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tumblr and discord changing their ui just enough to be noticeable within a week of each other, 1 million billion neurodivergent people found dead
i go on discord. the icons are tiny now. i go on tumblr. the icons are massive. i kill myself
spending all that time on a drawing only to decide its very ugly
look a lot of people are saying you should sleep on stuff and come back to it and 9/10 thats great advice but sometimes it truly is a turd and you did put a lot of effort into Polishing that Turd bc the undersketch was actually weaksauce but you couldnt see that while you were straight up applying chrome to that turd but then you peel off the chrome and youre like look maybe the chrome was the turd and you try to apply a simpler more straightforward approach to let the looseness and energy of the original shine and you discover the original drawing and construction and composition is actually the root cause. the rot started from the moment the pencil touched paper. and thats okay
ignoring my own wisdom from last july maybe i can polish that turd! the very turd that inspired this post !!
i cant. wisdom holds
there is something sooo embarrassing about everything i have done and will do
if you've never engaged with a creative art on a regular basis you need to understand that it requires concerted effort to get into "the groove" to make something and every second that it takes to get into that groove causes physical pain, but the only thing worse than doing it is not doing it.
Just things
sometimes I wonder how y'all are obsessed with specific characters and I'm like "why them" but then I remember that sometimes its literally not your choice you just look at them wrong and all of a sudden they're taking up your every thought forever
to quote someone who was a genius on bluesky:
i want to exist only at night when everything is calm