Figuring It Out

I'm sure others have brought this us before but I believe the best part of Kashi's teachings is that trauma has less to do with what has happened to you but more with how you choose to look at it. Yes he's been swallowed by a gigantic fish but what would be horribly traumatic to most he just sees as one of life's many adventures. Teaches us that even though traumatic things happen to us we don't have to let them rule our lives and we can learn to see those events in a different light. Gives us hope. For the boys as well as the rest of us mortals. We can all learn to overcome our trauma, it doesn't make it go away but we can learn to view it less as trauma and more as life adventures; that some times suck but they make us who we are and we are all beautiful.

So I've thought a lot about it. Like a lot a lot. And even though Gaiman's shown himself to be a right prick I'm thinking I may still stream Sandman instead of pirate it. Don't hate me I have reasoning.

More goes into a show than just one dickhead person. It is greater than him and has been since he released it into the world. I feel like once a piece of work has been released into the world and attaches itself to others it starts to grow and expand past its original creator. Much like a child. The parents are ultimately the ones that brought the child into existence but after a time that child leaves home and the actions of the child and how they impacts the world can no longer be attributed to the parents.

And yes, I know NG may still be involved, to an extent, with the development of Sandman. However, it is not a one man show. There are other people involved with the creation of the show and to my knowledge they have done nothing wrong and should not and do not deserve to be punished for his actions. And I would like to support them. The actors, other writers, directors, and hundreds of other that have put their hard work and valuable time into making a show that they care about, despite it being tainted by NG, deserve to be acknowledged and rewarded for their work.

So yes, NG has shown his true colours in all their porcelain cracked Hell green sickness, but beyond that is the rest of the rainbow, and the rainbow is beautiful despite the storm.

It just occurred to me that I think the only way the Night Nurse was able to mail herself to their office is because Charles yelled out that he was a Dead Boy Detective when he kicked her off the cliff. If not for that small yet crucial bit of information she might not have been able to find them after they left Port Townsend.

It all worked out in the end but still. Gave me pause. 😐

Rewatching The Case of the Lighthouse Leapers (again) and noticed that Jenny has a baseball bat hanging behind the counter of her shop. I've lived in large cities my whole life and have stepped into a small butcher shop a grand total of twice. So for those who know more than I, do all butcher shops have baseball bats or is this another "why does Charles have a baguette in his backpack" thing?

Having a really crap day at work and while trying to remind myself that it could always be worse I thought "at least I'm not being sacrificed to a demon or being murdered by so called friends."

Then my traitorous brain thought "yeah, but in the end it didn't turn out too bad for them. I kind of like where they are now."

I need to get a chalk board just so I can write I will not envy the dead 100 times.

But sometimes really, really do.

I like to think that after Crystal and Niko get together, whenever Charles and Edwin come for a visit Crystal likes to play Slumber Party by Ashnikko featuring Princess Nokia at full volume. Not because she and Charles were ever actually girlfriend and boyfriend but because the raunchiness of the song makes both the boys blush in a most entertaining way.

I couldn't resist and wait until Tuesday so I rewatched ep 1 again last night and noticed something I hadn't before, when Edwin and Charles are arguing in the alley after Crystal had her first encounter with David. Edwin doesn't bring up hell as a response to Charles saying she was scared, he brings up hell in response to Charles saying they had to remember what she's been through. When Charles says she was scared Edwin's first reaction is to say "Alright Charles, ever since she came along you've been acting different!"

Edwin's response to other people's trauma is to point out that his was worse. I interpret this scene to mean his response to Crystal's fear is to point out one of his own. That Charles might someday change and leave him. 😢 Which, of course, he would never do, and it seems so obvious it doesn't really need to be pointed out. However, it doesn't make the fear and the way it's quickly brushed over and moved past hurt any less.

By now I have read so many wonderful, incredible, well written, and dreamed of fics that I'm beginning to fear that no season 2 rooted in reality could hope to measure up.

Then I laugh at myself and think "of course it will measure up! It will be real and equally wonderful, incredible, well written, and miraculous! Don't be ridiculous."

But deep down a small kernel of fear remains and a malicious voice says "but you've seen it before..."

Please reality, I beg of thee! Please don't let me down! Not this time. Not this time!

Am I the only one who uses comments and replies for stories on Ao3 as recommendations for other authors and stories that are sometimes mentioned?

I find that I sometimes wish I could leave kudos for particularly lovely comments and replies. That sounds so silly and embarrassing now that I've "said it out loud" as it were.