i'm fleeing trans genocide in southern appalachia and i need your help.
hi, you might know me as Nate or Nel. i'm a local East Tennesseean, born in a tiny mountain town and living in Knoxville to attend school.
i love southern Appalachia more than anything in the world; i love the cool hollers in whose woods i ran barefoot as a child. i love the flora and fauna i went to school to try to protect. my heart is here.
and i have to leave. i am going to have to rip my heart out of my chest and run.
i'm visibly trans. even before i ever transitioned, when i was a small child, people called me names and hit me in public for looking gender non-conforming, even when i tried to conform. there was a small break from this once i transitioned and no one knew what trans people were, but after the trans awareness tipping point, my home has become unlivable for me. even other local trans people are flabbergasted at how much i am targeted. thanks to the media wanting a buck, everyone knows.
- a grown man try to attack me in public for being near him in a restaurant, screaming that he didn't know what i was
- a grown man run out and scream in panic because he saw me in a public restroom
- a self-identified N-zi pull a gun on me and beg him for a reason to use it
- grown men hiss "queer!" at me when i walk down the street and shove me
- coworkers harass me out of a job, even though i worked for the county, because county HR would refuse to address lgbt-phobic harassment.
- volunteers harass me at food banks while i'm trying to get my food
- ridiculous amounts of death threats and sexual harassment
all of these are because i don't pass as anything in particular in public. i just don't. whether i grow my beard out ZZ Top style or put on a dress, i'm not gonna pass as something comforting for these people either way. no choice that i can make here will save me. in t-shirts and jeans, people stare at me like i have three heads. i have to leave.
my long-distance partner's gotten into a prestigious school in LA, got an apartment, and is moving to attend there. i finish school in December, and am going to try to make it out there. I have no family support whatsoever, and I am disabled and struggle to work enough to save up money. my only chance to have a livable life is to pack up everything i own and drive west.
i'll tweak the expenses as we go, but so far it seems like:
- $2,500 for a uhaul and towing my car behind it
- $500 for gas
- $500 for other expenses i am sure i am not anticipating + gfm fees
- $500 for first month's expenses because jesus christ, i am poor and scared
this fundraiser isn't done, but i wanted to go ahead and get something started. i will of course also be saving up from my own part-time job, and add more details as time passes.
i wanted to end on an example of the treatment i get (this was left as a note for me at my campus), but i think i'd rather end on a high note and show you all some images of my partner and i. they're one of the main reasons my life is still worth living right now, and in their arms is one of the only places where i don't feel like a freak.
so yeah, there's the tumblr version of my post. if you think you could get more reach from the tiktok or insta version, let me know.
I don't wanna release personal details, but I've been doing advocacy work in the community since I was 15, and at 28 I am tired. I'm tired, and very unsafe.