i actually never thought i would ever say this, but thank you so so so much for 1000 followers! i can’t put into words how grateful i am for every single like, reblog, comment, ask, dm etc. i’m honestly lost for words🥺

i’ve had this account since 2016, but i was too scared to post any imagines until lockdown came around and i thought ‘hey, why not post stuff?’ just for some fun. and i never thought i would meet so many amazing and talented people.

i’m going to stop before i get emotional, but thank you <333

so to say thanks i thought i would do a sleepover! i’ve only done one of these, but they were really fun to do ahah. i’m only doing it from the 5th of december (today) to the 7th of december because i’m in college etc.

🍃- blurb for tom holland, peter parker, newt or tony stark (prompts in my main masterlist which is pinned at the top)

🌧- cast my mutuals as....

📝- current wips

💫- a random photo from my camera roll

(everything apart from a face reveal, i don’t want people from college/family finding me ahah)

🤍- a blog compliment cause ily all

🦋- just random questions you want to ask me/talk to me about absolutely anything

📺- movie/song/tv show rec

🌙- kiss, marry, avoid on any three characters/people

you can send as many as you want, idm! i just want you all to have fun :)

thank you again, i’m so grateful🥺

- anna x

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tagging my mutuals who i love a whole bunch:

@24kbucky @parkersbliss @liberty-barnes @parkeret @dreamofaprilsblog @chuchuie @potentialhappiness @lilacsnid @cosmicholland @cunaeparker @spideyanakin @spideybrie @parkerpeter24

CONGRATS ANNA OKG SODJWLDKWN

what for? | part two

part one

summary- you call your boyfriend, peter. but, it isn’t a happy one. and he’ll remember it for the rest of his life.

warnings- angst, swearing

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it’s been a month, three days, five hours and two minutes since you left.

peter still remembers that phone call vividly. it’s like, it’s been surgically planted into his mind for all eternity. everything reminds him off that call. and he despises it.

there’s been a funeral.

it was nice. peaceful.

peter knows you would of hated it though- everyone was too upset and dressed in all black. he’s knows you would of wanted people smiling or wearing colourful clothes. but, you weren’t there to tell him that’s what you wanted. peter was the only one not crying at your funeral. your whole family, even the avengers were sobbing.

except him.

he didn’t have any tears left.

he was empty.

“what for, love?”

the sound on the other end went silent, as peter waited for you to answer his question.

“darling? what’s wrong? you can tell me anything you know.” he ushered, feeling a slight panic rise in his body at how quiet it was on the phone.

it was too quiet.

“y/n?” another voice was heard suddenly, and he immediately recognised it as tony’s.

“mr stark?” peter shouted, in hopes tony could hear him. luckily, he did.

“pete?”

“yeah it’s me, where’s y/n?” peter questioned, genuine worry in his voice.

“i-“ tony couldn’t speak. what could he say? he was heartbroken, at the sight of you- dead.

“tony.” peter warned, making the man start to cry over your body.

“tony! where the hell is y/n?” he was shouting now, and tony could imagine him pacing around, hands pulling at his hair.

“peter...i’m so sorry.” tony mumbled, voice croaking with silent sobs.

“can you just tell me what’s going on?!” he screamed, as his hands started to shake.

“she’s gone.”

may has tried to get him to eat. he doesn’t want to. he doesn’t know the last time he ate alone. it sounds stupid- to not wanting to eat on your own. but, he always ate with you. and now you weren’t here anymore.

he’s not going to school, either. his teachers keep on sending him work, but he just see’s you. smiling and laughing. it doesn’t help that you were in all of his lessons. and how he remembers on friday afternoons, when you were both drained from the week you just had, how you would sit in the back of the class, hands intertwined, as you both whispered sweet nothings into each other’s ears. he loved those days.

but, you weren’t here to have those days again.

if he knew you were dying on that phone call, he would of said how much he loved you. how much he appreciated you. but, while you were trying to stay alive, he was too busy trying to set up a stupid date night.

he just wishes you told him.

he wishes for a lot of things. but, not everyone can get what they want.

a knock on the door inturrupted peter’s thoughts, as he looked up to see may entering with a sympathetic smile on her face. “there’s someone here to see you.”

he doesn’t know why, but a little bit of hope fluttered in peter’s stomach. he’s heard about how people fake their death on missions, and he prays that’s what happened with you. but, when tony stark walked in, his face dropped.

he was stupid to even think that you were alive.

“hey, kid.”

“i’m so sorry, kid, she’s gone.” tony whispered, tears falling down his cheek at the sound of peter’s broken cries on the phone.

“hi.”

tony looked around his room, taking in how much of a mess it was. he also noticed, how all of y/n’s belongings were spaced out on his bed. and then, tony took in peter. he had deep purple bags under his eyes. tears stained his cheek, as his bloodshot eyes starred at a random point in the wall. anthony coughed slightly, before sitting next to peter on the bed.

“how are you?”

peter shrugged.

“listen i know it’s hard, i’ve lost a person i love too i-“

“no.” peter cut off.

“yes, you loved...” peter stopped. he hasn’t said y/n’s name since that phone call. “her but it wasn’t in the same why like i did. so please, don’t say that you get me, because you don’t.”

tony had expected peter to snap back at him, for whatever he was going to say. so he wasn’t shocked.

“i am truely sorry, peter. i now how much you cared for her.”

peter looked down at his hands. “yeah.”

a minute of silence passed, before tony remembered why he came. “listen, i was going through old files this week, and i found this.”

he extended out a small blue usb, causing peter to take it out of his grasp.

“i watched the first couple of seconds, just to check what it actually was, but i think you would want to watch it.”

“what is it?”

“it’s from y/n.”

peter’s eyes went wide, tears forming in his eyes, as he turned to face tony. “what?”

tony titled his head to the side, smiling slightly, before patting his shoulder. “i’ll leave you alone, kid. i’m always here for you.”

“thank you, mr stark.” peter smiled back, but it never reached his eyes as tony nodded his head before leaving his room, and closing the door behind him.

as soon as the door clicked closed, peter shot up to his laptop, putting the usb into the side of the device. a folder popped up on his screen called ‘peter parker.’

he breathed out, double clicking on the blue folder before it opened to reveal one video. clicking on the video, an image of you popped up, making his breath hitch. it was just you, starring into the camera in mid talk, but it made peter’s heart melt.

he wiped away some tears that were falling, before clicking play.

“hi- oh shit-“ the camera fell of your desk, as you yelled making peter chuckle. you were always so clumsy. after picking up the camera, changing the angle slightly, you dropped your hands to your side, smiling widely.

“hi! sorry about that.” you laughed, looking down which is what you did when you were nervous. peter smiled softly, at your little gesture.

“so, i don’t know why i’m doing this. but, if your watching this peter, then i’ve passed. i hope your okay. i’m sorry that i left you this early. i don’t know, joining the avengers has put a higher risk of me getting more hurt. i know you have had your disagreements on me joining.”

peter remembers that argument. he was so worried about you. he wouldn’t want you to get hurt. or worse.

“but, i’m glad we’ve gone past that. but, just incase of an untimely death, i’ve made this little video in private. even though, darling, your asleep next door, so hopefully i haven’t woke you up by my screaming before.”

you giggled on the screen.

so did peter in his empty room.

“erm...when i first met you, on that cold, december day in high school, i knew you were my soulmate. even though, you were very nervous and kept on stuttering over every single word, i knew you would be the love of my life. the one thing i didn’t expect you to be, was to be my bestfriend. and i appreciate you so much for that.”

you breathed out, tears forming in your eyes as you looked deeply into the camera, making peter cover his hand over his mouth to stifle his sobs.

“i- you helped me with everything. i never had a good relationship with anyone. until you. this sounds so cliche, but you made me the person i am today. and no words could describe how grateful i am for that.”

you breathed in, catching your breath before speaking again.

“if i do pass, i want you to move on, alright? i don’t want to see you crying everyday. you deserve to experience love, pete. i hope i do get to spend the rest of my life with you, but stuff happens. you deserve to find someone who loves you as much as i do.”

tears were falling down both of your cheeks now, and peter had to stop himself from bringing his hand up to the screen and wipe them away softly.

but, he had to remind himself that it wasn’t real.

you weren’t in-front of him.

“sorry. i shouldn’t be crying,” you laughed, wiping away your tears, making peter pout, “i just...i’m so overwhelmed with how much i love you. your probably going to be really confused when you wake up to see my sobbing.”

you laughed, before stopping at another voice in the background.

it was his.

“y/n?”

peter remembers waking up on that day, panic filling him at the empty sheets next to him.

if only he knew what you were doing.

“oh shit, you’re awake.” you whispered chuckling slightly, as you leaned in to switch the camera off before freezing.

“thank you, peter benjamin parker. for everything.”

with one last smile, the video ended.

and peter’s sobs started.

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a/n- sorry about how short this is, but thank you for reading :)

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peter parker taglist-

@24kbucky @parkersbliss @liberty-barnes @icyhollands @dreamofaprilsblog @deathofmissjackson @averyfosterthoughts @jannine00742 @beverlyparkerr @anapocalypseinmymind @itstaskeen

Awww no :((

TALENT THOUGH WOW

necklace

summary- someone finds a necklace causing all the memories ,you tried to move on from, to come back.

warnings- angst!, tdc spoliers, some fluff but mainly angst, panic attack (slightly)

italics are flashbacks (sorry if gets confusing!)

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sweat was pouring off your forehead, as you and minho were walking back to the safe haven for the bonfire that was already being prepared, for tonight. you stopped to admire the view, as the sun soared down onto the beach, making memories from the maze appear up in your mind. but, you were glad you weren’t there anymore.

you were glad about a lot of things.

except one.

“hey, y/n?” minho shouted from infront of you, a teasing smile tugging at his lips. “hurry up would you? the time you get down, everyone will be shucking asleep.”

“oh slim it minho.” you laughed, glancing one last time at the shimmering blue water, before walking towards the boy who was laughing with you.

you knew deep down he was trying to keep your mind pre-occupied.

finally arriving at the bonfire, you placed your wood down, before using your left hand to wipe your forehead as you breathed out gently. you were about to get some water, before frypan already read your mind, handing you a glass.

“thanks.” you barely breathed, before gulping the drink down in seconds.

“another?” fry inquired, already knowing the answer was yes.

“yes please, but it’s fine i’ll get it myself. thank you anyway.” you beamed, patting him on the shoulder before walking to the kitchen.

entering, you walked to the sink filling your glass, before turning around and leaning against the counter as you gulped down the cooling water. finally having enough water, you went outside smiling as you took in the busy, yet peaceful haven. it reminded you of the maze.

you saw thomas and brenda on the other side of the bonfire pit, laughing and you decided to go over. but, you barely took one step before a small ‘excuse me’, made you wip your head around to see a women, about your age, smiling shyly at you.

“hi?” you spoke, walking closer to her.

“h-hi, are you y/n by any chance?”

you nodded, patiently waiting for what she was going to say.

“i found this earlier today, and i assumed you must of dropped it? it has your name carved in on the metal bit, so is this yours? sorry, for interrupting your day-“

her words blurred out, as you starred at the necklace she was holding up in her left hand.

it was his.

newt’s.

the last thing he ever gave to you.

was in this random women’s hand, as she dangled it in-front of you.

tears blurred your vision as memory after memory flooded back into your mind, almost knocking you sick.

“greenie, meet newt. when i’m not around he’s in charge.”

you glanced at the blonde boy, a slight blush creeping on your cheek as he took your hand in his and shook it.

“hi, love. welcome to the glade.”

“h-hi.” you stuttered, making alby chuckle, as you both starred into each other’s eyes, not once letting go of each other’s hand.

“right, go and sort out these shanks newt, before greenie here blurts out how cute you are.” alby sighed, rolling his eyes over the fact you both fell in love at first sight.

newt smiled at the girl. “well, i think she’s cute too.”

“y/n? are you okay?” the women asked, as tears started to flood down your face. but, you could hardly hear her.

“i love you, y/n. so so much.” newt mumbled into her ear, as his thumb rubbed comforting circles in her skin.

“i love you too. so so much.” you replied, leaning in the place your lips on his.

“oh god, have i upset you in anyway? i’m so sorry, i shouldn’t of said anything.” the girl panicked, as she took in your distressed figure.

your ears started ringing, as her voice sounded like it was growing further away from you. the only thing you could hear was newt’s laugh and your heart beating rapidly.

“hi, stranger.” newt smiled, running up to walk by you. you returned the gesture, yet it never met your eyes. you’ve been walking to the right arm in the middle of the desert, for days now. and you were exhausted.

newt noticed this, immediately intertwining his hands with yours, squeezing it reassuringly. “everything’s going to be okay, sweetheart. i promise.”

you turned to face him, smiling properly now as you leaned in to quickly peck his lips, squeezing his hand back slightly.

“hey, love birds! save your energy, yeah?” minho shouted from behind, making newt laugh loudly as you watched in awe at how happy he was.

everything came back.

“hello? y/n? is everything okay?”

every kiss.

newt pouted, as you started to walk away from him to check if brenda was alright from collapsing in-front of the right arm.

“hey! no kisses?” he whined, making you roll your eyes playfully, as you quickly kissed his forehead, making him pout deeper.

“you missed, love.”

you giggled, kissing him on the cheek, before walking away to a tent. however, newt soon grabbed your arm, pulling you back towards him, as you landed into his chest.

“missed again.” he smirked, brining his thumb up to wipe your cheek gently.

“and where was i supposed to kiss you?” you teased.

“erm, here i think.” he mumbled, before placing his lips on yours.

every smile.

you felt a gaze on you as you watched the right arm down below from a cliff, turning your head to meet a pair of honey orbs you desperately fell in love with. he smiled, making you blush.

“why are you starring at me like that?” you questioned, a playful smile on your face.

“you’re just so beautiful.”

“y/n?”

every disagreement.

“newt. there’s something off with this.”

“stop worrying y/n. i’ll be back before you know it.”

newt replied, placing a bag in the trunk of the car, before slamming the door shut, meeting your eyes briefly before packing some more. him, frypan and thomas were preparing to go to the lash city to save minho from wckd. and you couldn’t help but have a pit in your stomach, that something bad would happen.

“i-it just doesn’t feel right.”

he sighed. not in annoyance. he knew if this was the other way round, he would be the same. he turned around, walking towards you before placing both of his hands on your cheek, turning your face slightly to face him.

“everything will be okay. minho will be okay. we’ll get him and come straight back to the safe haven. thomas will be okay. i- hey look at me.”

he spoke, as you glanced to the floor while he was talking. you looked back at him, making him grin.

“i’ll be okay. i promise.”

“i know you promise. but, i know what i feel. and i feel something terrible will happen.”

he placed a loving kiss on your forehead, “it’s just a feeling, darling.”

“i know but…” you trailed off before an idea came to you, “i’ll come with you all.”

“what?”

“i’ll come with you all.” you repeated, walking away from his grasp, as you started to pack a bag.

“yeah i heard you, but no. absolutely bloody not.”

“newt, please. i want to help. and if i’m with you, at least i won’t be worrying sick if i’m stuck here.”

he rubbed his eyes in stress. “i would rather you stay here, than coming with us and put yourself in unnecessary danger.”

“and you think i’m okay with you, going to a dangerous place? i care about you to much to let you go alone.”

he starred at you intensely, as you carried on placing objects in your backpack. “are you sure?”

“as long as i’m with you, i’ll be okay.”

he smiled, walking up behind you, before wrapping his arms around your waist, placing his head on your shoulder. “you stay with my at all times, okay?”

“okay. thank you, newt.”

newt never replied, only hummed softly, before kissing random places on your neck.

“y/n? can you hear me?”

every tear.

“why didn’t you tell me?”

“didn’t want you to worry.” he smiled, wiping a tear away from your cheek as he placed his jacket sleeve over his infected area.

“i-“

you barely got your words out, before you completely broke down, making newt’s heart clench at the sight, before wrapping his arms around you, as you sobbed into his chest.

“everything will be okay, y/n. everything will work out the way it’s supposed to.”

“oh god, let me get someone over to help me.”

every memory to the last moment you had together.

he coughed, blood dripping down his cheek. his head lulled back, as his breathing became hoarse.

“minho, gally, go ahead and get the serum, and then meet us back.” thomas ordered, making them nod as they stood up.

“you,” newt croaked, head falling forward, eyes scanning the people infront of him before he landed on you, “you go too, y/n.”

“no, newt, i’m not leaving you.” you begged, but you could barely hear it over newt’s wails of disagreement.

“y/n! please! go!” he roared.

you shook your head, eyes closing as tears fell onto the concrete ground. a gasp left your lips, as newts fingers lifted your chin up to meet his dark orbs.

“please, sweetheart.”

you nodded, scared to speak. he knew you didn’t want to go. but, he didn’t want you to see him like this.

you stood up, tears flowing freely now as you watched a small smile fall on your boyfriend’s lips. but, almost as he remembered something he quickly put his hand in his coat pocket.

“y/n.” he whispered, almost sounding out of breath, making you kneel down in front of him.

he pulled out a necklace, with a metal pendent attached to a leather strap. your name was carved into the metal, with a slight heart next to it, as you immediately recognised it as newt’s handwriting.

the last thing he will ever give you.

was in his hand, as he dangled it in-front of you.

“take it, love.”

and you did.

the memeories suddenly stopped, and you took a big gasp of air, as all your senses came back to you. but, it was still blurred.

you heard the safe haven surrounding you. you heard random voices, calling your name.

“y/n, i love youu.” newt sang drunkly, dancing around the bonfire in the glade happily, making you chuckle. 

you saw faint outlines of figures, looking at you intently.

seconds passed, and your hearing wasn’t ringing as sharply anymore. the outlines of people became in focus, and you saw minho, thomas and gally looking at you with sympathy in their eyes. the women was behind them all, eyes wide with shock at what she just witnessed.

you were crying. screaming. sobbing. yelling his name. begging him to come back. in the middle of the safe haven.

you looked around, embarrassment filling you as you saw people you didn’t know, giving you strange looks.

“y/n?” minho spoke softly, as you wipped your head to meet him.

“what happened?” it was thomas asking now, as he watched more tears fall down your face.

“t-the necklace. all she did, w-was give me that necklace. and i-i broke down.” you croaked, voice hoarse and weak.

“i don’t get why she was crying over a tiny necklace though.” the women spoke loudly, making gally see red as he turned around and started to put her in her place, as he walked away with the girl.

thomas and minho looked back to you, walking towards your quviering figure before placing their arms around you and guiding you towards your hut. entering, they placed you on the bed, saying how you needed to rest. you nodded, and as soon as your head hit the pillow, you were asleep.

dreaming of the boy you desperately love.

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you woke up, suddenly. it was the sound of a voice saying your name that awoke you. but, it wasn’t just any voice.

it was his.

you looked around, noticing how it was still dark outside, before you decided to go back to sleep. but, out of the corner of your eye you saw something. you froze, as you saw a figure stood in the corner of your room.

“hello?” you croaked, as the figure walked into the moonlight.

your breath hitched as you saw who it was.

it was him.

newt.

but, he seemed different. he had a slight white glow around him, and he wore pure white clothes. he looked angelic.

“newt?” you mumbled, eyes wide at the sight infront of you.

the british boy smiled at you. widely. and in that smile you knew what he was trying to tell you.

it’s something he has already told you.

“hey! y/n!” newt called, limping up towards you, as you stopped in your tracks and turned to meet his gaze. he smiled, placing your wckd guard uniform on the bed, for when you were rescuing minho tonight.

“can we talk?” he asked, placing his hands in yours making you nod. he took you over to a bed, sitting down, as he looked around- probably checking to see if you were alone. once he was satisfied that thomas wasn’t lurking around the corner, he brought your hand up to his mouth, kissing your knuckles gently.

“if i don’t make it out of this-“

“no, newt. we aren’t saying goodbye.” you barked, pulling your hands away from his grasp. “we aren’t saying this because i know you’ll be fine.”

“y/n, please, listen to me-“

“no, newt. stop saying how you won’t make it. you will.” you stood up, starting to walk away before newt grabbed your arm pulling you back towards the bed.

“don’t walk away.” he sighed, his breath fanning your cheek. “i-i hope i make it out. i do. for you. but, just listen to what i want to say.”

you closed your eyes, nodding.

“before you came to the maze, i tried to kill myself.”

you gasped, looking at him, before threading your fingers through his hair to calm him down.

“i hated the place. i hated every second of every day. but, when you came up, just a scared little greenie, i swear i have never felt so much love towards someone before. you made life worth living, love. and i-i can’t put into words how much that means to me.”

you smiled, making newt return the gesture.

“i love everything about you. apart from how bloody gorgeous you are on the outside, you’re gorgeous on the inside too. i want to spend the rest of life with you, and if i don’t make it, i’ll always be with you. for the rest of your life.”

he wiped away a tear from your cheek, before he carried on speaking.

“i want you to live your life though. i want you to take care of yourself. i want you to be happy. i want you to find someone new-“

“newt, i can’t i-“

“ah i’m not finished,” he laughed, “i want you to find someone new, and live the life we were supposed to have. you deserve to live a good life. even without me. you hear me?”

you nodded.

“i need you to say that you understand what i’m saying and that you promise me you will love your life.”

“i promise.”

he beamed, “thank you.”

he wrapped his arms around your waist pulling you into a tight hug, as you closed your eyes at the feeling of him against you. he moved a piece of hair away from your ear, before whispering…

“stay happy for me, love.”

and as the memory faded away, you starred at newt, smiling back widely, as you silently told him that you understood.

you looked down to grab onto his necklace a smile still on your face, before glancing back up.

you froze.

your smile faltered.

he was gone.

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a/n- hope you enjoyed this angst newt imagine! all i seem to write atm is angst, so i’m sorry about that ahah. hope you’re all okay <3

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newt taglist-

@parkersbliss @sweetiesangster @marilovescevans @the-salty-asian @24kbucky

Ah fucking hell anna that was sad Jesus Christ

That poor woman who found the necklace

interruptions

summary- newt tries to tell you how he truely feels about you, but keeps on getting stopped

warnings- fluff, maybe some angst, and newt being pissed off with everyone (apart from you hehe)

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“i can’t believe i’m agreeing to letting you do this, minho.” newt groaned, as said boy had his hand wrapped around the second in command’s arm, dragging him across the glade.

“well, newt, i’m actually shucking helping you if you couldn’t believe it.” he replied.

“yes. i can’t believe that you out of all people want to help me.” newt snapped back.

“i’m actually doing this for your own benefit,” minho shrugged, “as well as mine, i can’t bare to listen to you chat about how much you love y/n all day. it’s starting to drive me insane.”

newt abruptly stopped, causing minho to fly back at the sudden action. “how do you think i’ll be able to do this? i can’t bloody talk to her without going red or stuttering like a complete idiot!”

minho smirked, “well, a- you go up to her, b- say how you feel, c- ask her out, d- and then you’re with the love of your life and you can spend the rest of your day’s togther, saying bloody”

“all british people don’t say bloody all the time, you know?” newt questioned.

“well, you do.”

newt sighed, rolling his eyes.

“stop being a shank, and go up to her.” minho gestured, looking behind him.

newt followed minho’s gaze, before it landed on you, who was laughing with gally and chuck. a slight smile creeped up on his face at the sight. he was completely and utterly in love with you. he doesn’t know exactly he fell in love with you. it might have been when you first came up in the box. you were so scared, yet adorable, and the british boy instantly found a soft spot for you. it might have been at a bonfire, were the golden light casted a slight glow on your face, causing newt to choke on his drink. or it might have been that night, when you talked for hours about anything and everything. he doesn’t know when, but he can feel that he is in love with his best friend.

“i-i can’t, minho.” newt whined, looking at the runner who was smirking again.

“it’s so funny watching you be in love, newt.”

newt groaned, placing his head in his hands, “you’re not helping.”

“well, if you shucking ask her out already, she’ll say yes and you’ll live a happy life drinking...tea.”

newt rolled his eyes for the second time. “stop. anyway, what if she doesn’t feel the same way?”

minho titled his head to the side, “that could happen...but listen, you can tell she’s in love with you too.”

“how?”

minho froze. “you’re kidding me, right?”

the second in command looked at minho cautiously who shook his head in disbelief. he couldn’t believe newt has never noticed how you look at him for longer than a friend does or how you can’t function properly around him. you’re both completely oblivious to each other’s actions. and it’s driving minho insane.

“right, let’s get this over with. today could be the best day of your life.” minho smiled, putting his hands on newt’s shoulders before leading him towards you.

“or the worst.”

“think positively.”

newt couldn’t. millions of thoughts were circling his brain, as he got closer towards you. he could hear your laugh more clearly now, and he wanted to get out of minho’s grasp and run away. but, he breathed out heavily, trying to gain some confidence as he and the runner stopped infront of you.

“hey newt! minho!” you spoke.

newt stood still, eyes wide making minho roll his eyes. “hey y/n!”

you glanced at newt, furrowing your brows at how weird he was looking at you, making you immediately feel nervous. but, unbeknownst to you, newt was having a mental breakdown- on the inside.

“everything okay?” you questioned, glancing at minho who was starring at newt.

“newt here,” minho started, pushing said boy forward slightly, “has something he would love to tell you.”

you glanced at the second in command, who was looking down at his feet now, not daring to make eye contact.

“okayy.”

minho slapped newt on the back of the head, making him wince as he sent daggers to the runner, before looking at you. “can i-i speak to you please? in private?”

you smiled slightly. “sure.”

and so you and newt walked away from minho, gally and chuck who were sending newt thumbs up making him roll his eyes. newt was literally shaking- he has never dealt with this amount of stress and worry before. he didn’t want this to effect the close friendship you had- it meant so much to him, and he wouldn’t know what to do if he ruined that.

you stopped by the gardens away from people, as you turned around to face the blonde haired boy. “what’s up newt? you’re worrying me.”

he laughed, “tell me about it.”

“what does that mean?” you inquired, titling your head to the side. “you can tell me anything you know, i’m your best friend.”

“well, shit.” newt thought, gulping loudly.

“erm, okay, i don’t know how to word this so i’m just going to say so i’m sorry about that i’m not very good with putting words together sorry-“

“newt.” you spoke, cutting off his rambling.

“right, sorry.”

you giggled. “if you say sorry one more time i’m going to hurl something at you.”

he laughed, rubbing the back of his neck, “right sorry- er i mean okay.”

“tell me what’s going on with you.” you encouraged.

“y/n i-“

“newt!” alby shouted from across the glade cutting him off, making him sigh.

“perfect timing, huh?” newt mumbled, making you chuckle.

“newt! where the shucking hell are you?!” alby continued shouting, causing newt to smile sadly at you.

“i better go and see what’s bloody happening. i’ll tell you later.” he said, before turning around and running towards the leaders frustrated calls.

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after newt sorted out alby’s problems with gladers not following orders, he went to find you, to finally tell you what he’s been wanting to tell you for a while. he saw minho running towards him, a wide smile on his face.

“have you done it yet?” minho asked.

“no.”

“what? why?!”

“blame alby!” newt huffed, as he carried on looking for you.

“have you seen y/n anywhere?” he asked, not once looking at minho.

“oh yeah, she’s in the med hut.”

newt froze, turning around slowly and dreading the worse. “what?”

“stop panicking, she’s fine. chuck cut his hand so she’s sorting him out.”

newt physically relaxed, a blush creeping on his cheek at the thought of you being so helpful to the gladers. they didn’t deserve you. he didn’t deserve you.

“right, thanks.” newt replied, before running towards where you were. he walked in, seeing you give chuck a reassuring smile who was clutching onto his hand, which had a bandage wrapped around. tears stained chuck’s face, making newt’s heart pang. sure it was only a little cut, but he was a kid. and a kid should not be in the glade. chuck mumbled a thanks, before walking out leaving you and newt alone.

“bless him.” you spoke, tidying up the work space.

“yeah.” newt whispered.

you breathed out, turning to look at the british boy. “are you going to tell me what’s happening then?”

“er, i don’t- i mean yes. yes i am.” he stuttered, walking towards you, and placing his hands in yours looking in your eyes deeply. he searched for any disgust or worry in your orbs, but only found confusion and a hint of something else but he couldn’t put a finger on it. he sighed, mentally encouraging himself to actually say he likes you.

“y/n, i’ve been wanting to tell you this for a while now, and i think i’m in lo-“

“newt!”

“you’ve got to be kidding me.” newt thought closing his eyes, as he mentally attacked whoever is calling him.

“newt! where are you?”

he sighed, as he realised the shouting belonged to gally. soon, the builder walked into the med hut, looking very angry. nothing new there.

“what do you want?” newt asked, wincing at how rude he sounded.

gally looked between the two of you, before glaring at the british boy. “you...” he spoke sternly, pointing at him, “need to go out there and sort it out.”

newt breathed out heavily, taking his hands away from yours before rubbing the back of his neck. “sort what out?”

“the animals.”

you laughed, as newt scoffed. “you seriously inturrupted me for animals?”

“yes! come on!” and before newt could say no, gally left causing the blonde boy to sigh heavily for the millionth time. he turned to look at you, smiling at you slightly.

“seems like everyone wants you today,” you mumbled. “tell me later, ‘kay?”

newt nodded, but never moved as he debated to just blurt out ‘i love you,’ before he went to see what was happening. but, he decided to go against that idea, smiling slightly as he ran out of the hut to gally and the others.

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“have you done it?” minho asked newt, eagerly waiting for him to say yes and give him details. but, he didn’t expect newt to shake his head, as he sighed closing one of the animal pens.

“what? why?” minho shouted alerting the whole glade, making newt snap his head towards him.

“minho i swear to god shut it-“

“oh fine. sorry.” he laughed, but stopped. “why haven’t you shucking told her?”

“do you not think i’ve tried too?! i keep on getting bloody inturrupted. first alby and now gally. if one more person cuts me off, at the wrong time, i’m going to bloody throw them in the pit!” newt barked, but only so minho could hear.

“oh.”

newt scoffed. “yeah, oh.”

minutes passed before minho spoke again. “i have an idea.”

“this is going to be great.” newt replied, sarcasm evident in his voice.

minho only smirked, before pointing at you, alone, in the kitchen. “go to her now, and i’ll distract the others.”

“how are you supposed to control fifty boys in a couple of minutes, when it’s took me three years to do so?” newt questioned, one hand on his hip.

“trust me. i have my ways.”

newt glared at him. “don’t you dare, threaten them.”

“i won’t, newton.” minho laughed, as newt cringed at the nickname.

“go go go!” minho urged, pushing the boy more towards to kitchen making him sigh, as he walked to the kitchen.

“right, listen hear you shanks!” minho shouted, as newt walked away, making him roll his eyes, before he entered the kitchen. you looked up from cutting vegetables, smiling slightly.

“why is minho shouting at everyone?”

“er, no idea.” newt lied.

“okay,” you placed the knife down carefully, “what do you want to tell me?”

newt’s nerves suddenly came back, nearly making him sick. “erm...”

“it’s okay newt, you can tell me anything.” you spoke softly, placing your hands on his, hoping to calm him down but it did the exact opposite.

“okay...y/n, your my bestfriend. i wouldn’t be who i am today without you helping me through...everything. and i-i don’t know when but, i’ve started to feel something. what i’m basically saying is, that i am in lov-“

“hey, newt?” thomas questioned cutting newt off, as he walked into the kitchen, clearly oblivious to the conversation happening.

“what?!” newt shouted, making thomas jump and look at him.

“oh sorry did i inturrupt something?” he asked looking between you both, guilt flooding him, making newt’s angry expression soften.

“yeah, it’s fine though. what’s up?”

“i was just saying that minho and gally are fighting.”

you giggled, as newts eyes went wide. “what?”

“minho started to teach everyone how to protect themselves, and now they’re fighting.” he said simply, pointing outside. you and newt followed his finger, to see he was right.

in the middle of the glade, minho and gally were wrestling while everyone was cheering loudly. even alby was laughing- slightly.

“you’re shucking kidding me.” newt mumbled, leaving the kitchen insantly to stop whatever was happening.

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“did you do it?”

newt glared at minho, who was now in the med hut, with bruises all over his body, after his ‘training’ with gally.

“no. thanks to you being a complete and utter shank.”

minho only laughed slightly, angering newt more. if that was possible.

“it’s not funny minho. all day i’ve been bloody trying to tell y/n how i feel, but i can’t with fifty slintheads inturrupting me.”

minho looked at his friend, starting to feel slightly guilty. “sorry.”

newt sighed. “it’s okay, i-i just...it’s so annoying you know? the one time i finally have the guts to tell her that i love her, and the world won’t let me.”

“do it tonight?” minho asked, gesturing to the bonfire starting to be lit by a few boys.

newt nodded slightly, “i could do. unless one of you shanks cut me off.”

“i promise that by tonight you and y/n will be together.” minho cringed, as newt blushed at the idea of finally being with you.

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the fire in the middle of the glade, was lit, as it soared into the night sky, warming up everything around it. everyone had a glass of gally’s drink, securely in their hands, as they all laughed and talked.

you were stood next to thomas, laughing at something he said while newt was across the glade, watching and building up his confidence. the liquid from gally’s drink, nearly split over at how much he was shaking from nerves. he didn’t want to mess this up.

“newt! have you done it yet?” alby slurred, patting him on the back, as he pointed to your figure. newt only shook his head, scared that his voice will show how scared he was.

“go overrr to her!” he shouted.

newt handed alby his drink, causing the leader to laugh as he gulped the rest of it before walking away to get more alcohol. newt rolled his eyes, as he made his way over to you. his heart was panging so loudly, anyone could hear it. he barely had time to tell himself what he was going to say, before he found himself stood infront of you.

“oh hi newt.” you smiled, causing him to grin back.

“h-hi, can i speak to you please?”

thomas’ eyes went wide, as he realised what was about to happen, “oh my god, your doing it!”

if looks could kill, thomas would be dead right now.

“do what?” you inquired, looking between the pair.

yeah- newt was going to kill thomas.

“n-nothing, come on, let’s go.” newt spoke, before ushering you away, as thomas whispered ‘good luck’ down his ear.

once you and newt were away from everyone, you turned around to face him. “are you finally going to tell me what you’ve been wanting to tell me all day?”

“hopefully.”

you smiled, nodding slightly, as you waited for newt to say what has been on his mind. newt breathed in, mentally figuring out what he was going to say. he’s been panicking of actually trying to talk to you, he hasn’t even thought of how to word his feelings.

“iloveyoumorethanafriend.” newt spoke quickly, surpising himself at the sudden outburst.

“what?” you questioned, laughing slightly. you didn’t understand a word he just said.

“okay er, i love yo-“

“newt! your doing it! yes!” chuck shouted cutting him off. you glanced at chuck, furrowing your brows at what he meant causing the british boy’s anger to return.

“i swear to god, if a kid releases my feelings to her before i do.” newt thought, as chuck started dancing happily around the pair.

but, before chuck could even open his mouth, newt placed his hands on your cheeks turning your head to face him, before smashing his lips to yours, making your eyes go wide, but soon relaxing and returning the gesture. chuck’s chanting stopped, as he watched the pair infront of him; he gagged slightly before running away leaving you and the second in command to melt into each other. your hands wrapped around newt’s neck, as you played with the hairs on the back of his neck, while his hands moved from your cheeks to your waist pulling you closer- if that was possible. you pulled away after a couple of seconds, leaning your forehead against his as you both tried to catch your breaths, with your eyes closed.

“i’ve been wanting to do that for a long time.” newt spoke first, laughing slightly.

“i’m glad you’ve done it.” you laughed with him, as you opened his eyes, a faint blush creeping on your cheeks as newt was already looking at you. he brought one of his hands to your cheek, softly placing a peice of hair behind your ear.

“i love you, y/n. so much.” he smiled. your heart melted at the sight of him. he looked so happy- with all the stress of the maze being washed away from him insantly.

“i love you too. so much.”

newt beamed wider this time, glad you feel the same way, before he leaned down again ready to plant his lips on your again, but was cut off by minho patting him on the back.

“knew you had it in you, newton.” minho smirked, winking at you both, causing newt to see red again.

“if one more person inturrupts me today, your going into the pit for a year.” newt warned, glaring at minho, making you giggle. minho held up his hands, before turning around and walking away.

newt rolled his eyes, before turning to face you, all the anger evident in his eyes being washed away insantly. “right, where were we?”

“i think you were about to do this.”

and as you leaned in, placing your lips on his softly, you both drained all the cheers and claps from the gladers away, with only each other as the only thing in the world you truely cared about.

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the ending we deserved

summary- basically the title. james dashner is paying for my therapy bills.

warnings- some angst, fluff, (kinda) death cure spoliers!

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the sound of waves crashing against the shore rocks and laughter from survivors, was all you could hear as you looked out onto the horizon, while fiddling with a pendent from a necklace which was around your neck. you were so happy...lucky even to call the safe haven, home. your new home.

the amount of people you’ve lost from leaving the maze, through the scorch to even get to the safe haven will forever daunt you. so many people you have watched the life in their eyes, slowly fade away until they became limp. so many people who deserve to be here, but the world repays them like this. and with every thought, you constantly say the ones you love who are not here anymore. chuck. alby. winston. teresa.

newt was nearly on that list.

the list of people who are now carved on the rock in the middle of the safe haven. it breaks your heart, knowing that your boyfriend was so close to slipping away. so close. but, you luckily got to him in time with the serum. and then the cure was given to him from thomas. so, he’s alive. and he’s okay.

but, if he’s okay, how come you’re not?

“hey, love.”

you turned to meet the pair honey orbs looking down at you in adoration. the same pair, that caused you to fall head over heels in love with. you smiled, moving slightly so the blonde haired boy could sit next to you. he gladly took your offer, placing himself by your figure before leaning in to kiss you cheek quickly making you sigh in content, before he leaned back and followed your gaze to the ocean.

comfortable silence fell upon you both, as he intertwined his fingers with yours, squeezing it reassuringly every so often. looking down slightly, you caught the sight of a slight scar on his left arm, which was just visible under his jacket. you gulped loudly at the sight, immediately remembering where it came from.

newt looked down sheepishly, gripping onto his arm as he left the room you were all currently in. your eyes started to water, as you took in what happened. newt just...exploded. harsh words were thrown to thomas, who was just as confused as you were. newt was normally calm, and he never got angry so quickly, so this shocked you to the core. you couldn’t help but replay his words constantly in your head.

‘cause deep down you still care about her, don’t you? just admit it.

“i’ll go and speak to him.” thomas mumbled, after a couple of minutes of pure silence.

you were about to disagree, but thomas cut you off, “just me.”

your his girlfriend, for god’s sake. don’t you deserve to know what’s happening?

with a heavy heart, you nodded your head, silently telling him okay. you watched how thomas turned; left the room before climbing up a flight of stairs which newt went up just minutes before.

when he left, you breathed out heavily. you didn’t even realise how stressed you were until the action, as you felt your hands starting to shake. you had no idea what was up with newt. you needed to know what’s up.

“y/n,” brenda whispered, “i think you should sit down.”

you glanced at her, noticing how her face was filled with worry as she took in your pale figure.

“yeah, you don’t look good.” gally commented.

“n-no,” you stammered, “i’m going to see what’s happening.”

you walked out the room, ignoring the calls of disagreement from your friends, as you climbed up the stairs, while your heart was beating heavily with each step you took. you eventually arrived at the roof, but you froze once you saw newt sat on the edge with thomas kneeling beside him. you were about to speak, but stopped yourself as you listened to what they were saying.

“sorry about that back there, tommy.” newt spoke, looking at him. you’re sure that he must of saw you a couple of feet away, but he looked down again, clearly oblivious to the figure behind him.

“guess i can’t hide this anymore.” he added.

and when he rolled up his sleeve, revealing dark veins crawling up his arm, you’re sure you heard your heart shatter.

“why didn’t you tell me?”

newt glanced at thomas, “didn’t think it would make any difference.”

“what?” you spoke, causing the boys to instantly turn to look at you, eyes wide. newt sighed in deafeat, once he realised it was you; as he looked back down at his hands.

“it makes all the difference newt!” you carried on, walking towards him. thomas got up and left you both alone, but you were too bothered on your boyfriend to notice.

“why didn’t you tell me?” you pleaded, sitting down next to him.

he looked at you, smiling sadly, “because i knew you would react like this.”

“i only react like this, because i care about you. so much.”

he brought his thumb up to your cheek, wiping away tears softly, you didn’t even realise were falling until the action, “i’m sorry i didn’t tell you sooner.”

you nodded, brining his hand into yours, “we’ll get you the serum newt, i-i promise-“

“no,” he cut off, “we worry about rescuing minho first, then me. yeah?”

you shook your head, “i’m sorry, no. you need to serum.”

“don’t worry about me, sweetheart. minho needs us. so, if there is even the slightest chance that we can save him, that we can get him out of there, then we have to take that. no matter what the cost.”

you bit your lip, “okay, i hear you. but, then afterwards you are having that serum.”

“okay.”

“what’s that pretty head of yours thinking about, hm?” newt questioned, brining you out of your thoughts. you turned to face him, smiling as he was already looking at you.

“nothing.”

he giggled, and you swear you’ve never heard anything so pure before, “i can tell when your lying, darling. i know you like the back of my bloody hand.”

you sighed, releasing your hands from his to take his arm in yours, rolling the sleeve up slightly so the scar was revealed, before you stroked it slightly, “i saw some of this scar, a-and it just brought back memories to when i first found out you were infected.”

you didn’t miss the way newt’s eyes faltered, and the way he froze under your touch at your words. not only has newt nearly dying affected you, but it also affected him massively. he felt like he was two completely different people, who were fighting each other constantly to see who will win and become newt.

“i’m sorry, i know this is a difficult subject-“

“hey,” he inturrupted, “it’s okay. it was hard on both of us. but, i’m fine, y/n.”

he took your hand, and placed it on his beating heart as he looked at you deeply, “i’m okay.”

tears welled up in your eyes, “i know your okay, but-“

and at that you completely broke down into harsh sobs. newt’s eyes went wide, immediately wrapping his arms around you; pulling you more towards him, as you cried heavily into his chest. he stroked your back, trying to calm you down.

minutes passed, and the tears stopped, but you were still cuddled into newt’s chest, as his fingers threaded through your hair softly. you pulled away, frowning at the sight of a wet patch on newt’s shirt, from where you were crying.

“i’m sorry.” you mumbled, tracing the mark.

“y/n,” he whispered, bringing his hand up to your chin and moving it to face him, “never apologise for letting your emotions out. especially in-front of me.”

“i know,” you nodded, “i-i know your okay, but you mean too much to me, newt. i never want to loose you. i never want to live without you.”

“and you will never live without me. we’re finally safe here, love. we can live a normal life, if there was ever such a thing.” newt assured.

“but, i can’t help but remember what happened that night. you...were a completely different person. and i can’t help but think of what could of happened, if i didn’t get the serum to you on time and-“

“stop,” he cut you off, placing his hands on your cheeks so you can look at him, “i’m alive. i’m okay. you need to stop thinking about what could of happened, yeah?”

“yeah.” you agreed, looking at him.

“good that.”

he leaned in and placed his lips against yours. even though he pulled away a couple of seconds later, you couldn’t help but butterflies to form in your stomach at the action. despite being together for years, newt could still make you feel how you felt when you first saw him in the maze.

“i love you, y/n. so much.”

you beamed, “i love you too. so much.”

and as he wrapped his arm around you, pulling you closer towards him, as you placed your head in his chest, you realised how you were finally okay.

if you had newt, you will be okay.

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a/n- i’m in my sad newt feelings, and i needed to vent so i wrote this at 1am crying into my tea✌️ thank you for reading though :)

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the ending we deserved

summary- basically the title. james dashner is paying for my therapy bills.

warnings- some angst, fluff, (kinda) death cure spoliers!

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the sound of waves crashing against the shore rocks and laughter from survivors, was all you could hear as you looked out onto the horizon, while fiddling with a pendent from a necklace which was around your neck. you were so happy...lucky even to call the safe haven, home. your new home.

the amount of people you’ve lost from leaving the maze, through the scorch to even get to the safe haven will forever daunt you. so many people you have watched the life in their eyes, slowly fade away until they became limp. so many people who deserve to be here, but the world repays them like this. and with every thought, you constantly say the ones you love who are not here anymore. chuck. alby. winston. teresa.

newt was nearly on that list.

the list of people who are now carved on the rock in the middle of the safe haven. it breaks your heart, knowing that your boyfriend was so close to slipping away. so close. but, you luckily got to him in time with the serum. and then the cure was given to him from thomas. so, he’s alive. and he’s okay.

but, if he’s okay, how come you’re not?

“hey, love.”

you turned to meet the pair honey orbs looking down at you in adoration. the same pair, that caused you to fall head over heels in love with. you smiled, moving slightly so the blonde haired boy could sit next to you. he gladly took your offer, placing himself by your figure before leaning in to kiss you cheek quickly making you sigh in content, before he leaned back and followed your gaze to the ocean.

comfortable silence fell upon you both, as he intertwined his fingers with yours, squeezing it reassuringly every so often. looking down slightly, you caught the sight of a slight scar on his left arm, which was just visible under his jacket. you gulped loudly at the sight, immediately remembering where it came from.

newt looked down sheepishly, gripping onto his arm as he left the room you were all currently in. your eyes started to water, as you took in what happened. newt just...exploded. harsh words were thrown to thomas, who was just as confused as you were. newt was normally calm, and he never got angry so quickly, so this shocked you to the core. you couldn’t help but replay his words constantly in your head.

‘cause deep down you still care about her, don’t you? just admit it.

“i’ll go and speak to him.” thomas mumbled, after a couple of minutes of pure silence.

you were about to disagree, but thomas cut you off, “just me.”

your his girlfriend, for god’s sake. don’t you deserve to know what’s happening?

with a heavy heart, you nodded your head, silently telling him okay. you watched how thomas turned; left the room before climbing up a flight of stairs which newt went up just minutes before.

when he left, you breathed out heavily. you didn’t even realise how stressed you were until the action, as you felt your hands starting to shake. you had no idea what was up with newt. you needed to know what’s up.

“y/n,” brenda whispered, “i think you should sit down.”

you glanced at her, noticing how her face was filled with worry as she took in your pale figure.

“yeah, you don’t look good.” gally commented.

“n-no,” you stammered, “i’m going to see what’s happening.”

you walked out the room, ignoring the calls of disagreement from your friends, as you climbed up the stairs, while your heart was beating heavily with each step you took. you eventually arrived at the roof, but you froze once you saw newt sat on the edge with thomas kneeling beside him. you were about to speak, but stopped yourself as you listened to what they were saying.

“sorry about that back there, tommy.” newt spoke, looking at him. you’re sure that he must of saw you a couple of feet away, but he looked down again, clearly oblivious to the figure behind him.

“guess i can’t hide this anymore.” he added.

and when he rolled up his sleeve, revealing dark veins crawling up his arm, you’re sure you heard your heart shatter.

“why didn’t you tell me?”

newt glanced at thomas, “didn’t think it would make any difference.”

“what?” you spoke, causing the boys to instantly turn to look at you, eyes wide. newt sighed in deafeat, once he realised it was you; as he looked back down at his hands.

“it makes all the difference newt!” you carried on, walking towards him. thomas got up and left you both alone, but you were too bothered on your boyfriend to notice.

“why didn’t you tell me?” you pleaded, sitting down next to him.

he looked at you, smiling sadly, “because i knew you would react like this.”

“i only react like this, because i care about you. so much.”

he brought his thumb up to your cheek, wiping away tears softly, you didn’t even realise were falling until the action, “i’m sorry i didn’t tell you sooner.”

you nodded, brining his hand into yours, “we’ll get you the serum newt, i-i promise-“

“no,” he cut off, “we worry about rescuing minho first, then me. yeah?”

you shook your head, “i’m sorry, no. you need to serum.”

“don’t worry about me, sweetheart. minho needs us. so, if there is even the slightest chance that we can save him, that we can get him out of there, then we have to take that. no matter what the cost.”

you bit your lip, “okay, i hear you. but, then afterwards you are having that serum.”

“okay.”

“what’s that pretty head of yours thinking about, hm?” newt questioned, brining you out of your thoughts. you turned to face him, smiling as he was already looking at you.

“nothing.”

he giggled, and you swear you’ve never heard anything so pure before, “i can tell when your lying, darling. i know you like the back of my bloody hand.”

you sighed, releasing your hands from his to take his arm in yours, rolling the sleeve up slightly so the scar was revealed, before you stroked it slightly, “i saw some of this scar, a-and it just brought back memories to when i first found out you were infected.”

you didn’t miss the way newt’s eyes faltered, and the way he froze under your touch at your words. not only has newt nearly dying affected you, but it also affected him massively. he felt like he was two completely different people, who were fighting each other constantly to see who will win and become newt.

“i’m sorry, i know this is a difficult subject-“

“hey,” he inturrupted, “it’s okay. it was hard on both of us. but, i’m fine, y/n.”

he took your hand, and placed it on his beating heart as he looked at you deeply, “i’m okay.”

tears welled up in your eyes, “i know your okay, but-“

and at that you completely broke down into harsh sobs. newt’s eyes went wide, immediately wrapping his arms around you; pulling you more towards him, as you cried heavily into his chest. he stroked your back, trying to calm you down.

minutes passed, and the tears stopped, but you were still cuddled into newt’s chest, as his fingers threaded through your hair softly. you pulled away, frowning at the sight of a wet patch on newt’s shirt, from where you were crying.

“i’m sorry.” you mumbled, tracing the mark.

“y/n,” he whispered, bringing his hand up to your chin and moving it to face him, “never apologise for letting your emotions out. especially in-front of me.”

“i know,” you nodded, “i-i know your okay, but you mean too much to me, newt. i never want to loose you. i never want to live without you.”

“and you will never live without me. we’re finally safe here, love. we can live a normal life, if there was ever such a thing.” newt assured.

“but, i can’t help but remember what happened that night. you...were a completely different person. and i can’t help but think of what could of happened, if i didn’t get the serum to you on time and-“

“stop,” he cut you off, placing his hands on your cheeks so you can look at him, “i’m alive. i’m okay. you need to stop thinking about what could of happened, yeah?”

“yeah.” you agreed, looking at him.

“good that.”

he leaned in and placed his lips against yours. even though he pulled away a couple of seconds later, you couldn’t help but butterflies to form in your stomach at the action. despite being together for years, newt could still make you feel how you felt when you first saw him in the maze.

“i love you, y/n. so much.”

you beamed, “i love you too. so much.”

and as he wrapped his arm around you, pulling you closer towards him, as you placed your head in his chest, you realised how you were finally okay.

if you had newt, you will be okay.

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a/n- i’m in my sad newt feelings, and i needed to vent so i wrote this at 1am crying into my tea✌️ thank you for reading though :)

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summary- what happens when you get trapped in the maze for the night, with your best friend who you are also in love with?

warnings- swearing, angst, fluff

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“i can’t believe you, newt.” you mumbled, running your hands through your hair in stress, as you paced around.

“what did you expect me to do? let you get killed on your own?!” he replied, arms extended as what he did was right and necessary.

“know we’re both going to get bloody killed! so, well done!” you screeched, wincing as it echoed of the concrete walls of the maze.

yes. that’s right. you and your idiot best friend were trapped in the maze for the night. your last night on earth.

it was your own fault that you arrived back at the entrance late. you were only supposed to stay in section two for the day, but decided to venture to section three to see if you could see any clues to get out of here. and of course, time passed quickly and you realised you only had just under an hour to get back to the glade. it normally takes you an hour to get back.

you ran. faster than you have ever ran. like your life depended on it. well, it did.

as you arrived at the entrance, your breathing weak from how far you travelled, your heart dropped at the sight of the walls nearly closed. you stopped running, leaning down to place your hands on your knees as you looked at the ground, already excepting your fate. you were going to be trapped in the maze overnight.

however, shouts from the glade cut you out of your thoughts. of course, they were shouting at you to hurry up and run, but this was a different kind of shouting. it was as if they were saying someone’s name, that wasn’t yours.

“don’t you dare do it, newt.”

“newt. no.”

“i’ll shucking knock you out if you move one step, newt.”

was a few of the numerous words you heard. but, before you could even process what they meant, the gladers erupted into a loud racket as you finally looked up, ignoring the pain of the blood rushing to your head suddenly.

your stomach dropped, at the sight of newt breathing out rapidly who was stood in front of you as the sound of the concrete walls boomed to a close behind you.

and here you were, trying to tell your div of a friend how stupid he was to run into the maze.

“well, aren’t i bloody sorry for coming in to help my best friend, hey?” he spat, sarcasm dripping off his lips.

you stopped, rushing towards his figure before pushing him into the wall harshly, making him yelp at the force, “you don’t bloody get it newt, do you? we’re dead. dead. so, if you say that your excuse to running into the maze was to ‘save me’, you can shuck off. because nothing we or you or i can do, to keep us alive.”

“you would of done the same,” he mumbled, looking into your eyes deeply, “admit it, y/n. if it was me, you would of ran in.”

you glanced down, taking a step back away from him, as you let your arms fall to your sides. you both knew the answer was yes. but, if anything happened to him, you wouldn’t know what to do. you truly care for newt. more than a friend normally would.

“we can at least try and live, right? your not going to give up now are you? come on, your one of the best runners. we can’t give up, y/n.” he inquired.

you sighed, “we can try. but, i don’t have that much hope that we will survive. even if we don’t die here, the gladers will kill us themselves.”

he scoffed, “especially minho.”

you were about to laugh, which you would never expect to do despite the current circumstances, you were currently in, before a low groan and the click of metal whirring in the distance, was heard. grievers.

“shit.” you mumbled, eyes wide as you looked down corridors to try and see where the monster was.

“shit. shit. shit.” you chanted, as your heart beat started to quicken.

“hey, y/n. relax, okay?” newt spoke softly, walking towards your shaking figure.

“we’re going to die newt.”

he placed his hands on your arms, rubbing them slightly to calm your nerves, “well at least we’ll bloody die together, ‘ey?”

you rolled your eyes.

“remember i was a runner once. we’ll hopefully be okay.” he carried on, making you nod before your eyes went wide at his words.

“oh my god, your leg! will you be okay running on it?” you questioned.

he shrugged, “i’ll be fine.”

“you sure?”

“yeah-“

a high pitched screech cut him off, as you both whipped your head to the left which is where the sound came from. the sound of the griever, was getting closer and closer to you both as each second passed.

“should we go?” newt whispered, with his hands still on your shoulders.

“no, newt. let’s stay here and wait for the griever, yeah? what a good idea.” you replied, sarcasm laced in your voice making newt roll his eyes.

“i think we should go.”

“yeah, i think so too.”

insantly, you turned around and started to run in the opposite direction of the griever. the sun was behind the tall concrete walls by now, and you could hardly see what was in-front of you, only the faint outlines off walls and ivy.

“y/n.” you heard newt speak, but before you could turn around and face him, he grabbed your waist pushing you underneath a gap in the wall, before he climbed under, as he lied behind you.

“what the bloody hell are you-“

he cut you off, with clasping his hand over your mouth, causing you to furrow your brows in confusion at his sudden action. but, the low growl of a griever walking slowly past the wall you were under, answered your question instantly. you froze, scared that it could hear your quickened heart beat.

you couldn’t help but let your mind wander to newt, who was still behind you with his hand over your mouth. you know you shouldn’t be bothered about how close you both are; the feeling of his hot breath tickling the back of your neck. you know you should be scared of the griever strolling past right in front of you. and even though you are, you can’t help but allow your thoughts to lead back to newt.

they always lead back to the blonde haired boy.

you shouldn’t feel this way to a best friend. you shouldn’t allow your eyes to linger on his figure after he speaks or laughs. you shouldn’t stop stuttering or feeling nervous around someone who you’ve been close with since you came up into the box. but, you do. because you love him more than a friend.

you try to think of him as a brother. everyone else in the glade, is like a brother to you. but, you can’t think of newt in that way. no matter how hard you try to, you just can’t.

“think it’s gone.” newt whispered, suddenly bringing you back to reality.

you rolled out into the corridor of the maze, looking down to see if there was anymore grievers; you sighed, relief flooding you at the sight of the corridor empty. newt crawled out after, standing up before helping you up to your feet to. mumbling a quick thanks, you both looked to the left and right again, double checking that the monsters aren’t leaking around the corner.

“it’s gone. for now.” you spoke, making newt hum in agreement.

“come on, we should start moving.” he ordered, before walking to the right suddenly. you looked to the left one more time, before jogging slightly to catch up to him.

“i still can’t believe your here,” you mumbled, shaking your head slightly, “i would of been fine on my own.”

“i know you would of. but, i didn’t want you to be alone.” newt replied.

you glanced at him, “what’s that supposed to mean?”

you noticed the way he hesitated to answer your question, looking at you slightly, “err, it means nothing.”

turning to the left down another corridor, you furrowed your brows at how strange the boy was acting. “there’s more to why you ran in. what is it?”

“it’s nothing.”

you sighed, “come on, newt. you can tell me anything, you know?”

“i know, but,” he gulped, “it’s nothing.”

“tell mee,” you begged, smiling slightly, “it’ll only be me hearing it. unless grievers can hear?”

he laughed, “doubt it.”

“tell me.”

he stopped walking; turned to face you, “y/n i-“

a griever screeching cut him off instantly, as you both looked down the corridor. your eyes went wide, at the sight of the monster roaring at you both just a couple of feet away, before it started to run towards you both, it’s metal feet clicking against the concrete floor.

“run!” you screamed, grabbing newt’s arm to turn him around as you both started to run as fast as you could.

running corner after corner, your legs were weak from spending the entire day in the maze, but you kept on checking on newt, who was just behind you. you could tell his limp was slowing him down, so you grabbed his hand causing him to speed up a bit.

you had no idea where you were. all you knew was that you were turning left. then right. then left again. right. it was a never ending cycle, but the griever was still behind you not once loosing speed.

“we need to split up.” newt breathed out, and you could barely hear him over the griever whining behind you.

“what?! no, newt that’s a terrible idea.” you screeched.

before he could reply he turned right down another corridor, running down it leaving you, alone.

“shit.” you mumbled, turning to the left and running away from the blonde haired boy, who unbeknownst to you, looked behind him to see your figure one last time before running around the corner.

you must of been running for hours, before you finally started to walk. the griever was long gone, but you could still hear other ones in the distant. your head was pulsing with a headache, and your legs were weak. but, you kept moving. for survival. and for newt.

you haven’t seen him or heard him, since he was an idiot and ran the other way. you can’t help yourself but think of him. what if his limp has became worse and he can’t run properly? what if he’s tired? what if a griever saw him and...

no. you can’t think like that. he has to be okay. he has to.

suddenly, you stopped leaning against the wall surrounding you before you fell to the floor with your head in your knees. you tried to calm your nerves down, but you couldn’t help as some tears rolled down your cheeks. brushing them away, you looked up to the sky. it was still dark, however, you could see some light from the sun seeping it’s way over the walls. but, it would probably be at least an hour before it became morning.

something out of the corner of your eye, brought your attention back to earth as you looked at the object leaning against the wall, just opposite you. titling your head to the side, you stood up walking over, before kneeling down to get a better look.

picking it up, it looked like a jacket of some sort, but it was covered it mud and some patches of blood. you recognised it from someone. you don’t know where, but you are sure you’ve seen someone where it. or maybe you wore it.

but, as you thought about who it could belong to, you froze. your heart dropped. your throat tightened, as you remembered the owner. it’s newts.

he’s dead.

“no.” you sobbed, brining your head into his jacket as your body shook with the heavy weight of guilt.

if you hadn’t of been an idiot, and not gone into section three you would of made it back in time, which means newt wouldn’t of ran in, and he would of been safe in the glade.

but, you didn’t make it back in time.

and it’s your fault that he’s dead.

it’s all your fault-

“y/n?”

you head whipped up at the sound of a british accent, and you sighed contently at the sight of newt who was alive, looking down at you.

he smiled, but frowned once he saw your fresh tears, “what’s up? we made it.”

“i-i thought you died.” you croaked, showing him the jacket which was in your hands.

“oh, y/n,” he laughed, kneeling down to wrap you in a hug, “i only did that to find my way back to this place. there’s other bits of rocks or leaves around, to help us find out way back to the glade. which is bloody stupid seem so the maze is covered in rocks and leaves, but-“

you placed your hands on his cheeks, pulling him into a kiss, which immediately cut him off. you felt his body stiffen, but it soon relaxed as he started to kiss you back, while placing his hands on your waist pulling you more towards him. seconds passed, and you pulled back, both of you smiling like idiots, as you starred deeply into each other’s eyes.

“i’ve been wanting to do that for a while.” you giggled.

“i’m glad you’ve bloody done it.”

“i really do love you, newt. i have since i first met you, but i’ve just been too shucking scared to do anything about it.”

“funny that, ‘cause i really love you too.”

you beamed, before he pulled you into another kiss, mumbling ‘i love you’ over and over against your lips causing you to giggle, but you both never pulled apart.

“well, isn’t this shucking nice ‘ey?”

you pulled away immediately, eyes wide at the voice, as you both turned to see minho, with his arms on his hips starring angrily at you both.

“i can’t bloody believe you two!” he exclaimed, arms now extended as he paced around. you noticed the other runners behind him, just stood watching him carefully. you had to stifle a laugh.

“why do you think that it’s okay to run into the maze, newt? your the shucking second in commander, and you went against our rules. the rules that keep us together!” he yelled.

newt sighed, intertwining his hands with yours before standing up, while pulling you up with him.

“i only ran in to help y/n. i love her, okay? so, you can’t except me to stand around, and watch the bloody doors close on her, can you?” newt replied.

“yes, i can. because that’s why we made the rules in the first place!”

“minho, stop it,” you spoke, “if you should blame anyone, it should be me. if i didn’t wander off the section three, i would of made it back in time. it’s my fault newt ran into the maze.”

minho stopped pacing around, turning to face you , “don’t worry. i’m blaming both of you. you’re going to be spending a long time in the slammer. both of you. maybe at least two months, maybe less if your lucky...”

you smiled zoning out from what minho was saying, to glance at newt who was already looking at you, clearly not listening to what the glader was saying too.

“better than getting killed by him, ey’?”

“guess so.”

as long as you were with newt, you would be fine. even if you were going to spend a long time in the slammers, at least you’ll be with the blonde haired boy.

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a/n- thanks for reading this imagine! i have so many imagine ideas, so i’ll be posting a lot soon :)

also the name of this imagine is sooo bad i’m sorry

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more than anything

summary- one serum. two people infected. who will live and who will die?

warnings- angst, if you have not watched/read the death cure don’t read this, some fluff, mainly angst

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stopping, you couldn’t help but a hoarse cough escape your quivering lips, as you made in through the last city, to your ride out of here. you could feel your brain starting to turn, into a crank. veins were starting to appear in your skin, and your eyes were becoming bloodshot. you were infected. but, you weren’t the only one.

when you found that your boyfriend, newt, was infected too, it felt as if someone ripped your heart out before crushing it into millions of pieces. you didn’t care that you had the flare. you only cared about newt.

you screamed. cried. when he showed you his arm, after yelling at thomas over teresa. you knew getting minho back was important to him, but you would never expected him to be so angry. you would never expected him to have the flare.

he was upset when he found out you were infected as well. but, he promised how after minho he’ll get you the serum. no matter what. you didn’t agree. he deserves it more than you do, and if you tell him this it would cause an argument. you didn’t want to argue with him.

and now, as you wrapped your arms around newt’s limp body as you carried him through the heat scorching of the explosions, you were suddenly overcome with energy to get to the berg for the serum. for newt.

he was way worse than you. his skin was clammy, as prominent veins were starting to grow. his breaths were ragged. he begged you all to leave him, while he coughed weakly each time. it’s as if every step he took, the closer he became to turning fully into a crank. the weaker he became. and it hurt you. despite the physical pain you felt, you couldn’t help but the tears fall down at your boyfriends appearance. this shouldn’t be happening to him. he deserves better than this.

thomas placed him down against a wall, as he struggled to carry him. you breathed out heavily, watching as newt began to speak but was abruptly cut off by a weak cough, while blood splattered from his lips.

“minho, gally, go ahead and get the serum and meet us back.” thomas ordered, making minho nod in agreement.

“thank you,” newt panted, shaking his hand slightly, “thank you, minho.”

“you bloody hang on alright.” minho sternly spoke, as he stood up.

“you too, y/n.” newt mumbled, as blood drooled down his chin. he never once looked up to meet your terrified eyes.

“n-no. i’m not leaving you. we’re in this-“

“y/n!” he roared finally looking at you, eyes filled with darkness, before it suddenly faded as he placed his hand weakly on your cheek, stroking a tear away, “please, sweetheart.”

you leaned in to kiss his lips softly, scared that this could be the last time. you ignored the pain soaring through your body, and the taste of newt’s blood against your lips, as you both melted into each other, trying to savour this feeling of being together. pulling away, you mumbled an ‘i love you’, which he was about to return before coughing again, blood dripping onto the floor to the left of him.

before you could even process what was happening, minho got you to your feet as gally covered you both, while you ran to the berg. to brenda. to the serum.

“brenda! where’s the serum!” you screeched, ignoring the ache in your throat. she ran into the berg, collecting the anecdote, handing it to you, before you turned instantly; ran towards newt and thomas. there was only one serum. and it had to be for newt.

dodging explosions and bullets, you ran as fast as you could, with minho and gally behind you. suddenly, a car exploded right infront of you, causing you to fall back at the power. minho ended up next to you, checking if you were okay, which you nodded weakly in return. breathing out heavily, blood started to trickle down your chin from your mouth, but you ignored it.

“y/n, you need to serum.” minho spoke, as he took in your appearance, which was starting to become like newt’s.

“no. newt needs it more.”

he shook his head, “you both need it. but, i-i promised newt you would get it. please. he would want you-“

“no!” you screamed, anger bubbling inside you, “newt is the love of my life. he deserves it.”

“if you don’t get the serum, you’ll die.” he spoke sternly, urging you to take it.

“but so will newt!” you screeched.

before minho could reply, or even inject you with the serum, you got up; started running towards newt and thomas. your legs were begging you to stop, as your stomach did flips. every time your foot hit the ground, jolts of pain rushed through you. it was a never ending cycle of agony.

eventually, you arrived at a run down building, to see newt punching thomas. you could tell he didn’t want to fight back. even though newt was turning into a crank, thomas still cared deeply for him. without hesitation, you ran up to newt, about to inject the serum into his neck, but he must of heard your footsteps, turning around insantly. your breath hitched, at the dark veins bulging out of his skin, but that’s all you could process before he grabbed your shoulders, and pushed you to the ground. a slight yelp left your lips, as the air in your lungs were knocked out of you as you hit the floor harshly, before newt climbed on top of you, ready to punch you in the jaw. but, as if he had some of his normal self left, he froze.

“y/n? oh my god, i’m so sorry, darling.” he sobbed, placing his hands delicately on your cheek.

“it’s okay,” you smiled, “newt, you need to serum.”

“y/n, no you need it. more than me.” he replied, shaking his head.

“newt,” you whispered, stroking his hair out of his face, “please.”

“no. you need to be happy. you need to live your life.” he begged.

“okay.”

“promise?”

you nodded, “promise.”

he smiled, whispering a thank you before leaning over to take the serum out of your hands to inject into you. but, suddenly, you wrapped your legs around his waist, flipping him around so he was beneath you. before, he could even realise what you were doing, you stabbed the serum into his neck, the blue liquid seeping into his body as he screamed ‘no’, causing it to echo into the city for everyone to hear his heartbreak. you breathed out, joy overcoming you as you watched the veins in his face and neck, slowly starting to fade, ignoring the wails of disagreement pass his lips.

“why would you do that?” he yelled, tears falling uncontrollably.

“y/n, i-“ thomas stood behind, eyes wide at what he just witnessed.

“because i love you.” you beamed, never once leaving newt’s orbs which were starting to become blue again.

he sobbed, “you promised, y/n. you promised.”

“i’m sorry, i couldn’t watch you turn into one of those things.” you mumbled, leaning down to kiss his forehead.

“and you think i can watch you turn into one of those things?”

you shook your head, “you don’t have to. kill me.”

he froze, “w-what?”

“no,” you heard thomas speak behind again, “there’s got to be another way. there’s got to be another serum.”

“there’s not!” you yelled, looking at thomas before relaxing, “there’s not.”

“i don’t believe you. we can still save you-“

“if you ever loved me, you wouldn’t let me turn into a crank. you would kill me.” you quivered, cutting newt off, looking back at him.

“you can’t ask me to do this.”

“newt.” you bawled, already feeling yourself slipping away. you saw a gun, laying on the ground next to him, before you leant over, picking it up while you met newt’s teary eyes.

“i-i can’t. you-“

you inturrupted him, with placing your finger on his lip, “please, newt. please.”

he took the gun out of your hands, locking his eyes with yours before lifting the weapon up, with the barrel aiming at your head. your breath hitched, as you intertwined your fingers with his, squeezing it slightly.

“live your life, darling. find someone, okay? don’t be ashamed to love someone else, you bloody hear me?” you cried, as the gun in his hand started to shake.

“okay.”

“i love you,” you whispered, tears falling down your cheek, “more than anything.”

“i love you too. more than anything.”

and with his heart falling into a black abyss, newt pulled the trigger.

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a/n- bit of a sad one to post after not posting in agesss! also, i’m nearly at 700 followers which is insaneee, so thank you so much🥺

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