are you in love? may i ask if you’re in love and whether it feels like home one painted green and dressed up true blurry cosmos of your own are tuesdays lazy cause they’re there with extra arms for you of just because you can doesn’t mean that you have to i don’t know such of what is real and you’ve seen some of what is not sometimes it’s muscle memory making you defense hijack the plot rather naive if you believe that every search searches “forever” but to think you’re better off not searching doesn’t make you much more clever you’ll find them in buckled letters risked dandelion wine hugs a rejected treasure chest of time when you were so in love |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

forgetmenot (fear of feeling too much) i am by the ocean on these quieter days when i sit in remnants of sweet sea kisses and 2am whiskey serendipity i tug on the grass and imagine what it would be like to not be here whether i’d hated and loved whether i’d lived all this life and yet not known it at all i am by the ocean and i am learning to love how i am loved for i don’t think i was quite aware that when i mumbled “let them in” “them” i referred to me my frequent miscalculations my fickle fear of feeling too much and yet having not felt enough you come and sit, i’m by the ocean and i admit that i’m afraid for now that i’ve seen what’s to see of me for how dear you are to me you must leave for when the waves get loud i’d rather there be nothing than there be not enough days for when it’s just the ocean and the forget-me-nots sway of sea sweet kisses of black and velvet and meant to be i am afraid you’ll be by the ocean feeling too much having not seen enough of me |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

timed interactions it is a thursday we had said 6 it is 5:30 so i’m a little early with the thought of whether i was wasting my time i’ve been liking me and this me likes you the you i don’t question the you without questions but answers so strict i just might choose to stick around on some other day in some other world if we had we met late we ate, then we’re fucking but i’m fucking with the different mes and different yous when they meet what’s the point in these timed interactions for eventual detachment can’t i just fuck without it meaning shit then i’ll sit and i’ll fuss for real romantic blushing but when i see that you want me or when you’re trying your best instead of a thank you note i just clear my throat and say okay i wish i could stop denying affection as some sort of self-protection when the real redirection should be with me cause i don’t know what i’m doing or when i started doing we’re here and i’m saying yes but i’m watching me say no but i don’t jump back into my body i stay on the sideline watching it plummet because on some other day in some other world this works where i am not early nor late where i am not so afraid where i say please, stay i wouldn’t mind wasting more time with you |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

a difference in affection i think there’s a difference between liking someone and liking the way they treat you or the way you can treat them a difference in affection i’m trying to differentiate affection holding back the tensions i’ll create because it will just confuse because it might not be you but the attention you give me what if it isn’t the person but the moment to which they belong and the moment may be yours and yes that but nothing more but how do we admit that when they sound the way they do and do they know can they tell that we’re recycling our ways the way ways used to work so right holding the moment so damn tight so close as if we really wanted it as if we really knew i’m sorry i didn’t know don’t know and i probably won’t know even when it’s gone and you said you didn’t mind won’t mind and probably don’t mind now it’s gone because you differentiated affection you understood the attention because you actually held back when i was holding you |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

bottled bookmarks i don’t think i knew i was walking from a whole, but not fully not from you it’s exciting because you love stories you love telling them and hearing them when and when i can’t carry myself enough to speak it’s exciting because years from now we’ve bottled bookmarks and pictured proof we can illustrate every annotated line it’s exciting because i get this whole other life but i didn’t need to be without you to know that i don’t want to be |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

how do i tell my depression i am seeing someone new i slip silent from the covers i am awake, i woke alone my chair hangs his dinner jacket new where i took it off and then fucked you where there’d be a slight tug on my shirt or a tip tap on my head a full on groan so callous of the way you’d call me back to bed the way you’d tuck soft in my neck when it’s drizzling, when it’s warm when all i want is to be in the sea when all you want is to be with me and i won’t admit it anywhere else but i’ll admit that i missed this too god forbid i find out who i really am god forbid there be more than you \\Song: hollow lover - montell fish https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ly2wrQsgAmk - All credits go to the incredible artist |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

words: https://youtu.be/cWCouOJ19D8 april 10, 2021 things i’d tell them about you being able to recognize that it was this time 365 times ago when i finally looked at you—like really looked at you not the “let me check before heading out” or “oh that’s her in the zoom window”—today, 365 days ago i realized you exist now perhaps since our reconnection, i’ve been bombarded with reflection but i’ve accepted that that’s just how you are you’re loud and quiet—sometimes too quiet or a whole crowd in a corduroy jumpsuit, rarely in between —and you make small things seem like big elephants singing alone at concerts the way you do the run-on sentences you seem to just keep in your back pocket and the times your hands find said back pocket, knowing that the world can get a little too much, even for you lately i’ve seen the weight you carry on your back—though i’ve carried most of it before —seeing the bubble wrapped, leather strapped cargo that is your mind is both terrifying and breathtaking assurance that people recognize how they are just as much of the universe as the universe is of them and i don’t know where we’ll be this time next 365 times away but i read what you wrote to me today, 365 days before and i know that i don’t always sleep before i see the sun or stop enough to differentiate what i want and who i am but when i remember to— that is when i know that i exist —i want to make sure that you are there too |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x

a truth i’d write about in an effort to return one’s appreciation in the best way one knows how if you must know, the truth that i write about is the way you’ve managed to bruise every part that i’ve rebuilt and yet i cannot appoint whether the fault is in fact yours or mine was there a line we were meant to foremost draw and if so, had it not been scratched onto the low lit pavement before my house that 30 past however late i learnt of her presence and the present that it quickly became somehow, in exchange, i’m still out here showing you my favourite spot and least loved flowers around the chessboard that is my neighbourhood because we’re such good friends i refuse to get the short end of a stick i myself carved for had i starved the juvenile in your genuine better yet, the naive in my walk around the museum that was your mind hands holding onto the entrance ticket as if your hands handed it to mine then i wouldn’t have needed the walks to underline how this chessboard is not set for 2 queens now between my being an emotional slut and your downright oblivious nut the worse part isn’t even necessarily the contexts you wrote aloud but rather the reality that your words could foxtrot the way mine could only write about and the reality that your loudest words will not be about me you see, at the beginning of it all i said i wouldn’t do this to myself again but here i am playing chess with shiny new scrabble pieces angry because even when i told myself i stopped myself i made myself promise it wouldn’t be between what is and isn’t written there was a truth that it is you |WHERE TO FIND ME| FLOWERSANDFILM: https://www.flowersandfilm.com FRAGMENTS: https://fragmentstheatre.wixsite.com/theatre INSTAGRAM: http://instagram.com/flowersandfilm_ | http://instagram.com/millimettt SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/flowersandfilm INQUIRIES: hey.flowersandfilm@gmail.com M x