I never go into drawing these characters with the intentions of making them a completely rendered piece and then I just keep adding details. These are all still doodle dumps to me.
Does it count as spoilers if you already know exactly who you’re meeting in the next chapter? Anyway. I’m still awake at 2AM which doesn’t usually happen for me and I wanted to draw Diluc from the fic. This was fun. The highlights on the metal of the coat are color dropped from his in-game skin tone btw. I found that funny
Wahoo! This was just meant to be a sketch but then I colored it and made it a bit fancier than most doodles. I had to use some sketches I made to figure out posing two people on one glider because no matter what you do it looks very unbalanced and scary. But maybe that is the point.
I am now going to say a bunch of things about the fanfiction its based on.
fun fic fact: during the middle of writing the skeleton notes for the chapter I audibly started laughing at the fact that I keep either drowning the reader character or throwing lightning at the reader character, and realized that I’m making them get electrocuted again and I didn’t even intend that to happen. It’s one of the two, it’s really funny for me.
I’m sort of putting off writing the next chapter because the chapter right after that next one still isn’t quite figured out and it’s making me so so worried. Which is ironic given the part of the message of the fic is that regretting decisions is stupid and paralyzing yourself from making choices won’t help you because you always have choices to make. I need to look in the mirror and learn from my own words but by god is it hard. But my motto has always been that if you don’t want to do something, just tell yourself you don’t care and do it badly because nine times out of ten what you think is “badly” is actually respectably passable and you’ve gotten yourself over the hurdle and also did the thing.
Still. You should see the paragraphs of rants i’ve sent to my friend groupchat about writing this. When things click, they click, but when they don’t, i AM the fretter. I will get very stressed about if where I’m going with it is good or not, but its always worrying about the far future and the near future is easy to write through. Rant over thank you for listening :>
“Don’t die!”
Every drawing i’ve been posting on this account is from my fic “Who Will Bell The Cat?” On AO3 btw. I forgot to say that I think. If It has the tag “Belled Cat Drawings” somewhere, its that specific fic-related. Fun fic fact, there wasn’t originally meant to be a hug there, it was going to be a shoulder pat, but I read it over and figured I should give something more after putting the reader character through absolute hell.
Anyway I like Amber, I used to main her but I never got her C2 so I grew sad and bored of it. I think Genshin’s simpler (for genshin’s standards) designs are my favorites, like Diona or Lynette. I think I also harbor a deep attachment to any tutorial character ever. They are so helpful, thank you girl.
Oh my god okay so fun fact despite being on T for like 2-3 years due to unforeseen circumstances I still somehow got thfucking Cycle to start up and I forgot how awful it is for that to happen. Out of nowhere, too, like what the fuck. I missed one or two gel doses but that’s never been enough to completely start it up again, especially since I’ve been taking it every day again during. WHAT!!!
My go-to method of feeling better is usually drawing me COVERED in blood. Head to toe. And also this time around I’ve been using writings to also get the feelings off my chest because apparently its just really fun to inflict fake intense pain and agony on an unforeseen level to a symbolic version of me because I feel discomfort and dysphoric LMAO. So it’s showing through a lot because of how much I’m maiming the reader character and how much they are forced to be constantly aware of their body because GUESS WHAT. AAAAAGUH!!!!!
With the art of the glowy arm in regards to the fic, I don’t think there’s actually a visible magic to it, at least not shown under the skin unless there’s an intense buildup. The glowing veins is more of a visual representation of where the wind follows in the veins, because it tends to follow the paths already laid out in the body, although it also can choose to build up Wherever and between Whatever.
Bennett infirmary scene! With my sona, anyway.
Most self-insert fanfiction involves romancing characters, and I so earnestly don’t want to do that. My escapism fantasy solely revolves around Hanging Out with my favorite guys forever and always. Which is funny, considering a decent chunk of this particular fic so far has been away from all of the characters and the reader character in terrible agony. They’ll show up more. Eventually.
Also, the more I write the more I’m realizing Bennett harbors little to no significance nor purpose for a decent amount of the plot. I’m going to make him show up despite that because I like him and find him neat. I headcanon he has been afflicted by every disease forever.
I haven’t drawn much in days because of my writing craze overtaking any other activity I enjoy lmao. Anyway this is my current rendition of my personal self insert from My Own Generic Isekai Genshin Fanfiction. It’s in no way canon to what the insert looks like because obviously the reader insert changes depending on the reader, I just always find it fun to make up new sonas. I still have a hard time making my iterations of me masculine enough for people to tell that its a boy with long hair but I know it in my heart, and thats all that matters.
Every day I add onto that fic I’m so so tempted to have the internal dialogue start talking about being trans. It’s not an important thing but I think it’d be real fun to explore how the world of teyvat views stuff like gender. But also with reader characters I’m like “augh no but I’ve already made the insert fit a particular niche I can’t narrow the scope even further”. The answer might be to hit the rest of the characters with the trans beam. Sorry I don’t make the rules I just make the rules