Let Her Go | Yoon Jeonghan
pairing: yoon jeonghan x reader
genre: angst. just angst.
includes/warnings: blood?, jeonghan being dumb, uh you and jeonghan dying just because, based of the song let her go by passenger (i guess this is a songfic or whatever you call that)
summary: do you really love someone? or do you like the feeling of being in love?
note: i wanted to get something done by today and instead of doing school requirements i did this. also the summary sucks.
You only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
How do you know when you love someone?
Of course, they always remind you of the little things, your mind goes to them regularly, life feels more exciting, and more.
Well, how do you know if you don't love someone anymore?
Do you really loved them? Or do you only love the feeling of being loved? Very hard yet very easy questions.
Only know you love her when you let her go
When you love someone and they are gone from your life, for whatever reason, you feel an emptiness and a sadness as you realize how much that person meant to you.
One minute you’re on top of the world floating above the clouds and the next you hit rock bottom.
What happened that night was still very clear to Jeonghan. During your relationship with him, he wasn't exactly sure if he's feeling the same way as you, which made him conclude that he wasn't really in love with you. And so he confronted you.
The next events went fast. You suddenly ran out of the house and when he followed you, he saw red.
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you’ll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you’ll understand why
Leaves were crumbling as he stepped on it. With a bouquet of your favorite flowers in his hand, he walked to your grave.
Everything you touch surely dies
That night, Jeonghan kept running, trying to look for you. He noticed a group of people hurdling in one place. Ignoring it, he went past it when not so close to the group of people, he saw your necklace with what looked like blood.
The ambulance came. But it was too late. Your heart rate already dropped when they arrived.
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much
When he saw your heart rate dropping on the monitor, that's when he knew he was too late. He was devastated, depressed. What made him more sad is the fact that he realized his love for you a little too late.
Going back to the present, he gently placed the flowers right in front of your grave. Just as he stood up straight, rain started pouring. He just smiled and looked at the sky.
"Are you still mad at me?"
When he felt the rain pour harder, his weak smile grew wider too.
"Don't worry. I will make sure I apologize sincerely. Even if that means following you to the afterlife."
He started walking away, letting the rain pour down at him, but he didn't care. He finally got to the busy road. He wasn't even turning his head. He was staring at the ground while his feet were still moving, not caring where he's going.
Just as he knew, light flashed close to him and a strong force made him lose control over his body. Jeonghan fell down, his eyes started to get blurry but he can still notice the red liquid coming from his head. Once again, he smiled.
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin’ home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go