Chapter 1.

LUKA
I don't remember when one look became interest
i don't remember when the interest became attraction
i don't remember when the attraction became even more
a lot more
and i still don't remember how
but it just happened
i don't even know if thats it or is just my imagination
i don't remember when i started to feel this way
maybe….
maybe it 's that….
maybe….
I'm in love….
with a guy

oh my god.
i never thought that i have good luck,but, to my liking, god was at my side this
time.Vacations were close and anxiety has been eating me because vacation meant going
back home.I didn't want to go back with that monster that i have to denominate as
“father”.But, he just texted me literally three minutes ago saying that he couldn't afford me
going back,because of the tickets, food and whatever.I already knew that he just spended
everything in alcohol but for the first time i'm grateful for that.

I was laying on my bed when the notice came, and as always, the first thing I did was calling
my best friend.When i said the news he was also happy,he invited me to his room so we
could talk more.

With that said, I packed my pills, headphones, charger and my violin before I left my room.
When I found room 207,someone approached me,he had long red hair and he kinda looked
like a prince.I had seen him somewhere but i can't recall it.”ummm, excuse me but is this
Aiden´s bedroom?”he asked and i simply responded”yes, wait a minute”i knocked the door
and it quickly opened”Luka”when he looked up to the taller man he frooze.I sighted “you
forgot the project?”the boy asked”no, i didn't, but i forgot that we were meeting
today,sorry.You can come in”.

When i threw myself in the bed, i remembered who the boy was.He was part of the
basketball team with…well…Noah.You could say that the boy was kinda like a rival to my
best friend Aiden, they always fight to be the first place but is very hilarious how they always
end together in projects and,well, everything .It's not that they don't like each other, the thing
is that they always compete and that's when they hate each other, outside classes, they
could cohabite like normal persons without having to think about betting the other one.

I personally ship them, but whenever I say it Aiden would freak out so I decided to keep
those thoughts to myself.While they were “doing the project”(fighting for everything) I just
scrolled through my phone while listening to music.
After a while I saw Aiden stretching and the boy sighting landing her head on the table.The
image was funnier than expected.”finally!Dylan, are you staying more or are you going?”Oh,
so that was the boy's name.”i think that i might stay for a bit if it's not a burden, can i invite a
friend though?””of course”He turned to me”sorry for making you wait but now you have me
all to yourself so..what were you going to say before?”I jumped”I'm staying for
vacations!””That's wonderful!”Dylan looked at us”both of you are staying?”yeah,how about
you?”My friend asked”I'm also staying. Did you text your friend already?”he nodded
“he should come soon””alright”after i answered, we continued to talk about non relevant
things for almost five minutes more before someone knocked the door.

Aiden went to open and when I heard the greetings…oh my, I could perfectly recognize that
voice.
It was Noah.

I don't remember when one look became interest

i don't remember when the interest became attraction
i don't remember when the attraction became even more
a lot more
and i still don't remember how
but it just happened
i don't even know if thats it or is just my imagination
i don't remember when i started to feel this way
maybe….
maybe it 's that….
maybe….
I'm in love….
with a guy

I replayed my thoughts at least one hundred time before they entered the room,and god, he
was too handsome to exist i swear.After greeting Dylan he approached me and..HE
SMILED.”hello”my heart was about to explode”hi…””do you mind if i sit next to you?””it's
okay”i moved to the side and gave space for him,he sat down and our knees were touching,
he looked like he didn't notice, but i did, and i was even sweating from the nerves.

Aiden sat beside Dylan and he looked at me with an amused look.I cursed in my mind.They
kept talking while i was in my phone, rarely contributing but still, i was listening.A ping
sounded”sorry,i got a message”Noah explained.When he checked his phone,his expression
turned to an angrier one”your girlfriend again?”Dylan asked and he nodded in response

My world trembeled down.Right…I forgot that he had a girlfriend, one much better than
me.”boy, should break up with her already ””its not that easy”it looked like their relationship
wasnt good, i had a bit of hope then.When i was about to continue looking at my
phone,Aiden had messaged me “your pills” it said.Fuck, i forgot, when i looked the hour, just
five minuted late, nothing serious.

I rushed to get my bag and a bottle of water, Aiden always had one just in case. While I was
being super cautious so they wouldn't see me, I took my medicine as fast as I could.I sat
down again and I continued to be with my phone”Y´know they are staying for vacation as
well?When It starts, the rooms are gonna change”Said Dylan”Really?how?”Aiden asked”we
are getting more students each year so the rooms are gonna be by pairs instead .”It
surprised me but i was getting too tired because of the medicine so i started to pack my
things”are you going ?”Noah asked,”Yeah, bye.”I was getting dizzy and I couldn't formulate a
complete answer.”Do you want me to go with you?”Aiden asked”its okay, i'll head alone”

I rushed to my bedroom and when I arrived, I went to sleep. It was the third day I skipped
dinner, but the new medication was very strong and I had to get used to it.
I woke up thinking I was gonna be late, but then I remembered it was already vacation.I
checked my phone and answered Aiden.He said that an announcement was going to be
made at 12:00 and I Had 20 minutes left soI rushed.

The announcement was about the new rooms,they gave him a number so I started packing
as soon as i cloud.

When I arrived at my new room I was really scared. What if I had an attack or a very strong
nightmare?.I entered anyway and the other person had already installed.The room had a rug
and a short table in the middle, one bed and a desk at each side with a big wardrobe.

I started to organize my things in the left part of the bedroom.I was to immerse in my own
world and when I was about to finish, the door opened and it scared the shit out of me.When
i turned around I foundedNoah laughing because of my action.

“sorry,just..give me..ah…a minute”while i was standing Noah wouldn't stop laughing.”Sorry,

you were too cute, you just looked like a cat”I was confused,a cat?.”It looks like we are
sharing a bedroom, nice to meet you again””Yeah…nice to meet you”.

I continued to do my things and he just laid on the bed scrolling through his phone.After
finishing i started to feel weird…i looked at the hour and…SHIT.
I was half an hour late with my meds and I panicked .I tried to look calm so my roommate
wouldn't suspect anything.When I found the pills, I realised that I didn't have water and the
bathroom was never an option so…I decided to take them raw.

It hurted a little bit but what was coming next was surely worst.I hide the bottles so he won't
see them and i decided to just sleep.I just had entered my bed when he asked”are gonna
sleep now?””yes…i didn't sleep very well last night so…”He smiled at me”do you want me to
wake you up at lunch time?”I thought it twice,”Okay…Thanks.”I also gave him a smile.

I couldn't formulate long phrases very well but I could feel the butterflies in my
stomach.When I was half covered with the blanket,I totally fainted.

“¡Dad!...”sobs wouldn't stop, I felt how i couldnt breath and how words wouldn't leave my
mouth.
“Shut it!”He hit me again, each time I was feeling less.
He picked me up and I was too scared to even complain.
…
…
…
I was in water.
It didn't feel bad…but I couldn't breathe.
Not even a bit.
I tried.
And failed.
I felt like I was dying and I was too scared.
I don't know how but….

I woke up covered in cold sweat…Disgusting…But…I could breath.

Then I noticed I was crying. I rubbed my eyes and tried to sleep again but the door opened.

“oh”he looked surprised”sorry, lunch time just finished, i left because you wouldn't wake up
so i thought that you really must be really tired.”He truly looked sorry”its okay,dont worry”I
was going out the bed when he handed me something.”take it, i bought something so you
could eat something, i don't know what you like so…my gut told me what to pick”I laughed
“thanks”it was a whisper but he heard it”you didn't have to””its my fault,i told you that i would
wake you up.Now eat, you should be hungry”

It was really delicious.

I was at my desk at night, i already had dinner and my pills.I was tired but not to the point of
fainting.”Luka”I turned to Noah who was at his desk as well.”Mhm?””Do you wanna watch a
movie with me?”He tilted his head to the side-Just like a dog-i thought”okay”.

He got up,”come here”I followed to his bed and he entered under the blanket leaving space
for me.I blushed and sat down by his side while he was entering Netflix on his computer.
“what do you want to see?””i'm okay with everything”-While i'm by your side-He picked a
comedy and we started watching it.

After a while, he touched the side of my head and leaned me into his shoulder while he
embraced me by my waist with the same hand.”It's more comfortable like this”-It is-My heart
was beating like crazy and i was too happy to focus on the movie.

He also supported his head on mine while I leaned more into him, at one point, I fell asleep.