there is but one difference between us

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⊱ JESTER — 20 YRS ⊹ SE/HIR ⊹ FILIPINO ⊹ ARTIST/WRITER

FAVORITE CHARACTERS // IN NO ORDER ⊹ CAPS ULT FAV

* I HAVE ONLY READ SVSSS, NOT YET MXTX'S OTHER WORKS! PLEASE REFRAIN FROM SPOILERS :'D

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feel free to talk to me! whether it's here or discord (datastate), i promise i don't bite :P i'm just here to be a little sicko in my corner of the world, really... <3

also! though i'll tag certain relationships for archival reasons, i'm not really too invested in any particular romantic pairs - with only a handful of exceptions, where even then, i tend to favor characters' general dynamics! they're much more fun to me :]

i am also open to requests! though i ask for patience, as i am disabled and it often leaves my energy for drawing/writing sparse 🫶

so i read scum villain on archive.org, as you do. the singular downside to this is that i didn't get chapter names. do you know how deeply it's killing me to realize "former affection is lost forever" is chapter 79's title.

ID: A stick figure on their hands and knees, covered in blood and crying. END ID.

well my emotions have been thoroughly destroyed. i'm going to channel this into my fics now

book 3, pg. 301

lines that make you throw your phone out of the window

THANK YOU... IT IS AN AILMENT, I FEAR.

truly the only way to shift out of yqy mode is to listen to alamat's aswang (ningmingling). but watch out. next thing you know, ily ily comes on and they hit you with the siak pay lang iti mangaywan kadakayo amamin which is like. well what if i died and took yqy with me.

every time i get to the maigu ridge sequence it just hurts on so many levels. hi. holds your hand. it's a fucking hall of mirrors in here. tlj and lbh both, when told they were loved, their first instinct is to ask that it's true, that it's said and shown from the heart. lbh's pleas for someone in this life to choose him; sj's belief no one has ever chosen him. yqy reflecting upon the truth of sxy & tlj's tale, using wu chen's exact phrasing in how pitiless the world is that they were apart as qi & jiu died. the amount of regret yqy holds for not being impulsive when he should've been, to save sqq these past several years; and sqq himself, these past several years, having rarely given in to allowing his (perceived) vulnerabilities -- how neither of them feel they've proven how much they care abt their chosen person through this restraint they've held themselves to. xuan su and its reflection of xin mo's parasitic nature; xin mo's forceful manner in which it complies with its user's "wish" and hangs as a threat even when unused as a direct parallel to the system. it's so much. it's so much.

(wip) part of a comic i'll probably cut ? unless i'm struck by divine visions. put yqy in his personal hell 🫶

lowkey i keep forgetting sv is explicit in nature. it's literally fine if i post tits out yqy and use the basic tags for organization 😭

i should draw mqf in their proper peak lord attire + hairdo... but i'malready falling back asleep. melts into the sea

it's hard being a meiyin/qingqi fan. not for any real reason, but rather just because writing madam meiyin is difficult. qi qingqi's heart broke several times over in the fallout before it steeled over. meiyin thinks the divorce is a sex thing and has been edged for 20 years.

had such a weird nightmare hello? why am i the plane pilot all of a sudden! i didn't ask to witness sqq dramatically letting go of binghe for the millionth time to retrieve his "good luck charm" (lbh vc: i'm your good luck charm! little does he know it was a system mishap(?)) literally minutes before the plane takes off. can you two chill. the people on the intercom are yelling at me for not moving the damn plane. binghe he's left. he's gone. jump out of a window and find his next flight if you're so inclined. this one’s gotta get out of the way or else i'm making traffic back up. yes, yes, thank you for making me vomit up blood violently. can we take off now. well fuck.

i did get a chance to leave a few comments though so :3 day successful. i think i will be tempted into a nap now lol