Loving You Will Be The Death Of Me
Summary: You're secretly dating Spencer, and you're at Rossi's birthday party. That night, it's especially difficult to keep your relationship a secret, but the two of you don't really care anymore.
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader
Author’s Note: I can’t go to Tom Odell‘s next tour, which broke my heart, so I wrote this. The idea for the story came when I was listening to lywbtdom (I love this song sm😩)
It‘s a warm summer evening, and Rossi's garden is filled with laughter and music. He’s celebrating his birthday and you stand at a table with a glass of champagne in your hand, watching the people dance. It‘s a welcome change after all the stressful weeks.
"You look like you enjoy the music more by yourself," you hear a familiar voice behind you. You turn around and see Derek approaching you with a grin. "Or to put it another way," he continues, "it looks like you're the only one not dancing."
You laugh and look at him as he extends a hand. "All right, Derek. What are you up to?" you ask him. "Can I have this dance?" He winks at you and you can't help but grin. It’s impossible to turn him down.
"Of course," you say before putting down your glass and placing your hand in his. He puts his arm around your waist and pulls you to the middle of the dance floor with a confident grin. The music is catchy, and you follow him, trying to keep up with the beat.
But you quickly realize that Derek isn't the best dancer. He keeps stepping on your feet, which makes you burst out laughing every time. "Hey, watch out," you say, trying to avoid the next step. "I don't want to end up with sore feet at the end of the night!"
"Sorry, sorry," he says with an apologetic grin. You both laugh as he tries to pull himself together. Suddenly, you feel someone staring at you. Your eyes wander to the corner of the garden and you spot Spencer, positioned slightly off to the side of the dance floor. His gaze is intense, almost jealous, and for a moment you pause.
You got together with him last month but the two of you decided to keep your relationship a secret to avoid the constant teasing of others and the possible problems at work. But now, with that look, you can't help it, and a wide grin spreads across your face.
Derek, noticing your gaze, follows your gaze and frowns. "What's wrong?" he asks, but you just shake your head. "Nothing," you reply, still grinning. "Let's just keep dancing." Derek laughs and leads you further in the dance.
The music continues and Derek, who always enjoys stirring up the team, follows your gaze and sees Spencer, who, as always, is standing a little off to the side. He grins and calls out, "Come here, Pretty Boy! It's time for you to dance!"
You can hardly believe it when Derek simply marches forward and pulls Spencer onto the dance floor. Spencer hesitates for a moment but Derek, almost a little too impatient, brings him over to you. "He's yours now. Have fun you two," Derek says before he steps back with a grin.
You can’t help but smile. Spencer seems a little surprised, but also amused, as he turns over to you. "You can expect me to step on your feet again and even worse than Derek, I fear," he says with a crooked smile that makes you laugh again.
"I know," you say, laughing as he put a hand around your waist and pulls you closer. In that moment, you feel the familiar butterflies in your stomach. It’s still so new, so exciting, and you really have to pull yourself together not to kiss him right then and there.
Spencer notices your hesitation and, as discreetly as possible, snuck his finger over your hip as the song slowly comes to a close. The gentle, almost invisible contact makes your heart skip a beat. You look into each other's eyes for a moment longer than necessary.
Just as the music slowly changes and the song ends, you pull away, your eyes meeting briefly once more before you slowly move apart. But the moment isn’t quite over yet. Derek, who had obviously watched everything, can’t hold back. With a cheeky grin, he calls out, "Well, well, well, look at this!"
Both you and Spencer’s faces turn noticeably redder. You feel the blood rising in your cheeks, and to escape the awkward situation, you quickly turn around and head towards the table, where you grab your glass of champagne and take a hearty swig to compose yourself.
"You have no chance of escaping us," Derek calls after you, but all you can do is grin shyly and hope that the evening will somehow continue without the others getting any closer discovering your secret.
The evening passes and you keep feeling Spencer's eyes on you. It is as if the world around you disappears for a brief moment when your eyes met, and you’re looking forward to spend the night with him. Every time he looks at you, everything feels more intense and it’s impossible to wipe the grin off your face.
The cool night air is palpable, and it’s the perfect moment to wrap yourself up a little more warmly. You decide to go inside to get your jacket. You’re almost at the entrance when you notice Spencer following you. Without a word, he pulls you into the small guest bathroom.
You squeak softly when he suddenly closes the door and look around to make sure no one had noticed you. "Spence," you whisper quickly, "we have to be careful." You can't help but laugh as you look at him. It's so typical of both of you - to simply forget everything else in that moment. Spencer leans down to you, his gaze deep and intense.
Without another word, he gives you a passionate kiss that blurs all your thoughts. When he pulls away, his lips still so close to your face, he whispers, "You look so beautiful tonight. I can't help it. You drive me crazy. I just can't get enough of you. Kissing you... is addictive."
His words make your heart race, and you feel the desire building within you. He gives you small, tender kisses on your cheeks, all over your face, and finally on your neck. You laugh softly and run your fingers through his hair, savoring the moment to the fullest. It feels so right, so intense and passionate, that you almost forget where you are. All that matters is him, his closeness, the warmth of his touch.
But after a few minutes, you have to pull away from him. You take a deep breath, your hands still lightly on his chest, and look into his eyes. "Spencer, we have to stop now," you say, your words a little firmer, even though your heart is screaming for you to stay a little longer. "Otherwise, it'll be noticed. Or... or we just tell the others. That will make things easier for us."
He looks at you thoughtfully, and you see that he's just as torn as you are at this moment. Finally, he nods. "You're right. They are going to find out soon anyway, we are too obvious." He leans forward, and with a gentle smile, he gives you one last kiss on the forehead.
"I love you so much. I think loving you will be the death of me," he says softly, and you feel your heart beat a little faster at his words. “I love you too.” For a moment, the world remains silent and you hold each other in your arms a little while longer.
When you let go and walk back outside, you could almost feel the others' eyes on you. It’s as if everyone stops at the same moment, looking over and wondering what’s going on between you two. You immediately notice Penelope and Derek smiling at each other before they start to giggle quietly.
You pause for a moment and look over to them, raising an eyebrow and trying to act like you have no idea why they are suddenly acting like this. "What's going on now?" you ask with a crooked grin when you see their amused faces.
The two can't help but laugh even more. "Nothing," Derek finally says but the joy in his eyes is unmistakable. Then he points at Spencer and laughs. "You forgot to clean off her lipstick. But don't worry, we knew there was something going on between you two from the start. You were so obvious." You and Spencer look at each other, both blushing immediately.
All the tension that had been building up over the past few weeks erupts in that one moment, and you can't help but laugh. "We were actually going to tell you soon because we assumed we’re too obvious," you laugh, "but we weren't up for all the paperwork and sorting out work stuff yet. So we decided to keep it to ourselves." You shrug, as if this is all perfectly normal.
Emily shakes her head, a wide grin on her face. "Well, okay, you didn't really manage it," she says, then laughs. "It was obvious from the start." There's a moment of silence before everyone starts laughing at once. It's a mixture of relief and joy that the secret is finally out and no one has to do anything more than pretend.
You feel the tension melt away and take Spencer's hand, which somehow immediately feels right. You lean against him and suddenly feel much freer. Finally, you don't have to hide anymore. It's as if a huge weight has been lifted from your shoulders, and you can't help but take a deep breath.
Penelope squeals with joy and claps her hands. "This is so beautiful!" she exclaims, jumping excitedly around you both. "I knew it!" You spend the rest of the evening together, laughing, talking, and enjoying your time together. It's a carefree, joyful time together that fills you with happiness.
And when it's finally time to go home, you feel this inner satisfaction. The joy that you've not only found someone you love, but also that you finally don't have to hide anymore. "That was a lovely evening. I’m glad they know now," you say quietly to Spencer.
“Me too,” he says and gently kisses your head before he opens the door for you to ger into the car. You drive home to enjoy the rest of the night together, finally officially as a couple.
