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est: 10/17/23
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small girl fantasy ✭
—(🎧)—> when your husband comes to save you from the insecurities causing you to drown in your own head
pairing - dad!husband!changbin x post-pregnant!fem!reader
genre - comfort
word count - 0.6
warnings - insecurity regarding weight
You don’t even know who you are anymore, and the feeling is pitiful.
You stare at your reflection in the mirror, but it isn’t you. It doesn’t feel like you.
Your sweet, sweet baby girl is asleep in her crib, her little snores filling the dark bedroom with some sort of sound. You’re trying to use the noise to help ground you, but it’s trivial and you know it.
The tears suddenly flow out as you continue to stare at your body. Your stomach pudgy, your legs full of stretch mark, your breast a little more sagged than usual.
You try to keep your choked sobs inside, attempting to avoid waking up your little one who you just put to sleep 10 minutes ago. Not to mention your husband is in the other room, and as he just got home from a long day of work, that’s the last thing you want him to hear.
You close your eyes, darkness surrounding you. You could get lost in this feeling if you already haven’t. It’s like swimming in every single thought, word, and letter that pops into your head.
Suddenly two strong & muscular arms wrap around your torso, causing you to jump and hitch your breath.
“C-Changbin?” You stutter, and he just hold you tighter and situates his self on the bed you were sitting on.
“You’re beautiful, honey.” He whispers. Fuck. You don’t know how he knows you so well. How the fuck does he know that’s what was making you cry?
“I don’t know how you see that.” You dryly chuckle, but there’s no humor behind. “I’m so damn big and I’ve changed so much, I don’t even know how you can stand looking at me.”
“Baby, stop. Don’t ever say something like that.” You can hear the sound of changbins heart cracking in his voice.
“You are the most beautiful woman in the world. I love you more than anything, I could never ever not want to look at you.” He says, voice soft and comforting while also being firm.
“I-I don’t know. My body has just changed so much not to mention I’m exhausted.” You sniffle, cuddling up in your husband’s sturdy arms. He always had a hold that made you forget about everything bad that ever happened. “I’m so flawed.”
“Honey that is not true.” He moves his hands from around your torso and cups your face in them instead. “You call them flaws, I say they’re what make you perfect”
“But-“ He places a small kiss on your lips, effectively shushing you.
“Let me say something first. I love you more than you could ever imagine, so don’t even think of me not loving you anymore for something as simple as your body. Even though there’s changes, that’s just proof of how much you’ve been through and how powerful you are as a woman. You still look beautiful, and you always will for as long as you live.” He consoles, instantly making the tears in your eyes heighten and your sobs continue.
“I-I d-don’t know what t-to-“ “Shhh, baby. Let it out, I’m here. I’m here.”
You let his voice console you in a warm blanket of love and comfort. You let his hands on your body and the sweetness of his voice lull you into peace.
No one gets you like he does, and no one ever will.
Imperfections & all.
small girl fantasy ✭
—(🎧)—> when your husband comes to save you from the insecurities causing you to drown in your own head
pairing - dad!husband!changbin x post-pregnant!fem!reader
genre - comfort
word count - 0.6
warnings - insecurity regarding weight
You don’t even know who you are anymore, and the feeling is pitiful.
You stare at your reflection in the mirror, but it isn’t you. It doesn’t feel like you.
Your sweet, sweet baby girl is asleep in her crib, her little snores filling the dark bedroom with some sort of sound. You’re trying to use the noise to help ground you, but it’s trivial and you know it.
The tears suddenly flow out as you continue to stare at your body. Your stomach pudgy, your legs full of stretch mark, your breast a little more sagged than usual.
You try to keep your choked sobs inside, attempting to avoid waking up your little one who you just put to sleep 10 minutes ago. Not to mention your husband is in the other room, and as he just got home from a long day of work, that’s the last thing you want him to hear.
You close your eyes, darkness surrounding you. You could get lost in this feeling if you already haven’t. It’s like swimming in every single thought, word, and letter that pops into your head.
Suddenly two strong & muscular arms wrap around your torso, causing you to jump and hitch your breath.
“C-Changbin?” You stutter, and he just hold you tighter and situates his self on the bed you were sitting on.
“You’re beautiful, honey.” He whispers. Fuck. You don’t know how he knows you so well. How the fuck does he know that’s what was making you cry?
“I don’t know how you see that.” You dryly chuckle, but there’s no humor behind. “I’m so damn big and I’ve changed so much, I don’t even know how you can stand looking at me.”
“Baby, stop. Don’t ever say something like that.” You can hear the sound of changbins heart cracking in his voice.
“You are the most beautiful woman in the world. I love you more than anything, I could never ever not want to look at you.” He says, voice soft and comforting while also being firm.
“I-I don’t know. My body has just changed so much not to mention I’m exhausted.” You sniffle, cuddling up in your husband’s sturdy arms. He always had a hold that made you forget about everything bad that ever happened. “I’m so flawed.”
“Honey that is not true.” He moves his hands from around your torso and cups your face in them instead. “You call them flaws, I say they’re what make you perfect”
“But-“ He places a small kiss on your lips, effectively shushing you.
“Let me say something first. I love you more than you could ever imagine, so don’t even think of me not loving you anymore for something as simple as your body. Even though there’s changes, that’s just proof of how much you’ve been through and how powerful you are as a woman. You still look beautiful, and you always will for as long as you live.” He consoles, instantly making the tears in your eyes heighten and your sobs continue.
“I-I d-don’t know what t-to-“ “Shhh, baby. Let it out, I’m here. I’m here.”
You let his voice console you in a warm blanket of love and comfort. You let his hands on your body and the sweetness of his voice lull you into peace.
No one gets you like he does, and no one ever will.
Imperfections & all.
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Ferris Wheel ✭
—(🎧)—> simple spring break talks with your boyfriend.
pairing - bf!jeongin ♥︎ fem!reader
genre - fluff
word count - 0.4K
warnings - nothing!
“Sometimes I wonder what it would’ve been like if I didn’t drop that pencil.” You say, mostly to yourself but also to the boy across from you.
“You would’ve have the love of your life.” Jeongin says, smirking in a way that always makes you laugh.
“Yeah yeah.” You roll your eyes. “I guess I’m lucky that cliche happened.”
Silence falls upon you two as the Ferris wheel you both were on climbs higher, the boardwalk of the beach filled with chatter and crowds.
Spring break, one of the few (and short) times you get to spend with your boyfriend. And what better way to spend that time than at the pier watching waves splash and stars glow.
“Have you ever thought about us.. ending?” He says suddenly, voice insecure. Your heart drops to your stomach.
“Uhm, are you trying to tell me something?” You respond, and he shoots his hands up and widens his fox like eyes.
“No no! My mind is just rambling, I swear! Sorry.” He exclaims, breath picking up in a nervous manner. You sigh and chuckle slightly, shaking your head no.
“Ha, your good, you just caught me off guard.” You take a deep breath in. “I’ve never thought about breaking up with you, but the thought of us ending has passed through my mind.”
The Ferris wheel reaches the highest point of the circle, pausing to let some people off at the very bottom. You look out the window, then back at him.
“I don’t like thinking about it though, it gives me this sick, nauseating feeling in my stomach.” You place your hand on the base of your tummy in example, blushing at the way Jeongin studies your face.
“Mhm. I feel the same way when I think about us ending too.” The Ferris wheel resumes motion. “I hate thinking about it because it makes me feel as if I’m being crushed by 1000 heavy weights that you always lift off my shoulders.”
The Ferris wheel stops once again.
“Well good thing you won’t ever have to worry about that.” You whisper as you grab his hands, massaging his calloused fingers in yours. “I love you.”
“I love you too baby.” He smiles as the Ferris wheel moves again, moving a steady pace down the peak of the cycle.
“Now how about we get some ice cream when we get down from here.” You suggest, squeezing his hands even tighter as you look at the gorgeous view around you.
“I like that a lot.”
I know I jump back in and out and don’t really interact between post but I have been SO busy so forgive me. You guys will see soon enough that I’m the happiest in summer and will absolutely be cooking up bangers
new story : Ferris Wheel
Ferris Wheel ✭
—(🎧)—> simple spring break talks with your boyfriend.
pairing - bf!jeongin ♥︎ fem!reader
genre - fluff
word count - 0.4K
warnings - nothing!
“Sometimes I wonder what it would’ve been like if I didn’t drop that pencil.” You say, mostly to yourself but also to the boy across from you.
“You would’ve have the love of your life.” Jeongin says, smirking in a way that always makes you laugh.
“Yeah yeah.” You roll your eyes. “I guess I’m lucky that cliche happened.”
Silence falls upon you two as the Ferris wheel you both were on climbs higher, the boardwalk of the beach filled with chatter and crowds.
Spring break, one of the few (and short) times you get to spend with your boyfriend. And what better way to spend that time than at the pier watching waves splash and stars glow.
“Have you ever thought about us.. ending?” He says suddenly, voice insecure. Your heart drops to your stomach.
“Uhm, are you trying to tell me something?” You respond, and he shoots his hands up and widens his fox like eyes.
“No no! My mind is just rambling, I swear! Sorry.” He exclaims, breath picking up in a nervous manner. You sigh and chuckle slightly, shaking your head no.
“Ha, your good, you just caught me off guard.” You take a deep breath in. “I’ve never thought about breaking up with you, but the thought of us ending has passed through my mind.”
The Ferris wheel reaches the highest point of the circle, pausing to let some people off at the very bottom. You look out the window, then back at him.
“I don’t like thinking about it though, it gives me this sick, nauseating feeling in my stomach.” You place your hand on the base of your tummy in example, blushing at the way Jeongin studies your face.
“Mhm. I feel the same way when I think about us ending too.” The Ferris wheel resumes motion. “I hate thinking about it because it makes me feel as if I’m being crushed by 1000 heavy weights that you always lift off my shoulders.”
The Ferris wheel stops once again.
“Well good thing you won’t ever have to worry about that.” You whisper as you grab his hands, massaging his calloused fingers in yours. “I love you.”
“I love you too baby.” He smiles as the Ferris wheel moves again, moving a steady pace down the peak of the cycle.
“Now how about we get some ice cream when we get down from here.” You suggest, squeezing his hands even tighter as you look at the gorgeous view around you.
“I like that a lot.”
mullet
something quick and cute (suggestive themes, fem reader, 344w)
“Christopher! You exclaim, running up to him after he returned back to the hotel after a concert. He was tired & sweaty, but he couldn’t help but smile at your warm welcome.
“Yes, baby?” He chuckles, studying the odd look in your eyes. Amazement, love, …lust? He can’t tell.
“Why didn’t you tell me you had a mullet!” You pout, pointing at little video of him dancing on your phone. You’re not pouting because you’re mad, but because he got a hairstyle so sexy and didn’t show it to you first!
“Oh, do you like it?” He blushes, running his pretty fingers through his hair.
“What do you mean do I like it? You look so sexy are you kidding me?” You respond, pushing him in his chest as he lets out a huge laugh.
“You seem very passionate about it, baby.” He smiles, pinching your cheeks and causing the pout on your lips to form even tighter.
“I am, you look so fine and stay got to see it before me!” You sigh, and he just chuckles again. He can’t explain how cute he finds you.
“They may have seen it before you did, but you’re the only one who gets to touch it.” He whispers, taking his hand from his side and grabbing yours, bringing to his hair and rubbing it.
“I g-guess you’re right.” You stutter, flustered. He picks up on this, smiling ear to ear.
“You know..” he says, bringing his lips down to your ear. “You’re also the only one who gets to do this.”
He locks his lips with yours at that moment, bringing his arms around to your side and enveloping you in his arms.
It’s the kind of kiss that takes your breath away, the kind that lingers in your mind for hours on end. The kind that screams “I love you.”
“Satisfied now, baby?” He says, looking at the mischievous glint forming in your eyes.
“No..” you say, pulling his head back down so that his lips ghost over yours.
“But I can be after this.”
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VALENTINES ✭
—(🎧)—> scenarios on skz & their valentine’s day with you
pairing -OT8 SKZ (seperate) ♥︎ fem!reader
genre - fluff
word count - 1.1k combined
warnings - sexual innuendos, 16+ advised. sorry if some parts are longer than others 🥲
CHAN
- gets veryyyy romantic
- takes a day off of work just so he can spoil you
- wakes you up around 07:00 am to breakfast in bed, doesn’t take thank you for an answer
- explains all the things he has planned as you munch away, blushing everytime you squeal at all his ideas
- ask you to wear something pretty for when he takes you out
- surprises you with a walk around the city
- just sits there and smiles as you step into different shops around the district, handing you his card when you need it
- takes you out for a rooftop dinner afterwards, it’s super romantic and he’s acting very flustered
- got you flowers for when you came back home too
- and the night was filled with, you know what ☺️
- let’s just say you were sore afterwards
LEE KNOW
- doesn’t make much of a big deal about it, kinda of wants it to be like any other day of loving you, just with a bit more sugar
- wakes you up sweetly, and plans to spend a day with you after work
- gets you a small bouquet of flowers on his way home, adds a heartfelt card to it aswell
- surprises you with it before tackling you and the cats to the couch to watch some cheesy romance movie
- gets distracted half way through and kinda just stares at you
- gets a little emotional when you read his card out loud, especially after he sees those pretty tears start to well up in your eyes
- tries not to let it show though
- definitely cooked you and him an amazing homemade dinner
- it’s a whole romantic display too with candles and dim lighting ☺️
- listens as you dump your mind onto him
- stares at you with stars in his eyes as you just go on and on and was his heart racing like this before??
- nice peaceful sleep
CHANGBIN
- barely gets any sleep prepping for valentines day
- buys everything the day before, and waits until you fall asleep to put everything up in the living room
- wakes you up sweetly with kisses and cuddles, definitely murmuring little “i love you”’s along the way
- gives you a card and bouquet right away, loving the look on your face when you see them
- downstairs is a romantic display of balloons and flowers, chocolate lays on the table in a cute heart shaped box
- super cute throughout the whole day, texting you little messages as he works
- takes you out for a surprise dinner that night, somewhere fancy and up high
- the dinner is romantic, filled with small and large confessions of love from him
HYUNJIN
- the most articulated of them all
- others plan for days but hyunjin plans for WEEKS
- literally right up his alley
- wakes you up all sweet, starting your day off with a long confession of love before getting up
- hyunjins plan was a scavenger hunt, leaving little notes of hints on where to go next across the apartment and having you find them
- each note had a small treat on it like a lollipop or a small love letter
- the final surprise is a display like chnagbins, filled with lots of chocolates
- the difference is changbins is more red, pink, and white whilst hyunjins is very dark red & sexy
- has you put on something comfortable but pretty at the same time as you two go out for a spa day
- honestly the most ideal date getting to lay their with your boyfriend with a face-mask on as you guys talk about nothing and everything at the same time
- can’t stop kissing you either
HAN
- actually very nervous to show you what he prepared
- thought what he was doing was too simple for you and got all timid
- whole time it was all you wanted
- basically planned out a little relaxation pod for after work in the living room
- little a pillow fort with snacks and heaps of blankets with a little basket of Disney cds to watch
- he thought it was simple, so he doesn’t really understand why you run up to him and start kissing his face saying I love you over and over again 😭
- also slipped a tiny love note in your back before you went to work for you to read there :((
- the pillow fort is so cute with perfect dim lighting and a romantic yet simple aroma
- you guys just sit there all warm and cuddly while watching Disney classics all night
- when you fall asleep he carries you to bed and tucks you in before wishing you good night 🥲
- whole time he couldn’t even sleep because all he could do was stay up thinking about you
FELIX
- do I even need to state that he home bakes you something?
- …and do I need to state that it’s heart shaped brownies?
- CANTTTT get off of you the entire day
- like we all know he’s very physical but he is rlly rlly fluffy today
- surprises you with your favorite flowers and a handmade card
- honestly just treats you like a princess
- gives you your own personal spa day filled with a massage and bathing you in a soap that he brought specifically for that day
- after that, it’s a handmade dinner thats displayed beautifully
- now he’s wondering what you’re crying for
- he sings you to sleep that night, singing various love songs because he knows you love his voice
- but you’re not allowed to go to sleep until he gives you an entire speech on how perfect and loved you are
SEUNGMIN
- sigh…
- my boys kinda akward
- didn’t know if he was supposed to ask you to be his valentine since you guys were already dating 😭
- he did anyways and best believe he was stuttering and blushing like a kid asking out their 5th grade crush
- on Valentine’s Day tho, he’s definitely more lovey dovey
- he’s kind of like Minho where he wants it to be like every other day just with a little more sugar
- his gift to you wasn’t anything physical or a card like the other guys were
- instead, it was him pulling out his guitar and singing a song that he had written about you that wasn’t released
- when I tell you it had the most beautiful lyricism and melody I’m not lying
- safe to say you cried
JEONGIN
- poor old Jeongin was the most nervous
- decided to do one of those basket things (like a boo basket or a burr basket but for valentines)
- filled it with a plush, chocolate, roses, perfume, lotion, etc
- he handed it to you blushing and everything
- stayed home while you went to work which was weird because he usually leaves before you
- but it all made sense when you came home to rose petals on the floor leading to the bedroom
- He didn’t mean for it to be sexual at first but it just turned out that way 😭
- you guys definitely do just cuddle tho
- he’s just staring at you so lovingly and pressing kisses all over your face
- in love
VALENTINES ✭
—(🎧)—> scenarios on skz & their valentine’s day with you
pairing -OT8 SKZ (seperate) ♥︎ fem!reader
genre - fluff
word count - 1.1k combined
warnings - sexual innuendos, 16+ advised. sorry if some parts are longer than others 🥲
CHAN
- gets veryyyy romantic
- takes a day off of work just so he can spoil you
- wakes you up around 07:00 am to breakfast in bed, doesn’t take thank you for an answer
- explains all the things he has planned as you munch away, blushing everytime you squeal at all his ideas
- ask you to wear something pretty for when he takes you out
- surprises you with a walk around the city
- just sits there and smiles as you step into different shops around the district, handing you his card when you need it
- takes you out for a rooftop dinner afterwards, it’s super romantic and he’s acting very flustered
- got you flowers for when you came back home too
- and the night was filled with, you know what ☺️
- let’s just say you were sore afterwards
LEE KNOW
- doesn’t make much of a big deal about it, kinda of wants it to be like any other day of loving you, just with a bit more sugar
- wakes you up sweetly, and plans to spend a day with you after work
- gets you a small bouquet of flowers on his way home, adds a heartfelt card to it aswell
- surprises you with it before tackling you and the cats to the couch to watch some cheesy romance movie
- gets distracted half way through and kinda just stares at you
- gets a little emotional when you read his card out loud, especially after he sees those pretty tears start to well up in your eyes
- tries not to let it show though
- definitely cooked you and him an amazing homemade dinner
- it’s a whole romantic display too with candles and dim lighting ☺️
- listens as you dump your mind onto him
- stares at you with stars in his eyes as you just go on and on and was his heart racing like this before??
- nice peaceful sleep
CHANGBIN
- barely gets any sleep prepping for valentines day
- buys everything the day before, and waits until you fall asleep to put everything up in the living room
- wakes you up sweetly with kisses and cuddles, definitely murmuring little “i love you”’s along the way
- gives you a card and bouquet right away, loving the look on your face when you see them
- downstairs is a romantic display of balloons and flowers, chocolate lays on the table in a cute heart shaped box
- super cute throughout the whole day, texting you little messages as he works
- takes you out for a surprise dinner that night, somewhere fancy and up high
- the dinner is romantic, filled with small and large confessions of love from him
HYUNJIN
- the most articulated of them all
- others plan for days but hyunjin plans for WEEKS
- literally right up his alley
- wakes you up all sweet, starting your day off with a long confession of love before getting up
- hyunjins plan was a scavenger hunt, leaving little notes of hints on where to go next across the apartment and having you find them
- each note had a small treat on it like a lollipop or a small love letter
- the final surprise is a display like chnagbins, filled with lots of chocolates
- the difference is changbins is more red, pink, and white whilst hyunjins is very dark red & sexy
- has you put on something comfortable but pretty at the same time as you two go out for a spa day
- honestly the most ideal date getting to lay their with your boyfriend with a face-mask on as you guys talk about nothing and everything at the same time
- can’t stop kissing you either
HAN
- actually very nervous to show you what he prepared
- thought what he was doing was too simple for you and got all timid
- whole time it was all you wanted
- basically planned out a little relaxation pod for after work in the living room
- little a pillow fort with snacks and heaps of blankets with a little basket of Disney cds to watch
- he thought it was simple, so he doesn’t really understand why you run up to him and start kissing his face saying I love you over and over again 😭
- also slipped a tiny love note in your back before you went to work for you to read there :((
- the pillow fort is so cute with perfect dim lighting and a romantic yet simple aroma
- you guys just sit there all warm and cuddly while watching Disney classics all night
- when you fall asleep he carries you to bed and tucks you in before wishing you good night 🥲
- whole time he couldn’t even sleep because all he could do was stay up thinking about you
FELIX
- do I even need to state that he home bakes you something?
- …and do I need to state that it’s heart shaped brownies?
- CANTTTT get off of you the entire day
- like we all know he’s very physical but he is rlly rlly fluffy today
- surprises you with your favorite flowers and a handmade card
- honestly just treats you like a princess
- gives you your own personal spa day filled with a massage and bathing you in a soap that he brought specifically for that day
- after that, it’s a handmade dinner thats displayed beautifully
- now he’s wondering what you’re crying for
- he sings you to sleep that night, singing various love songs because he knows you love his voice
- but you’re not allowed to go to sleep until he gives you an entire speech on how perfect and loved you are
SEUNGMIN
- sigh…
- my boys kinda akward
- didn’t know if he was supposed to ask you to be his valentine since you guys were already dating 😭
- he did anyways and best believe he was stuttering and blushing like a kid asking out their 5th grade crush
- on Valentine’s Day tho, he’s definitely more lovey dovey
- he’s kind of like Minho where he wants it to be like every other day just with a little more sugar
- his gift to you wasn’t anything physical or a card like the other guys were
- instead, it was him pulling out his guitar and singing a song that he had written about you that wasn’t released
- when I tell you it had the most beautiful lyricism and melody I’m not lying
- safe to say you cried
JEONGIN
- poor old Jeongin was the most nervous
- decided to do one of those basket things (like a boo basket or a burr basket but for valentines)
- filled it with a plush, chocolate, roses, perfume, lotion, etc
- he handed it to you blushing and everything
- stayed home while you went to work which was weird because he usually leaves before you
- but it all made sense when you came home to rose petals on the floor leading to the bedroom
- He didn’t mean for it to be sexual at first but it just turned out that way 😭
- you guys definitely do just cuddle tho
- he’s just staring at you so lovingly and pressing kisses all over your face
- in love
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winter ✭
—(🎧)—> when han realizes something’s wrong with you before you realize it yourself
pairing - newbf!han x fem!reader
genre - comfort, cheers to me failing a test !! ☻
word count - 0.8k
warnings - implied seasonal depression & post hiatus writing
Maybe it’s the winter air, maybe it’s the warmth of the beach being replaced with snow fall of small ice crystals in the sky. You don’t know, but it’s making you feel off.
It’s a feeling quite indescribable, but if there were a you could equate to it, it would be numbness. The source? No idea.
It always comes and goes during the cold, a shiver cold air radiating through your body as the feeling of winter does.
It’s hard to stick to a routine during the winter. Getting up at 7:00am, taking walks, exercising, drinking water? You can pretty much say those are all in the garbage.
The only sense of consistency left in your life is Han, and even that is a fairly recent addition. Knowing him isn’t, but kissing him and cuddling him? Yeah, that’s different.
It hurts so say the feeling doesn’t go away with him. It definitely gets lighter and fades away, but it’s still there lingering.
It could be school too, and you’ve already noticed the A’s slowly fading into B’s, into C’s, and slowly but surely, D’s.
To say it’s taking a toll on you would be an understatement.
< —— >
Fuck. No no no.
31% is what the computer screen infront of you reads. A final score for a critical quiz in your major class.
A buzzing starts in your head, one that rings your ears like a gong had just been hit next to them. One that is so heavy that it begins to blur your vision alongside the fresh hot tears in your eyes.
As if it couldn’t get worse, a faint knock is soon heard on the door of your college dorm room. You begrudgingly get up, groaning as you quickly shut your laptop and wipe the moisture from your eyes.
God I swear. I can’t deal with my roommates right n-
“Y/n? I’ve been wondering why you weren’t answering my text. It’s been days.”
Definitely not who you were expecting to be on the other side of the door.
“O-oh hi. Come in.” You usher, pointing him and softly closing the door behind him.
“I didn’t know it’s been that long, I’m sorry, Hannie.” You say half heartedly. You did genuinely feel bad, but you can’t muster up the energy.
You move to peck a small kiss on his lips, but he places his hands on your cheeks to stop you. He places his forehead on yours, eyes staring into yours as if he’s trying to read what your lips won’t give up.
“Is everything ok?”
You can feel a sting make its way through your body, but you ignore it. You have to ignore it.
“Yeah, I am. I promise I’ve just been b-“
“Baby, don’t lie to me. I’ve known you for long enough to know when you are. Please tell me what’s wrong.”
Maybe it’s the fact that it’s been building up for so long, or it’s the look on his face or the tone of his voice. Whatever it is, it’s coming out.
“I-I really don’t know. I’m sorry Han, I don’t even know what I’m feeling.” You choke, a feeling of helplessness escaping its way from your heart.
“It’s like everything that I’ve been working for is falling apart in front of me, and it’s scary.” By now, he’s already wrapped his strong arms around your body, enveloping you in a comforting scent of lavender and love.
“I know. I know it’s scary. But you want to know something?” He proposes, and you sniffle and look at him, eyes filled to the brim with sincerity.
“You’re doing so well. You’re so smart, so strong, so independent. It’s okay to take breaks, it’s ok to struggle. Especially, it’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to have moments where you feel like every thing is falling apart, but it’s important that you know it’s not.”
Have you ever felt a feeling like an immense weight being lifted off your shoulders? A feeling like a deep breath even though there’s no oxygen? If not, that’s surely what you’re feeling now.
“I love you. I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you.” You sniffle, scrubbing dripping tears off with your fist.
“Don’t say sorry. I forgive you. Forgive me for not coming sooner.” He says, rubbing the silk of your hair in a comforting manner.
“You have nothing to be forgiven about.” You mumble, clutching a fist onto his shirt where you hold yourself, still in the same area from where he had come in.
“Now you know how I feel when you keep saying sorry.” He teases, a small chuckle coming out as well. “Cmon, let’s get you something to eat and I’ll help you with anything you need.”
“Ok” you nod, following him as he opens and walks out the door of your room.
That’s what it will be. Everything will be okay when you have him.
winter ✭
—(🎧)—> when han realizes something’s wrong with you before you realize it yourself
pairing - newbf!han x fem!reader
genre - comfort, cheers to me failing a test !! ☻
word count - 0.8k
warnings - implied seasonal depression & post hiatus writing
Maybe it’s the winter air, maybe it’s the warmth of the beach being replaced with snow fall of small ice crystals in the sky. You don’t know, but it’s making you feel off.
It’s a feeling quite indescribable, but if there were a you could equate to it, it would be numbness. The source? No idea.
It always comes and goes during the cold, a shiver cold air radiating through your body as the feeling of winter does.
It’s hard to stick to a routine during the winter. Getting up at 7:00am, taking walks, exercising, drinking water? You can pretty much say those are all in the garbage.
The only sense of consistency left in your life is Han, and even that is a fairly recent addition. Knowing him isn’t, but kissing him and cuddling him? Yeah, that’s different.
It hurts so say the feeling doesn’t go away with him. It definitely gets lighter and fades away, but it’s still there lingering.
It could be school too, and you’ve already noticed the A’s slowly fading into B’s, into C’s, and slowly but surely, D’s.
To say it’s taking a toll on you would be an understatement.
< —— >
Fuck. No no no.
31% is what the computer screen infront of you reads. A final score for a critical quiz in your major class.
A buzzing starts in your head, one that rings your ears like a gong had just been hit next to them. One that is so heavy that it begins to blur your vision alongside the fresh hot tears in your eyes.
As if it couldn’t get worse, a faint knock is soon heard on the door of your college dorm room. You begrudgingly get up, groaning as you quickly shut your laptop and wipe the moisture from your eyes.
God I swear. I can’t deal with my roommates right n-
“Y/n? I’ve been wondering why you weren’t answering my text. It’s been days.”
Definitely not who you were expecting to be on the other side of the door.
“O-oh hi. Come in.” You usher, pointing him and softly closing the door behind him.
“I didn’t know it’s been that long, I’m sorry, Hannie.” You say half heartedly. You did genuinely feel bad, but you can’t muster up the energy.
You move to peck a small kiss on his lips, but he places his hands on your cheeks to stop you. He places his forehead on yours, eyes staring into yours as if he’s trying to read what your lips won’t give up.
“Is everything ok?”
You can feel a sting make its way through your body, but you ignore it. You have to ignore it.
“Yeah, I am. I promise I’ve just been b-“
“Baby, don’t lie to me. I’ve known you for long enough to know when you are. Please tell me what’s wrong.”
Maybe it’s the fact that it’s been building up for so long, or it’s the look on his face or the tone of his voice. Whatever it is, it’s coming out.
“I-I really don’t know. I’m sorry Han, I don’t even know what I’m feeling.” You choke, a feeling of helplessness escaping its way from your heart.
“It’s like everything that I’ve been working for is falling apart in front of me, and it’s scary.” By now, he’s already wrapped his strong arms around your body, enveloping you in a comforting scent of lavender and love.
“I know. I know it’s scary. But you want to know something?” He proposes, and you sniffle and look at him, eyes filled to the brim with sincerity.
“You’re doing so well. You’re so smart, so strong, so independent. It’s okay to take breaks, it’s ok to struggle. Especially, it’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to have moments where you feel like every thing is falling apart, but it’s important that you know it’s not.”
Have you ever felt a feeling like an immense weight being lifted off your shoulders? A feeling like a deep breath even though there’s no oxygen? If not, that’s surely what you’re feeling now.
“I love you. I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you.” You sniffle, scrubbing dripping tears off with your fist.
“Don’t say sorry. I forgive you. Forgive me for not coming sooner.” He says, rubbing the silk of your hair in a comforting manner.
“You have nothing to be forgiven about.” You mumble, clutching a fist onto his shirt where you hold yourself, still in the same area from where he had come in.
“Now you know how I feel when you keep saying sorry.” He teases, a small chuckle coming out as well. “Cmon, let’s get you something to eat and I’ll help you with anything you need.”
“Ok” you nod, following him as he opens and walks out the door of your room.
That’s what it will be. Everything will be okay when you have him.
Reblogged
untitled 01. ✭
—(🎧)—> a relaxing day with your knight in shining armor
pairing - knight!bf!felix x princess!fem!reader
genre - royal au, fluff
word count - 0.6k
warnings - nothing! (im trying to sharpen my writing skills again after hiatus, pls be patient 🥲)
“You know you’re free to be at ease, right?” You ask the knight in shining armor next to you, also known as your boyfriend.
“I know, but we’ve just arrived. I want to check out the area first.” He responds, walking around the large summer house with his sword drawn out.
“Whatever you say, Felix.” You sigh, following him around and he checks every nook and cranny of the rooms.
It’s been forever since you’ve been here, to carried up in all your “princess duties” to find a time to relax. You usually only come here in the summer, but to be honest, you desperately needed a break.
Your bodyguard, Felix, followed you of course, he follows you where ever you go. It’s a relationship nobody knows about, and it must stay that way.
It’s highly illegal as you could imagine. Forbidden more so than any type of royal relationship ever is. A low paid bodyguard with an elegant, looked up to princess just doesn’t check out.
If your mother or father ever found out, no doubt you would be punished. Even worse is what could happen to Felix if it ever leaked. Let’s just say he wouldn’t be alive for much longer.
It’s hard to get you and him time because of all the restrictions, so a break in a beautiful, isolated house is just perfect for a time with as much stress as this.
“Are you done?” You ponder, gazing at Felix’s eyes that scan up and down every crevice of the courtyard.
“Now I am.” He grinned, looking back at you before taking off his helmet. “I’ve missed you so much.”
“Yeah yeah me too.” You teased, wrapping your arms around the boys head, rustling your fingers in his silky, platinum blonde hair. “May the princess get a kiss?”
He chuckles, throwing his head back as his hands make their way around your waist. When he looks back at you, his eyes are sparkling with love.
“Yes she may.”
He presses his lips on yours and it’s like you evaporate. It’s so easy to fall in love with him all over again when he kisses you, especially when it feels like every little stresser, every little public eye is gone.
“Mhm. Let me go get the bags.” He trails off, pulling his lips away from yours.
“Hey, let me do something.” You pout, releasing him from your hold. He giggles a little bit, shifting his position from where he’s standing.
“Ah ah your majesty. You just sit there and look pretty and I’ll be right back.” You groan in response but he just laughs again before walking away.
He comes back swiftly, placing down all scattered bags of luggage and bags before sitting down next to you on the couch.
You lay your legs over his, scooting your body closer to his to cuddle him. He hums in return, wrapping this arms across your body.
“You know I love you right?” You randomly ask, planting your face on his hard, shiny armor he never took off.
“I do. You know I love you too right?” He asks back, looking you in your eyes.
“Of course I do.” You whisper, bringing your head to his. “I’ll show you too.”
You connect your lips with his, and it’s that same feeling all over again.
The feeling of weightlessness, knowing your free from the responsibilities and duties of wearing the tiara even for a little bit is worth it.
And you know it’s all because of him that you can feel this way.
untitled 01. ✭
—(🎧)—> a relaxing day with your knight in shining armor
pairing - knight!bf!felix x princess!fem!reader
genre - royal au, fluff
word count - 0.6k
warnings - nothing! (im trying to sharpen my writing skills again after hiatus, pls be patient 🥲)
“You know you’re free to be at ease, right?” You ask the knight in shining armor next to you, also known as your boyfriend.
“I know, but we’ve just arrived. I want to check out the area first.” He responds, walking around the large summer house with his sword drawn out.
“Whatever you say, Felix.” You sigh, following him around and he checks every nook and cranny of the rooms.
It’s been forever since you’ve been here, to carried up in all your “princess duties” to find a time to relax. You usually only come here in the summer, but to be honest, you desperately needed a break.
Your bodyguard, Felix, followed you of course, he follows you where ever you go. It’s a relationship nobody knows about, and it must stay that way.
It’s highly illegal as you could imagine. Forbidden more so than any type of royal relationship ever is. A low paid bodyguard with an elegant, looked up to princess just doesn’t check out.
If your mother or father ever found out, no doubt you would be punished. Even worse is what could happen to Felix if it ever leaked. Let’s just say he wouldn’t be alive for much longer.
It’s hard to get you and him time because of all the restrictions, so a break in a beautiful, isolated house is just perfect for a time with as much stress as this.
“Are you done?” You ponder, gazing at Felix’s eyes that scan up and down every crevice of the courtyard.
“Now I am.” He grinned, looking back at you before taking off his helmet. “I’ve missed you so much.”
“Yeah yeah me too.” You teased, wrapping your arms around the boys head, rustling your fingers in his silky, platinum blonde hair. “May the princess get a kiss?”
He chuckles, throwing his head back as his hands make their way around your waist. When he looks back at you, his eyes are sparkling with love.
“Yes she may.”
He presses his lips on yours and it’s like you evaporate. It’s so easy to fall in love with him all over again when he kisses you, especially when it feels like every little stresser, every little public eye is gone.
“Mhm. Let me go get the bags.” He trails off, pulling his lips away from yours.
“Hey, let me do something.” You pout, releasing him from your hold. He giggles a little bit, shifting his position from where he’s standing.
“Ah ah your majesty. You just sit there and look pretty and I’ll be right back.” You groan in response but he just laughs again before walking away.
He comes back swiftly, placing down all scattered bags of luggage and bags before sitting down next to you on the couch.
You lay your legs over his, scooting your body closer to his to cuddle him. He hums in return, wrapping this arms across your body.
“You know I love you right?” You randomly ask, planting your face on his hard, shiny armor he never took off.
“I do. You know I love you too right?” He asks back, looking you in your eyes.
“Of course I do.” You whisper, bringing your head to his. “I’ll show you too.”
You connect your lips with his, and it’s that same feeling all over again.
The feeling of weightlessness, knowing your free from the responsibilities and duties of wearing the tiara even for a little bit is worth it.
And you know it’s all because of him that you can feel this way.