystander who witnessed my accident and came to my aid.  This experience affected her significantly, motivating her to have a lifetime career serving as a first responder. Currently, she is at an age in which she has a desk job.

My soul agreement has a lot to do with what's happening right now. My transition still involves helping people because collaborating with Mary on our books will be read for generations to come.  Our book collaborations will allow people to understand much of what we have not been taught about how life truly is.

As my life passes by in the review, I'm getting a bigger and bigger picture. Eventually, I have the whole picture of what my life was all about. It goes really fast and still when the life review is over, I remember every minute of my life. In the end, I'm like, Wow, that was cool. I didn't do so bad, after all.

In my mind, my consciousness, I'm able to connect the dots. I can see the blueprint of why things happened. I begin understanding the meaning behind everything, the outcome, the lessons.  It's incredible. I instantly feel good about my life.

I lived a good life. I influenced a lot of people, helped them with this lesson and that lesson.  I experienced a completely different view of my life, and everything feels perfectly right at this moment. Understanding that one second, I didn't do one thing wrong. Everything went as planned, and everything went right.  I feel a complete peacefulness.

My spiritual counsel looks at me, and I go, Woo hoo! 

Oh, yeah, you did do that, you did great. That's what you experienced. We're proud of you.  Thank you for experiencing your life and sharing it with us. Your life helped us to understand and experience things, my spiritual counsel expresses.

I have gratitude choosing this life and going through it. My life journey was not only for me but also for my spiritual counsel, who benefits, too. It's strange because I just came from human life, and it's weird. But at the same time, it feels very familiar like I've done this before. I have a déjà vu feeling. It's a duality of emotions, but I'm okay. It feels very familiar, but it still feels kind of weird, but I go with it.

No fear and not having the feeling, Oh my gosh, I got to get out of here. It's just a sense of peace and coming home. It's so soothing after a human life full of confusion and trying to figure stuff out.

Then I come into this place where everything feels right, where everything feels, A-okay. This life review is almost like an exam at the end of my life. Do I pass, or do I not pass?  However, there’s no judgment from the spirit counsel.  It's not for them. The life review is to see the fruit, to see what I've accomplished, and to see my growth. Further, to gain insight on what impact my life had on other people, on the universe, and the world around me.

So much learning occurs.  It feels like I'm going through my life again. It feels like it's a long time, but when I come out of the moment, it feels like it's only a second. There's an entirely different feel of time and space. It's very confusing for me because I can't wrap my head around without feeling the pressure of time. 

My life review gives me clearer insight. My spirit shows me that my higher-self has guided me.  For example, before a soul transitions, the person's higher-self may poke or prod the person to take actions, think, and make phone calls.  We see this when people right before they pass on, draft wills, make those phone calls, have unexpected visits, gatherings, and get-togethers. 

Intuitively, I didn't feel like I was going to make it to the hospital on time. However, I summed up to the start of a busy holiday weekend, a lot on my mind, and I wasn't always concerned about being on time.

Mainly, what I gather from my review is that life is all about experiencing differences and experiencing relationships in different ways and forms. The journey with the people on earth within this life wasn't over yet. It continues, just in a different form. 

My life review is like a pod in which my soul goes into a little bit of isolation. The pod is something that's not physical, but a spirit can create anything. My soul can create an auditorium, a design for our pleasure for the experience. Not every soul does this. Occurrences happen for different reasons, for the soul needs to shed energetically, or something needs to happen. Some souls need rest. We don't need to sleep. We're in a neutral state of being, a nonjudgmental state. 

At the very beginning, I still had human-like emotions as a spirit before my life review. After my life review and being in a neutral state during the healing period, I'm in a state of wholeness. Information gained in my life review is understood and integrated. Aware of where I'm at now. In a state of neutrality, I'm a more healed version of myself in a good state. I understand what is happening to myself. 

Transitioning involves the shedding of the human body. The transition period is very much where the consciousness is at the time of death for each human being. I first went through the process of recognizing that indeed I had passed.  This phase is the aftermath of my accident. Being in a neutral state is free will.  I feel that I need to do this, to be able to process what was necessary, and integrate it.  This enables me to move forward and to guide as a soul. 

Song: Say What You Will, singer and composer, Justin Hines;  (Canada version), YouTube post: JustinHinesOrange; OR (U.S.A. version) YouTube post: JustinHinesVevo; OR (African remix) YouTube post: Jacksonville Children Chorus

Next, I expect my spiritual counsel to go, Okay, thank you. Bye! They don’t say bye.  It’s bizarre. I’m standing in this room, that isn’t a room. It fades out and fades into another environment.

Chapter 2:  Karl’s Therapy:  Detoxing and Healing

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