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Stream Hozierโ€™s UNREAL UNEARTH or else.

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my name is becca and i love flowers, books, and people in love ๐ŸŒธ
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how i *actually* want season two to go for langdon x mel

- langdon getting back to work and having to accept that no one really trust him anymore.

- losing robbyโ€™s mentorship and having to deal with the fact that heโ€™s not the star resident anymore.

- feeling humiliated he has to pee in a cup everyday and get his locker checked. looooots of self-loathing.

- but then here comes mel. who treats him like heโ€™s still a competent doctor and not a complete fuck up. who comes to him for help on more difficult cases, even though he thinks she can handle it on her own just fine.

- teaching her makes him feel like his job still makes sense. and itโ€™s weird bc he never even liked teaching in the first place but just like that first day, he just clicks with mel really well.

- so he pours himself into their working relationship, and tries to be a good mentor. he tries to be to mel who robby was to him, once.

- he tries to make sure sheโ€™s doing okay. taking a break when needed, talking to him when something is bothering her. they trust each other.

- itโ€™s not romantic (or is it). heโ€™s still trying to make things work with abby (itโ€™s not working) and he doesnโ€™t even think about mel that way.

- but when it gets really hard, when all he can think about is how fucking amazing itโ€™d feel to get high, just once, to feel all the noise quiet down again, itโ€™s not abby or the kids he thinks of to stop himself from relapsing. he thinks of mel. Mel who trusts him and thinks heโ€™s a good doctor. Mel who looks up to him as a mentor and a friend. He thinks of how devastating it would be if he were to disappoint her.

(- itโ€™s not romantic. no, itโ€™s so much worse than that)

Anonymous asked:

the way searching anti kingdon still shows me your post just because you said anti and kingdon the tumblr search is garbage

very true anon very true โ€” and if you are anti kingdon, at least we can agree that tumblr is trash

the time that frank thinks mel is dating someone else and nearly loses his mind

Whitaker and Santos get into a huge blowup fight 10 months after PittFest. Itโ€™s ugly. Whitaker has been hired on as an intern for the ED and is finally making money for once, but Santos doesnโ€™t want to admit she feels bad for Huckleberry, so she wonโ€™t accept rent from himโ€”

And Whitaker storms out in the middle of the night and spam texts Mel about the whole thing (theyโ€™re kinda friends now, bonding over their mutual love and hatred of Star Wars and sharing breakroom snacks). Beccaโ€™s recently moved in full time with her care center, so Mel happily offers Dennis a place to crash for awhile in her spare roomโ€”she doesnโ€™t make a fuss when Whitaker insists on contributing to the grocery fund. Instead she just slips the same hundred dollar bill back into his wallet without him noticing.

Itโ€™s two weeks of this before Frank overhears Dennis asking Mel when sheโ€™s headed back home, heโ€™ll meet her at their bus stop, their bus stop, and realizes THE TWITCHY NEW INTERN IS LIVING WITH MEL.

Langdonโ€™s Mel.

And she didnโ€™t tell him. Not when they got dinner last week. Or on their phone call the night before. His mind scrambles. Why wouldnโ€™t she tell him? Heโ€™s not bothered. No. Why would he be bothered? Itโ€™s not like heโ€™s in love with Mel or anything. Itโ€™s not like heโ€™s jealous.

Itโ€™s not like he only feels like he can breathe when Mel, golden and kind and all things good, enters the room.

Or as if when she cries, nose going pink, big eyes wet with tears, his heart feels like itโ€™ll implode in on itself until she smiles again.

Or every time he scoots past her in Trauma One, his nose fills with the scent of her shampoo โ€” strawberry hibiscus โ€” and he feels the closest thing to euphoria since he kicked the benzos.

Or when Mel off-handedly offers to babysit his kids if he and Abby ever have plans, he imagines her holding his daughter on her hip, smiling softly. He has to sit down for five minutes before he can get back to work.

(He strategically informs Princess after that conversation that heโ€™s very divorced. Like the most divorced a man can get. Has been since he got out of rehab. He sadly asks for her discretion and she agrees eagerly.)

(The whole ED knows by the end of the hour.)

(Mel sadly gives him a warm sweet-smelling hug in the breakroom once she hears the news. โ€œIโ€™m so sorry, Langdon,โ€ she says in her small voice. Frank feels like the hugest pervert in the world because all he can think is that his divorce lawyer was worth every penny if all he gets is Melโ€™s arms around his waist, her cheek against his chest).

He reassures himself: itโ€™s not like Whitaker and Mel are a thing. She probably just feels bad about Whitaker having to live with Santos. Yeah. Who wouldnโ€™t feel bad for the poor shmuck?

And then he sees Mel pat Whitakerโ€™s arm gently in sympathy when Robby gives him a problem patient (vomit, irritability, a recipe for disaster). And he no longer feels bad for Whitaker, actually the opposite, he wants to strangle him where he stands.

But he canโ€™t do that, because Mel would be very upset with him.

So when he finds her on the roof after a her shift humming to herself and her face brightens with a smile, he canโ€™t hold it back โ€” โ€œAre you and that kid dating?โ€

And Mel has to recalibrate, brow furrowing, fair eyebrows scrunching like when sheโ€™s confronted with a social cue she doesnโ€™t entirely understand. Sheโ€™s sitting criss-crossed, looking up at him, vulnerable and soft and small from this angle.

โ€œWho? Dennis?โ€

And oh fuck, they are dating, she calls him by his FIRST NAME, and sheโ€™s never once called him Frank andโ€ฆ

He is fucking in love with her.

โ€œNo,โ€ she says. His world stops imploding in an instant. She doesnโ€™t even seem offended. She merely blinks. โ€œDennis and Trinity are in a fight. Iโ€™m letting him crash in Beccaโ€™s old room until they make up.โ€

โ€œOh. That isโ€ฆ very generous of you, Mel,โ€ says Langdon stiltedly, a rush of relief running through him so quickly, he feels dizzy.

โ€œYeah. And actually, itโ€™s nice having another person in the house since Becca left,โ€ says Mel wistfully. โ€œShe hasnโ€™t wanted to come back since sheโ€™s so used to her routine at the center.โ€

Sheโ€™s told him about this over ramen cups in her warm, colorful kitchen. Deep green curtains, an amber lamp washing her in red and gold light. Her eyes, misty and lonely. Her chin in the curve of her palm.

He has to stop himself from telling her to kick Whitaker out and he could move in instead. Because that would be crazy and irrational and impulsive.

Fuck it. โ€œI donโ€™t like him living with you, Mel.โ€

Her eyes widen. โ€œUm. Why? Whitakerโ€™s a perfectly reasonable roommate. He does his dishes and is very neat for a man.โ€

โ€œNo, itโ€™s not that.โ€ Langdon feels like heโ€™s on the edge of a steep precipice, like how he feels looking over the edge of the hospital roof, like the rush of adrenaline after a tense save. โ€œBecause I want to be the one to keep you company. To come home with you after a long day. I want to take care of you. If youโ€™ll let me.โ€

Melโ€™s mouth opens and shut. Sheโ€™s shocked. He knows the minute details of her face, the flutter of her pale eyelashes, the tense curve of her mouth. โ€œIโ€ฆ I donโ€™tโ€ฆโ€

โ€œIโ€™m in love with you, Mel,โ€ he says, and keeps talking, even though his ego is blistering to admit, โ€œand Iโ€™m actually going kind of crazy from jealousy over here. Like behavioral room type crazy. I keep imagining that you and him areโ€ฆโ€

โ€œNo!โ€ Mel is suddenly on her feet. She looks like sheโ€™s glowing. In the distance, there are the wail of car horns and the sounds of the city. The flare of ambulance lights. But all Langdon can do is stare at Mel King. The rest of the world doesnโ€™t really exist. โ€œYouโ€™re serious, right? This isnโ€™t, um, a joke orโ€”โ€

โ€œI would never do that to you, Mel.โ€

Mel takes a shaky breath. โ€œOh. I know that.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s okay if all you want is a friend,โ€ says Langdon, even though that would be excruciating. โ€œTell me to kick rocks, if you want. I just couldnโ€™t keep it inside for any longer. I couldnโ€™t go a day without letting you know that youโ€™re loved.โ€

He wants to say more, but he canโ€™t. Because Mel is kissing him.

Her arms are around his neck. Her lips hot on his. Itโ€™s awkward and clumsy, because heโ€™s taller than her and sheโ€™s on her tip toes, and he hasnโ€™t kissed anyone in a very long time, but then he slides his arms around her waist and yeah. She makes a noise, a sweet noise deep in her throat, and he chases that sound, deepens the kiss, and he forgets about Whitaker, about the ER, about the long hot shower he was looking forward to after work, because Mel is in his arms, her braid loosening under his hands, and she tastes like mint gum and Diet Coke and love.

When they separate, her mouth is flushed and her eyes are glossy. A wisp of honey gold hair brushes her cheek. โ€œHello,โ€ she says.

โ€œHello,โ€ he whispers back.

โ€œLetโ€™s go on a date soon?โ€ she asks, because sheโ€™s the smartest person he knows.

โ€œYou took the words right out of my mouth,โ€ he says and then nothing else for a long time, his mouth occupied with far more important things.

(And if, the morning after their kiss, he drags Santos and Whitaker into an empty patient room and watches as they argue and bluster and finally agree to move back in together because maybe youโ€™re an alright roommate, Huckleberry, and okay, yeah, I miss my bedโ€”but you need to let me at least buy the groceries, then thatโ€™s nobodyโ€™s business but his).

Luv using my โ€œnot interested in this postโ€ button when an anti shipper shows up in the kingdon tag lol

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Whitaker, undergrad theology major, seeing someone crying and praying at the same time: finally something I have been extensively trained to deal with

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While I agree that Robby is having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day, I would also like to point out Kiara (the social worker) has had to deal with

- a teen with a โ€˜girls to eliminateโ€™ list disappearing from the hospital

- calling CPS on parents after their child ingested THC

- supporting siblings who had to pull the plug on their father

- supporting parents after their son died of an overdose

- handling a possible human/sex trafficking case

- helping the โ€˜Krakenโ€™ after he woke up

- supporting a family when their daughter died from drowning

- having to identify the deceased shooting victims and tell the families

in the same day as everyone else. A lot of horrible no good day to go around.

Hello friends I have changed my tumblr username from dontyoudarestiles โ€”> bumblebecc

(Do not be alarmed it is still me <3)

i am nearly done with a five chapter kingdon fic but none of my fic friends watch the pitt

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