the part when haymitch mistakes merrilee for maysilee really hurts because do you think he does that for the others he lost?
does he see a woman carrying washing down the street and want to call out ma?
does he see a skinny boy playing and feels the urge to call sid in for dinner?
does he want to call out louella’s name when he sees katniss in her two braids for the first time? or when he sees burdock’s hunting jacket around her shoulders?
does he see a girl with red hair and long to put his arms around lenore dove, just one last time?
does he see all the tributes that were killed in all the children of district 12?
is that why he couldn’t be sober? because he was constantly haunted everyday by all the people he lost, the people he blames himself for their deaths?