The Enigma of Simon Weil

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The Enigma of Simon Weil

John M. Oesterreicher
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Barnabas M. Ahern, "The Enigma of Simone Weil." In The Bridge: A Yearbook o f Judaeo-Christian Studies,
Vol. 1, edited by John M. Oesterreicher and Barry Ulanov, 117-158. New York: Pantheon Books, 1955.
Jo h n M . Oesterreicher
TH E ENIGM A OF SIMONE W EIL
A SPE C IA L exemplar of sanctity for our time— the Outsider as

Saint in an age of alienation, our kind of saint.” "A life closely akin to
that of the great Christian mystics; a witness consecrated by death, an
agony linked with the Cross of Christ.” "A giant, she lived the Incarna
tion and the Crucifixion— God’s servant.” So write an American, a
Frenchwoman, an Englishman; a Jew , two Christians.1 And theirs are
only a few of the many ecstatic comments on a life which has stirred
believers, unbelievers, and not-yet-believers alike. The German Catho
lic writer Reinhold Schneider goes even further than most of Simone
W eil’s admirers when he calls her "one of the few genuine promises
that have come to us out of the darkest years, a Christian in a sense
that can hardly yet be grasped, a challenge to believers and unbeliev
ers. . . . Her life is the Christian answer pure and simple.” 2
The merest glance at her writings proves Simone W eil’s sense of
kinship with men of any faith and none, particularly with the alien
ated, those whose faith the world has stolen. She considered her voca
tion that of a link "at the intersection of Christianity and everything
that is not Christianity.” 3 N o less do her words seem to confirm her
closeness to Christ and the Church. Only a year before her death, she
declared that she adhered entirely and lovingly to the mysteries of the
Christian faith; that although outside the Church, or "more exactly, on
the threshold,” as she corrected herself, she felt she was really within
1. Leslie A. Fiedler, in his Introduction to Simone W eil's Waiting for God, trans.
by Emma Craufurd (N ew Y o rk : G. P. Putnam’s Sons, 1 9 5 1 ) , p. 3; Marie-
Magdeleine Davy, The Mysticism of Simone Weil, trans. by Cynthia Rowland (Bos
ton: Beacon Press, 1 9 5 1 ) , pp. 18 , 77; Donald Nicholl, "Simone W eil, God’s Ser
vant,” Blackfriars, X X X I , 365 (Aug. 19 5 0 ) , pp. 364, 3 7 1.
2. As quoted in a brochure, Simone Weil, by her German publishers, Kosel,
Munich.
3. Waiting for God, p. 76. Wherever an English translation of Simone W eil’s
books exists, it only is referred to, even when I do not follow its translation but have
essayed my own.
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it. ” 1 belong to Christ; at least I like to think so,” 4 she said then; and
only a little before, she had seen herself as delivered "into Christ’s
hands as His captive.” 5 So ardently was she drawn to the Eucharist
and to the speaking stillness of Catholic churches that, while in
Marseilles, she called her heart "transported, forever, I hope, into the
Blessed Sacrament exposed on the altar” ; 6 later, in London, she spoke
of her urge "to seek nourishment in the spectacle of the Mass.” 7 To
her, Christ was our hunger, our great need: " If we had chlorophyll,
we should feed on light as trees do. Christ is this light.” 8 The thought
of God’s anger brought her no fear, only aroused love, she confessed,
while the thought of His favor and mercy made her tremble. But what
tore her heart was the feeling that in the eyes of Christ she was a barren
fig tree.9 As she thought of her wretchedness, she resolved all the more
to take Christ for her model. W hen a true artist looks at his model,
she said in one of the last entries in her journal, he gives it all his at
tention and becomes one with it, so that, almost without his knowing,
hand and brush re-do what the eye sees. This is the way we ought to
look at Christ, she wrote, for to think of Him thus would make evil
disappear, not immediately, but little by little. And she added: "T o this
end one must think Christ as God and man.” 10
HER LIFE
L ik e these her words, Simone W eil’s life seems to bear out the picture
of one imitating the Christ stripped of garment and sightliness, indeed
the Christ of the agony.11 Born of Jew ish parents in Paris in 1909, into
a warm and prosperous home, she was yet drawn to the secret of suf
fering. More than that, her soul was stamped with grief and pain and
4. J. M. Perrin, O.P., and Gustave Thibon, Simone W eil as We K n ew Her,
trans. by Emma Craufurd (London: Routledge and Kegan Paul, 1 9 5 3 ) , p. 53.
5. Waiting for God, p. 95.
6. Ibid., p. 76.
7. Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., p. 44.
8. La Connaissance surnaturelle (Paris: Gallimard, 19 5 0 ) , p. 245; see also
Gravity and Grace, trans. by Arthur W ills (N ew Y o rk : G. P. Putnam’s Sons, 19 5 2 ) ,
p. 47.
9. Waiting for God, p. 1 0 1 .
10 . L a Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 334 ; see also Perrin and Thibon, op. cit.,
p. 87.
11. Brief accounts of Simone W eil’s life can be found in Perrin and Thibon,
op. cit.; Fiedler, loc. cit.; and E. W . F. Tomlin, Simone W eil (N ew H aven: Yale
University Press, 19 5 4 ) .
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pursued by a sense of failure. Once as a child, already eager for bur

dens, she sat down in the snow and would not go on because her older
brother, and not she, had been given the heaviest baggage to carry.
Again, in 19 14 , at the beginning of the war, when she was five, she was
told that the soldiers at the front had to go without sugar. For the first
time a sense of human hardship entered her comfortable and protected
world, and at once she decided that she would deny herself what others
were denied. Only a little later, she refused to wear socks because the
children of workers had none to wear. It must have been these memo
ries which made her say in an autobiographical letter: "From my
earliest childhood I have always had the Christian idea of love for
one’s neighbor.” 12 A s she was haunted by the misery of others, so she
was haunted by physical pain. W hen about twenty, she began to suffer
from severe headaches, which never entirely left her. So severe did
they become at times that everything seemed a nightmare, that once
she wondered if she "had not died and fallen into hell without notic
ing it.” 18
A t the age of fourteen, Simone W eil was overcome by a dread of
futility; beside her brother, a mathematical genius, she felt mediocre
and without talent. W hat brought her near despair was the notion that
she was not only feeble and stupid but barred from the transcendent
realm of truth "to which only the truly great have access.” Rather than
live without that truth, she wanted to die. But after months of inner
darkness, she became convinced that anyone, even one untalented, can
break through to the kingdom of truth, if only he has the earnest de
sire and gives himself to it with the concentration truth deserves. In
visibly, then, he becomes a genius too.14
Still, the sense of inferiority seems never to have left her, in spite of
her obvious intellectual gifts and her academic success, in spite of the
protests and praise of her friends. And never did she forget the casual
remark of one of her m others visitors, which, when she was but a
child, had sharpened her inner conflict. "One is genius itself,” the
visitor had said, gesturing toward the brother; "the other beauty.” 15
But since she did not look for charm or beauty in herself, rather for an
all-penetrating mind, she was bitterly unhappy; and here may lie the
12 . Waiting for God, p. 65.
13 . Thibon, in his Introduction to Gravity and Grace, p. 9.
15 . Fiedler, loc. cit., p. 15 .
root of her effort to do away with whatever in her physical appearance

might be appealing or even gracious, so that, many years later, her
friends could speak of the strange sight she made. Her typical costume
was an oversized brown beret, a shapeless cape, and large floppy shoes;
there was little grace in her movements or in her monotonous, fiercely
persistent voice. N ot that she was ugly, Gustave Thibon remarks, but
she was "prematurely bent and old-looking through asceticism and
illness, and her magnificent eyes alone triumphed in this shipwreck of
beauty.” 16 The kingdom of truth must have appeared to her as the do
main of men; therefore, perhaps, her attempt to wipe out all charm,
indeed every trace of womanliness. N ot only did she shun outward af
fection— a kiss, an embrace, seemed disgusting to her— she rejected
all warmth and consolation. "I feel,” she wrote, "that it is necessary and
ordained that I should be alone, a stranger and an exile in relation to
every human circle without exception.” 17
Despite her lasting fear of mediocrity, Simone W eil did excep

tionally w ell in her studies: she entered the Lycee Duruy at sixteen,
and, after a brilliant examination, attained her agregation de philoso
phic from the Ecole Norm ale Superieure at the early age of twenty-
two. That same year, in 1 9 3 1 , she was appointed to her first teaching
position, at the lycee in Le Puy. But she was not content to be a pro
fessor. Those were the years of a world-wide depression, and her
compassion for the weak and poor made her take up the cause of the
workers. W hen the unemployed marched on the Prefecture, she
marched with them. She limited her spending to the meager earnings
of the lowest paid domestic servant; anything over she gave either to
syndicalist causes or, with the greatest discretion, to a few individuals
in need. Often, too, she left her books to sing with the workers or to
share in their sports. A ll of this caused her difficulties with the school
administration of Le Puy. One of her supervisors threatened to report
her and have her license revoked, to which she is said to have replied:
"Sir, I have always considered revocation as the normal crowning of
my career.” 18 This may be only legendary; in any case, far from being
taken seriously, her radicalism was, in the mind of the authorities, no
more than that of a young and harmless girl.
16. Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., p. 1 1 6 .
18. Thibon, in his Introduction to Gravity and Grace, p. 14 .
Hungry for martyrdom, however, and for a greater share in the lot
of the workers, she asked for a leave of absence and went to Paris,
where, among other jobs, she operated some sort of drilling machine
in the Renault plant. To suffer all the hardships of the industrial la
borer, she rented a room in the workers’ quarter and lived entirely on
her meager wages. Sometimes hungry, often exhausted and rejected,
exposed to the tyranny of the assembly line, she could not stand the
strain, contracted pleurisy, and had to abandon her attempt. Looking
back on what she had seen in the factories and thinking of the millions
whose fate was like that of her fellow workers there, she wrote later
that "men struck down by affliction are at the foot of the Cross.” 19
And of herself she said:
After my year in the factory . . . I was, as it were, in pieces, soul and

body. That contact with affliction had killed my youth. . . . I had known
quite well that there was a great deal of affliction in the world, I was
obsessed with the idea, but I had not had prolonged and first-hand ex
perience of it. As I worked in the factory, indistinguishable to all eyes,
including my own, from the anonymous mass, the affliction of others
entered into my flesh and my soul. Nothing separated me from it, for I
had really forgotten my past and I looked forward to no future, finding
it difficult to imagine the possibility of surviving all the fatigue. What I
went through there marked me in so lasting a manner that still today
when any human being, whoever he may be and in whatever circum
stances, speaks to me without brutality, I cannot help having the impres
sion that there must be a mistake and that unfortunately the mistake will
in all probability disappear. There I received forever the mark of a slave,
like the branding of the red-hot iron the Romans put on the foreheads
of their most despised slaves. Since then I have always regarded myself
as a slave.20
That her strength had not measured up to life as a factory worker

could not stifle her desire to help others and obliterate herself. It was
the time of the Civil W ar in Spain, so, after a short convalescence, she
went to aid the Loyalists, though she abhorred violence. Her venture
was short-lived, however: a victim of her own clumsiness, she scalded
her feet with boiling oil. The medical care given her was so poor that,
as had happened before, her parents came to her rescue, taking her
19 . Waiting for God, p. 12 4 .

20. Ibid., pp. 66-67.
home to recover from her burns and humiliation.21 N ot long after

wards, she went to Portugal, where she visited a small, poor seaside
village, as it celebrated the feast of its patron saint. Miserable and all
alone, she watched the procession go from fishing boat to fishing boat,
while the full moon shone on people and sea. The women were carry
ing candles and singing songs as sad as that of the V olga boatmen,
when suddenly she was certain that "Christianity is pre-eminently the
religion of slaves, that slaves cannot help belonging to it, and I among
the others.” 22 For the first time she sensed that in Christ was the an
swer to human misery. The following year she spent two days in A s
sisi, for she had loved St. Francis as soon as she knew about him.
There, in Santa Maria degli Angeli, where he used to pray, she was for
the first time in her life forced to go down on her knees.
H oly W eek of 19 3 8 the twenty-nine-year-old Simone W eil passed

with the Benedictines of Solesmes, attending all the liturgical services.
Though she was suffering so greatly from her headaches that every
sound was like a hammer against her, she was able to rise above her
pain, "above this wretched flesh, to leave it to suffer by itself, heaped
up in a corner.” "In the unheard-of beauty of the chant and the words,”
she found "a pure and perfect joy,” which, as she herself said, gave her
a grasp of the possibility of loving God in the midst of affliction. Hear
ing again and again words like "Christ was made obedient, obedient
unto death, even to the death of the cross,” she felt them become part
of her: "The thought of the Passion of Christ entered into my being
once and for all.”
Also at Solesmes was a young English Catholic, whose angelic
radiance after Communion gave her the first inkling, as she put it in
her "Spiritual Autobiography,” of the supernatural power of the sacra
ments. He introduced her to the English metaphysical poets of the
seventeenth century, which led her to the discovery of George H er
bert’s poem:
2 1. Fiedler (in "Simone W eil: Prophet out of Israel," Commentary, X I, 1, Jan.
19 5 1, pp. 3 6 -3 9 ) has drawn attention to the recurrent pattern of bathos in Simone
W eil’s life. Whether in Le Puy, in the factories, in Spain, or later in London, what
starts out as an unlimited desire, an undertaking of heroic dimension, founders;
some incongruous circumstance or accident brings it to frustration. M ight not this
pattern of incompletion and anticlimax offer an insight into the workings of her
soul?
Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew hack,

Guiltie of dust and sinne.
But quick-ey’d Love, observing me grow slack
From my first entrance in,
Drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning,
If I lacked anything.
"A guest ” I answer’d, "worthy to be here”:

Love said, " You shall be he ”
"I the unkinde, ungratefull? Ah my deare,
l cannot look on thee”
Love took my hand, and smiling did reply,
" Who made the eyes but l? ”
(!Truth Lord, but I have marr’d them: let my shame

Go where it doth deserve ”
rtAnd know you not ” sayes Love, "who bore the blame?”
"My deare, then 1 will serve.”
"You must sit dow n” sayes Love, "and taste my meat”:
So I did sit and eat.
Simone W eil learned the poem by heart and, conquering the torment
ing pain in her head, made herself say it over and over. It was during
one of these recitations, she confided, that "Christ Him self came down
and took possession of me.” She emphasized that her experience was
not the result of any reading of the mystics— she had done none. N or
were sense or imagination involved; there was no vision or dialogue,
only the certainty of Christ’s nearness. N ever before had she surmised
the possibility of a real contact between a human being and God, but at
that moment she felt in the midst of her suffering "the presence of a
love, like that which one can read in the smile of a beloved face.” 23
23. Ibid., pp. 67-69. For more than three years following this encounter with
Christ, Simone W eil did not pray, that is, turn to God with words thought or spoken,
fearing, as she wrote, ’'the power of suggestion that is in prayer.” But in the summer
of 19 4 1 she learned the Our Father in Greek, reciting it afterward every morning
and often during the day in the vineyard where she was working at that time. If
her mind wandered, she would begin again as often as necessary till she could say
it "with absolutely pure attention.” Even the very first words sometimes transported
her thought to a space outside the senses, to an infinity of silence. A t times, also,
during this prayer, and at other moments too, she felt Christ present, but His
presence was then "infinitely more real, more piercing, more clear, more full of love,
than that first time when He took possession of me” ( ibid ., pp. 70-72).
But her suffering was not to end. W ishing no life away from danger,
she stayed in Paris after the outbreak of the second W orld W ar; only
when it was made an open city did she move with her parents to
Marseilles. There she met Pere Perrin, a Dominican, blind but keen
eyed to the needs of others. She was grateful for his true and rare
friendship, the more since she thought that for others she hardly ex
isted, was as unnoticed by them as "the color of dead leaves"; that all
her other friends, at one time or another, had hurt her, giving in to
an animal instinct to wound the already wounded.24 But ever beset by
the fear of being influenced by, or dependent on, anyone; filled with
an extreme desire to guard what she called her "autonom y"25— the
protective w all she had built around her wounded self— she denied
herself the fruit of that friendship.26
Her conversations with Pere Perrin inevitably turned her thoughts
to the question of her baptism. However, in the opinion that it was her
vocation to stay among "the immense and unfortunate multitude of
unbelievers"; on the strange assumption that this vocation required her
to be uncommitted, "indifferent to all ideas without exception, includ
ing for instance materialism and atheism"; in a horror of receiving
the sacrament without absolute purity of intention, a purity so absolute
that she would not be running the risk of "even a single instant or a
single inward movement of regret"; and in the absence of an express
command from God, imposing His w ill on hers and thus compelling
her to act— she decided not to be baptized, at least not then. She
thought it possible that God might show His w ill at the moment of her
death, or that some day she might "suddenly feel an irresistible im
pulse to ask for baptism" and run to ask for it. It is more than doubtful
that Simone W eil ever understood baptism as a sacrament of mercy, a
wonder of forgiveness, for she added to the other reasons that kept her
24. Ibid., pp. 1 0 1 ,9 2 .

25. Ibid., pp. 204-205.
26. In his Introduction to Waiting for God, Fiedler has this astonishing remark:
"It was at Father Perrin’s request that Simone W eil 'experimentally’ took com
munion” (pp. 2 7 - 2 8 ) . In a letter to me, Pere Perrin has expressly denied ever hav
ing made such a suggestion to Simone W eil; nor could he have done so, for to a
Catholic, "experimenting” with a sacrament is unthinkable. Presumably Fiedler
misread Pere Perrin’s Introduction to Attente de D ieu (Paris: La Colombe, 19 5 0 ) ,
in which he writes: "Elle savourait [le mystere eucharistique] experimentalement”
(p. 1 5 ) . These words do not mean that she received Communion in an experimental
manner; rather that, in the opinion of Pere Perrin, her soul tasted, experienced, as it
were, the truth of the mystery.
from the font her " unworthiness” and "inadequacy,” her "serious and
even shameful faults” in her relations with others.27 Still, for the few
remaining years of her life, the question of whether she should be
baptized seems never to have left her; it was no rare thing for her to
seek out other priests with whom to discuss it.28
N o longer able to teach, because of the anti-Jewish laws of the
Vichy government, she wished, when she arrived in Marseilles, to work
as a farmhand. Pere Perrin introduced her to Gustave Thibon, a Catho
lic writer who lives among the vineyards of the Rhone valley. There
she worked for some time, first in the fields, then in the vineyards—
labors much too strenuous for her frail body; and yet she refused all
comforts, without realizing that her austerities often caused trouble or
pain for others. Thibon, who admires her and speaks of her with true
affection, cannot help noting that there was "at the very heart of her
self-stripping a terrible self-will, the inflexible desire that this stripping
should be her own work and should be accomplished in her own way.”
Again he writes: "Though utterly and entirely detached from her
tastes and needs, she was not detached from her detachment. . . . Her
ego was, as it were, a word which she may perhaps have succeeded in
effacing, but which was still underlined” 2930
H aving returned to Marseilles for the winter, she sailed the next
spring for Casablanca en route to N ew Y ork. There was anguish in her
heart at leaving so many, friends and strangers, behind in peril. But at
last, in the hope of joining the Resistance movement, she consented to
accompany her parents. "It seems to me as if something were telling
me to go,” she wrote, and added: "I hope that this abandoning my
self to it . . . w ill finally bring me to the haven, . . . the Cross.” 80
27. Waiting for God, pp. 48, 85, 56, 47, 74- 75 , 5 °, 46.
28. Her Letter to a Priest, for instance (trans. A. W ills; New Y o rk : G. P. Put
nam’s Sons, 19 5 4 ) is one long inquiry as to whether one who held opinions like
hers, which, she said, "form a barrier between me and the Church” (p. 9 ) , could be
baptized. (This Letter was written while Simone W eil was still in New Y ork and
was addressed to the late priest-artist Pere Marie-Alain Couturier, O.P., who was
then living in the United States. Shortly afterward she left for England, and so it
remained unanswered.) Though her thoughts often returned to the question of
baptism, her understanding of it always remained defective. At about the same time
that she wrote her Letter to a Priest, she called baptism "solely the desire for the new
birth.” This desire is not without efficacy, she wrote, but added— and thus revealed
anew one of her deep-seated difficulties— that "it ought not to imply submission to a
social organization” (La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 1 8 3 ) .
29. Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., pp. 1 1 4 , 1 1 9 .
30. Waiting for God, pp. 58-60.
In N ew Y ork, her compassion went out to the Negroes of Harlem;

every Sunday she went to a Baptist church there in order to be an
"exile” among the "exiles.” Still she was unhappy, "at the very edge of
despair,” because the affliction spread over the earth obsessed and
crushed her. "I can free myself from this obsession only if I myself
have a large share of danger and suffering,” she wrote to London. And
again: "I beseech you to get me to London, do not leave me here pin
ing in sorrow” ; "I implore you, if you can, to obtain for me the amount
of sufferings and dangers needed to save me from being worn out by
grief in sterility.” 31
London, where she arrived in November 19 4 2, brought her a grave
disappointment. Yearning to sacrifice herself either in saving the lives
of others or in sabotaging the work of her country’s invader, she
asked to be sent into occupied France on some arduous assignment.
Though she begged and begged, she was refused, because her Jewish
features would have imperilled any such venture. Instead, the Free
French authorities asked her— more, perhaps, with the intention of
keeping her busy than of using her ideas— to write a study on the
possibilities of bringing about the regeneration of France.32 This kept
her at her desk long into the evenings, and often her chair or the office
floor served her for a bed. She would eat no more than the people
of France had, and so gave many of her ration coupons to the poor.
Often she would abandon her intellectual pursuits and spend hours
with her landlady’s backward child, telling him stories and giving him
some of the joys of childhood. "I have never yet been able truly to
resign myself to the fact that all human beings other than myself are
not completely preserved from every possibility of affliction,” 83 she
had once written to Thibon.
W orn out, finally, by her many privations and by tuberculosis, she
had to be taken to a hospital; but any special comforts or privileges
ordered for her there caused her only distress. Too wasted to respond
to treatment, she longed for the country, where she died on August 24,
1943. She died, the doctors said, mainly from "voluntary starvation, as
3 1. Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., p. 24.
32. After the war, her study was published as L ’Enracmement, in English The
Need for Roots (trans. by Arthur W ills; N ew Y ork: G. P. Putnam’s Sons, 19 5 2 ) .
But most of Simone W eil’s writing was not done with publication in mind. Thus
her "books” are mainly collections, made after her death, of letters, essays, journals,
and so on.
33. Quoted by Thibon in his Introduction to Gravity and Grace, p. 10 .
she felt that any food she took would be denying her countrymen.” 84
But she was not unappreciative: the last entry in her diary, which
speaks of education and the importance of "to know,” ends abruptly
with the solitary word "Nurses.” W as this a last sign of her gratitude?
H ER TH O U GH T
So e n d e d the life of one who wished to suffer with all the sufferers of
earth, who indeed begged them, as one begs a blessing, to let her
partake of the bread of their affliction. W as she not, then, "profoundly
Christian, without being baptized” ? 85 N o doubt, "she touched those
deeps of distress and anguish that cannot be reached without en
countering the Face in which are written all the pains of men.” 36 Still,
for all her desire to suffer, even to suffer like Christ, Simone W eil was
not a Christian. This is not a statement that I make lightly. But if one
looks not at one or the other isolated sentence of hers but at the whole
range of her thought, no other conclusion is possible.
GOD, G R A V ITY, AN D GRACE
"Thy kingdom come,” Simone W eil prayed, but explained it to mean:

"M ay thy creation disappear absolutely, beginning with me and with
everything with which I have ties, whatever they may be.” 37 Thus she
turned into its opposite what the prophets had hoped for and what
Jesus proclaimed as near and coming ever nearer: that the wings of
G od’s love w ill be spread over all, that death shall be no more, nor
mourning, nor crying, nor pain (Apoc 2 1 : 4 ) , because all things will
be transfigured in a heaven and an earth altogether new. W hy could
she not hold this hope? W hy was hope, that glorious mark of the Old
and N ew Testaments, alien to her? W hy did she make indifference and
nonfulfillment a fetish?
W hatever the answer, the fact is that Simone W eil declared "dis
tance” (one of her key words) to be God’s manner toward us. He is
"absent” from His world, she said, and His power here below is "an
infinitely poor little thing.” 88 "On God’s part creation is not an act of
34. Tomlin, op. cit., p. 35.
35. Davy, Introduction au message de Simone W eil (Paris: Plon, 19 5 4 ), p. 249.
36. Jean de la Croix Kaelin, O.P., in his excellent "Reponse a Simone Weil,”
N ova et Vetera, X X V II, 1 (Jan.-M arch 19 5 2 ) , p. 32.
37. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 333.
38. Ibid., p. 262.
self-expansion but of restraint and renunciation. God and all His crea
tures are less than God alone. God accepted this diminution. He
emptied a part of His being from Him self,” 39 she wrote. But this is
not the God of Scripture, who is overflowing generosity, ever spending
Himself, never spent; who in creating shares without either gain or
loss; who shares because He is goodness. He is goodness, and it is the
way of the good to spread itself, but it is its mystery that in spreading
itself it is not thinned, it does not suffer the least diminution. N o doubt,
the God of Israel is a hidden God (Is 4 5 : 1 5 ) , but to Isaiah and to the
Christian, "'hidden” does not mean what it meant to Simone W eil: that
"necessity is God’s veil,” that, in other words, "God has committed all
phenomena without exception to the mechanism of the world.” 40 Far
from being absent, He is with us; every page of Old and N ew Testa
ments tells His presence, help, and mighty acts. "Behind me and be
fore, you hem me in and rest your hand upon me” (Ps 1 3 8 : 5 ) : so the
Psalmist. And Moses, taking leave of his people, tells them that the
eternal God is a dwelling place, their home and refuge, and that "un
derneath are the everlasting arms” (Deut 3 3 : 2 7 ) . The God who is in
heaven, in inaccessible light, but is nonetheless with His people as their
strength— this is the God of revelation: the God of Israel, the God of
Christians. But Simone W eil made her own image of God.
God, as she pictured Him, had surrendered the universe to the rule
of blind force, a surrender she called His "impartiality,” His "indiffer
ence,” and, strange though it may seem, His "caress.” 41 The world thus
became for her the domain of pesanteur, gravity, down-drag, one in
which all things were forever falling. There were, however, rare rays
of light which illumined our darkness: grace, in which she saw the
one exception to the pull of dead weight. But for a Christian grace
raises man’s humanity above itself, makes him grow toward God, in
deed live in Him, whereas to her it seems to have been the powTer from
above which makes man desire what she called decreation:
I must withdraw so that God may make contact with the beings whom
chance places in my path and whom He loves. It is tactless for me to
be there. It is as though I were placed between two lovers or two
friends. . . .
39. Waiting for God, p. 14 5.

40. Gravity and Grace, p. 15 7 .
4 1. Ibid.; La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 92.
If only I knew how to disappear, there would be a perfect union of

love between God and the earth I tread, the sea I hear. . . .
And death, robbing my eyes of then light,

Restores to the day they sullied all its purity.
May I disappear in order that those things that I see may become per
fect in their beauty from the very fact that they are no longer things
that I see. . . .
When I am in any place, I disturb the silence of heaven and earth by
my breathing and the beating of my heart. . . . To me [the created
world] cannot tell its secret, which is too high. If I go, then the Creator
and the creation will exchange their secrets.42
There are a thousand reasons— or is there only one, sin?— for a man
who thinks he is alone to feel defeated and to look on himself as a
stain on the universe. Y et for Simone W eil it was not sin that sullied
the universe but her very existence. W hat a contrast to Genesis and
Gospel, which show man as God’s favorite, unbelievably loved! W hile
the redeemed man knows himself to be the cantor of creation, leading
the chorus of all the irrational creatures and turning their mute obedi
ence into song,43 Simone W eil can think of herself only as an inter
loper, as a discord in the harmony of created things.
This is not all. For her, God and man inevitably miss each other,
except in some "fourth dimension.” There is no need to enter into a
discussion of her "fourth dimension” ; whatever it may have symbolized
for her, her view cannot be reconciled with the Christian faith, for
42. Gravity and Grace, pp. 88-89.

43. This Christian knowledge has a profound interpreter in the Dominican
mystic Henry Suso. " I place before my inward eyes myself with all that I am— my
body, soul, and all my powers— and I gather round me all the creatures which God
ever created in heaven, on earth, and in all the elements, each one severally with its
name, whether birds of the air, beasts of the forests, fishes of the water, leaves and
grass of the earth, or the innumerable sand of the sea, and to these I add all the little
specks of dust which glance in the sunbeams, with all the little drops of water which
ever fell or are falling from dew, snow, or rain, and I wish that each of these had
a sweetly sounding stringed instrument, fashioned from my heart’s inmost blood,
striking on which they might each send up to our dear and gentle God a new and
lofty strain of praise for ever and ever. And then the loving arms of my soul stretch
out and extend themselves toward the innumerable multitude of all creatures, and
my intention is, just as a free and blithesome leader of a choir stirs up the singers
of his company, even so to turn them all to good account by inciting them to sing
joyously, and to offer up their hearts to God. 'Sursum corda’ ” ( The L ife of Blessed
Henry Suso by Himself, trans. by T. F. Knox, Orat., London: Methuen, 19 13 ,
pp. 32- 33 ).
The Enigma of Simone Weil 13 1
such is the good news: N o other frame, no other continuum, is needed

for the encounter of God and man; it happens in the here-and-now. In
grace God moves toward man and draws him close, saying to Israel and
to man, for whom Israel stands, that He loves him with an everlasting
love and reaches out to him in pity (Je r 3 1 : 3 ) . If their meeting
fails, it is because of mans resistance to the divine invitation, so that
Christ's parables are one long lament over man’s "I cannot come.”
But according to Simone W eil, the meeting is bound to fail because
God is still and man refuses to be impassive. In what I consider one of
the saddest entries in her American diary, she wrote: "God and man
kind are like a pair of lovers who have made a mistake about the
place of their rendezvous. Each one is there before the hour, but each
in a different place, and they wait, wait, wait. He is upright, unmoving,
nailed to the spot for all time. She is distracted and impatient. W oe to
her if she has enough and goes away! For the two points they are at
are the same point in the fourth dimension.” 44
To this she added: "The crucifixion of Christ is the image of the
fixedness of God.” But the crucifixion is nothing of the kind; no image
of immobility, it is rather the sign of His utter concern for man. W hen
God-made-man goes after man, even to the point of suffering, what
else does it mean if not that He "runs” after him so that He may per
suade him to come His way? So little does the Church think of the
Crucified as "fixed,” still, and unmoving, that in her liturgy she makes
Him plead: "W hat more should I have done for thee that I have not
done? O my people, wherein have I grieved thee? Answer me.”
Though the nails fasten Jesus’ arms to the wood, the arms are open.
"I, if I be lifted up from the earth, w ill draw all things to myself”
(Jn 1 2 : 3 2 ) , He said, and again: "The thief comes only to steal, and
slay, and destroy [the sheep]. I came that they may have life, and have
it more abundantly” ( Jn 1 0 : 1 0 ) . The words are clear, there is nothing
equivocal about them. Christ came and preached, lived and died, that
we may live: such is His own message, such the witness of the apostles
and the teaching of the Church. In Simone W eil’s eyes, however, He
died that we may learn to die; H e suffered to redeem us not from sin
but from existence. "T o love truth means to endure the void and con
sequently to accept death,” she wrote. "Truth is on the side of death.” 45
44. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 92; see Waiting for God, pp. 1 3 5 - 1 3 6 .

45. Gravity and Grace, p. 56.
I 32 John M. Oesterretcher
Even if the few quotations I have given so far were all I knew of
Simone W eil, I should have no doubt that what has often been called
her 'message” is not part of the Christian message.46 Though I respect
her deep anguish, I have to say this plainly, for no human hands may
tamper with Christ’s testament, not even the hands of one who suffered
much. But lest it be felt that I have moved too quickly and have dealt
with her thought and spirituality in a summary fashion, I should like
to discuss more fully her relationship to Christ, her interpretation of
His divinity, of His crucifixion and resurrection, her views on creation
and the meaning of man, and, finally, on Israel.
C H RIST, O N E OR M A N Y ?
From the very beginning, when, at the sight of the procession in the
Portuguese fishing village, she sensed that Christ was the answer to
human misery, Simone W eil had a distorted view of the gospel. Chris
tianity wTas to her "pre-eminently the religion of slaves.” Slaves, in her
language, are men struck down by "affliction”— that blind necessity,
that anonymous suffering which deprives its victims of their person
ality, turns them into things, freezes them with a metallic coldness, and
puts them at the greatest possible distance from God.47 But to her, as
we have seen, the chains were not to be broken nor the distance
bridged nor the void filled; on the contrary, the very void was glorified.
Christianity, which is nearness to God and not distance, is thus in
verted. One has only to remember what St. Paul wrote to the Romans
and the Galatians: that before they came to believe they were slaves
to sin, to lust and lawlessness, slaves to the gods who are not, to the
blind "elements of the world” ; but that now, as men of faith, they are
sons, known by God, loved with an infinite love (R om 6:6 , 19 ; G al
4: 3, 8 ). Freed from the dominion of cold fate and of their own va
garies by Christ, they have been given a new life; separation and dis
tance ended, they have entered into an organic relationship with God,
a true communion. In this St. Paul echoed Christ Him self: "N o longer
do I call you servants . . . I have called you friends” ( Jn 1 5 : 1 5 ) .
46. The American reader who wishes to compare this conclusion with the findings
of others has two significant studies within easy reach: Georges Frenaud, O.S.B.,
"Simone W eil’s Religious Thought in the Light of Catholic Theology,” Theological
Studies, X IV , 3 (Sept. 19 5 3 ) , pp. 34 9 -376; and Gerda Blumenthal, "Simone Weil's
W ay of the Cross,” Thought, X X V II, 10 5 (Summer 19 5 2 ) , pp. 2 2 5 -2 3 4 .
47. Ibid., pp. 12 4 - 1 2 5 .
Now, if one remembers that it is Christ who determines what Chris

tianity is, then Simone W eil’s view of it as "the religion of slaves” is
not a slight exaggeration of a truth but a very basic misconception
which was to vitiate her whole religious thought.
Again, after her inner encounter with Christ during a recitation of
Herbert’s "Love bade me welcome,” when she felt H e had descended
to take possession of her— what was her response? "I still half refused,
not my love but my intelligence.” 48 She wrote "intelligence” ; what she
unknowingly referred to, however, was a world-outlook rooted in emo
tions: that drift of the soul and bent of temperament which in all men
is the last to yield to Christ because it so resists unmasking. But she
thought her wrestling with her soul to be a wrestling with God "out of
pure regard for truth,” and went on to say: "Christ likes us to prefer
truth to Him because, before being Christ, He is truth. I f one turns
aside from Him to go toward the truth, one w ill not go far before
falling into His arms.” This sounds subtle and courageous, but it con
tradicts "pure regard for truth,” for Christ never so much as hinted that
He "liked” such a preference; rather did He say: "I am the W ay, and
the Truth, and the Life. N o one comes to the Father but through me”
(Jn 1 4 : 6 ) . In Him, in His word and work, is disclosed what God is
like and what God wills for and of men; and therefore He demands
an unconditional "yes,” a total commitment, which Simone W eil’s
formula seeks to evade.
Proof that she evaded Christ’s full embrace is that, in fact, she never
did "fall into His arms.” In spite of her reiterated "one must think
Christ as God and man,” she went, driven by a strange restlessness,
from Him to Greek philosophy and poetry, to Egyptian myths and the
Hindu scriptures, ever looking for Him elsewhere. W hen Saul saw the
glory of Christ, he asked: "W hat shall I do, Lord?” (A c 2 2 : 1 0 ) , and
had himself led straight to the city to be baptized. But when Simone
W eil had encountered Christ, she wandered far and wandered wide.
She "came to feel that Plato was a mystic,” indeed "the father of W est
ern mysticism,” almost an evangelist, who knew and taught the Chris
tian mysteries of the Trinity, the Incarnation, and the Passion, the won
ders of mediation, of grace, and of salvation through love.49 She saw
48. Ibid., p. 69.
49. Ibid., p. 70; La Source grecque (Paris: Gallimard, 19 5 3 ) , p. 70; Letter to a
Priest, p. 27. This is how Simone W eil turned Plato into a mystic. In her essay "God
in Plato,” she quotes a few lines from the sixth book of the Republic, which in
the Iliad "bathed in Christian light.” 50 But this was only a first step;
shortly afterward she was to declare that "the gospel is the last mar
velous expression of the Greek genius, as the Iliad is the first,” of that
Greek spirit which enjoins— this is still Simone W eil speaking— the
seeking of "the kingdom and justice of our heavenly Father” to the
exclusion of all other goods and which lays bare human suffering in a
being at once divine and human.51
In her strange wandering, Simone W eil also "came to feel . . .
that Dionysus and Osiris are in a certain sense Christ Himself,” and
only a little later she rejoiced that the words of the Bhagavad-Gita, so
"marvelous,” so "Christian in sound,” were "put into the mouth of an
incarnation of God.” 52 The full meaning of these words from her
Jowett’s translation read: "I would not have you ignorant that, in the present evil
state of governments, whatever is saved and comes to good is saved by the power of
God, as we may truly say.” Paul Shorey’s translation for the Loeb Classical Library
is: "And you may be sure that, if anything is saved and turns out well in the present
condition of society and government, in saying that the providence of God pre
serves it you w ill not be speaking ill.” Simone W eil's rendering is very different:
"One must needs know this. Whoever is saved and becomes what he ought to be,
the cities being as they are, must be said to be saved, if one wishes to speak correctly,
by the effect of a predestination which proceeds from God.” And she adds this
comment: "It is impossible to affirm more categorically that grace is the one source
of salvation, that salvation comes from God and not from man” (La Source grecque,
pp. 7 8 -7 9 ) . But of religious salvation, of grace and predestination, there is nothing
in Plato’s text. W hat he speaks of is simply this: Only by God’s power can a phi
losopher be preserved from the corrupting pressure of public opinion.
5 1. "The Iliad, or, The Poem of Force,” The W ind and the Rain, V I, 4 (Spring
19 5 0 ) , p. 245. According to Simone W eil, the true subject of the Iliad is force,
which turns man into a thing, indeed into a corpse. N o one can escape its dominion,
for even he who seems spared has its threat constantly hanging over him. To know
the bitterness of this human lot, to know this pitiless necessity, and yet not to seek
pity, not to resort to illusion and exaltation: this, in her opinion, is the miracle of
the Iliad and its Christian light— a light, she tells us, the Christian martyrs lacked,
because they died rejoicing. Whatever may be the merits of her interpretation from
a literary point of view, the joyless resignation, the amor fati, she finds in the Iliad
is the very opposite of Christian resignation. And yet a Christian reading of Homer
is not foreign to the patristic tradition. For many ancient writers, the Odyssey’s "mast
with the yard across it” recalled the wood of the cross, to which the Christian must
be bound by the cords of the spirit as Odysseus was lashed to the mast with ropes.
"Let us flee from the old way as from the Sirens,” Clement of Alexandria cried
out. "It strangles man, turns him away from truth, snatches him from life. . . . Let
us flee from the island of wickedness, heaped with bones and corpses, where plea
sure, a pretty harlot, sings. . . . Pass by pleasure, sail past the song. . . . Bound
to the wood of the cross, thou shalt live, free of corruption” (Exhortation to the
Greeks, xii, PG 8 :2 3 7 -2 4 0 ) . Cf. Hugo Rahner, S.J., "H eiliger Homer,” in his
masterly Griechische Mythen in christlicher Deutung (Zurich: Rhein-Verlag,
194 5 ).
spiritual autobiography becomes clear when they are held next to those
that precede them: "I never wondered whether Jesus was or was not
an incarnation53 of God; but in fact I was incapable of thinking of
Him without thinking of Him as God.” Or when they are read along
with her Letter to a Priest, where she wonders whether Melchizedek
was not "already an incarnation of the W ord/’ and continues: "A t all
events, we do not know for certain that there have not been incarna
tions previous to that of Jesus, and that Osiris in Egypt, Krishna in
India, were not of that number.” 54
"A n incarnation of God”— this is not the high, awesome, and chaste
wonder that is Jesus; here the mystery is flattened down to the prom
iscuity of the pagan myths. Some have thought that Simone W eil's
view of Jesus as one of several incarnations may have derived from her
overwhelming compassion with the forgotten, neglected, or down
trodden peoples of the earth. Marie-Magdeleine Davy, so often a victim
of her unbounded admiration for Simone W eil, has even placed her in
the neighborhood of St. Bridget of Sweden, who had Christ declare
that instead of sluggish Christians, given to vanity, pride, and lust, He
would choose for Him self the poor, that is, the despised pagans, and
say to them: "Enter, and rest in the arms of my love.” 55 Doubtless,
Simone W eil had compassion with those outside the Church— though
one is never sure whether her compassion was not, at least in part, the
result of her rebelliousness against the Church and against all that is—
but she did not wish to invite those who do not know Christ to come
to Him; on the contrary, she had a horror of any missionary effort, she
called it "bad” and said she would "never give even so much as a dime”
toward it.56 No, in her errors about Christ, Simone W eil was not the
victim of too much compassion, rather, I fear, of an unfree heart. There
is a kind of defective love which, afraid of total giving, prefers the
general to the concrete, mankind to the neighbor,57 the many to the
53. Unfortunately, the English translation of Attente de D ieu is at fault when
it translates the French original, une incarnation de Dieu, by "the Incarnation of
God."
54. Letter to a Priest, p. 19.
55. Davy, Introduction au message de Simone Weil, p. 14 8 ; St. Bridget, Revela-
tiones Extravagantes, 84.
56. Letter to a Priest, pp. 30-34.
57. This preference of Simone W eil’s appears in many ways. A striking example
is this passage from her diary: "God alone is the unity of the universal and the
particular. God is a universal person. Someone who is all." This is but little removed
from plain pantheism, and it is of one piece with it when she adds: "One does not
one, and which seems to have made Simone W eil more nearly at ease
with a heavenful of "'mediatory gods,” remote, mythical, without "lo
calization in time and space,” 58 than with the one Christ, the Only-
Begotten of the Father, born in Bethlehem when Herod was king of
Judaea and Augustus emperor of Rome.
It was not that Simone W eil discovered in the yearnings of all men
an intimation of the Answer, in their writings an echo of the Word.
She was not like one who, with eye filled with the image of her only
beloved, ear filled with his voice, hears and sees his onliness every
where. This would have been the marvel of a flowering heart. But, as
all her human relationships without exception show, her heart was in
jured and shrunken at its roots; and so injured, she "could” not abide
with Christ, the One, beside whom there is no other. Fearful of engag
ing herself without reserve, always torn— she once wrote: "A t present
I have the impression that I am lying, whatever I do, whether it be by
remaining outside the Church or by entering it” 59— she seemed com
pelled to "m ultiply” the Incarnation and to see in the various religious
traditions but "different reflections of the same truth, and perhaps
equally precious.” 60
In her flight into "universality,” Simone W eil was not satisfied with
Christ as He is, as the apostles saw Him and as the Church believes in
Him. W hile in the United States, she drew up a list of twenty-seven
"images of Christ,” among which figure Odin, Adonis and Orestes,
Antigone and Snow W h ite ;61 and without batting an eyelash, she of
fers to us the thought that "Baal and Astarte”— who represent nature
worship at its grossest, against whose lewd and sensual rites Scripture
cried out as an abomination— "were perhaps representations of Christ
and the Virgin.” 62 In all seriousness she maintained as probable that
love humanity; one loves this or that man. This is not a legitimate love; to love
mankind is alone legitimate” (La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 2 5 1 ) . Needless to
say that here she completely contradicts the biblical command which gives us the
neighbor to love, not mankind. She also makes clearer now what she meant when
she said: "From my earliest childhood I have always had the Christian idea of love
for one’s neighbor.” It was not the Christian idea: for her to love was to love im
personally, impartially, anonymously, "equally,” as sun and rain do (see, for in
stance, Waiting for God, pp. 9 7 -9 8 ).
58. Letter to a Priest, pp. 25, 20.
61. La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 2 9 0 -2 9 1.
many of the names of Greek divinities, such as Apollo, Eros, and
Proserpine, were "in reality various names for designating one single
divine Person, namely the W ord.” 63
These and similar ideas were not the fruit of scholarship, not the
inescapable result of hard scientific work, for their scientific basis is
more than weak, it is nil; and there are many indications that Simone
W eil knew this. Yet, in spite of her honesty and almost brutal candor
in other areas of her life, she seriously maintained these ideas out of
what must have been an inner compulsion. I can see no other explana
tion for the way she dealt with ancient texts and turned them in favor
of the bias she shared with Marcion, that the pure Christian faith has
its roots anywhere but in Israel and that it owes nothing to the Old
Testament. To give only one example: "The Egyptian Book of the
Dead ” she wrote, "at least three thousand years old, and doubtless very
much older, is filled with evangelic charity,” and then went on to quote
from these protestations of guiltlessness: "Lord of Truth, I bring thee
the truth . . . I have destroyed evil for thee . . . I have killed no
man. I have made no man weep. I have let no man suffer hunger. I
have never been the cause of a master's doing harm to his slave. I have
never made any man afraid. I have never adopted a haughty tone. I
have never turned a deaf ear to just and true words.” 64 But what she
presents to us as a sign of the presence of the evangelical spirit in
Egypt long before Jesus preached in Israel is in fact its very opposite.
It is a magic formula with which a man hoped to force his way into
the Underworld. A n unabashed insistence on one's own purity and per
fection, it is devoid of humility, it knows nothing of sin, it shows no
repentance, it begs no forgiveness. W hy was Simone W eil oblivious
of all this? W hy did she not see the true character of this spell? How
could she describe it as "words as sublime even as those of the Gos
pel” ? 65 W as it because she wished to "prove” one of her preconcep
tions? In any case, her very next words are: "The Hebrews, who for
four centuries were in contact with Egyptian civilization, refused to
adopt this sweet spirit. They wanted power.” 66
This want of care, this recklessness, with which Simone W eil treated
texts is particularly embarrassing in her w illful use of the words and
63. Ibid., p. 20.
64. Ibid., p. 13 .
66. Letter to a Priest, p. 14 .
acts of Christ, as when she writes: "Christ began His public life by
changing the water into wine. H e ended by transforming the wine
into blood. He thus marked His affinity to Dionysus.” 67 A fountain, a
swamp— both are water, but one is living and clean while the other is
foul and dead. N o more can we equate the wine of Christ and the wine
of Dionysus, and to make Christ the author of the equation is the
height of arbitrariness. Further, from the fact that some of Christ’s
sayings (for instance, "A s the Father has sent me, I also send you” )
have a structural similarity to the algebraical expression of the pro
portional mean (as a is to b, so b is to c ), she leaped to the con
clusion that this similarity was intentional, that Christ recognized Him
self not only as the Suffering Servant of whom Isaiah speaks or as the
fulfillment of the bronze serpent in the desert, but "in the same way
in the proportional mean of Greek geometry, which thus becomes the
most resplendent of the prophecies.” 68 Even if her premise were true—
which, of course, it is not— there would be no ground for a conclusion
that here is the "most resplendent” of the prophecies; she just wanted
it to be so. It was her constant temptation to turn Jesus, the Seed of
Abraham and Son of David, into the heir of Hellas. Instead of gather
ing all things under the headship of Christ, instead of redeeming the
spirit of antiquity by His spirit, as a Christian wishes to do, she tried
to "redeem” Christ in the eyes of antiquity. Or, in the words of Charles
M oeller: "Instead of illuminating Greece by Christ, sought for His
own sake, she illuminated Christ by Greece.” 69
Traditional Christianity, she tells us, cannot explain St. Paul’s
Christ, "the firstborn of every creature,” "the reconciliation of all things”
(C ol 1 : 1 5 , 2 0 ) ; only Pherecydes, Pythagoras, and Plato could do so.
Thus she called Christ "the unity extending across all things,” "the har
mony,” "the Soul of the world.” 70 And by this she did not wish to say
that the ultimate Meaning groped for by the pre-Socratic philosopher,
by Pythagoras, and by Plato, is real and true in Christ; rather that St.
67. Ibid., p. 2 1.
68. Ibid., p. 24.
69. See his excellent study on Simone W eil in his Literature du X X * siecle et
christianisme, I, Silence de D ieu (Tournai: Casterman, 19 5 4 ) , p. 237.
70. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 200. Figuratively speaking, Christ might well
be called "the Soul of the world.” But this can hardly be what Simone W eil had in
mind, for later in her American diary there is this entry: "Even the notion of Micro
cosmos implies the Incarnation. A human being who has for soul the Soul of the
world” {ibid., p. 2 6 3 ) . Not a single thread ties this to the Christian faith.
The "Enigma of Simone Weil 139
Paul only restated what they saw and knew. W hy was she ever trying
to withdraw from the clear and common belief of the Church into
things obscure and "untold,” into esoteric teachings of the past, if not
to withdraw from her self? In the midst of the often so fantastic en
tries in her journal is a meditation which, terribly overstated though it
is, is most moving as it tells her desire to be a tool of truth: "The soul
that is outside of justice— outside of faith— lies. To say T is to lie.
Lord, I am nothing but error. Error is nothing but nothingness. Lord,
that my whole soul may know this, and all the parts of my soul, and
even my body. That my soul may be to my body and to God only
what this pen is to my hand and to the paper— an intermediary.” 71 So
she prayed, sincerely I am sure, and yet shunned all safeguards against
error. To be that pure instrument, what better— indeed what other—
way would there have been for her than to submit to the Church as
voice and bond of truth? But a magisterium teaching with authority,
a social body in which wisdom has a home— this irritated her.72 She
wanted to go it alone, to live in a self-imposed exile which allowed
her to keep company with the dim and distant figures of mythology.
CHRIST C R U C IFIED AN D R ISE N
To say that she had a predilection for the dim and distant is not to say
that Christ was unreal to Simone W eil; Christ fastened to the cross
was fearfully and lovingly real, and yet the Christ she looked up to was
not the real Christ. A t Solesmes, where she heard Jerem iah’s Lamenta-
7 1. Ibid., p. 8 1.
72. Though she herself was never known to give way in the least in an argument,
Simone W eil wanted the Church to relax the rule of truth. Needless to say, she
objected to the Church's denunciation of error, the anathema sit. But what is strange
is that she thought its use kept "the Church from being Catholic other than in
name” ( Letter to a Priest, p. 63; see also Waiting for God, p. 7 7 ) . To be Catholic,
then, seems to have meant to her to give free rein to the greatest variety of doctrines,
and her ideal of the Church seems to have been an omnium-gatherum, an anarchy.
"The society of those who love Christ,” she once said, "is not really a society, it is a
friendship.” And when she spoke of friendship, the qualities she most insisted on
were distance and the absence of any pleasure in, or even desire for, oneness of mind.
She had a deep horror of the "collective,” of social pressure, of public opinion, and
once called the devil "the father of prestige.” But one wonders whether her repug
nance was pure in its inner origin, since time and again she confused the collective
and the truly social, pressure and authority, and placed the general consent of the
faithful on a par with public opinion. "One must not be an T," much less a we,’ ”
is one of her mottoes. "Cultivate the feeling of being at home in exile. To be rooted
in no-place.” (La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 200, 272; Waiting for God,
pp. 200-209; Gravity and Grace, p. 86.)
tions and the suffering of Christ sung, "the thought of the Passion/’ she
tells us, "entered into my being once and for all,” 73 the Passion, in
which Love submits, suffers, not by constraint but by consent.74 The
real proof that Christianity is divine, she wrote, is in the cry, "M y God,
my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” 75 It "is the perfect beauty of the
accounts of the Passion” that is the thing miraculous, the thing that
"compels me to believe. . . . The cross is enough for me.” 76 She calls
the cross a balance and a lever, a going down, necessary for a rising
up: "Heaven’s descending upon earth raises earth to heaven.” 77 It is
the balance on which God outweighed the entire universe; on which
a body, frail and light, but God, lifted up the whole world. Archi
medes’ "G ive me a point to stand on and I w ill move the world” is
answered by the Crucified. The cross is the fulcrum, "there can be no
other. It has to be at the intersection of the world and that which is
not the world. The cross is this intersection.” 78
It is impossible to quote the many passages that show Simone W eil’s
awareness of the Passion; often and vividly she expressed what her
inner being realized, that here is the heart of the Christian faith, here
the Christian way. But all the time her realization was awry, for she
tried to sever the Passion from the mystery of the Resurrection, with
which it is one, for it is Christ’s dying and rising which are our salva
tion. " If the Gospel omitted all mention of Christ’s resurrection,” she
wrote, "faith would be easier for me.” 79 Hers were not the objections
of those who think that science forbids them to accept the Easter mys
tery; her difficulties were within herself— but that is not to say they
were more valid. During His Passion, she declared, Christ was stripped
of every appearance of justice, so that even His friends were no longer
fully aware that H e was perfectly just. And she went on to ask: How
else could they have slept while He suffered? How could they have fled?
How could they have denied Him? But "after the resurrection,” she
continued, "the infamous character of His execution was effaced by the
glory; and today, after twenty centuries of adoration, the debasement
74. Intuitions pre-chretiennes (Paris: La Colombe, 1 9 5 1 ) , p. 55.
75. Gravity and Grace, p. 139 .
78. Ibid., p. 14 6; see also Letter to a Priest, p. 72; and Waiting for God, p. 136 .
which is the very essence of the Passion is hardly felt by us any more.
A ll we remember is the suffering, and that only vaguely, for sufferings
imagined always lack 'down-drag/ W e no longer picture Christ to our
selves as dying the death of a common criminal. Even St. Paul wrote:
'If Jesus Christ is not risen, vain is our faith' ( 1 Cor 1 5 : 1 7 ) , and yet
the agony on the cross is something more divine than the resurrection:
it is the point where the divinity of Christ is concentrated. But today
the glorious Christ conceals from us that He was made 'a curse*
(G al 3 : 1 3 ) . ” 80
This much is clear: Simone W eil did not doubt that Christ had risen,
but His resurrection was not to her liking, warring as it did against her
concept of God and the world, and the idea she had thus formed for
herself of the Passion. She had little regard, almost disdain, for any
thing that was not suffering, which she called "man's superiority over
G o d ."81 To her, pain, and nothing else, was purity, that is, pain in the
extreme, the death agony; hence she felt that once Christ was accepted,
not only as the Victim but also as the K ing of glory, His image was
distorted; that only before He was thus accepted, only when helpless,
tormented, and deserted had He been for His followers "an absolutely
pure b ein g."82 "Christ’s healing the sick, raising the dead" she saw as
"the humble, human, almost low part of His mission," while, in a
complete misuse of the word, she named "supernatural" "the sweat of
blood, the unsatisfied longing for human consolation, the supplication
that He might be spared, the sense of being abandoned by God.” 83
Her American notebooks begin beautifully: "The resurrection is
Christ's pardon to those who killed Him ." But a few lines later she
adds: "The joy of Easter is not that which follows sorrow, not freedom
80. Intuitions pre-chretiennes, p. 84. Simone W eil may be right that there are
many Christians who would like the glory without the cross, many also who today
shed tears for the Crucified and yet would have been unmoved had they really seen
Him {La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 2 8 8 ). But this does not in the least change
the fact that the pain of Christ and His triumph are inseparably one. It is not on
Easter Sunday but on Good Friday that the Church sings: "W e adore thy cross,
O Lord, and we praise and glorify thy holy resurrection, for behold, by the wood of
the cross, joy came into the whole world.” Hence it is misleading to say, as some
admirers of Simone W eil have done, that though she failed to understand the glori
ous half of the Christian message, she had a profound grasp of the sorrowful. There
is no halving of the gospel.
8 1. Gravity and Grace, p. 1 3 1 .
82. The N eed for Roots, p. 220.
83. Gravity and Grace, p. 139 .
after chains, fill after hunger, reunion after separation. It is the joy
which hovers over sorrow and fulfills it.” 84 She is obviously wrong:
the Easter alleluia is the song of freedom, it does hymn the breaking
of the chains, the conquest over dust and death. The resurrection is
victory, is triumph; sin w ill cease and the good endure. But Simone
W eil had become so infatuated with the idea of unrelieved suffering
and self-effacement as the very meaning of our life that the resurrec
tion, as the unfolding of Christ's power, the manifestation of His Lord
ship and oneness with the Father, put her at a loss.
"The infinite which is in man is at the mercy of a little piece of iron;
such is the human condition.” W hen a dagger is touched to a man’s
throat, everything in him is reduced to that point, his life is delivered
to cold metal, and God seems far away.85 Simone W eil saw this, man’s
fragile state, with great clarity. But she looked at it so often and so
long that she saw little else, that she became almost blind to the rest
of man’s condition and abhorred the thought of consolation. "There
must be no consolation,” she wrote; and again: "T o explain suffering
is to console it; therefore it must not be explained.” 86 If we go without
consolation, the bliss of nonconsolation w ill be ours. W e must seek no
relief, no recompense, no reward. W e must not sweeten what is bitter
by belief in immortality or belief in the providential ordering of events.
W e must dismiss such comforts, we must reduce ourselves to nothing,
84. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 13 .

86. Ibid., pp. 57, 16 5. Harsh though it may seem, I cannot resist the thought that
for all her many attempts to share the hardships of others and to be poor with the
poorest, Simone W eil lacked real pity for man. N or did she understand God’s
tenderness toward him, whom He made "frail” and in need of consolation. She
wanted the Cross, and the Cross alone, never the kingdom, to be preached to the
afflicted (La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 2 6 ). Again she wrote: "W e must not
weep, so that we may not be comforted” ( Gravity and Grace, p. 6 0 ). Struck by the
fact that her counsel contradicts the beatitude, "Blessed are they who mourn, for
they shall be comforted” (M t 5 : 5 ) , Thibon tries to soften it by saying, in an
editorial note, that here she "is only condemning the tears wrung from us by the
loss of temporal goods— tears which man sheds over himself.” Be that as it may,
when Jesus saw a widow lamenting the loss of her only son, He thought well of her
tears— man’s vernacular— He had compassion on her and gave her back her son
(Lk 7 : 1 2 - 1 5 ) . Simone W eil called this "human,” and she was right; but in calling
it "almost low,” she showed that she had not grasped the marvel of Christ’s human
ity. That in Him appeared God’s philanthropia, God’s love for man, a creature
made of flesh and blood, and not of light, confused her. And as she did not under
stand the Incarnation, so she did not understand the Church, who pleads our weak
ness and in her liturgy does not cease to pray to the God of Israel to redeem us
from our troubles (Ps 2 4 :2 2 ) .
to absolute solitude. Only then do we possess the truth of the

world, she argued, and the truth is that the world would have no reality
were it not for our attachment. Hence we must accept the void. W e
must kill ourselves by killing in spirit all that we love and every desire
that it might last.87 This is what she called detachment. But it is not
Christian detachment.88 "One must uproot oneself,” she wrote, "cut
the tree and make of it a cross and then carry it every day.” 89 But this
is not the Christian cross.
H aving come to Christ’s crucifixion with the thought— or should I
say the idol?— of unrelieved suffering, Simone W eil saw in it little
else than the "absolute stripping of all sensible help, even of the love
of God in so far as it can be felt” ; more, she called it the "supreme
tearing apart,” the "infinite distance between God and God.” 90 Fitting
the Lord’s suffering to her own interpretation, she narrowed it almost
to the piercing cry, "M y God, my God, why hast thou forsaken m e?” in
which, she said, "Christ accuses His Father of having abandoned
Him .” 91 This is how she saw it: Rent by affliction, our souls continu
ally plead "W h y?,” seeking a purpose, a design, which is not; but if
they do not cease to love, if they cherish this emptiness, then they truly
sing. Likewise, or rather, incomparably so, "the cry of Christ and the
silence of the Father make together the supreme harmony, of which all
music is but an imitation.” 92 A ll our cries of anguish vanishing "into
the void,” all our appeals "eternally without response,” extol G od’s
glory, but none so fully as Jesus’ unheard plea on the cross; it is "the
perfect praise of God’s glory.” 93
Need I counter that Simone W eil’s understanding of Christ’s cry is
not Christian? For to the Christian, suffering is not without purpose
and his pleas do not strike against dead walls. They are heard, he
knows, because Christ’s cry was answered in the resurrection. It was
answered even before. But I must not move too quickly, for what mys
tery could be more tormenting than that He who hung on the cross
87. Gravity and Grace, pp. 5 7 -6 1.

88. Simone W eil has often been likened to St. John of the Cross. Though there
is at times a similarity of language, there is no kinship of spirit. Detachment, for
St. John the way, was for Simone W eil a goal.
90. Ibid., p. 14 3 ; Waiting for God, pp. 1 2 3 - 1 2 4 .
9 1. Intuitions pre-chretiennes, p. 10 3.
92. Ibid., p. 168.
93. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 86.
144 John M. Oesterretcher
had said: "I and the Father are one,” and now begged: "W hy hast thou
forsaken me” ? To see the face of Love covered with spit, sweat, tears,
and blood is to shudder; to know His soul at once flooded with bliss
and engulfed in grief is to be dumbfounded. Y et so it is: like a peak
bathed by the sun while the foot of the mountain is in shadow, His
soul’s summit lived in glory while that part of His soul directly con
cerned with His living among men and with His body was enveloped
in darkness. N ot simply darkness, but our darkness. His was not the
agony of one fearful for his own salvation but the agony of the Saviour
of the world. W eighted down though H e was by His seeing the sins
and ills of all, His sorrow was lightened and lighted by His knowledge
that He was enduring it for us. This and nothing else is the meaning
of St. Paul’s words Simone W eil quoted so often, that He, the Sinless,
was made sin, made "a curse” : not that He was accursed Him self but
that He bore the curse of our wickedness; taking upon Him self our
bitter lot, identifying Him self with our anguished state, H e set us free.
But Simone W eil wrote: "The Cross is hell accepted. Suffering is a
passing toward the nothingness on high or that below.” 94 N o, Jesus was
not abandoned to the despair and nothingness which is hell; when
given over by His Father to the cruelty of His persecutors, He was
given over to the demands of His own love— a love so far from with
drawal that even in the midst of pain He promised paradise to the pen
itent thief, and to His mother the world.
The cry of Golgotha was piercing, Simone W eil was right but more
so than she thought*, wrung from the lips of the Innocent, it pierced
the heavens. She was right: it was the question of all sufferers which
the great Sufferer made His own; and yet it was, at the same time, the
answer He gave to His foes, indeed His authentication for ages to
come. For the cry was the beginning of a long psalm every Israelite
was wont to pray, a psalm which begins in grief and ends as a song
of hope; a vision which describes the bitter and yet triumphant trials
of the Messiah— something Simone W eil completely overlooked.
Could there be the slightest doubt, then, that when Jesus uttered its
first words, the whole twenty-first psalm and its total meaning were
before His mind? Here are some of its pleas and prophecies:
1 am a worm, not a man;
the scorn of men, despised by the people. . . .
94. Ibid., p. 64.
I am like water poured out;

all my bones are racked. . . .
They have pierced my hands and my feet . . ,95
they divide my garments among them. . . .
But you, O Lord, be not far from me;
0 my help, hasten to aid me. . . .
1 will proclaim your name to my brethren. . . .
A ll the ends of the earth
shall remember and turn to the Lord;
A ll the families of the nations
shall bow down before Him.
For dominion is the Lord’s,
and He rules the nations.
W hen Christ, then, cried out His distress with a loud voice, He sol
emnly proclaimed that He suffered in virtue of messianic mercy, and
that risen, He would lead the nations and bring them under the king
ship of Yahweh. O Wisdom which, to confound the would-be-wise,
used a cry of anguish to claim victo ry!96
C REA TIO N AN D M A N ’S E X IS T E N C E
" 'My God, why hast thou forsaken m e?’ This moment is the incom
prehensible perfection of love, the love that passes all understand
ing/’ 97 If we ask Simone W eil why it bespeaks such love and praise,
she answers us: "Because there cannot be two more separated than are
the Father and the Son at the moment in which the Son uttered the
95. The translation of this verse follows the Septuagint. Today’s Hebrew text
being unintelligible, many reconstructions have been suggested, for instance: "They
have bound my hands and my feet,” or: "M y hands and my feet are wasted away.”
For a discussion see Edward J. Kissane, The Book of Psalms (D ublin: Browne and
Nolan, 19 5 3 ) , I, ioo - i o i .
96. For a profound meditation on Christ’s cry, see Charles Journet’s "La qua-
trieme parole du Christ en Croix” (N ova et Vetera, X X V II, 1, Jan.-M arch 19 52 ,
pp. 4 7 -6 9 ), to which these two paragraphs owe much. Fiedler, in his article on
Simone W eil in Commentary, writes: "There is scarcely a Christian church that
dares remind its faithful that the final words of Jesus were words of despair, ’My
God, my God, why hast thou forsaken m e!’ ” (p. 4 1 ) . Quite apart from the fact that
the Catholic Church does not hesitate to remind her faithful of this cry— it is part
of her liturgy— the cry is not "the final words of Jesus.” To suppress "It is con
summated” (Jn 19 :3 0 ) and "Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit” (Lk
2 3:4 6 ) is to destroy the meaning of the cry and to give to the reader unfamiliar
with the Passion an entirely false impression, though even such a reader ought to
realize that the cry was not uttered in despair. For is it likely that any man in despair
would turn to heaven and say the loving words "M y God, my God” ?
97. Intuitions pre-chretiennes, p. 1 3 1 .
eternal cry: ‘M y God, why hast thou forsaken m e?’ ” 98 In order to

understand her answer, we must look again at her philosophy of crea
tion. Here are some excerpts from her American diary:
Even before the Passion, already in the act of creation, God empties
Himself of His divinity, humbles Himself, takes the form of a slave.
For God, creation did not consist of extending Himself but of with
drawing Himself. . . . The creation, the Passion, the Eucharist— always
the same movement of retreat. This movement is love.
Gods great crime against us is having created us; it is that we exist.
Our great crime against God is our existence. When we forgive God our
existence, our existence is forgiven by God.
The Passion is the punishment for the creation. The creation is a trap
where the devil catches God. God falls into it through love. . . . Faith is
believing that God is love and nothing else. This is not yet the right ex
pression. Faith is believing that reality is love and nothing else. As a child,
in jest, hides himself from his mother behind a chair, so God amuses
Himself by separating God from creation. We are this jest of God.
Our sin is the will to be, and our punishment is the belief that we are.
The expiation is the will to be no longer; and salvation for us consists in
seeing that we are not. Adam made us believe that we are; Christ showed
us that we are not. To make us understand that we are not-being, God
made Himself not-being.
The prodigal son demands of his father the share that falls to him,
and then squanders it in loose living. . . . This share is free will. . . .
*Give me my share/’ this is original sin. Give me free will, the choice of
good and evil. This gift of free will, what is it if not creation itself? What
from the viewpoint of God is creation, is sin from the viewpoint of the
creature.
In what sense has Christ atoned for mankind? To atone is to restore
what one has taken unjustly. Mankind stole free will, the choice of good
and evil. Christ gave it back in learning obedience. Birth is a participation
in the theft of Adam. Death is a participation in the restitution of Christ.
But this participation does not save unless it is consented to. Salvation is
consenting to die.
My existence is a lessening of God’s glory. God gives it to me that I

may desire to lose it."
98. Ibid.
99. La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 14 , 26, 2 25 -2 2 6 , 222, 17 5 , 16 7 - 16 8 , 169,
I find it painful to read and write down these words, so completely

divorced from all biblical faith. They are gnosticism in all its deceiving
glamour,100 with every tie to Judaeo-Christian wisdom gone. Gone is
God’s majesty, the God who speaks, and earth and hearts tremble;
gone the God of whom St. Paul said, and it was in Athens that he
spoke: "H e is not far from any one of us, for in Him we live and move
and have our being” (A c 1 7 : 2 7 - 2 8 ) . Gone is the world that God not
only made but sustains with loving power, the heavens and the earth
which He beheld and which were good in His sight and forever sing
His glory. Gone is the dignity of man, whom the Church’s liturgy pro
claims as "marvelously created and ennobled, and even more marvel
ously renewed.” Gone also the meaning of time rooted in eternity, of
"timeless time” (P eg u y ); for Simone W eil time and space are hardly
more than the stage for man’s disappearance.
The whole of the Old and N ew Testaments cries out against her
many confusions. She tries in some way to reconcile the irreconcilable,
Moses and Mani,101 and so makes the Lord, the All-Ruler, to whom is
and 13 2 . In defense of Simone W eil’s “ W e are not-being,” some writers invoke

St. Catherine of Siena’s “ I am she who is not, and thou art He who is.” But this
comparison is no more substantial than that with St. John of the Cross. The double-
edged knowledge of God and self (B l. Angela of Foligno’s “ double abyss” ) was in
deed a recurrent theme with St. Catherine. “ Thou art life, eternal God, and I am
death. Thou art light and I am darkness. Thou art infinite and I am finite,” she
prayed, a lover’s way of saying that her being is from Him and that whatever good
ness and wisdom there is in her is from Him. This is not my interpretation, for here
is another of her prayers: “ In thy nature, eternal God, I perceive my own nature.
And what is my nature? My nature is fire.” W hat a world of difference, too, between
Simone W eil’s and her vision of creation! “ Eternal Father, how came it to pass that
thou didst create us?” St. Catherine asked. “ The fire [of thy love] compelled thee
. . . thou didst not look upon the offense we would cause thee. . . . Thou didst
remain in charity, for thou art nothing but the fire of charity, thou art mad with
love of thy creation.” (From various Letters and Prayers of St. Catherine, as quoted
by Johannes Jorgensen, Saint Catherine of Siena, trans. by Ingeborg Lund, New
York: Longmans, Green and Co., 1944, pp* 302, 375, 369, and 3 4 1.)
100. One of the first to point out the gnostic element in Simone W eil was Pere
Robert Rouquette, S.J., in his “ Mystere de Simone W eil,” Etudes, L X X X IV , 268
(Jan.-M arch 1 9 5 1 ) , pp. 8 8 -10 6 . Marcel More, in "La Pensee religieuse de Simone
W eil,” D ieu Vivant, No. 17 ( 1 9 5 0 ) , pp. 35-68, has shown certain parallels between
Simone W eil and the Cathari, but in trying to present her as a conscious and willful
heretic, he has, I fear, overstated his case. However wrong her thought, her sincerity,
I think, cannot be doubted.
1 0 1 . Lest any reader think that I am imputing intentions to Simone W eil that
were not her own, I quote from her Letter to a Priest, in which she writes: “ There
is not, as far as I can see, any real difference— save in the forms of expression— be
tween the Manichaean and Christian conceptions concerning the relationship between
good and evil” (p. 4 1 ) . To speak only of their basic tenet: According to the
glory and honor and power because He has created all things (Apoc
4:8, 1 1 ), a victim of the devil. Again, not only does she identify man’s
existence and man’s sin, she misinterprets the gift of freedom as if it
were essentially its abuse. Blinded to the fact that freedom is the very
life and the idiom of a thinking being who cleaves to the good, she can
not see that what makes man God’s likeness is his response-ability, that
he is answerable for his life because he is spoken to by God and given
the awesome power to answer. Her confusion goes further still, for
she does not see how absurd it is to call freedom man’s theft, which is
the same as saying that he was free before he was free, that he is before
he is. N or does she seem to feel the enormity of speaking in one breath
of God’s love and of His crime in having created man. Thus all is dis
carded, God’s dignity and man’s, and all, it seems, for the sake of the
void, which looks so much like the pagan nightmare of primeval chaos.
W hy? One cannot help wonder, W hy?
But one is not astonished that, having started on this road, Simone
W eil followed it with relentless logic. And yet one shudders to read a
prayer of hers, in which she equates her own idea of "decreation” with
the following of Christ, and so asks for an utter stripping, not of self
ishness but of her very existence. "Say to God,” she wrote in her Am er
ican diary:
Father, in the name of Christ, grant me this.

That it be beyond my power to make any movement of my body, even
the merest attempt at movement, correspond to any act of my will, as if I
were a complete paralytic. That I be incapable of receiving the slightest
sensation, like one who is completely blind and deaf and deprived of his
other three senses. That it be beyond my power to forge the least link
between two thoughts, however simple, as if I were one of those complete
idiots who not only cannot count or read but who have never learned to
speak. That I be insensible to any kind of pain or joy and incapable of
any love for any being, for any thing, even for myself, as if I were an
old man, completely doddered.
Father, in the name of Christ, really grant me all this.
That this body of mine move or be still, with perfect suppleness ot
Manichaeans, there are two eternal principles, light and darkness. The god of light,
good and holy, is the maker of the spiritual world, whereas darkness is the maker of
matter and made it like itself, evil. It is against this doctrine that the Church pro
claims in her creed her belief in God the All-Maker, Creator of heaven and earth,
of spirit and matter, of all things visible and invisible. Could there be a greater
clash of doctrines?
rigidity, in uninterrupted conformity with thy will. That my hearing, my

vision, my taste, my smell, my touch, receive the perfect and exact im
print of thy creation. That this intelligence of mine be fully lucid and
link up all ideas in perfect conformity with thy truth. That my sensibility
experience every shade of pain and joy in the greatest possible intensity
and in all their purity. That my love be an utterly devouring flame of
loving God for the sake of God. That then all this be torn out of me, be
devoured by God, be transformed into the substance of Christ, and be
given as food to the wretched who lack all nourishment for body and soul.
And that I myself be paralyzed, blind, deaf, idiotic, and doddering.
Father, work this transformation now, in the name of Christ. And
though I ask it with an imperfect faith, give heed to my petition as if it
were uttered with perfect faith.
Father, since thou art the Good and I am the mediocre, wrest from me
this body and this soul to make them things that are all thine. And let
there remain of me, even through eternity, only this wresting itself, or
even nothing.
One could ask this, she went on to say, only in spite of oneself. But if,
in spite of oneself, it is asked with entire and unreserved consent, in
deed with violence, then the soul enters into its nuptial night with God,
for, she said, "marriage is a rape consented to.” And the result of this
union is "to make of the personhood of a man a simple go-between for
his flesh and God.” 102 Here, of course, the bridal imagery so dear to
the author of the Song of Songs, to the prophets, to St. Paul, and to
Christ Himself, is perverted, for it is not the way of God’s love (nor is
10 2. La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 204 -205; see also Davy, The Mysticism
of Simone Weil, pp. 52-54 . The idea of personhood seems to have frightened
Simone W eil. A ll through her writings there are passages which refer to God as
personal and impersonal. Some have thought that when she said "impersonal” she
really meant "suprapersonal,” for God is indeed everything He is superabundantly.
It is difficult, however, to attach such an interpretation to the following sentence:
"The Father in heaven, who abandons His Son and keeps silent; the Christ aban
doned, nailed in silence— two impersonal Divinities which are reflected each in the
other and make only one God” (La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 7 8 ). In any case,
she leaves no room for doubt that human personhood must go, and calls not our
personhood but its renunciation the image of God in us (ibid., p. 3 7 ) . "The great
obstacle,” she wrote, "to the loss of personhood” (which loss she called "the goal” )
"is the feeling of guilt.” The practice of virtue, she added, is for the sake of ridding
oneself of this feeling and so attaining this "goal” — not for the sake of coming closer
to the word which God speaks at the birth of each man, that is, of becoming more a
person, but for the sake of becoming less (ibid., p. 16 5 ) . Further: W hat is sacred
in man is the impersonal aspect in a human being, hence the concept of human
rights is specious ("Beyond Personalism,” Cross Currents, II, 3, Spring 19 5 2 ,
pp . 59-76).
it the way of m an's) to violate and to trample underfoot man's being,

rather to lift it up and make it new.
W hat Simone W eil asked in her prayer is something that can never
be asked in the name of Christ. The road she walks in it is not His road,
which leads to transfiguration and not to nothingness. But she held
unfeignedly that the man striving for perfection must become a corpse,
as it were, in order to be the abode of the Divine, for only inert matter
— "more beautiful than the most beautiful of human beings” 103— re
sponds, she said, to God’s justice. This thought is bound up with her
conception that the human soul consists of two parts: one created,
mind and will, which, in creating, God abandoned, since it is not Him
self; the other uncreated, which, being Himself, He retains under His
care and which for Simone W eil is supernatural love, or "the Life,
the Light, the W ord . . . the presence of God's only Son here be
low.” 104 Those in whom He is thus present are "not adopted sons of
God,” she declared with great emphasis, "but true sons. Y et the Son is
unique,” she went on in her speculation, and "it is therefore He who
enters these souls. But in that case even the greatest saints w ill not see
the kingdom of heaven. For almost all have done or said things which,
it seems, Christ would not have said or done.” She continued with what
for one who has had even a glimpse of Christ is unbelievable despair:
"A fter all, there is perhaps only one man saved in a generation. For the
others, those who are not positively lost, one must imagine something
equivalent to the notions of purgatory, reincarnation, etc.” 105
Here and elsewhere Simone W eil's thought varies and is not always
consistent on small points; still, as a whole, her philosophy is altogether
consistent, and it is— I cannot see how one can draw any other con
clusion— as far removed as can be from the teaching of the Church,
indeed from any outlook which, by even the most strenuous stretching
of the term, can be called Christian. W hen she said that she adhered
completely to the mysteries of the Christian faith, this profession is
emptied of meaning by her having added that her adherence was of
love and not of affirmation, and that the dogmas of the Church are
owed "respectful attention, not adherence.” 106 Likewise her saying that
her heart had been forever transported into the Blessed Sacrament— so
10 3 . La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 260.
10 4. Ibid., p. 49.
10 5 . Ibid., pp. 18 2 - 18 3 .
106. Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., p. 53; Letter to a Priest, pp. 57, 60,
convincing when read by itself— does not have the meaning a Catholic
would attach to it, since Simone W eil thought that for the Greeks the
Eleusinian mysteries, for the Hindus yoga breathing, for Druids and
certain Californian Indians lightning, were also more or less sacra
ments, even the equivalent of the Eucharist.107 Few things reveal more
subtly that her thought, at least, was nowhere near the threshold of the
Church than her turning the eucharistic mystery upside down. She liked
to say that "at the center of the Catholic religion a little formless mat
ter is found, a little piece of bread.” 108 The truth is exactly the opposite:
Christ is die center. In the sacramental order, the world of the spirit is
not reduced to matter; on the contrary, matter is raised to become the
server of grace; it is freed as it were from down-drag, made the bearer
of the Spirit, and in the Sacrament of the Altar it is the merest veil for
the Christ of glory. N o sacrament of decreation, the Eucharist is the
hallowing of man and of all creation.
ISRAEL
Having all along misconstrued the mysteries of faith, Simone W eil

had to misunderstand, even rebel against, the God-given mission of the
ancient Israel. "The Jew s, that little bunch of uprooted men, have
caused the uprooting of the whole round globe,” she wrote. Christi
anity, through its link with Israel’s past, was thus for her a thing with
out roots, roots, that is, in the life of the nations. Colonial conquest,
capitalism, Marxism, even anri-Semitism, every uprooting movement,
she made follow on the spiritual invasion of the world by this handful
of "fugitive slaves.” Again she wrote: "Israel. The whole of it, starting
from Abraham and including him, is foul and atrocious, as if by design
(except for some prophets). As if to tell as clearly as can be: W atch
out! Here is ev il!” 109 Her vocabulary here is borrowed from the
crudest anti-Semitism, from the vilifications of those who make the Jew s
a whipping boy for their own sins. But in Simone W eil they were the
merest logic. How could she help hating the intimate of the one God,
10 7. Letter to a Priest, p. 16 ; La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 3 1 3 , 146.

109. La Pesanteur et la grace (Paris: Librairie Plon, 19 4 8 ), pp. 19 2 , 18 9 ; see
also Gravity and Grace, p. 2 19 . Gravity and Grace, the English translation of La
Pesanteur et la grace, omits a whole chapter, entitled "Israel,” containing this and
many similar passages. N o doubt, the publishers wished to spare the sensibilities
of their readers, and not least those of Simone W eil’s admirers. But does not such an
omission misrepresent Simone W eil’s thought?
who allows no other gods beside Him? Though often sinning, stiff
necked, and unfaithful, Israel was yet chosen to be His champion, and
so, by this its role in the economy of salvation, rejects everything she
stands for and stands for everything she rejects.
H aving made her own image of God, a silent, absent God, Simone
W eil could not hear the God of Israel, the God who speaks and who
says:
Can a woman forget her suckling babe,

be without compassion for the child of her womb?
Even these may forget,
yet I will not forget you.
(Is 4 9 :15 )
H e is the people's and the world's Ruler, Shepherd, Bridegroom, whose

prophets knew they served a Sovereign, loving and therefore jealous.
They loathed compromise, the carrying of water on both shoulders;
they denounced idolatrous wanderings to hilltops and groves. And as
they were compassionate, they were severe, threatening punishment,
invoking G od’s fire on those who whored after new and false gods,
Elijah even slaying the four hundred and fifty prophets of Baal. A ll
this galled Simone W eil. “ The curse of Israel weighs on Christianity.
Atrocities, the Inquisition, the extermination of heretics and unbeliev
ers— this is Israe l,"110 she cried out. It is true, the Church is the heir
of prophetic anger, indeed the only one to keep it alive, though for her
the slaying of the wicked is not and can never be the answer to evil,
nor was it the ultimate answer for the prophets; even Elijah realized
that God was not in the fire or the storm but in the gentle whisper of
air. For the Church the Cross is the final word, but love and forgiveness
are perverted unless they are seen as the love and forgiveness of the
God who is stern because holy.
The true God is Simone W eil’s stumbling block and not the Jews,
not those Christians who have forgotten forbearance toward unbeliev
ers, who have thought to solve evil by the sword and not the Cross.
“ Christianity has become totalitarian, conquering, exterminating, be
cause it has not developed the notion of G od’s absence and nonaction
here below. It has attached itself to Yahweh as much as to C hrist,"111
she wrote, and heaped abuse on the God of Israel as a “carnal God,"
n o . La Pesanteur et la grace, p. 190.
h i . Ibid., p. 189.
a "tribal God/’ a "heavy God.” 112 D eaf to the blasphemy she uttered,
she did not tremble to say that "Yahw eh, Allah, Hitler, are earthly
gods,” that the devil "who offered to Christ to accomplish for Him
the centuries-old promises to the Messiah was none other than
Yahweh,” or at least "an aspect of Yahweh.” 113 Only because she was
herself a "fugitive,” utterly homeless, could she equate the prophecies
of the advent and the temptations in the desert, could she mistake the
cosmic visions of the Old Testament for worldliness and materialism.
For all her repeated "waiting, waiting,” Simone W eil lacked essen
tial patience and reverence for time: time to her was not a gift but
misery.114 Tellingly she demanded: "W e must get rid of our supersti
tion of chronology in order to find eternity.” 115 The God who does not
disdain time, who enters it as it were that man may meet Him, over
turned her concept of life, and therefore she rejected the marvel of a
progressive revelation, in which God made Him self known to His
people step by step, leading it to that mount which is Christ.116 She
could not see that Israel’s swinging back and forth between splendor
and slavery, between virtue and sin, holy zeal and idolatry, that the
dramatic interplay between grace and freedom, was part of a divine
plan. In fact she sneered at God’s bringing up Israel as one does a son:
"To talk of 'God the educator’ in connection with this people is a bad
joke . . . a shocking lie which has vitiated our civilization at its
11 2 . Ibid., pp. 18 9 -19 0 ; Gravity and Grace, p. 2 19 .
1 1 3 . Gravity and Grace, p. 12 9 ; La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 273, 46. For a
Catholic, Israel’s divine election is not a matter of opinion but of faith, and the God
of Israel is his God. It is astonishing, therefore, or rather distressing, to see how
lightly many of Simone W eil’s friends and critics have treated her outbursts against
the Jews. Gustave Thibon simply calls her "the daughter of the people marked with
the sign of contradiction . . . and her passionate anti-Semitism is the most striking
evidence of her descent" (Perrin and Thibon, op. cit., p. 1 1 9 ) . Gabriel Marcel sees
her as "non-conformist . . . very far from sparing her co-religionists’’ ("Sim one
Weil,” The Month, II, 1, Ju ly 1949, p- 1 2 ) . W alter Warnach speaks of "the fanati
cism of a renegade who rages against her own origin” ("Sim one W eil: Das Geheim-
nis einer Berufung,” Wort und Wahrheit, V III, 10 , Oct. 19 5 3 , p. 7 4 9 ). A ll this
evades the issue, where it does not distort it. T. S. Eliot, who recognizes clearly that
Simone W eil "falls into something very like the Marcionite heresy,” can yet say that
she "castigated Israel with all the severity of a Hebrew prophet” (in his Preface
to The N eed for Roots, p. v iii). There was nothing of the Hebrew prophet in
Simone W eil, for his severity is of love, but not so hers. The critic who has dealt
most fully and most admirably with Simone W eil’s stand toward Israel is Charles
Moeller in "Simone W eil devant l’Eglise et l’Ancien Testament,” Cahiers Sioniens,
VI, 2 (June 19 5 2 ) , pp. 1 0 4 - 1 3 1 .
114 . La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 92.
1 1 5 . Letter to a Priest, p. 48.
116 . Collect for the feast of St. Catherine of Alexandria.
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base.” 117 Nothing easier than to be shocked at the many crimes the
Bible records, for in contrast to pagan historians, the sacred writers did
not idolize their people; with a candor that transcends the natural
tendency to conceal, they laid bare its faults and the weaknesses of its
great figures. Nothing easier, but nothing more revealing, for the Bible
tests every man: if he looks at Israel’s many failures and does not see
in them his own, he has not undergone the change of heart Christ
demands, his self still reigns where God ought to reign. In the same
light must be judged Simone W eil’s pronouncement: "A people chosen
for blindness, chosen to be the executioners of Christ.” 118 Whoever sees
the Crucified and then points at the Jew s instead of striking his own
breast is far from His spirit. Indeed, if a man should dare to deny his
own part in Christ’s death, he is in danger of denying himself his part
in His redemption.
Without doubt, Simone W eil’s chief accusation against Israel is that
its whole life was worship of the Great Beast, service of the collective,
to her the only real idolatry; what made it accursed in her eyes was that
"never till the Exile,” so she thought, did its God "speak to the soul
of man.” 119 This, of course, is patently untrue. Did He not speak to
Abraham, to Moses, to Samuel, and to many others; and when He gave
the Law, saying "Thou shalt,” was the "thou” not every member as
well as the whole people? Stripped of their vituperation, her remarks
point to a truth she saw and did not see, a truth the Church lives by:
that salvation is social. It is not as isolated individuals, not as shreds or
splinters, that men are saved, but as members of God’s people or at
least as linked to it by faith and love. For how could there be salvation
without the bond of charity? This, and not the Great Beast, is the
significance of "Israel,” and this the Church has inherited, so much so
that Pere de Lubac can say that though her membership comes over
whelmingly from the nations, the very idea of the Church comes from
the Jew s.120 Thus during the Easter V igil, before she blesses the waters
1 17 . La Pesanteur et la grace, pp. 18 9 -19 0 .
1 1 8 . Ibid,, p. 19 2.
1 1 9 . Ibid., p. 189 ; Gravity and Grace, pp. 2 19 , 216 .
120 . Henri de Lubac, S.J., Catholicism, trans. by L. C. Sheppard (New York:
Longmans, Green, 19 5 0 ) , p. 23. For a Jewish answer to Simone W eil’s accusation
against Israel, see Martin Buber, "The Silent Question,” in his At the Turning
(N ew Y ork: Farrar, Straus and Young, 19 5 2 ) , pp. 29-44. Strangely enough, Buber
seems to blame her antagonism toward the Jews on "a conventional conception of
Judaism created by Christianity” (p. 4 0 ). But surely he knows that the Church has
always considered the Marcionite divorce of the Old and New Testaments one of her
of baptism, the Church prays: "Grant that the world in its fullness pass
over to the sonship of Abraham and the dignity of Israel.” To which
Simone W eil replies: "Christianity ought to be purged of the heritage
of Israel.” 121
It was not as men that she hated the Jews, but as symbols. The Old
Testament stood in her way like the mighty trunk of an oak, which
she could not bend, while the N ew , its crown, with branches supple
and leaves tender, seemed to yield to her manipulations.122 Thus she
could at times think herself close to the Church, but can any question
remain that the sum of her philosophy is altogether outside the Chris
tian orbit? It is even a betrayal of her own best insights, of, for ex
ample, this inimitable sentence: "G od loves not as I love but as an
emerald is green. He is T love/ ” 123
E N IG M A
St a t in gthe enigma does not solve it, does not explain the origin of
this strange philosophy of negation. Many have shown its historical
antecedents, but no reference, however valid, to Plato or Pythagoras,
to the Manichaeans or the Cathari, accounts for Simone W eil’s gnosti
cism, for "gnosticism projects into myth one’s inner experience.” 124 It is
always the turning into metaphysics of an emotional conflict, of a
drama that engulfs a man’s whole being; in it a man mistakes the mold
of his heart for the mold of the universe.
W hat then is the inner source of Simone W eil’s thought? How does
greatest enemies. And as if to round out the confusion Simone W eil has caused,
Fiedler, after a clear account of her anti-Semitism, claims her as "a Jewish heretic
rather than a Christian one,” and calls her a "prophet out of Israel” with Hosea, the
holy fool, as her spiritual ancestor. See his Commentary article, pp. 4 5-46 .
1 2 1 . La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 17 3 .
12 2 . Simone W eil’s attempt to make certain parts of the Old Testament fit her
frame of mind shows once more that she could not free herself from her fetters.
Nothing good must be said about the Jews; therefore she fancied that the book of
Job, which she liked, must have been the translation and secularization by a Jew of
a non-Jewish tale of a savior-god. Also Isaiah must be in part non-Jewish (La
Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 2 1 8 ) . To climax this, she asked whether the story of
Noah’s drunkenness and nakedness— another sign of biblical candor— was not a
distortion of history by the Hebrews "as Semites and murderers of the Canaanites”
(Letter to a Priest, p. 4 1 ) .
124. G. Quispel, Gnosis als W eltreligion ( 1 9 5 1 ) , p. 17 ; as quoted by Claude
Tresmontant, Etudes de metaphysique hihlique (Paris: Gabalda, 1 9 5 5 ) , p. 16.
it come that a woman so profoundly drawn to the Lord yet remained

so far from Him? W hy did she not accept the entire Christ? W hy did
she try to impoverish His messianic ministry by limiting it almost to
the Passion, and why did she reduce the Passion to hardly more than
the cry, "M y God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me” ? W hy did
she wish, at least at times, that Christ had not risen, that He were
without His Church, that He were without link to the Israel from
which He sprang? W hy did she wish to remain at the intersection of
Christianity and non-Christianity, all alone? Again, why did she con
ceive of God as withdrawn from, and powerless in, His creation? W hy
did the world seem to her to be ruled by necessity and down-drag?
W hy did she long to be reduced to a little pile of inert matter, even to
nothingness, and think humility the consent to the horror of such re
duction? 125 W hy did she prefer the impersonal to the personal, afflic
tion to G o d s comfort, death to life? W hy did she proclaim decreation
as the goal?
I should hesitate to answer these questions and to probe into the
secrets of her soul had Simone W eil herself not told us, almost in so
many words, how determining an experience the spiritual crisis was
that she went through at the age of fourteen. As she discovered the
mathematical genius of her brother, she felt dwarfed and excluded
from the kingdom of truth; she thought herself unworthy to exist. Her
brother’s exceptional gifts threw her, as she tells us, "into one of those
bottomless despairs of adolescence.” There were months of "inward
darkness,” of deep anguish, which no one can imagine who has not
lived through it. "Seriously” she "thought of dying.” 126 This temptation
to suicide she repressed, but did she ever fully conquer it? W hat saved
her from it was the idea that it was still possible for her, in spite of
her "mediocrity,” to become a genius if only she concentrated perpetu
ally on, and gave her undivided attention to, truth.
Little by little, then, she developed a philosophy that was certainly
uncommon and had sparks of genius; but it retained all the darkness of
its birth. Into it went the unworthiness, the dwarfdom and reduction
she had imagined. She had felt deserted and alone; now she wanted to
be and considered it a virtue. The social seemed evil, the Great Beast.
Absence, distance, withdrawal— all guises for her despair— became the

The Enigma of Simone Weil *57
structure of the universe. She had been tormented by the allurement

of death; now she could die slowly and heroically. Hence her desire to
be submerged in the mechanism and anonymity of factory life, to be
mutilated and branded by the iron of misery, to bear the mark of a
slave.127 Hence her passion for manual labor: 'Through work man
turns himself into matter,” she wrote. "W ork is like a death.” Hence
too her passion for "absolute solitude,” for "unconsoled affliction.” She
could hardly have been more candid than when she remarked: "Tw o
ways of killing ourselves: suicide or detachment.” 128 It would be rash
to judge her, for no one can know how strong all those early impulses
were and how they may have hindered her vision and imprisoned her
will. Only a hard man could withhold from her his compassion. But
as she deserves compassion, she deserves our honesty too. And in hon
esty one cannot but see and say that, though she may never have fully
realized it, her philosophy was a holding on to the pain of her youth, a
longspun suicide.129 W hat disturbed her early life, what bent her
thought, also injured her spirituality; and she spelled it out in her
"Spiritual Autobiography” when she closed it with the strangest of all
confessions: "Every time I think of the crucifixion of Christ I commit
the sin of envy.” 130 Envy and death; worse, to envy Christ His death
— what could reveal more clearly and more depressingly her still un
redeemed heart?
In this her anguished heart was her philosophy born. True, she is not
the only one in our day to have fallen under the unnatural spell of
death. The poets who hail the void, the philosophers who make man
move from nothingness to nothingness, are not few and their followers
are many; and among them, all that is night is preferred to the light
of day. Simone W eil certainly knew this mental atmosphere, but there
is little or no evidence that it was the origin of her philosophy. In fact,
she was violently opposed to some of the men who were the authors
of this climate. But in spite of all the many and important differences
between her and them, in spite of her many exceptional qualities, she
is still somehow one with them. For so much is hope "the very stuff of
12 7. Cf. ibid., pp. 66-67, 1 1 7 , 120 .
128. Gravity and Grace, pp. 235, 57, 60.
129. Nothing reveals more sadly how bitter the world had turned for her and
how she turned all into bitterness than this entry in her diary: "Christ’s birth was
already a sacrifice. Christmas ought to be a feast as sorrowful as Good Friday” {La
Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 16 9 - 1 7 0 ) .
which our soul is made” (Gabriel M arcel), so much is despair a be

trayal of man’s freedom, that who abandons the first and woos the
second must pay a penalty: Simone W eil, who sought to flee time,
produced only a philosophy that is dated.
A dark fabric woven of subtle despair— such is Simone W eil’s
thought. And yet for all her shielding herself against love, for all her
resistance to happiness, indeed to the joy of Christ, she could not help
longing. W hile still in Marseilles she wrote a parable of her life, which
has been called the parable of ’lo v e wedded to affliction” and which
forms the Prologue to her N ew Y o rk and London diaries:
He entered my room and said: “Wretched one, who understands

nothing, who knows nothing. Come with me and I shall teach you things
you do not dream of.” I followed him. He took me to a church. . . . He
led me up to the altar and said to me: “Kneel down.” I said to him: “I
have not been baptized.” He said: “Fall on your knees with love before
this place, as before the abode of truth.” I obeyed. He made me leave
and go off to an attic from which, through the open window, one saw the
whole town spread out. . . . He bade me sit down. We were alone. He
spoke. Occasionally someone entered, joined the conversation, then left.
. . . Sometimes he would fall silent, taking bread from a cupboard, which
we shared. This bread truly had the taste of bread. Never again have I
tasted anything like it. He would pour for me and pour for himself wine
which had the taste of the sun and of the earth upon which that city was
built.
But one day he— the man of this parable is none other than Christ—
made her leave, though she fell on her knees, held him, and begged
him not to drive her out. She wandered about the city, never knowing
where the attic was and never seeking it, for she felt that it had all been
a mistake, that her place was almost anywhere but there. Thus sorrow
seems to be the parable’s last word, but in the end hope breaks in:
I cannot help at times repeating to myself, with fear and remorse, a

little of what he told me. How do I know whether I remember it exactly?
He is not here to tell me. I know well that he does not love me. How
could he love me? And yet, deep within me, something, a point of my
soul, cannot resist thinking, though I tremble with fear, that perhaps, in
spite of everything, he loves me.131
1 3 1. La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 9 -10 .

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TH E ENIGM A OF SIMONE W EIL

A SPE C IA L exemplar of sanctity for our time— the Outsider as

pursued by a sense of failure. Once as a child, already eager for bur­

root of her effort to do away with whatever in her physical appearance

Despite her lasting fear of mediocrity, Simone W eil did excep­

After my year in the factory . . . I was, as it were, in pieces, soul and

That her strength had not measured up to life as a factory worker

19 . Waiting for God, p. 12 4 .

home to recover from her burns and humiliation.21 N ot long after­

H oly W eek of 19 3 8 the twenty-nine-year-old Simone W eil passed

Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew hack,

"A guest ” I answer’d, "worthy to be here”:

(!Truth Lord, but I have marr’d them: let my shame

24. Ibid., pp. 1 0 1 ,9 2 .

In N ew Y ork, her compassion went out to the Negroes of Harlem;

GOD, G R A V ITY, AN D GRACE

"Thy kingdom come,” Simone W eil prayed, but explained it to mean:

39. Waiting for God, p. 14 5.

If only I knew how to disappear, there would be a perfect union of

And death, robbing my eyes of then light,

42. Gravity and Grace, pp. 88-89.

such is the good news: N o other frame, no other continuum, is needed

44. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 92; see Waiting for God, pp. 1 3 5 - 1 3 6 .

Now, if one remembers that it is Christ who determines what Chris­

CHRIST C R U C IFIED AN D R ISE N

84. La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 13 .

to absolute solitude. Only then do we possess the truth of the

87. Gravity and Grace, pp. 5 7 -6 1.

I am like water poured out;

eternal cry: ‘M y God, why hast thou forsaken m e?’ ” 98 In order to

My existence is a lessening of God’s glory. God gives it to me that I

I find it painful to read and write down these words, so completely

and 13 2 . In defense of Simone W eil’s “ W e are not-being,” some writers invoke

Father, in the name of Christ, grant me this.

rigidity, in uninterrupted conformity with thy will. That my hearing, my

it the way of m an's) to violate and to trample underfoot man's being,

Having all along misconstrued the mysteries of faith, Simone W eil

10 7. Letter to a Priest, p. 16 ; La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 3 1 3 , 146.

Can a woman forget her suckling babe,

H e is the people's and the world's Ruler, Shepherd, Bridegroom, whose

it come that a woman so profoundly drawn to the Lord yet remained

12 5 . La Connaissance surnaturelle, p. 48.

structure of the universe. She had been tormented by the allurement

which our soul is made” (Gabriel M arcel), so much is despair a be­

He entered my room and said: “Wretched one, who understands

I cannot help at times repeating to myself, with fear and remorse, a

1 3 1. La Connaissance surnaturelle, pp. 9 -10 .

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