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haven't spoken about cobra kai s6 part 2 so leave your thoughts in my inbox!

so my work crush does have a gf...

why can't he just talk about her? it leads me to believe he doesn't like her and it's like ahhhh. things would be so much easier if he talked about her.

but i figure i gotta start dating elsewhere. scared though cause i've never dated anyone before

didn't get to work with work crush today because he was subbing for a full timer but it's okay cause before we got up to work we were talking and he said he'd come with me to comic con if i get accepted to be a vendor there! he was also teasing me here and there heehee

talked to work crush today and we're gossiping about coworkers and their relationships.

i say "i don't get people who stay in relationships even though they're unhappy." and what does he respond with???

he side eyes and hesitates before he says "yeah." am i looking too deeply into it? am i being delusional that this is him thinking about being unhappy with his gf?

an update!

woah, it's been a minute since i've posted on here. what's new?

i'm officially a published author! yay! i have been for a little bit now but i wanted to share that on here. still working as a part-time custodian which has been meh...at least during the summer. summer was it's own thing. i've been back working after school hours so it's been nice. i like the people who work there, they're all fun. especially work crush hehe

but let me tell you! he literally doesn't talk about his gf ever! like that's weird right? especially when he talks about his family and other people in his life. only other people at work bring up his gf and even then he doesn't sound too thrilled to be talking about her. and it's only feeding into my delusions that he wants me lol. but seriously, we joke around, he opens up to me, and i caught him staring at me a few times so it's like hmmm just talk about your gf dude so i get over liking you. it's not even a crush at this point because i know i like him, like like-like him, y'know?

he's charismatic, he's helpful, he's responsible, he's funny, and he smells so freaking good! i'm not even kidding, the control i have on my impulsive thoughts should be rewarded because whenever he's close (which he is a lot) i just want to shove my face and breathe him in. that's how good he smells. my friend says it's the cartoon pie smell and iykyk. he also likes my graphic tshirts and really likes one specifically. i also noticed we mirror movements a lot and he does that eyebrow flash whenever we talk. the eye contact is unreal. he also doesn't like to read but when i brought up that i do he started talking about how he likes to read non-fiction??? like that's interesting right? i know he has a gf but why doesn't he talk about her??? all the other guys at work talk about their gfs and they're young too. so wtf?

i would love it if yall sent in asks for me to talk more about him lol but also tell me whats new with you all!

as for getting back to my eli series...it will happen. i'm figuring things out right now. i'm reading the series to see what i have written and i might change things around but i hope you all know that i will continue it! s6 part 2 is also coming out so that's exciting!

this is going to be controversial but this fandom is very perverted....i just wanted to see if I could find some new eli fics to celebrate the release of s6 but tell me why the tag is filled with so much smut?!

these characters are canonically MINORS! it makes me feel so gross that there are explicit fics with photos of these literal children on them! xolo, gianni, and jacob were under 18 when cobra kai started, doesn't it make you feel gross that the face of your smutty fic is a child?

i wanted to keep my mouth shut on it but like c'mon. can't we do better?

please check my latest update, it'll explain why it's on hold!

I CANT KEEP THIS BOY OUT OF MY HEAD

another update

hi everyone! here for a little update on my life!

i have a new hyper fixation with owen teague (loved him since IT) and that sent me down a spiral of rewatching the Planet of the Apes which led to finding my new favorite movies. The writing is incredible and watching the behind the scenes has been my favorite thing ever! I saw Kingdom in theaters and I plan to see it again. Besides Owen Teague being my new obsession, I've also been working and I will be switching to full-time next week (pray for me) so I will have even less time than I had now. On top of that, my publishing process for my book is going and I'm in the editing process so that is calling my attention. Which means What We Used to Be will continue to be on hold. Though, I can't wait for Part 1 of S6 to come out! I'm hoping that will give me a little bit of inspiration to get a clear idea of how I want the story to go! But thank you all for being patient! It means a lot!

Now, what I really want to get into detail about hehe. That guy I mentioned a bit ago, my coworker who's engaged? Well apparently he isn't...he just has a girlfriend. And it freaking sucks! Happy for them but sad for me because whenever we work together it's just so nice and amazing! Butterflies in my stomach and he's strong too since we have to pick heavy things up and he helps when its too heavy for me! 😭😭😭 he laughs at my jokes, he's kind, and he's a little tease. since i literally have no interaction with anyone, it's really hard for me to tell myself he's not being flirty, he's just being funny and platonic. oh, he also smells really good. but if like a year down the line he's single, i really hope that's my time to shine. unless the universe is like "no, babe, he's not for you." then i'm okay with that too. i guess it's just nice to interact to someone other than my family and friends.

also this old dude at work is notorious for being a creep but he means no harm he just has a neurological issue. though it's a reason not an excuse. anyway, the other day he freaking rubbed my arm weird and i reacted by flinching away and my other coworkers (guys plus the dude i'm crushing on) saw and immediately were like "don't touch her!" things were left as that, he just rubbed my arm, big deal. i'd rather leave it alone then pursue it to HR. BUT if he groped me or some shit, then yeah, I'll immediately go to HR. I thought it'd be left as that, you know, I vented to my bsf who works there too and it helped. And the guys were cracking jokes in hope that it'd distract me and I felt comfortable cracking a joke here and there too, BUT NO! One of the guys who witnessed keeps telling people what happened. One of the maintenance workers was like "is she gonna pursue?" and apparently people are talking? it's stressful cause I just want to put this under the rug. but yeah, I'm fine. he's a creepy dude but i honestly don't think his issue allows him to understand what he's doing is weird, even though he is....idk. but also my work crush asked if I wanted to talk about it.

i just hope my work crush treats his girl right and i hope she's a nice girl too.