~brenderlin

When I joined the furry community about 22 years ago, I created Bren to be my fursona. For all intents and purposes, he was me...as a cougar...and a Jedi...with a briefcase full of TF triggers, but still me! =>.>=;
Then shortly afterward, he got genderflipped and became Brenda. He then attained the ability to shift between male and female (himself and Brenda).
And that's been the arrangement for all these long, fruitful years: Bren represented my male/masculine side, while his female form, Brenda, represented my more feminine side. Hence why I've considered myself genderfluid all this time.

But as the years went by, I found myself becoming more comfortable being Brenda than Bren. Like, I started identifying myself more as her. So SHE became the default form (this was probably obvious if you've been following my gallery). Then last year I had my trans epiphany, started HRT, and began my transition. But it wasn't until the past month or so that I started to realize that Bren (that is, my fursona's male form) no longer represents me. At least, not as much as Brenda (my fursona's female form) does now. Especially since my RL self is starting to resemble Brenda more than Bren.

Anyway, this is all just some context of where I'm coming from when I say this:
I am officially "retiring" Bren, the male form of my fursona.

(If you've been following me on Twitter, this shouldn't really come as a surprise.)

Now, he'll still live on, in a sense. Just as Brenda more permanently. And she's still the silly Jedi with the TF-themed briefcase. And TECHNICALLY, she still has the ability to gendershift, but right now, she doesn't really see the need, or the point, to do so. Especially when I've felt less of a need to show my male self (well, even less so than before).

Of course, it may seem like not much will change (especially if you've been following my gallery the last few years). But even so, I kinda felt I needed to close that particular chapter of my/Brenda's life. ^^;;;