~WolfDarkrose

nearly 2 decades of family abuse neglect and gaslighting hopefully ending but if you wanna help me in anyway i do have a ko fi. https://ko-fi.com/wolfdarkrose and i do stream. https://www.twitch.tv/wolfdarkrose . so if you wanna help or just keep my hopes up as all this drama and shit drives me insane it would be so grateful <3 but not needed

so ya updated my twitch https://www.twitch.tv/wolfdarkrose and now im on bluesky and will kinda use it https://bsky.app/profile/wolfdarkrose.bsky.social annnnnd throne https://throne.com/wolfdarkrose . so ya if you wanna help with stuff. any of that or heck just come by for my streams around !pm PST but nahhh just an update on all my stuffs.

click bait or not i am NOT ON REDDIT ANYMORE. for all who are wondering why.. easy. its not worth it. its hell if i want to be neglected abused ignored and treated like a dont exist among the death threats and people trying to hack my account... i can literally just deal with my real life. so in closing you can not and i will never touch reddit again. the hell that is twitter and one day maybe facebook again but for now the hell im in is hard enough and horrible distractions that treat me like my current life will not go.

Finally just said fuck it i qui to the man who has enslaved and destroyed the little life i had before this enslavement of work. he wants shit dont. theres 6 others in this house. too bad. im not fuckinggiving my life up ecause you want to be a lazy shit and control me by making me care and be an " obedient son" all i ever was was a mistake that should have died at birth due to the speed that my mother at the time was taking. yes i was a fucking mistake bu that doewsnt make him my god or my tormentor. im too numb and weak to car but im done and as such the job screach begins. im not taking a second longer to get a job. i knw if i dont and they being the petty self serving ass wipes they are. they will dump me on the street and leave me for dead. atleast with a job i have a small cance... plus nothing like watching these people squirm as he they are forced to get off there asses and be daddys little bitch while i go and try to start my life which since birth was stolen and hidin because daddy didnt want me from my mother he was petty and didnt want to lose and could be man enough to have a pair of balls to raise a boy those he hads raised 4 girls. aka he hide me from the time i could walk tell the day i speek now and no lnger. i spent 30 years fearing whsats outside my walls being brain washed and used and if it must come to pain and bloodshed i willll do it if my feedom and my health are risked any more. fuck my "family" from here on i denounce these worms and wish them to burn in hell were they came from.

a day i can say ive never had. no cake no friends no presents nothing... since birth i was a mistake a broken condom that was spit out and to top that off i was a drug baby. if you dont know. thats when your mom did so much of a drug te baby gets addicted and i was addicted to fucking meth on birth. honestly. this day is just a number counter and even more so now showing that ive suffered and am going to suffer with no end.. 3 decades on this planet. never had a single real friend a family i could love and no ne to rely or care for or helll just to be loved....i guess im just here to suffer for the mistakes my parents couldnt live with they made and use that mistake tell its dead or they never see it again.. and this is why this day of all days fills me with such dispear and misery and is why i wish i wasnt here. the time for most that they get to think of themselves is another day im worked hard and nearly die every year so i cant be reminded.. whatever im screaming and begging to the void but please dont wish me anything. save those for people that can be saved. i lost my chance when i was born and turned into nothing more then a child slave for those who couldnt take responsibilty for there actions and 30 years later still cant and are so close to snuffing the life they brought into this world but as they say " i brought you into this world am ill take you out " i just hope they do it soon to the pain and syffering i endure ends finally.

i will keep fa for now. no reason to just jump ship but in general. lifes going to kill me at least ill die with a bed and a roof no matter how bad those and the hell spawn i call a family are around me. soon enough they will be in the ground and ill have to pick up the pieces of whatever life my family destoryed and try to get my body my mind and my life stably even if the last almost 30 years of my life withthem is full of abuse neglect and troment... at least i can say they never used me sexully... plus i guess after two weeks without any food would make you start seeing things a bit differnt even as i type this im so weak light head and about to pass out.. either way. i die out there or i die in here.. at least with one. they have to see what they caused. the other they can just shrug off and pretend there little mistake never was a thing in the first place.... anyway in short. im staying ome and onFA.. for now.

well be i gone after this journal or not im making a inkbunny to get away from FA and all the drama and all the shitty crap that i have had to deal with. inkbunny i go and if im lucky maybe after pulling myself from this hell of a "art" site i might .... sigh who knows but if you get this my account will be gone and i will have moved over. good luck and live love and prosper everyone .

im leaving home. no other chooses to weak to be a slave yo my family but cant stand being abuse used ands manipluated to literally 3 straight years of back breaking work. this heat will hopefully snuff me out ill pass out and its over. i just dont care. whatever is after this bullshit and heavy pain and massive suffering i hope is better... good luck on living everyone. i failed hope you alll have a better chance.

yes butts that is alll

so as of friday march 24 i am banned on my local california furry telkegram due to being a straight up dumbass and moron.... so i cant show my face in the community and have no fucking way of making it up... 2 days in a public furry telegram and i fuck mytself so bad.... maybe just hiding it is a better idea or leaving all together... its not like ive made a single real friend in 15 years of joining..... who knows... all i do know is i dont know who or what i am anymore and i feel alone and empty and with no one around.

just done. half my life as a furry. done. thought i could make it. nope all i did was make my life horrid and worse even being outed but my llocal furry groups.. ya so im just done man. fuck my life fuck this life i live. im better not hidiong behind the fur suit head being fucking miderable and just give no shits and stay that way. dont anyone who knows or cares will hear from me ever again. no reason to keep contacts of your old life.. best to do what i always do bottle up delete and pretend it was a dream... well goodbye for now.. maybe one day ill be back.

3 fucking years working 24/7 without a single day off. forced to stay home and live on ssi and food stamps i have to pay my family rent and almost 500USD of my 1.100 USD i make a money and like 50 usd on food stamps a month to them. mind you i work free breaking my back to 24/7 work for my father i have broke 3 bones shattered my knee and dislocated my left shoulder. in those 3 years. im on heavily and more then like addictive pain kills just to survive the daily chronic pain i suffer.... and mind you i do this alllll for free for my damn boomer parents that are also my ssi payees. and add more the last 7 years my sister and here two adult kids living with us ....... then and now 2 years of a bed i have to sleep in that i have springs stabbing me in the spin and lets not get started with the fact im 400 US ILBS give or take 50 ish i have a few major mental disorders such a as chronic depression schizophrenia and bipolar and who knows what else since ive been locked in my house since early child hood due to said parents straight up doing the very minium to care for me to this day.... andddddd now these ass hats. say they are getting a huge check in taxes and if i want to help my back pain and even sleep most night for that basic neeed of a bed to sleep on i will have to pay them back in INSTALLMENTS FOR THE BED........... THESE PEOPLE ARE FUCKING INSANE. then the caft out of 5 adults in the house in the only one besides my parents paying the bills and rent and they get to do whatever they want and run off to where ever with there friends freely..... not a rant just my life in full

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those that can help plz i beg you do

by the title you should know this but my old twitch channel was so far from all my media people flipped out or left thinking it was someone else not me. so to fix that ive started a new one. so ya its still being made up and i could use mods. i prefer peeps i know but anyone whos fair and gets my trust ill see about asking but for now heres the link hope you hit that follow one of these days and i hope to get rocking. http://www.twitch.tv/wolf_darkrose