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michelle | 23 | she/her | ao3 | scared of fire yet obsessed with the firefighter show

hi there! i'm michelle, 23, she/her! i like to read and write and watch our silly not-so-little firefighter show <3

my asks are open and i'm always happy to chat about 911, share some fic recs - or general book recs - or just say hi. writing prompts are also very much welcome!

i have a couple of personal tags that i'll link below for easy navigation. i do my best to tag fandoms, ships, characters, and spoilers, but if i've missed anything or if there's something else you think needs tagging, feel free to let me know!

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#michelle writes - for my fics, writing games, and sneak peeks #michelle's recs - for fics i love. this includes a weekly buddie fic rec list! #michelle's 911 thoughts - for my thoughts about the show

wip wednesday on a thursday bc i am forgetful ✨

omg she's just about done!! i have some final edits to do but ~ here's the first line i wrote for this fic that inspired the whole thing. tipsy karen, my beloved, you are perfect in every way.

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And Eddie… laughs. Because how could he not? “Are you sure? I can go—”

“I’m already here, Eddie. I got it. Just—have fun with Karen, yeah? I’ll see you when you get home.” Buck smiles and turns off his car.

And Eddie… Eddie doesn’t know what he’d do without Buck.

"Okay." He pauses, biting down on his lip. “See you at home,” Eddie says. “And… thank you.”

“Mhm. Love you,” Buck hums from the other end of the line.

“Love you,” Eddie says back, a grin spreading across his face as he hangs up the phone.

Eddie goes to hand Karen back her phone, but she doesn’t reach out to take it. Instead, she stays catatonic on the other end of the couch, her jaw clearly needing to be picked up from the floor. Eddie cocks an eyebrow and decides to just toss the phone next to her on the couch. “What?” he asks, taking a sip of his wine as if nothing happened.

“Okay, Eddie.” She begins, setting her glass down on the coffee table to give him her full, undivided attention. “If you don’t marry that man, I will.”

Eddie’s brain buffers for a few seconds and he stares blankly at Karen, struggling to process her words. "If I don't marry-" he blinks, shaking his head. "Buck?"

buddie dooming is so funny. to me. sorry they haven't shoved their tongues down each other's throats yet... do u remember how buck's bi awakening was Eddie's New Friend? do u remember how eddie had an episode about choosing joy and it ended with him opening the door to buck? guys. they are throwing hints at u. stop dodging.

giving in (7.3K)

What if he did let his wolf take over fully? What if Eddie shifted into a wolf and stayed that way? It would please his parents, because he wouldn’t be fighting to get a chance to talk to his son. Chris would probably be happy too; the man who had failed him gone forever. Buck wouldn’t have to take pity on him and spend time with Eddie instead of going on dates to find his next big love. The team would also probably appreciate it because they wouldn’t have to carry his dead weight. The thought grows and grows in his mind. The wolf prowls restlessly inside, growing desperate to come out. To stay out.

WIP Wednesday

Unsurprisingly, this is a snippet from the next chapter of Behind in the Count (part 4 of my Baseball Player Eddie AU).

Unfortunately, coffee got cold way too fast. So, he told Eddie, “Thanks,” and quickly took a sip of the wonderful beverage — only to immediately hiss and pull the mug away from his face. Ouch. Now, this was a betrayal. The worst kind of betrayal ever. “Careful,” Eddie said way too late, blowing gently on his own coffee like the smart guy that he was, “it’s hot.” “No shit,” Buck replied, then winced. He looked around out of habit, searching for Christopher to make sure he hadn’t overheard — of course, he hadn’t; he was at school — and Eddie—Eddie straight-up laughed at him. Asshole. “Chris isn’t around,” Eddie reminded him, amusement dripping from his voice, “you don’t have to censor yourself.” “Yet,” Buck muttered. Chris would come back, after all, and if Buck didn’t get used to not swearing so much… Yeah, no, he was trying here, okay? He wanted to set a good example. He certainly didn’t want Eddie to be disappointed with him because he truly, genuinely had no brain-to-mouth filter. Sure, he maybe struggled with it more than most, but — not swearing around a kid should’ve been easy, right? “I think I burned my tongue.” “I thought you were a firefighter,” Eddie teased.

writer questions!

tagged by @young-waverer thank u smooches! 🤍

1. How many works on AO3? 27 (gorgeous number. 3x9. a classic)

2. Total AO3 word count? 373,842...

4. What fandoms do you write for? 9-1-1 !

5. Do you respond to comments? oh yeah baby if you leave a comment on one of my fics you have taken a part of my soul with you and i will be responding with utter joy :)

6. Angstiest ending? hmm... i only ever do angst WITH a happy ending because i'm a fucking weepy baby otherwise, i guess the vow had a bunch of angsty endings thematically?

7. Fic with the happiest ending? hmm!!! give us the grown makes me all blushy over how gross the ending is so perhaps that one?

8. Do you get hate? pls guys i'm a fucking weepy baby please don't send me hate just dm your moots about how bad my stuff is thank you!!! :)

9. Do you write smut? not usually! just some small stuff here and there, i think i get really lost in the technicalities rather than the mood itself (like "did buck already take his shirt off? where is the lube? goddamnit hold on" type stuff)

10. Do you write crossovers? not officially no! i've done a twilight au and working on a pride and prejudice au but nothing that's actually a crossover with other characters.

11. Ever had a fic stolen? thankfully no! or not to my knowledge... (pls don't do that to anyone what a nightmare that would be)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? no! but if anyone ever wanted to do that, that would be dope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic? i haven't... but i'd be very curious to do it (if anyone's interested lmk!)

14. All time favourite ship? ooh, my heart says sterek (LMAO) but my soul says buddie....

15. WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will? i think a long time ago there was a house of the dragon au for the 911 gotcha for gaza but that prompt got taken and now the fic is dead in the water... goodbye my old friend......

16. Writing strengths? there is a start, a middle, and an end with my fics yay :)

17. Writing weaknesses? my run on sentences is what will send me straight to hell, also i have the nasty habit of not proof-reading my stuff so sometimes i publish pure nonsense. what can i say, i'm a writer, we don't read (nick miller voice)

18. Thoughts on mixed language dialogue? oh... hmm, well in general terms i think if it makes sense with the source material/character and the writer knows how to write faithfully/accurately to the language, i'm all for it! i know this is a Thing in 911, and since I'm not a Spanish (or Swedish) speaker and those languages come up most often in fic, i'd defer to folks who speak the language for insight than my opinion :)

19. First fandom you wrote for? CRYING it was skam. SKAM. can u believe it????

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? my best written? the pain will leave you once it's done teaching you. my personal favorite? alabaster. the one that required four cans of white claw and an entire fucking whiteboard bigger than my torso to map out the plot because it was a murder mystery with fifteen different characters involved? it tolls for thee.

tagging some lovely writer moots! @becausebuckley @okathleen @809eddie if you are so inclined! (and haven't already done this!)

wip wednesday!

thank you @becausebuckley for the tag! <3 we're actually making headway on p&p buddie au, here's one of my favorite scenes because it's featuring awkward pining dumbass mr. darcy DIAZ

“Mr. Panikkar must be pleased, certainly, to still be so close to his parents and friends,” Mr. Diaz said as his eyes kept glancing around the room, as if unsettled, and Buck raised his eyebrows.

“Close? Sir, we are fifty miles from Longbourn at best, that is certainly a great journey to undertake,” Buck countered, and watched as Mr. Diaz’s lips pushed at a pout for a moment as he thought. It made his mouth seem lush, full, drawing even more attention to his perfectly cut moustache.

“Well, that’s barely a day’s ride.”

“For you, it may not be considered any distance at all. For others, with less frequent travels across the country, perhaps not so.”

Mr. Diaz scoffed, though it didn’t appear unkind or mocking. It seemed arrogant, most definitely, but also alive, burning with life as he finally moved closer into the room, as if energized by Buck’s argument.

“You are attached, sir. Anything outside of Longbourn might be considered by you a great journey to undertake.” There’s almost a teasing tone to his voice, laced with something else, something intense and deeper that makes Buck squirm.

“Can you fault someone for being attached to their home, Mr. Diaz?”

“But what of marriage! You – you cannot have a right to such strong local attachments to Longbourn. You –” Mr. Diaz stepped closer again, as if pulled on an invisible string from his chest as he gets louder and more impassioned, and Buck’s mouth drops opens at the fervency he sees in the man’s eyes. “You cannot have always been at Longbourn. You cannot always wish to stay there.”

His eyes, swimming in emotion, makes Buck’s breath catch in his throat, and he blindingly understands, just for a moment, why Miss Marisol stares so much at Mr. Diaz. It’s his eyes. They’re so much, all at once, and it reminds Buck of the woods by his home that he grew up wandering in, or the coffee he drinks each morning.

It appears the spell over Mr. Diaz breaks in Buck's silence, and he retreats to his usual taciturn shell, and Buck looks away, lost for a moment.

“I couldn’t say, Mr. Diaz. I only wish to have a home to return to each day, where I am happy. Loved. Surely you understand that?”

wip wednesday!

lots of lovely people have tagged me in lots of lovely snippets these past few days <3 thanks to @smilingbuckley @tizniz @deadassdiaz and @fastcardotmp3 for sharing your words!! i'm still working hard on the sleeping buck fic (which i will finish sometime soon hopefully definitely maybe), so here's a little bit of eddie meeting a not-unimportant side character! i'm no-pressure tagging @unlifeira @playinginthunderstorms @serenelystrange @inell @fruitsdontknow @kejfeblintz and @heygirltimeformorning!

“It’s true love’s kiss, then.” Eddie runs a hand through his hair. “I got that part, right? True love’s kiss can wake him up?”

The witch smiles. Her teeth are just a little pointy. Eddie suppresses a shiver.

“I admit it’s a little juvenile,” she says. “But I am limited in what I can do, and this has never failed me.”

“I don’t suppose you know who his true love is?”

“If I knew, would I tell you?”

“You could.”

“I could.” The wind dies down around them. It’s quiet, all of a sudden. Even the witch’s robes stop fluttering. “But I won’t.”

“Why not?” Eddie demands. He steps closer, hand brushing the hilt of his sword. “If you can help him, why don’t you?”

The witch’s eyes blaze brightly, so brightly it hurts to look at her. And yet, Eddie doesn’t dare look away. This is too important.

“Careful, boy,” she warns. “Don’t make me do something we’ll both regret.”

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