possible long post ahead dhdjdn
lately i've been craving a non-platonic relationship more and more but every time i try to fantasize a romantic and/or sexual relationship between me and a man i literally just cant get into it like i do when i fantisize that with girls
i dont even know if you can be pangender and a lesbian??? this is just a random thing i wanted to say in the middle of this but lesbians who identify as non-binary or gender fluid pleade tell me so i can know if i'm valid or not !! :3 i just want to explore me snd my sexuality more but i definitely do NOT want to offend or upset anyone for saying this
i know that i'm aroace but like... i want to be in a relationship too 😭😭 honestly just think of being aroace as seeing false advertising and being like damn that looks so good and fun and comfortable and then when you try the product (sexual/romantic relationships) out you hate it and feel very uncomfortable with it but cant get a refund because u feel super bad breaking their feelings
whenever i see women bro i get BUTTERFLIES they are so hot and i want to kiss them a lot but like i literally cannot do that even though i want to so much because the aromantic in me is like EWWWW NOOO ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS and then i feel bad 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
i have literally forced myself to have crushes on random ass people before and force my mind to imagine me being in a sexual/romantic relationship with them even though i dont feel shit ☠️ just to fit in since non platonic relationships are shown in media with literal confettie and sparkles and fucking unicorns
the idea of dating a woman sounds so good i love girls so much but when i try to execute a romantic relationship i get bored and uninterested really quickly even though i dont even want to
anyway this may or may not be a coming out post :) im sorry for this random thing but i just wanted to say how i feel since this is my happy place :3
bye!!! tysm for reading ily!!!!!!! 🌸🐇🍰🍩