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Alexander

@alexzehooman / alexzehooman.tumblr.com

I'm probably autistic | 🇵🇸 | He/Him | Apollon/Dionysos/Hermes worshipper ☀️🍇🪙

~Intro~

HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, NSFW BLOGS DNI

Dividers by vibeswithrenai here

Hello! I'm Alex, a follower of Apollon, Dionysos, and Hermes! This is my religious blog (though I accidentally reblog non-related things a lot), so enjoy!

If you're curious, the first Deity I worshipped was Lord Apollon, and I feel closest to Him specifically. I'm still trying to build connections with other Deities, though!

My practice is a bit messy right now as I learn how to balance practicing and handling life. My faith isn't dying, though, that's for sure. I know the Gods have my back, no matter what.

Enjoy the blog! Khaire!

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Hello everyone! I hope you're all doing well. <3 This March, it marked a full year since I started working with Lord Dionysus, and my life has changed for the better. I've had many ups and downs during this time, but thanks to Him, I’ve learned to manage my life better, grow as a person, and become more confident and strong.

I started working with Dionysus during a turbulent time in my life when I felt the need for comfort and divine guidance. I hadn’t worked with a deity in over two years and didn’t know where to begin again. I tried connecting with Tyche for a little luck, but I couldn’t establish a connection with Her. After that, I don’t even remember how I started working with Dionysus, it all happened so fast, and it felt like I had been working with Him my whole life. I started seeing His symbols, His name everywhere, and I constantly had Him on my mind.

Four years prior, I had attempted to connect with Dionysus because I felt drawn to Him. However, back then, I sensed it wasn’t the right time and I'm not readdy yet to work with him. But looking back, the wait was worth it. :D

I can say that this past year has brought many positive changes in my life thanks to Dionysian influence:

🍇 I’ve become more confident in myself and my ability to navigate life. I’ve changed my mindset and realized that I can handle challenges and overcome any difficult situation.

🍇 I’ve stopped giving importance to every negative moment in front of me. Now, I just say, ‘It is what it is,’ and move on. Dionysus has taught me not to take life too seriously, and that’s the most beautiful lesson I’ve learned. Life is both messy and beautiful, challenging and unpredictable. As humans, we must learn to adapt and keep going. If I let every small setback bring me down, I won’t be able to grow. Thanks to Him, I’ve learned to keep a smile, even laughter, on my face, even when my life feels like it’s falling apart.

🍇 Dionysus has helped me love my body more and gain confidence in my physical self. I still struggle with this—I’ve always disliked my body, hated taking pictures, and found many flaws in myself. But over time, I’m learning that these insecurities exist only in my head and that everyone is beautiful in their own way. I’ll admit, I still battle with this, but at least sometimes, I feel more confident than I used to feel. :D

🍇 I’ve become more communicative, open, and truly myself. For a long time, I hid who I was, from my spirituality to my sexuality, because I always thought something was wrong with me, that I didn’t fit in with those around me. But Dionysus comforted me and made me see that there is nothing wrong with being myself. I know this sounds cliché, but I spent my whole life ignoring who I was, hiding, and never letting anyone truly see me for fear of causing conflicts. Since working with Dionysus, I finally feel appreciated, normal. I’ve found a little corner of happiness where I can just be who I really am.

🍇 I’ve stopped being so hard on myself. I no longer punish myself or speak negatively about myself. Thanks to Dionysus guiding me through shadow work, my mental health has improved so much. I’ve started prioritizing my well-being, doing things that make me happy and fulfilled. I sleep better, relax more, and allow myself time to simply live.

🍇 I have, however, become much more fiery. Before, I would stay quiet to please others and avoid conflicts. I’m still a peaceful person, but lately… I feel like something inside me has awakened. I’ve become sharper, more assertive, and when I get angry, I sometimes feel like throwing chairs across the room. But that’s the Dionysian way, duality is key, haha. Now, I feel free to express myself however I want without caring what others think.

🍇 Oddly enough, I feel like I can’t cry anymore, even when I should. I’ve been through a lot this year, but I just feel idk… nothing. Only positivity and the realization that everything is a lesson. Working with Dionysus has made me see, time and time again, that life is difficult, and every obstacle is something we must learn from and overcome.

🍇 I’ve learned to put myself first, which is strange to me because I used to never do that.

🍇 I’ve become more carefree.

🍇 I enjoy life more and cherish every small moment. I’ve created routines that make me happy, I dance whenever I feel like it, and I find joy in the smallest things.

🍇 I’ve stopped letting other people’s problems destroy my own peace. Empathy is still important to me, but Lord Dionysus has pushed me to take care of myself in every way. I no longer starve myself over stress, or let arguments with loved ones ruin me. My mind and body couldn’t handle that anymore, and Dionysus showed me that life is dual, good and bad coexist, and the bad is there to teach us and help us grow. At first, it was a big step for me to stop feeling so deeply about everything. I even wondered if I had become a bad person. But I realized I’ve simply become more stable, more in control of my thoughts and spirit.

I won’t lie, maybe I’ve matured. I’m at an age where I’m slowly stepping into adulthood, and I’m proud of that. But the fact that Dionysus chose to enter my life a year ago, to guide me and be a part of my journey, is the most beautiful thing that could have happened. Having Him with me during this period of my life has been a blessing. I am grateful for everything, for working with and worshiping a God who makes me feel understood, never alone, and most importantly, truly myself.

Even now, as I go through a very difficult time, thanks to my Lord Dionysus, I always find a way to laugh, to smile, and to make at least 10% of my day a happy one. I refuse to let anything break me.

So, Happy One-Year Anniversary to my worship of Dionysus! 🐅🍀🍷 This has been the most beautiful year I’ve had in a long time, and I can’t wait to experience even more wonderful moments with my beloved God. ♡

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Hey there, this might be a bit of a heavy question (not sure?), and it's just about Dionysus and gender dysphoria. I'm trans (identifying as non-binary, but I think I'd be happier as ftm; just can't in the current living situation). I've been struggling a lot with feeling ok in my body and with my identity. I've been thinking of reaching out to Lord Dionysus about this issue (I do already worship him), but I feel scared for some reason. I think it's because I'm really used to adverse reactions when I've asked for help with these things, since I don't have any close trans friends who understand. I'm sorry if this question is a bother or if you wouldn't really know, but do you have any experience asking Dionysus for help with this stuff? This is gonna sound silly, but is he kind about it? Is this maybe something I shouldn't ask for help with? Thank you, and I apologize if this was a bit serious. I understand if you don't choose to answer, obviously, and I hope you're doing well.

hello love. I'm trans as well and I completely understand how hard it is to hide your identity. I'm not out to my family, nor my professional life. especially with how trans people continue to be attacked, I am so genuinely sorry that we live in a world where you feel afraid to live your life comfortably. Dionysos is my trans safe haven, so is Aphrodite/Aphroditos, because I struggle to find a place that's comfortable in the outside world.

I want to say first that Dionysos is certainly a favorite among fellow trans worshippers. there is a historical reason for this. you may hear some say that Dionysos is a God of queer people, or a transgender Deity, or that He was raised transgender. these truths have been heavily modernized (there was no unified idea of being "transgender" in antiquity) but nevertheless, Dionysos is historically a gender-challenging, effeminate Deity that fostered a non-judgemental environment for His followers. here are some examples:

Pseudo-Apollodorus, Bibliotheca 3. 28 (trans. Aldrich) :
"Hermes took him [the newborn infant Dionysos] to Ino and Athamas [the nymphai], and persuaded them to bring him up as a girl."

In some accounts, Dionysos is raised as a girl-child in order to hide Him from the wrath of Hera. below is an expert from Oedipus hinting that Dionysos's female childhood made Him partial to feminine clothing and presentation.

Seneca, Oedipus 418 ff (trans. Miller) (Roman tragedy C1st A.D.) :
"Fearing thy stepdame's [Hera's] wrath, thou [Dionysos] didst grow to manhood with false-seeming limbs, a pretended maiden with golden ringlets, with saffron girdle binding thy garments. So thereafter this soft vesture has pleased thee, folds loose hanging and the long-trailing mantle."

another gender-bending aspect of Dionysos is that He is noted as taking on the "female" role within homosexual relationships. in antiquity, men who were penetrated were seen as more naive, young, and feminine than the men who enacted penetration during intercourse. this is where we get the epithet Androgynos, the God who has sex both in the male form and female form. this was sometimes seen derogatorily unfortunately, especially with later writers.

Suidas s.v. Androgynos (trans. Suda On Line) (Byzantine Greek lexicon C10th A.D.) :
"Androgynos: [A word applied to] Dionysos, as one doing both active, male things and passive, female ones [in sexual intercourse]. Alternatively ‘effeminate’ (anandros), and hermaphroditic (hermaphroditos) [also men who have lost their virility including eunuchs]. Also [in the genitive plural, meaning those who are] weak and have the hearts of women."

**context: this quote is from a 10th century Byzantine author, so take this with some salt

I think it's important to note too about one of Dionysos's birth stories. this interpretation is modern, but I see His birth from Zeus as another way Dionysos has challenged sexual and gender binary.

Euripides, Bacchae: "Daughter of Akheloios, venerable Dirke [spring on Mt Kithairon], happy virgin, you once received the child of Zeus [Dionysos] in your streams, when Zeus his father snatched him up from the immortal fire and saved him in his thigh, crying out : ‘Go, Dithyrambos, enter this my male womb. I will make you illustrious, Bakkhos, in Thebes, so that they will call you by this name.’"

like I said before, there wasn't really a concept of "transgender" in antiquity. there were cross-dressers and events that encouraged the practice, especially in Dionysian imagery (like Pentheus, Dionysos's childhood, and Euripides's descriptions of Him). He was a phallic God of women and a protector of the vulnerable.

now comes the fun part. In Modern Times, i absolutely consider Dionysos the God of transgender people and the protector of queer individuals. I say this because of my own experience and because a large chunk of Dionysos's mythology and theology is a great allegory for trans-ness.

Dionysos is born in secrecy and raised as a woman in hiding. Dionysos is born from a male womb. Dionysos is torn to shreds by titans and then His heart reforms His body. Dionysos is ritually torn apart by worshippers (sparagamos) and sometimes His flesh (in the form of a bull or animal) is consumed raw (omophagia). Dionysos is a shape-shifting God in The Bacchae and other times is personified as a bull or goat. Dionysos is effeminate; Dionysos is an elder, bearded man. you see my point. MANY aspects of Dionysian culture can be viewed as allegories for the modern transgender experience. these themes were prominent enough to follow writers all the way into Rome and to appear in later writings like Nonnus's.

everything above is my long, winded way of saying "YES, Dionysos understands". He understands deeper than many see and I worship Him as a transgender Deity. Dionysos is the reason I explored my identity in the first place and He is my safe space for expressing myself unapologetically. my depictions of Him are always gender-nonconforming and I generally view Him as a God of Transitions. Gender transitions yes, but also life transitions: moving home, finding new opportunities, social changes, etc. He is a God that helps us through these massive life events and eases the pain that comes with it. I find Him similar to Hekate in these aspects (upg), a Deity of the liminal in-between stages and the celebrator of the end-goal.

I sympathize with your unease. I have felt scared to approach the Gods with hard topics because it would feel devastating to be rejected by our own Gods. However, I have never once experienced berating for the act of asking nor for sharing my fears and pain. the Gods are here to build us up, not knock us down. you won't know if incorporating your trans identity into your religion works for you unless you try it. I'll bet that Dionysos would be happy to hear your voice and see your face regardless of what you're asking of Him.

I wouldn't be where I am today without Dionysos. I would probably still be a messed up, insecure mess. I had no idea my lack of confidence and hatred of my body was my dysphoria weighing me down. not until Dionysos pushed me out of my comfort zone and encouraged me to dress how I want to. the first step is the hardest in my opinion, but it's so so so worth it. Dionysos supports all of our intricacies and changes. even if I decide to detransition or change my identity once more, I know He will always be in my corner.

I sincerely wish you the best anon. the confidence it takes to speak about topics like this is massive and I'm proud of you for taking this step of inquiring about it ! whatever you decide, the Theoi will be by your side. also, thank you for giving me the opportunity to rant about Dionysos's trans aspects and my upg 🫶💕🍇 cheers !

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My Personal UPG

  • Hermes loves chocolate
  • Chocolate coins specifically
  • He also loves bottle caps and bottle tabs
  • He's the god of ADHD
  • He loves travel snacks (trail mix, freeze dried fruits, m&ms, etc)
  • His favorite scent is sandalwood (mine too)
  • He loves random trinkets on his altar
  • He's the god of Lost Things

Do you have any UPG regarding Lord Hermes?

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when i say my gender changes to the tune of the bit i mean a man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do and if he can’t then god forbid women do anything

String identified: a g cag t t t t t a a a’ gtta at a a’ gtta a ca’t t g atg

Closest match: Glaucopsyche melanops genome assembly, chromosome: 7 Common name: Black-Eyed Blue

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the fact that zeus is not only a paternal god but also one who has explicitly carried and given birth to his own children... i think it's beautiful & i would love to see more depictions of zeus as the patron and protector of pregnant trans men.

OMG THIS

I WANT AN EPITHET FOR ZEUS OF THE PREGNANT TRANS MEN

THAT WOULD BE SO COOOOOL

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the fact that zeus is not only a paternal god but also one who has explicitly carried and given birth to his own children... i think it's beautiful & i would love to see more depictions of zeus as the patron and protector of pregnant trans men.

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ꕥ ᴅɪᴏɴʏsᴜs • ɢᴏᴅ ᴏғ ᴡɪɴᴇ, ᴠᴇɢᴇᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, ғᴇʀᴛɪʟɪᴛʏ, ғᴇsᴛɪᴠɪᴛʏ, ʀɪᴛᴜᴀʟ ᴍᴀᴅɴᴇss, ʀᴇʟɪɢɪᴏᴜs ᴇᴄsᴛᴀsʏ, ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴀᴛᴇʀ ꕥ

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before you ask "are the gods mad at me?" THINK:

have you...

1. killed or maimed someone

2. killed or maimed an animal for purposes other than consuming/processing it

3. knowingly and purposefully hurled vile obscenities or insults at any god or gods

4. made it a life goal to be a terrible person

5. been a terf

IF YOU SAID NO TO ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS then girl you're fine go have a dr. pepper

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As my devotional act for lord Apollón and Hermés I decided to get healthier life style which means to quit some bad unhealthy habits of mine…

It’s so hard for me…the worst part, which also breaks my heart, is that I know they are not mad at me that it takes me so long…I feel horrible, because they support me and comfort me…

Thank you for your patience, my dear lords 🙏

Celebration of the Fourth Ritual

The fourth of the month is approaching! The Temple will be publishing a small ritual that can be completed in honor of Lord Hermes' sacred day.

All you will need is a candle, some incense (optional), and some way to write (pencil/pen and paper, computer, phone, typewriter, etc).

Make sure you're prepared!!

I liked this post, scrolled for like another minute before I went “SHIT FUCK SHIT” and scrolled back to reblog it

I always reblog this one when I see it on my dash. When someone posts their own art, writing, or music here they are really hoping you will share it.

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resistance with lady hestia
  • make your own soap - adding lavender oil, rosemary
  • use wooden cleaning tools
  • buy from local farmers/farmers market
  • grow your own herbs and trying to grow your own veggies and fruits in pots and containers
  • use all your hygiene products to the last drop
  • use a wooden hairbrush or a comb, write/paint/engrave your name on it
  • crochet/knit/sew pouches and grocery bags
  • be gentle with the things you own now
  • learn how to make sourdough and bake your own bread
  • check the creators you follow and support, unfollow/block awful people
  • thrift for clothes and furniture/decor
  • learn to sew/flip your clothes

The gods, your potential and limits

Hi everyone!

I have received so many questions regarding people’s fear when it comes to a god not liking them for a number of reasons. I wanted to make this post because its something I wish someone would have told me when I was first starting off:

Disclaimer: These are my personal opinion and experiences. Every person has a right to their own craft and the rules they make for themselves. If none of this works for you, please feel free to ignore it. Never let anyone else tell you what to do or whether or not you are doing it right or wrong. Remember that you are not only working magick, but you ARE magick.

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The Gods can see your true potential.

They know what your best and worst looks like. They know the outcome of every decision you will be faced with. They will encourage you to choose the best one for you while still respecting your free will. They know which lessons you need to learn and when your heart will be a mess. They know when you will need them and when you will forget to do rituals you promised them. They know when you are busy and when you are bored.

They know your limits.

They know your mental and emotional conditions. They know you aren’t doing it on purpose. They know you aren’t lazy. They know you were born in a world with impossible expectations. A world that suppresses your freedom. A world that treats something natural as a flaw. A flaw you will try to fix with their products while entering a rat race that makes you question your every move. They know the world will teach you to think you are ugly and unworthy but

You are so beautiful to them even when you yourself can’t see it.

They will try their best to break the curses you have placed on yourself via personal put downs and self-sabotage. They know injustices will happen and want to help you with whatever you will need to defend yourself. They know you will die one day.

The gods love you just the same.

Some days you can do a full ritual and some days you can’t. Some days you will be able to dance under the stars and others will have you tied in bed wondering if life is even worth living. They see how horrible you feel for not doing a ritual you promised them and will be touched by the emotional turmoil you will put yourself through but they don’t want this. They want you to try your best even if your best today is not as good as yesterdays.

You are a human with limits.

You have a human body and a human brain with a massive heart that has touched the gods. They love you for you. They can see your soul. They can see everything and they want to be there for you. For all of you.

Why?

Because you believe in them.

You believe in them after they were imprisoned. After they were slandered. After their last devotees died and the rest were hunt down. You believe in them. 

Some of you may have an altar, and some may not. 

Regardless, you have given them a place in your life and invite them to experience life with and through you.

Don’t be fooled by people who try to shame you for being too depressed to work with the god you bond with. They know. Don’t be fooled by people who try to tell you, you aren’t good enough for this or any other god. You are. No one has a right to tell you who you work with and how you do it. 

That is between you and that god.

May the gods teach you to love yourself the way they love you.  

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