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Saudade

@ccmatta-ocs / ccmatta-ocs.tumblr.com

Hi! I'm carous and I make the webcomic Saudade, a BL slice-of-life about mental struggles, acceptance and support.

an intro post

Hi! I'm ccmatta, carol, carous, or carolina. I'm 29, brazilian, gender fluid (she/he), asexual and autistic.

I've been working on Saudade since 2020 and it's been my passion since... actually, 2008, when it was still a death note fanfic and I was 12. Around 2010 it became an original novel because everyone was really ooc lmao. This blog is to post OC stuff. You can follow me on my other blog too (mostly death note, sometimes bnha and jjba)

You can find all my links here, including my webcomic (both ptbr and english), ao3 and bsky.

The character sheets you can find in this post. :3

I'll slowly start to post all my drawings here (at least the ones I still like)

Michael mustered all his strength to lift his hand, reaching, half-lost, for Charlotte’s arm, clutching the sleeve of her shirt tightly, anchoring himself in that shard of reality to keep from losing himself. With the last drop of pride left slipping through his fingers, he let himself overflow. Like a torrent from a shattered dam. Violent, uncontrollable, capable of devastating everything in its path. And yet, paradoxically, his body contained it; like a habit too old to obey nature’s orders. As if his very matter had been molded to behave this way, and, perhaps, he truly was incapable of imploding. It was as though he could combust at any moment from the internal war between wanting and being able to.

From the short story Echoes, featuring Michael and Charlotte.

Both are characters from my webcomic

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