bunnii

i love making whore men fall for me then break their hearts <3

how can so much happen in just 19 days from my last post

i love taking a shower and putting on my deodorant, lotion, and perfume to just smell like a delicious concoction of scents

reject me or i’m gonna stay delusional

how do you handle the whiplash of falling in love with everyone

ah another day,

another man i reconnect with after not talking for awhile and immediately feeling the same way i did before again because i didn’t get closure so i don’t cut off those feelings in my brain unless it’s clear they do not ever want to be with me because i’ll become delulu and think that i have a chance until they reject me

why do i fall for guys

who like me for .2 seconds

meanwhile i’m sitting over here

for months

trying to get over them

edit: except i do still like other people in the process of moving on, my need for romantic intimacy is too strong

my absolute

soul crushing

debilitating

need for

another human soul

to love me back

is so strong

i called it.

i hate this.

if i was older

would it be okay?

i never thought of myself as an empath

cause i don’t feel much sympathy

for others at times

but i realized they are

two different things

so even though i can easily read

people’s feelings or moods

and able to understand how they feel

and sometimes their mood will

reflect onto me

that doesn’t mean i have to

feel sympathy for them

feel sorry for them

cause a lot of times

i don’t, i’ll admit

i can’t talk like i’m not part of the problem too

i’m definitely the problem too

dating in this day and age

is like trying to make

a little kid eat vegetables

when there’s candy sitting

right in front of them

the vegetable is better for them

but damn does that candy look tasty

dropping everyone else

to be with that one person

and only after that

realizing maybe you’re

amongst the ones they’d drop

to be with that one person

why

why

why

why

why

why

why

why

i fucking hate being able to

pick up when someone’s

feelings or mood shifts

based off the smallest things

i’m too observant

i fucking hate it

i wish i was ignorant

and blind

i wish i could be

blindsided by things

but no

i just have to see it all coming

and feel that gut wrenching

feeling of me being right

i hate being right

please let me be wrong

for once