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UU spoilers//rant (?) So, I like, ninety ninety percenteo believe the director is future!parrot and this just hit me like a few seconds ago... Wifies in his discord has briefly hinted towards the fact that he voices the director, right? So what if the director(future parrot) has his voicechanger as a screwed up ver of wifies' voice cuz he also very dearly misses his timelines wifies. And keeping that voicechanger keeps him from forgetting his wifies' voice. and what if the armor is his wifies' armor. yeah so what if Future!parrot director has to kill every parrots wifies. he has to see himself lose wifies again and again. "I killed him because I had to." do you still miss him. though.

Pangi’s type in best friends is suicidal guys

Princezam (princezam), Pili (clownpierce fight), and Lukey (never wears a helmet, hamster mentality)

I keep thinking about tr!Pangi and tr!Zam because those two creatures currently infected my brain and don't want to go away. But I especially keep thinking about the slightly silly but nonetheless important moment of when Glip Glorp wanted to give tr!Zam "Reality Check :3" and tr!Pangi firstly kept insisting he doesn't know what is he on about (and muting to tell chat "I know exactly what he is talking about, nit doing that") and tr!Zam got geniuenly confused because of course she had no clue what on Earth that was.

And once she was told what it is she was like "I think Pangi should keep it I didn't know Pili 1".

And I think I took psychic damage because oh my god. Reality check is in fact a powerful battleaxe and tr!Zam could do with a better weapon (albeit the Pretty Kitty Princess sword is already a start) but she realises how much it means to tr!Pangi instantly and just refuses.

They are creatures in my brain and I keep spinning that interaction because it means so much to me. They get each other, they will try to do right by each other, it will end badly as it always does.

It's also really interesting how part of trRos and trAimsey's argument with trBad and trLukey tonight came down to "Well, (tr)Pili wasn't actually doing anything to Pangi today", with the exact phrase, "he wasn't teasing Pangi" being thrown around

But like. Pili was. He very much was

Anyone who's been paying any bit of attention to Pangi's pov since early February knows that he and Pili 2 have a very tense relationship. It started with stalking on Pangi's part, and then he gave up on the idea of Pili 1/Mocha being back about when Pili 2 started engaging in psychological warfare and abuse against him

Pangi killed Pili 2 over Pili destroying part of the book that Mocha left him. After that, Pili started to retaliate by making Pangi as miserable as humanly possible; moreso, I'd say that Pili's objective, speaking as a Pangi viewer myself, kinda was to make Pangi look as absolutely just batshit insane to the rest of the server

For weeks now, Pili has been trying to get Pangi's friends away from him. Started with Bad, but that was given up on pretty quickly. Tried Lukey, but the Power of Yaoi stands strong (Pili 1's ghost didn't exactly help though lol.) Krow was never an option, especially since it heard Pili try and force Pangi to go on a date with him. Moves on to Ros, joins Yellow Faction, easily convinces Sneeg and Co. that Pangi and Green are huge risks

All the while, he's been psychologically abusing Pangi by at first taunting him over Mocha's death, going so far as to say that the reason Mocha died was because he killed himself over Pangi. But then he moved on to the whole Remove Friends thing as mentioned above

Add in the whole 'Keeps Getting Possessed By Mocha And Stuff' thing that nobody from Yellow happens to ever see, and it really just sounds like Pangi is completely deranged

And then, after Pangi kills him, Pili goes one step further. He brings in one of Pangi's friends from another realm- Pangi's best friend, who he always speaks fondly of, and he takes him to the ball that he knows he is going to die at. He knows that bringing Zam will get him killed, because he and Pangi just know each other, and he makes a point of rubbing it in Pangi's face all night by the simple act of being on a date with Pangi's best friend

And, guess what happens? Pili dies. He gets his wish. And Zam wants revenge against Pangi, he wants to grind and get strong and teach Pangi a lesson, and now Pangi's lost one more friend to Pili 2

So, yes, Pili 2 did tease Pangi all night. It just so happens that, as usual, the only people who noticed were on the team that nobody trusts or listens to. And Scott Smajor

Just as it's been for the past month, Pili 2 tormented Pangi, and his final living act was ensuring that the rest of Pangi's life would be miserable. He's lost Ros and Aimsey. He can't go back to his own home without the threat of getting a mace to the skull. He can't go to the Lab to be with his teammates, isolating him even further

Pili 2 was Pangi's version of Owen to Ros. The difference is that people cheered when Ros killed her abuser; all Pangi gets is a lifetime of misery, exactly what Pili thought he deserved

/rp (Assume unless otherwise names mean characters)

I gotta be a shooter for Pangi, so here's an essay of reasons I think Ros and Aimsey need to swallow their pride and get the fuck over themselves when it comes to the POST BALL kill. In general chronological order not importance, very unorganized

1) apparently something that ros and aimsey pov watchers forget is that THE WHOLE TWENTY YEARS that they were in the Null, Pangi had NIGHTMARES about Pili2 because Pili2 had been harassing him and leaving signs saying things like "I ALWAYS COME BACK" around Pangi's house, messing with his grief over Pili1. Pangi has been LOST since Pili1 died, and he was fully already crashing out over Pili1's death because Pili2 was rubbing it in his face that Pili1 was gone, and Pili2 made this whole show of bringing Pangi into their white void room to do this whole "Pili1 is never coming back and it's not healthy for you to try to find a replacement for him in me" BEFORE the signs. Pangi even after returning from the Null had a moment of wishing he was BACK IN THE NULL because he heard Pili2 was on his way. The Keepers even sent him back briefly, further traumatizing Pangi.

This huge manipulation and psychological tactics are why Ros almost vetoed Pili joining yellow, and Ros even said that to Pili and Foolish, and Pili exploitly asked if Ros would put Pangi's trauma from Pili above the Kingdom and Foolish convinced her to give Pili a chance. it's not something they weren't told. they knew this and acted on this for like a week, then Ros started becoming friends with Pili, and Aimsey was always on Ros's side about it.

And I say ros and aimsey viewers forget because I literally was dming an aimsey PoV watcher and they COMPLETELY didn't know and thought I was saying Lukey has nightmares about Ros at first. Like, fully they didn't remember. Same shock came for the next point.

2) Aimsey and Ros weren't the greatest to Pangi in the Null. That's just a fact. Ros is less to blame for this given the way the Null affected her, but Aimsey was consistently physically aggressive to Pangi to get what they wanted, even if it was as small as 5 minutes on an ipad. Aimsey would even be threatening to Ros over the time in the Null, but Aimsey admitted to literally physically hitting Pangi until he gave them what they wanted. Ros on the otherhand would shut down, and Aimsey would use that as a chance to speak for Ros.

Sure, maybe it was coming from a place of care for Ros, but still, it's clear from their return that Aimsey basically assigned himself as Ros's orderly and therefore voice. Ros was never speaking up against Aimsey's aggression, again, because she got fucked up, but that doesn't change that for TWENTY YEARS, which is MORE THAN HALF OF HIS MEMORY, Pangi was alone in a void with the person who would beat him to get what they wanted and someone who didn't protect him from that.

Frankly, I need more people to realize that he owes them JACK SHIT and that his bond with them isn't because they were kind to him. Aimsey literally abused him, they are literally traumabonded. Thats the foundation of Pangi's loyalty to them. (If ccs didn't intend that, they should reassess themselves, being physically abused for 20 years over an Ipad is still abuse in minecraft rp and if they're gonna be upset about labeling yellow a cult when they spout culty shit like how they believe Foolish is king of everyone and everything he says is gospel even if youre not yellow etc then they gotta take this and either retcon or not joke about abusing people in character multiple times)

3) Lukey has literally done NOTHING to Ros. Her ONLY gripe is she HEARD his VOICE, not that he said anything to her or to the keepers specifically, her only justification is "he might be working with the keepers" WHILE SHE HOSTS A SECOND BALL WITH THE KEEPERS AS COHOSTS BECAUSE SHE'S WORKING WITH THEM TO FIX HER SICKNESS and we ALREADY KNOW WHAT THE KEEPERS ARE AND WHAT THEYRE TRYING TO DO.

We know what project outworlder is, they've admitted that they don't know what's happening anymore, the outworlders KNOW FIRST HAND that the keepers are innocent because ROS AND AIMSEY BOTH HEARD THE GODS CORRUPTING THE PLACE AND KNOW THAT THE KEEPERS HAVE ONLY BEEN TRYING TO BE FREED. SO WHAT if Lukey is working with the Keepers, you literally made a contract with them the day before the ball.

Bek openly works with the Keepers more than Lukey does (from what I know). They literally go to her as their mediator when they want to give people information and Tubbo can command them and they listen to him. But she's not scared of Tubbo or Bek, she's just VIOLENT to Lukey.

Worse than that, AIMSEY HAS LITERALLY WORKING WITH THE KEEPERS WITHOUT TELLING ROS! AIMSEY HIMSELF was EXPERIMENTING with the CORRUPTION with the Keepers behind Ros's back. The fact that Aimsey is validating this violence towards Lukey over something they themself did is so incredibly hypocritical. I don't know if Aimsey has even since told Ros, but he HAS told Foolish now.

Honestly, this is why I think they both want to make their violence to Lukey irrelevant, even though it matters very deeply to Pangi and they know that. Because they know that it's either unfounded or they themselves are guilty or they're friends with people they shouldn't be if that is their standard, and they don't want to admit it.

4) Pangi only invited Lukey because Ros let Pili, then Ros tried to kill Lukey and uses Pangi inviting Lukey as a reason to distrust him, and LIED about it.

As soon as Pangi's gone the first time after finding out what happened, Ros is giggly about how she tried to have Lukey killed and said it was her feeling silly and feeling like she should be allowed to just murder for no reason "like everyone else".

Then she admits her fault more when Pangi comes knowing the full story from Lukey, and then still pretends she had no intent. Even later when Lukey and Bad and Tubbo and Pili are there, she literally says she never expressed intent for him to die WHEN SHE HAS KILLED HIM MULTIPLE TIMES AND TOLD SNEEG TO "GO FOR LUKEY"

Aimsey and Ros act like that is irrelevant and say so, but again, they got so mad when Pangi killed Pili before when Pili ACTUALLY HARASSED HIM and Lukey did NOTHING except OFFER TO NOT GO and LEFT IN PEACE when he got his answer. They befriended and accomodated when it came to Pili, and yet when it came to Pangi, they were behind killing Lukey and lying to Pangi about it, and then when that didn't go over well with Pangi and he expressed it hurt because not only was she being hypocritical, but she lied to him, Ros went to PILI2 OF ALL PEOPLE and said all this stuff about how Lukey is just CRYING and Pangi is believing him. PILI2 IS WHO ROS TOLD THIS NEGATIVE STUFF ABOUT PANGI TO

5) Its starting to piss me off that people think both a) ros is allowed to kill lukey because his voice is familiar and that's it and b) pangi is out of line for killing Pili AFTER a ball meant to help Ros's time sickness because PANGI ALSO HAS TIME SICKNESS RELATED TO SPECIFICALLY HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH PILI

PANGIS BODY IS STILL BEING CORRUPTED AFTER HIS STAY IN THE NULL, WHERE IS HIS HELP?! Ros isn't the only one who was taken from that ball, and EVERYTHING surrounding the second ball hurt Pangi. From Pili2's involvement, to the Lukey invites, to the Zam invite, the ball was always explicitly a "only ros's trauma matters today and you have to suck it up and we're going to actively disregard your shared trauma because we care about ros" event. Honestly, good for him for getting his own good ending to the ball once he upheld his promise to Aimsey.

6) as I've just referenced, yes he promised to not ruin the ball, but Pangi's promise pertained to DURING the Ball, not after it. Aimsey literally sat Pangi down and said they weren't even asking as a friend anymore but because Pangi is seen as destructive and angry, but to let Ros have the ball.

Literally, Aimsey's verbatim words are "Im not saying this to you as a friend, its you pangi." and "Feel free to do whatever you want after." (Also, tr!Aimsey in that exchange pissed me off because what the fuck do you mean "tell me now so I'm not disappointed when it happens" "I can't handle more disappointment"? Fuck off??? Shit you hear in bridgerton fanfics from the mother of the male love interest)

He told Aimsey that he only planned to do anything if they started something, and Aimsey said "Well, that's retaliation, that's fine." and she said "Maybe do it after" HE DIDN'T BREAK ANY PROMISE!!! He literally even told Aimsey he was bringing his minigun. (unrelated but the next thing in Pangi's vod after telling aimsey about the minigun and aimsey flying off is hilariously unintended foreshadowing because it's bek coming to yell at him for killing kyle eff in the library and not waiting for him and Tubbo to go outside to do it and then she runs off yelling without letting Pangi get a word in edgewise lmao)

The people who asked him to wait longer were THE KEEPERS. yKnow... the people that ROS KILLED LUKEY OVER BEING POTENTIALLY WORKING WITH. Fr, it's starting to piss me off to even see that screenshot of that message. Like, I don't even have more to say to that except the fact that working with them is a crime worthy of death, but not listening to them means he betrayed Ros? Just make it make sense for a second, please.

7) It seems like, despite all of the research Aimsey is doing, they don't realize the corruption and Maddening effects applies to her friend who's being corrupted by his stay in the Null who has a purple infection similar to how the warden infection starts, who has been obsessed over by someone obessed with corruption who is essentially confirmed to be suffering from the Maddening. The fact that Aimsey and Ros have given up their concern the longer Pili2 was driving Pangi crazy while they had to have watched that infection start to spread in the Null is crazy. They were wearing tattered clothes, Pangi couldn't hide it. Aimsey of all people should be incredibly concerned with that, he should understand that Pili2 is only serving to advance Pangi's Maddening and that if he lashes out at Pili2, that's either a symptom or incredibly necessary. Imagine if Pangi becomes fully possessed by the corruption now that Pili2 is gone and no longer all pink and glowy from corruption. That would certainly be attributable to Pili2's harassment.

8) For posterity, I have to also add that Ros said to Pangi she wasn't hosting last minute, after designing and inviting and building the event and being the reason for the ball happening in the first place and spent time talking to Keepers about it, which is why I disregard it in the above arguments, but I have to say it now because who did Ros tell Pangi was co-hosting the ball with Foolish? None other than Pili.

So, in Pangis POV, Ros essentially conned Pangi into attending a ball hosted by the person messing with him psychologically for Ros's benefit and she tried to kill the one person who is still on his side when it comes to Pili because Lukey offered to not go to make her comfortable, and then they put him in a dark maze like in Null, which he would've been put through ALONE if Ros hadn't changed her mind and invited everyone in green. Pili would've stuck him in 5 separate dark rooms he couldn't escape from, ALONE, while Zam, his best friend, was with Pili.

I really don't get why they went with a blindness void maze for the ball, but Ros liked it? so good for her? but idk, I just think you gotta also consider that part of the whole hosting arrangement and the pretenses Pangi was invited under and then how he was sent from the Ballroom to a VOID MAZE by PILI2 AND THE KEEPERS and Aimsey and Ros saw 0 issue with that and didn't think Pangi would be reactive about Pili once that had happened??? That's fucked.

I could go on about the other factors of how important Lukey is to Pangi and why and how much they've been harassing Lukey separate from just lying to Pangi and being hypocritical about it and I could list everything they ignore that's in Lukey's defense and everything about that, but even if you write off Lukey's chance at being a good person, what I'm left with is they didn't respect Pangi even before the kill, he upheld his promise, and the only reasons anyone is arguing with that are they think Pangi should obey the keepers and see them as speaking for Aimsey and Ros, or they're downplaying psychological abuse when, if we look back to the Maddening, that's literally exactly what is most dangerous for the realm as a whole because of the corruption that CREATED THE NULL AND THE TIME SICKNESS IN THE FIRST PLACE. The Realm will become the Null if the corruption takes over, that's literally what happened to make the first Null. That's why Aimsey is a living corpse and eating sculk with Sneeg. And all Aimsey and Ros defenders can say is "But the ball was for ros :(((". Sorry, but putting trauma on hold because the person who beat you up for 20 years asked you to is nigh impossible and really shitty to expect, and he still upheld his promise.

Fin.

If you got to the end of this, you're a real one <3

i can't stop thinking about honey badgers right now. or ever. like i can't stop thinking about pangi joining yellow with clown and then switching to green with bad because he was by himself and pangi thought that was unfair. and how that completely changed the course of the entire server. i rewatched the vod, and he stands there quietly while everyone else boos bad, and hesitates for a minute before he goes up on stage and switches factions. bad is still calling him pangee, but pangi says "badboyhalo, we can do this together." and they do it together, alone, for a really long time. but they do it together. in that first stream pangi says "i didn't expect to do this," but it's the first of many things that he'll do for bad.

clown was the only person in that room pangi knew btw. and he still chose to help bad. and after they all run off, clown comes over to the two of them to check on him. does anyone even gaf. and then i was also thinking about how clown's original plan was to betray the kingdom, and he probably would've joined pangi and bad. and then he changed his mind, and that was both the first and last time he checked on pangi. i'm really normal about that too

every stream, pangi has acted in ways that make me think back to lifesteal more and more. so for My Stupid Silly Theory.

being in the null for so long, or the corruption that's made a home in him is the reason for that. he's slowly remembering where he comes from, especially now that derapchu is here. derapchu's lore is basically he crossed realms from lifesteal to find pangi lol.

because for a long time, pangi didn't even make references to lifesteal. it was a gradual thing, after the books made other servers canon. then, when derapchu arrived it became full lifesteal refs.

and after that, princezam became canon to the realm as well. which btw, princezam in the realm, please!!! he's such a silly lore guy.

sneeg said he would totally join lifesteal if they asked him to thats awesome

goat thanks so much. <3

Hrgh in a delulu Realm mood today…

I’d really like at some point for Pangi to be reset, and on terrible or neutral terms with anyone other than Bad, Lukey or any other people he finds happiness with these days.

Like this guy has had no good days in forever, he’s gonna come back wrong. I wanna see Pangi’s friendship book being lore relevant, I want him to erase the entries of all the people he doesn’t trust and come back clutching that book.

I want him to forget every person who he erased on that book and use it as a basis of who he considers a friend. No one is trusted until their names gets on that thing. It fits his ideal of seeing people as separate from their factions I think. I really do wanna see what kinds of new relationships are gonna spring from something like this…

Oh and if he gets corrupted he should give himself purple eyes and bring back the sunglasses so the reveal will be cool.

Ok folding this up and burning it with incense please whoever is listening fulfill my super self indulgent wishlist 🙏🙏🙏

Ya know… what happens to infected body parts when a player dies? Does it infect the soul that’s trapped inside before they are born anew? Would their eyes come back gleaming with purple sheen instead of deep blue? Eyes are the windows of the soul after all.

in those twenty four hours, the corruption has plenty of space and time to worm it's way into pangi btw. :eye: i'm jusssttt saasyiiiinggggg... i'm also curious how much of pangi as we see him today is influenced by the corruption. like, his kill count has only gone up and up lately. whether it's because of pili2, the corruption, or a mix of both?

corrupted pangi may just try to void the server. :D

pangi has two hands... also two legs... and a tail.

I don’t really go to The Realm but as a sidelines Green Faction supporter and apologist, I think Yellow Zam or at least Kingdom-allied Zam is by far the most fun option and I really hope she decides to join with them despite their (largely inactive) numbers advantage. Zam may be more similar in ideology to Bad and Pangi than, like, Sneeg and even Ros, but I think that’s why he’d be much more fun as an enemy rather than an ally. Green needs a Yellow member who’s both active and physically powerful enough to be an actual opponent to them who’s willing to ‘yes-and’ them with their shit stirring and right now they don’t really have that! Ros is active and willing to play along with their conflicts but she’s only threatening to weaker players and wouldn’t be able to face off with Pangi or Bad. Foolish plays along, but he’s also weaker and not as active. Sneeg is active and strong but he doesn’t play along particularly well. Clown is never logging in again. Zam, if she grinds, would be the perfect sort of person to fill that role and properly let them cause problems and give that same energy back in kind. Zam likes to yap but he also likes to fight and I think one of the big points of frustration from Green fans towards Yellow is that there’s no one on that side willing to fully commit to both when Bad or Pangi tries to initiate anything and I think adding Zam to their same side would just cause more frustration with the different approaches each faction has to conflict. Zam fighting against Bad and Pangi sounds infinitely more fun to me than Zam fighting against Ros and Sneeg.

Plus!! I think the energy Zam brings would be really good for Yellow! Like Zam is so good for morale and he handles losses and frustration insanely well, I think having her around to be silly and earnest would do wonders for Sneeg specifically. He needs another funny lifestealer. And I’ve seen a lot of people talking about wanting Ros to have someone who will support her murderous tendencies without justifying them and I could totally see Zam being like that for her like Zam got mocked for being mr morals on S4 of Lifesteal but she has Always been comfortable not being the ‘good guy’ and I think her attitude of doing what she thinks is right without caring if that makes her good or bad would be a really really really good perspective for Ros to have around like they could be so much fun. Girls night where they beat Lukey to a pulp (again) and do not feel bad about it

Hrgh in a delulu Realm mood today…

I’d really like at some point for Pangi to be reset, and on terrible or neutral terms with anyone other than Bad, Lukey or any other people he finds happiness with these days.

Like this guy has had no good days in forever, he’s gonna come back wrong. I wanna see Pangi’s friendship book being lore relevant, I want him to erase the entries of all the people he doesn’t trust and come back clutching that book.

I want him to forget every person who he erased on that book and use it as a basis of who he considers a friend. No one is trusted until their names gets on that thing. It fits his ideal of seeing people as separate from their factions I think. I really do wanna see what kinds of new relationships are gonna spring from something like this…

Oh and if he gets corrupted he should give himself purple eyes and bring back the sunglasses so the reveal will be cool.

Ok folding this up and burning it with incense please whoever is listening fulfill my super self indulgent wishlist 🙏🙏🙏